Chapter 9:

Hana

I walked into the kitchen and buttered my toast. Throwing on some vegemite I also got myself a cup of hot chocolate. I walked to the chair and sat down to eat my breakfast in silence.

Well, before I heard the sounds of Jax walking into the kitchen yawning. He glanced me up and down, trying to stifle a yawn.

"You're up early, Hana. Did you get any sleep?" Jax asked me sleepily. Pouring himself a cup as well. He took a sip and frowned. He looked in my direction and put the cup down on the bench and sat beside me, still frowning.

"Since when do you get up this early and drink a hot chocolate and not coffee?"

I turned to face him, mid bite of my toast so I swallowed. I smiled.

"Since I started running and that I have decided to be healthier, so I'm trying to eliminate bad habits such as over drinking caffeine. Maybe you should too. You drink more coffee then I ever did," I replied, taking another bite of toast. Jax shook his head, trying to hide his smile.

"You have been running? But it's six in the morning Hana. Jesus Christ. Since when have you started running and drinking chocolate?"

I swallowed and turned back to face my plate and thought to myself, since I learnt that you were cheating on me. Instead I shrugged my shoulders for an answer.

I finished eating breakfast and drinking the now lukewarm chocolate. I walked to the sink all the way Jax still watching me as I start to clean the breakfast dishes.

"Hana, are you still mad with me?"

I turned the water off and wiped my hands on the tea towel beside me, pretending I didn't hear what he said. I turned to reach the cup and nearly walked straight into Jax as he had snuck up behind me.

"Hana?" His voice a question.

"Idon'tkmowJax" I mumbled. I moved around him and I heard a frustrated sigh come out of Jax's lips.

"Hana… I don't even understand you… Next your cold, then you're hot! What is it? Jesus Christ you need to give a guy warning which one you'll be! So that he knows whether to wear a jacket or a bloody singlet!"

He stopped me from going to the sink and took the cup from me carefully and I let him, looking at my feet.

"Why won't you look at me Hana?"

I looked up and glared at him, and he took a slight step back. Shock filled his features and I smiled.

"I'm the hot and cold one, am I? Is that so? Well, should be easy for the feelings of anger I feel to cool right off so you can get exactly what you want, right? Because that's what you want? For me to forgive you and all to be swell."

Jax stepped forward and grabbed me by the shoulders, hard.

"That's what I want…? Is that what you think? That…. Yes I want things to be the same and no I can't take what I did back. Don't you think I don't know that Hana! No matter what I do, I always tend to remind myself exactly what I did!"

His hands dug into my light shirt and he started to lightly shake me but stopped. He let me go and sat at the chair again. Pulling a hand through his hair he sighed.

"You had me look after your sons while you cheated on me with my best friend. And you want me to be ok with that. As long as you get it your way, every other person's feelings don't count because the famous Jax Teller has done it again and hurt somebody again" I snapped angrily, getting Jax to stand up again.

"You think I don't care about your feelings..? You're more delusional than I thought!" He snapped back at me angrily. I shook my head at him angrily, not wanting anything to do with this conversation. I turned around and started to walk back towards the bedroom.

"Hana!" Jax yelled angrily, ignoring him I slammed the bedroom door shut. Facing my back to the door I sat on the ground. The tears fell down onto my shirt all the way down to the floor. Outside I heard his bike screech down the road. Angrily I thought to myself, fine, you don't have to prove that it's true. I already know that you were with her that night. The one night that you were supposed to be home to look after me and the two boys. Jesus Christ, you suggested it to yourself. If you weren't home, it was Tigs, or one of the other members ever since my birthday party…. When I lost. But now? Since her…. I'm lucky if someone remembers that yes I am still around, by myself.

I wiped my tears away angrily, how stupid do you have to be Hana Night? How stupid do you have to continue to be? They aren't any closer of catching Daniel. So why are you even here when he treats you this way.

Then I do something I only do when I am alone and I know that I won't get interrupted. I touch my stomach. I felt a tiny kick under my hand and smiled softly, knowing that no man was ever going to protect my child as much as I would.

*I will post more tomorrow, so stay tuned. Please review. How is it going? Do you like how Hana and Jax is reaching that point like in all relationships that could make or break them? Because I have watched all the Sons and in every relationship Jax is in, there is always something that could either cause them to stay together or break them. In this fan fiction I wanted to do that too. So, as always, the fun is only just starting…*

~Nymeria