Santana's POV
"Babe" Ashley called out as she entered our apartment.
"In the kitchen" I replied. Ashley soon came into the kitchen giving me a kiss on her arrival.
"How was your day?" she asks.
"Oh you know same old shit different day" she nods along. "How about you?"
"It was good actually; work is going pretty great at the moment" Im glad that she enjoys her job. Ashley works as a fashion buyer, she selects what items will be stocked in the store based on her predictions of what will be popular with shoppers. She started off as working in retail behind the counter and on the shop floor. One day I walked into topshop in Soho and Ashley came up to me and told me I would look great in one of the dresses they had and it all went from there. Soon we started dating and when she told me she wasn't happy working on the shop floor I suggested she go further into fashion and maybe she can see where it gets her.
"That's great babe" I smile at her. "So im about to start dinner is there anything you fancy?"
"Didn't I tell you?" I give her a confused look, tell me what? "Were going out for dinner"
"Were going out? Since when?"
"Since a couple days ago, sorry babe I must of forgot to tell you. Alex told me that he asked Quinn out again but she seemed a bit sceptical to say yes to him so I offered that we would come along to as a double date kind of thing"
"Are you kidding me?" I sigh. "I don't want to go to that"
I seriously don't, seeing Quinn just fucks up my mind right now. One minute im in my little bubble with Ashley and then the next I see Quinn and then I fall into the mind set of my 18 year old self that's madly in love with her.
"Come on San, if not do this for me do it for Quinn" she pleads.
Im sorry? Do this for Quinn?
"What are you talking about?
"We need to help Quinn find someone" she states. No we fucking don't.
"Why do we need to do that?" I ask her.
"Because she asked me to help her"
She what? I feel like someone just slapped me in the face after hearing that.
"Why?" I painfully ask her but right now im not sure I even want to know the answer.
"She said it's time for her to move on, so she asked me if I knew anyone I could set her up with"
Fuck. I didn't want to know that.
"Move on from what?"
"That part she didn't tell me" I think I know. "But yeah anyway, were going out so you better get ready" she says with a stern face which I know to follow by when I see that face so she basically uses it whenever she wants something.
I sigh and walk off towards the bedroom to get changed. I walk out 20 minutes later ready to leave; Ashley is already dressed as well. We hail a taxi to the restaurant.
When we get there I notice we are the first to arrive so we grab a table and get a drink waiting for the others and waiting for what possibly could be one of the worst nights I'll ever have to endure.
About five minutes later I see Quinn and Alex walk in, I can't help but shift my gaze to their joined hands. I don't like it, I don't like seeing her with another person. That's selfish I know because she has to see me with Ashley but I hate seeing Quinn with another person and I definitely don't like the fact that Alex has his arm around Quinn's shoulders when they are sat down. It all just brings me back to my high school self-dealing with Mr Schue and his obsession with Quinn.
"Good Evening everyone my name is David and I'll be your waiter this evening, are there any drinks that I can get you?"
"I'll have a beer please" Alex says first. "What about you babe?" he turns to Quinn. Now I feel like im going to be sick. I clench my jaw together, all I want to do is beat the living shit out of him for calling her that. She's not his.
"Um yes I'll have a glass of the Pinot please" she smiles politely at the waiter.
"I'll have the same" Ashley says next.
I think im going to need something stronger than wine tonight.
"Scotch on the rocks" with that the waiter walks away but as I say my drink I hear Alex chuckle.
"Something funny Alex" I glare at him.
He looks uncomfortable under my gaze, good.
"Ummm nope, just not the type of drink I expected a girl to order" I says nervously.
"Well sorry not to live up to your stereotypical representation of females but I live in the real world where every single girl doesn't have to bow down to what society thinks is 'acceptable' for us to do"
He looks taken back at my response and im fucking glad I've knocked the smirk of his face.
"Okay" Ashley breaks the tension.
"How have you been Quinn? I haven't seen you since the lunch last week" Ashley says.
"Yeah sorry I've just been busy I guess. I actually got an interview for a new job" Quinn speaks back.
"Oh really? Where?"
"At NYU. They have a position open for a English lecturer"
"You're teaching again?" I blurt out.
Quinn's eyes shift over to mine where she locks on tight and stares deeply. I know she hasn't taught since, well since back in Lima when our relationship went public and she got fired.
"Yeah" she says.
"Good for you Q" I smile at her. She loves teaching and she loves English. I used to watch her in class, she used to speak so passionately about the subject and all of its interpretations. I hated that I was the reason that she couldn't do that anymore but to here that she's doing it again it really does make me happy because I know it will make her happy.
"Thanks" she smiles back.
I remove my gaze from hers and move over to look at Ashley she has a confused look on her face. Thankfully before she can say anything the waiter comes back with all of our drinks. As soon as he hands over mine I take a big swig to calm my nerves and well to calm my anger at Alex for the evening.
"So what can I get you to eat?"
We all order and the waiter goes off again.
"So you two" Ashley says to Quinn and Alex. "How is everything going?" she hints.
I look to Quinn. I want to hear what she says about this, instead it's not her that says anything it's Alex that pipes up as he places his hand over the top of Quinn's. Quinn takes her gaze of me for a second to look down at her covered hand and then back up to my eyes.
