For this chapter I figured I'd try something different. This chapter it is more like Jessa writing in her Journal, on how she feels about everything. Hope you like it.

'3 weeks had past since I wrote in this little book and a couple things had happened, everyone know about Jax and I being engaged, Juice and I have someone who is going to buy our house so we have to move out soon and we decided our wedding date. It was going to be in 5 months, on Saturday, October 2nd.

We haven't really done anything to plan it yet, but I was okay with that. All that really matters to me for my wedding was my dress, that family is there and that we were all going to have fun. Gemma wants to take me to get my wedding dress, so were going to do that in a couple weeks. Jax told me he wants to wear a pimp suit for our wedding, Gemma heard that and start yelling at him. It was pretty funny, of course Jax told Gemma he was just joking.

Abel is almost 7 months old, which is unbelievable. He gets cuter and cuter everyday, and is a spitting image of Jax. He could deny him if he wanted too. But then again, who would wanna deny Abel? Yesterday he called me 'Mama' I have to say I was excited about that. His first word was 'Dada' and he knows exactly who his 'Dada' is, every time he sees Jax his says it. It makes me smile to see Jax with Abel. He is an amazing dad.

I fall more in love with Jax everyday, he is my everything. He always has been. He is my rock and my entire world. From the time we were nine and he carried me into his house (of course, he couldn't really carry me) because I scrapped my knee till now. I don't know what I'd do without him. There are no words to describe how I feel about him. I feel so safe when I'm with him, I feel like no one can hurt me. And when I'm in his arms, there is no place in this world I'd rather be.

I miss my parents so much. I wish they were here to see everything going on in my life. My mom always said she didn't want me marrying anyone, except Jax. She got what she wanted =) And my dad, it was always my dream to have him walk me down the aisle, but I just keep telling myself 'everything happens for a reason'.

Moving on to Thomas. I wonder what he'd be like today. He was definitely the one to always make you laugh when we were younger. I have a picture of Jax and I holding him when he first came home from the hospital. My mom always took tons of pictures, and now, I'm glad she did.

Juice's turn. What to say about Juice? He his my BESTFRIEND. He is the one I went to when Jax and Tara were together and I didn't know where to turn to. From our 2am Chinese food orders to him almost catching the house on fire because he put foil in the microwave. He always makes me laugh. I'm glad for him and DanI. Things have been going great for them. She's even talking about moving to Charming because they miss each other so much. And their weekend vacations to see each other aren't enough. I really do hope everything goes well for them. Who knows? Maybe one day Juice will be getting married too.

Now for Kip "Half Sack" Epps. He is a character. I feel bad for him sometimes, with the way the guys treat him. But he should know that they would do anything to keep him safe and wouldn't put him in harms way on purpose. What can I say? I love Kip. Things between him and Cherry are working out great. I have my finger crossed it stays like this.

For Opie? He is someone with the biggest heart. He is one of the most caring guys you will ever meet. Him and Jax were my 'protectors' growing up. They would let anyone touch me. Opie is my big brother. He told me things are going a lot better between him and Ellie, which is good. And Kenny, well he always loved his dad.

The rest of the guys are my family. They are some of the greatest guys you could ever meet. Well, that it, if your on their good side.

As for Clay and Gemma. Clay is like another dad to me. I'm going to ask him to walk me down the aisle. He's done so much for me. So has Gemma. They have done more for me than I could ever ask for. Gemma is one of the strongest and most opinionated woman you will ever meet.

I will always love this family, I have that I'm not even biologically related too. But that doesn't matter in this lifestyle. All that matters is that were there for each other. No matter what.

I hope you liked it! Thanks for all the reviews and please review again!