Chapter 37

Lie or truth?

AN: Hello, hello! I am back! Finally! Gosh, its finally term break and I just consumed too much chocolate…. How long since I last updated? Like Weeks?! I am soooo sorry guys! I tried to find a free time for me to update but unfortunately school stuff is too much for me. And hey, I'm back to normal yeah? Anyways, let's get to the chapter! Yahoo~ oh and this chapter will contain a little self-talking and some depression. I just felt like writing some depressing stories okay?

"(Name)… do you actually… love me?" Arthur asked, looking straight into (Name)'s eyes.

"What are you saying? O-of course…." (Name) trailed off and looked down to the plate she was holding. 'Do… I love him? Will I by lying if I say I love him? What? What's happening? Why am I thinking this?'

(Name) just froze. Her hands began to tremble as she put the plate on the table roughly and turned around.

"Of course I do," she forced up a smile and walked away.

Yes, she decided to go with that first. She still loved Arthur right? Yes, of course she does. Its what she would like to think at least. Its not like she really doesn't love him anymore…. Right? (Name) shook her head and sighed. She walked over the dining table and sat down on the chair weakly.

"Hey, what's up? You look rather down, libeling," Gilbert asked in a concerned tone.

"No, I'm alright. Just a little headache s'all…" (Name) smiled and shook her head.

"Gilbert, a word please," Arthur said curtly, passing by a irritated Gilbert.

Gilbert stood up and followed Arthur nonetheless. (Name) could hear a door close and some muffled voices. She would rather not think about what they were talking about and just stayed quiet. Allistor and Dylan blinked and laughed nervously.

"Heh, don't mind that idiot, (name)," Allistor waved his hand dismissively. "He always takes everything too seriously."

"I'm going back up…" Dylan said.

"If you need anything, we'll be upstairs okay?" Allistor smiled at (Name).

(Name) nodded a little as the two brothers stood up and left the dining room. (Name) shifted her gaze to the door Arthur had brought Gilbert to. She knew exactly what the two boys were talking about. She pursed her lips as she began to think if she should go inside and interrupt their conversation… she didn't want them to fight because of her.

"Well, serves you right! I'm more awesome and I deserve to have her love me more than you!" (Name)'s eyes widened when she heard the muffled voice from Gilbert.

'They're arguing… I should… stop them…' (Name) stood up and slowly approached the room.

And then as if someone was behind her, she heard someone… no, herself say something that made her gasp and freeze.

"Really? You want to stop them? You didn't thought of how Arthur would give up and back off? I mean, its not like he's your favourite prince charming anymore right?" (Name) heard herself speak.

"No! I never had favourites anyways!" (Name) denied and shook her head.

"Hm? You don't remember? You loved Arthur so much… used to anyways… Let's see… You always go 'doki doki' you know? Like that typical manga stuff? When you're with Arthur but do you feel it now?" The 'other' side of (Name) asked.

(Name) couldn't answer. She really didn't know the real answer. Deep down there she did know the answer it was just that she didn't want to accept the truth. Scared. Yes, she was scared. She was scared that Arthur would hate her. Despise her. Sure, she liked Arthur but maybe it was true that she doesn't love him. Or even, she never had….

(Name) snapped out of her trance when she heard a snap of fingers. She blinked repeatedly and focused her gaze on the person in front of her. It was Arthur who was furrowing his brows and had his hands on his hips.

"Where did you go? You spaced out for quiet some time there, (Name)…"

"Huh? Oh, I'm sorry I was just uh, spacing out," (Name) laughed nervously. "I-I'm going to take a shower…"

Without letting Arthur speak, (Name) quickly scurried to the bathroom, slamming the door loudly. She brought her hand to her eyes as she sighed loudly. She lazily went to the shower to turn on the hot water before going to the sink and faced the mirror.

"I'm such an idiot…" she chuckled and shook her head. "I can't even tell who I like… Heh, liking two men at the same time… that's plain weird. Isn't there only one 'Mr. Right'?"

'(Name), apparently you are an idiot. Why can't you just accept the fact that you only like one of them? And you do know who that is….' She hated that thought but it was true. 'But then again, even if you keep on doing this… eventually you will have to choose or lose both of them.'

(Name) clenched her fists and closed her eyes shut. She would have to choose. She didn't want to choose between Gilbert or Arthur. But if she would not choose, she would have to face the consequences which was to lose the both of them. Can't she just be greedy and take both of them?

'Who do I want to be with more? Who do I would want to live with and entrust my life to?' (Name) asked herself and looked at her reflection blankly. 'I should give this a rest first…'

(Name) pulled her shirt over her head and folded it neatly before setting it aside. She peeled off her remaining clothing before stepping in the shower, letting the steamy hot water run down her body. It helped her relax a little at least. She began humming her favourite song and squirted a generous amount of shampoo, scrubbing it on her head.

~Meanwhile~

Arthur was making his bed until he recalled what happened before. Was (Name) telling him the truth? Arthur gritted his teeth and clenched his fist, wrinkling the sheets. That smile she flashed at him… it was fake and Arthur knew it.

'So it is true…' Arthur solemnly though to himself. 'Its not official but, my biggest guess is that… she doesn't love me.'

(Name) turned off the water and pursed her lips. Only one question kept on asking her.

Who do you love?

Watching the little drops of water fall from the tip of her (H/C) locks, she closed her eyes and smiled wryly. Yes, she was going to tell the two of them the truth. She has decided on who she truly loved. But there was one more thing she would have to do just incase…

Let's see the final results…

In the next chapter! 8D don't kill me please! I'm still too young to die! This chapter is short, I know. Its so freaking hard for me to update damnit! I hope you guys would tolerate me….

Reviews:

Valkyrie99: Double endings huh…. I don't know… I think I can do that, I'll try my best to anyways.

JCScanell: everything is well and good now

Jackcay101: That, I will not tell you. You'll have to wait until the final chapter! But then again, if I do two alternate endings then yeah you get Artie.

Random Fandom of the folks: Well, nothing really… he's just there… being him….

Mayim: I'm sorry but I think this fic will end soon ^^"

Potatobrain: yes, I'll try my best to do that m'kaaaay? I also think it would be fair if I do that…

Guess that's all for now… So… I think we are only a few chapter until the end. When I'm done with this, I would probably stop writing fics for a while until I have the time to do it again…? I'll try my best to do alternate endings so everyone is happy.

The next chapter would probably be another month? I dunno…. It really depends on the time I have. Thank you for reading till the end and I'll see you in the next chapter!