"What are you doing here?" Lucas asked.
"She came here apologize about what had happened." Peyton answered for her.
"Hi Lucas, my name is Victoria." She put out her hand but Lucas just stared at it.
"We don't' need your apologies." He said as he walked past her.
"Lucas." Peyton mumbled. "This has taken her a lot to come over here."
"Well I'm sorry you made the trip, but it was worthless because like I said, we don't 'need your apologies."
Victoria was obviously hurt as she walked to the door.
"Actually I needed it, and i think it was very brave of her to come over here. I respect it very much and it has given me a better perspective of things."
"A better perspective of things? On what how her psycho daughter almost killed us?"
There was a silence.
"I should go." Victoria said embarrassed.
"See ya." Lucas waved nonchalantly and walked to the fridge.
"I'm so sorry about this." Peyton whispered to Victoria as she left.
Peyton shut the door and walked straight up to Lucas. "Okay well that was just rude." She snapped at him.
"Rude? You sabotage me with her here and you are saying I'm rude?"
"I didn't sabotage you Lucas, she came over her unannounced but i made the best of it. She is hurting too."
"Oh yea I bet." He laughed cruelly.
"Brooke was her daughter Lucas! Dammit what the hell is wrong with you? Her daughter was the best thing in her life and look what she became, look what she did!"
"What you want me to feel sorry for her?"
"I want you feel something!" Peyton cried. "You haven't been the same ever since that day! "
"Can you fucking blame me Peyton? Look what happened to me, look what I've been through.'
Lucas was starting to shake and Peyton, even though she felt horrible, she was sieving mad.
"What you've been through? Lucas I've tried to be patient with you, I thought you would have gotten better i thought you would be strong enough to come through this but I think you need something more then my moral support. You aren't' the only one that went though something horrible."
"So you were all there when she beat me and tied me up and tried to kill me?" He snapped
"No but I was there when she set me up. I was there when she turned you and your family against me. I was there when she had the gun pointed at us."
Lucas was silent.
"What you forgot? You forgot she kidnapped your niece and nephew? You forgot that I was set up and you believed it! Did you forget that you completely cut me out?!"
"No, Peyton I'm sorry but.."
"But nothing! You went through something horrible Lucas no doubt about that but so did we! So did I! Now it time for you to stop sulking and do something about it, you feel bad? Well then do something to try and make yourself feel better."
"I can't."
"Dammit!" She screamed and picked up the nearest item which was a coffee mug and threw it against the wall causing it to shatter.
"Peyton." He yelled, shocked.
"Yes you can! Lucas you are strong and you can do it. Don't let this psychotic bitch ruin our marriage. She game dangerously close last time, please don't let it happen again. Please don't let her ruin you." She cried
"I'm trying Peyton okay, I'm trying."
"No you aren't. You are feeling sorry for yourself. You have to want to get better, and you have to want to get past this. And you have to let me help you. I'm sorry if this sounds so selfish but... but..."
She broke down in sobs.
"What is it Pey?"
"But what about me? I was the one who was shut out from the family. I was the one in jail. i was the one that no one believed when I was looking for you. I have nightmares about you being burned alive, and I can't help you. I just…. I see you being taken away and I cant' do anything. Then I have nightmares about her stealing the kids again, and everyone thinking it was I, and you leaving me! I have nightmares about me living and dying alone in a jail cell."
She broke of by sobbing once more.
"Peyton." He walked over to her but she pushed him off.
"I've been trying so hard Lucas. I want to be there for you I do, but I can barely be there for myself. I am scared to Lucas. I've been trying to help you but you just... you don't want my help."
"I do baby, I do. It's just hard. It's just so hard."
"I know." She cried out loud. "I know."
"Things will get better, we'll fix this okay?"
She didn't answer; she just let him pull her in and rested her head on his shoulder. He was making her feel safe again, he was holding her close and whispering in her ear that it was going to be okay. He was rocking her back and forth and she rested all her problems on him. It had been so long since she felt safe with him and she couldn't' help but smile, it had been so long, but it felt so good.