"It's great" Alex grins. I wish I could wipe that grin of his face.
"Good" Ashley says back to him.
Shortly after, our food arrives. Throughout the rest of the meal small talk is made. However Alex does initiate contact with Quinn whenever he can, whether it's an arm over the shoulder or hand on Quinn's hand its always something. He never leaves her alone.
We all walk outside at the end of the meal, somehow Ashley convinced me to pay the bill which I was not happy about as Alex ordered the most expensive thing on the menu.
"So Quinn would you like to go for drinks now, a couple friends of mine invited me out if you're interested?" Alex asks her.
Please say no, please say no.
"Sorry but I think I'm just going to go home, I'm a bit tired, but you go" She replies.
He contemplates it for a moment but in the end he accepts that he's going to go.
"Alright then, I'll call you later?" He says and she just nods.
He leans in slowly towards her. I don't like where this is going. Quinn looks nervous, and as he gets right in front of her face he leans in and places a kiss on her lips. Its short but it's there and I can't unsee what I've just seen.
He moves back off and Whispers a bye to her and then walks off in the other direction. Quinn slowly walks towards where me and Ashley are waiting.
"Get it Q" Ashley winks at her.
Quinn moves her head down in embarrassment. I don't have anything to say right now. Actually that's a lie I have a lot to say im just not sure it would be the best for everyone to hear it.
"I think im gonna get going" Quinn says.
"You sure?" Ashley asks her and Quinn nods again. With that Quinn says her goodbyes and walks off to get a cab back to her place.
"Let's go home" I say to Ashley.
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We get home two hours later after stopping at a bar to have one last drink. I still can't switch my mind of Quinn. Every time I see her she just takes over my thoughts. I need to do something about this.
"Hey babe" I shout to Ashley.
"Yeah?"
"I just an emergency text of Puck saying he needs to see me"
"Oh really? What's going on?"
"Im not sure but im going to go round and see if he's okay"
"Sure thing babe, let me know if he's alright"
I nod at her and give her a small kiss on my way out of the door.
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Quinn's POV
Well that meal was horribly awkward. To have Santana sit there staring at me deeply when I have Alex's arm over my shoulder. The kiss at the end was the worst though, it's not like I could just back away from it. By the time I registered that he was leaning in to kiss me I had no room to back out.
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK…
Who the hell is knocking at my door at 11pm?
I move off from the couch to the door to open it. As I see who it is it just reminds me of the last time she visited.
"What are you doing here Santana?"
"I… Can I come in?" I stare at her for a moment before I move to the side and let her in. I close the door and turn around to face her.
"Why are you here?"
"I can't stop thinking about you"
I sigh at this. Why does she keep doing this to me?
"You know you shouldn't say that to someone who isn't your fiancé" I say back to her.
"Do you not think I know that? Do you really think I want to be here? That I wouldn't rather be at home with my fiancé? Do you think I like lying to her? Because I really fucking don't Quinn. I hate whenever im around you all I can think about is how much I love you and how much I want you. I hate it because im engaged but most of all I hate it because im engaged to someone who isn't you"
"What do you want me to say Santana? I asked you to leave her and be with me, but you couldn't do it, you couldn't leave her! Do you think it's nice for me to watch the two of you together? It hurts me so much because I love you so much."
She has a sad look on her face like she's conflicted, like she wants to make everything better but doesn't know how.
"I don't know what to do Quinn. I don't know how to deal with all of this. It pained me so much to here from Ashley that you want her to set you up with some people because 'it's time to move on' to move on from me."
"What am I supposed to do? Sit around while you get married and just be lonely forever because if I can't have you im supposed to not have anyone?"
"I want you to have me" she says in a quiet voice.
"You can't just say things like that to me anymore"
"I wish it was you. I wish it was you who I was getting married to. I used to have dreams of it, you walking down the aisle to me in a beautiful white dress. Me and you getting married at the beach, just a small ceremony standing in front of the ones who mean the most to us. We'd speak our vows telling each other how much we love each other. Then we'd have amazing mind blowing sex to celebrate our marriage, start it off the best way. But after all the celebrations are over we'd have the marriage best of all. Every morning the first face I see when I wake up would be you and everyday I'd come home to you. If I had a bad day at work I know that as soon as I see you that bad mood would turn into a good one. I want a life with you Quinn, just you no one else. I want to make it work with you, show you that you're perfect. That you're worth being someone's first choice. I want to take you out and show you off. Kiss you anytime I want. Hold you when you need me. I haven't wanted something as bad as I want you. Me and you Quinn. It won't be perfect but I promise you I want to make this work because you're worth it."
The tears are falling from my eyes. The way she said all of that, she said it like she really means it. She really wants us.
"Do you really mean that?"
She nods at me.
I can't take it anymore.
I move forward and connect our lips. They move against each other like our lips were made to be fitted together. I'll never get over at how her kiss takes my breath away. This kiss is everything right now, our love for each other is portrayed through this kiss.
The kiss takes us to the bedroom where we continue to show our love for one another. We don't say much but throughout the kisses and the touches we exchange a numerous amount of 'I love you's'