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Ben's Note of Sheer Awesome: Hi guys! I'm feeling it again! I might drop off the face of the Earth here during Christmas, but don't worry, I'll update when I can! Now then, things are back to normal… but something hasn't been solved yet. A certain specific thing that drove Kitty to near suicide in the first place. This arc will cover that little thing. But enough of that.
KCL: I'm sorry you've been having it rough. I just failed another exam (geez, my schoolwork is suffering) so I'm with you in having a bad time. I'm sure things will work out for you. Most things just take time to heal. Until then, you have me to talk to! *realizes he's useless* Yeah, I didn't think that sentence through. Ah well. This might make you happy though. I don't think Bunny/Alistair is canon yet. It's hinted, but I don't think it is. However, Daring/Lizzie is canon (no!), so I think that cancels out the good feels. Anyway, enough of me being depressing. Hope you enjoy the chapter!
Oh yeah, one more thing. This arc takes place during the Spring time. So we've jumped about three months ahead from where we were last. Also, renovations have happened to the school to install elevators. Why is that remotely important? You'll just have to see!
Prompt 36: Angst
Kitty didn't like feeling angst.
It had been about three months since she began her session with Giles Grimm. She had been doing better, her mind healing every time she went. However, sometimes when she went, she would feel a sense of dread and depression. What if she would relapse? What if she came close to killing herself again? She hated feeling that dread, which she talked to Giles about.
"It's the worry of becoming something you almost became," Giles had told her. "You worry about coming close to hurting your mother and Alistair again. That is why you feel the dread. You angst because you're worried. How do you overcome that? You just live. That's the only cure there could be."
Giles' advice worked most of the time. Kitty was able to push off the feelings of angst most of the time and remember that she had people who loved her. Alistair was there most of the time, making her replace the angst with the feelings of love.
Alice was there for her too. After talking to Headmaster Grimm, Alice got a job as counselor. Whenever Giles was busy attending something, Kitty would go talk to Alice. She found it embarrassing sometimes, seeing Alice was her boyfriend's mother. She wasn't nearly embarrassed as Alistair though, which made her giggle most of the time.
But as Kitty and Alistair both walked toward the elevator that led to Giles Gimm's office, she felt the angst differently. A sense of dread came to her, but not because she was afraid of what she would become. She felt as if something bad was going to happen.
"You alright Kitty? Your hair's standing on end," Alistair said. Kitty jumped a little at the shock, but smiled. Alistair agreed to walk her to Giles' office every day, which she was grateful for. She might have been recovered, but she still didn't fully trust herself to be alone.
"It's nothing," she said. "Just one of those feelings. Nothing wrong."
Alistair nodded with a smile. "Alright then," he said. They approached the elevator and Kitty hit the down arrow. As they entered the elevator, Kitty couldn't shake the angst. That feeling of dread stayed with her as she hit the button for Giles' office. She should have listened to her gut.
BN: I'm so bad aren't I? Sorry, I love cliffhangers! So long as they end, of course. Anyway, this was just to establish that things are indeed getting back to normal, but Kitty still has those feelings festering inside of her. Anyone would, I bet. I know I still feel the repercussions of the stupid mistake I almost made a year or two ago. I feel how Kitty feels. However, things do get better, and I wanted to show that too. (Also, Alice is here for the obvious reason. I need her for not only laughs when she embarrasses Alistair with naked baby pictures, but for Maddie.)
Sorry it's shorter than normal. I'm not feeling very inspired and all my failures are biting me in the butt. I'll update after I do a few retakes and am feeling good about myself, mmkay? (You know, this might be the perfect mood to write a Sins For Love chapter, so keep an eye out for that sometime today!)
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