Disclaimer: Wishing I did own Twilight.

So, do you guys hate me now from the previous chapter?):

Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
When I know in my heart it's not you

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should've never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should've never thought of you!
I knew, I know in my heart it's not you
I know, but now I know what I want! I want! I want!
Oh no! I should've never thought!

I Caught Myself, by Paramore

Chapter 34

Edward stared at me, his expression blank, scaring me a bit. "Really?" He said abruptly, his eyes flickering to Alice. She nodded solemnly. He probably read her mind..

"Put me down Alice, please?" I said, as Alice carefully put me on my feet. She held my shoulders as I swayed slightly. I glanced down and smiled when I had shoes on, "Can I talk to you, alone?" I asked Edward, shrugging Alice's hand slowly.

Edward nodded at me and motioned to the door towards Alice. "No, not here!" I objected, stopping Alice in her tracks. "I want to go talk in the woods" I added in a small voice.

Alice and Edward exchanged worried looks, "Will you be able to walk, darling?" Edward questioned, worriedly.

"Of course I can walk.." I snorted, cautiously walking to the door. "Oomph.." I tripped over my own feet, sending me all the way to the ground. "Stupid clumsy genes" I grumbled, feeling Edward's hands picking me up.

He positioned me back on my feet, leaving his arm around my shoulder, to support me. "This is very unnecessary" I hissed, as he practically dragged me out of the room. Then we saw our next problem. The stairs.

"Do I have permission to carry you down?" He asked, chuckling at his own humor.

"Did you know the people who laugh at their own jokes are lame, especially if no one else is laughing?" I retorted, "And yes, you have permission to carry me down the stairs"

Edward rolled his eyes and with a swift movement, he was carrying me bridal style. "I'm not enjoying this.." I mumbled angrily, as he descended down the stairs smoothly. As soon as we reached the first floor, he set me back down, but kept his arm around me.

He dragged me once again, out the door and across the driveway. All the way into the woods. Leaning against him I started speaking, "Why didn't you believed me that I was your daughter, even though you knew?" I inquired, both suspiciously and sadly.

There was a long pause as I looked up at his calm face. "Because, your like a duplicate of Bella. I didn't allow myself to get close to you nor believe you, because if anything happened to you, It would pain me. The same way it pained me when something ever happened to Bella" He continued, "I also knew that vampires couldn't have any children, but from the moment I saw you, when you were 3, I knew you were mine. Both mine and Bella's" He sighed, "I know my actions have caused you problems physically and emotionally"

"Don't forget mentally.." I added in a whisper.

"Yes, and mentally. I restrained myself from believing you were mine. 'Cause if Bella didn't want me to know, then there had to be a good reason. So I avoided you at all cost and if you tried acknowledging me, then I would do something drastic and make you angry with me. I'm sorry, but that was the only way to make you stay away" He glanced down at my blank face, staring ahead. He continued, knowing I wasn't going to cry. Yet. "But, just like your mother, your a danger magnet. And I couldn't stay away, unless I wanted you killed. Eventually, I gave in and accepted you, even though I accepted you a long time ago. Does that answer your question?"

I grinded my teeth, "Yep, and I have another one" Edward stayed silent, jamming his hand into his pocket. I took a deep breath and queried gravely, "What are you going to do about Gemma's death?"

I heard him grind his teeth together, but his face didn't give anything away. "It's nothing that concerns you, so please don't worry about it" He smiled down at me reassuringly. Something was different about him. His eyes. They were a golden color, instead of that dark shade.

"I have a right to know," I hissed, "Since Mom did blame me for her death."

Edward's eyebrows furrowed, "You have a good point.." He mused, "Alright then. Well, we are going to wait until someone finds her body. Carlisle is brewing up a solution at the moment. No need to strain yourself about her death, alright?" He explained, patting my head. "Now, why don't you leave the questions for tomorrow, let's get back" He steered me carefully, to the direction of the house. I had two more important ones, I just had to at least ask one.

"Whatever" I sighed, "Can I ask you another questiont, it'll be my last promise" He pursed his lips like he would regret it, but nodded anyway. "Um... Why did you leave my mom?" I questioned cautiously. I watched emotions flicker across his face speedily, first regret (definitely), pain, sadness, anger, but pain again.

Before he could open his mouth to say anything a furious shout interrupted him. "Stay away from me Mutt!"

My eyes grew wide as realization hit me. "My vision" I croaked, snatching Edward's hand. "Come one we have to stop them!" I cried, pulling on his hand.

"What, Stop who?" Edward demanded, not moving an inch.

"Come please! I can't let Natasha die!" I screamed, agonizingly. Edward's mouth turned into an 'o', shock overcoming his features.

"Come on!" I yelled, letting go of his icy hand and dashed away. Despite the dizzy feeling, I darted towards the pungent smell. I could hear Edward catching up, as I took a sharp turn. I stopped dead in my tracks as I saw Natasha and Bella facing each other in a foggy clearing.

"No can do, I'm doing this for someone special.." Natasha retorted, her fists clenching. She crouched low, Bella following her every move. A growl escaped from both of them, as I stared at them. Paralyzed, I didn't know what to do to stop them.

Natasha began to lunge at Bella, "NO!" I screamed, and Natasha's head whipped my way.

"Melody?" She breathed, but before I knew it, Bella was on top of her. A sickening sound of cracking bones filling my ears. The snapping and growling began, fulfilling the fear that this vision would come true.

"Edward do something!" I shrieked, feeling him whip by me. I watched in terror as he leapt at Bella and tackled her away from Natasha. Bella screamed in protest as Edward locked her hands behind her back.

"That'll teach you dogs to mess with me" She snarled, glaring at the unmoving body that layed feets away from me.

Tears welled up in my eyes. She can't be dead, she can't be. If she was it would be all MY fault.