Chapter 37 He Stepped Forward.

The rest of the week passed quickly for some slowly for others. Carina seemed to be in a constant work daze, her hidden in a book. She ignored the gnawing feeling she got every time she was alone. She tried to keep things as normal with Severus as he would allow and that wasn't much. He was as cold and distant as he had been the first day. She would catch him staring at her at lunch, his eyes deep with grieve, but he would scowl and turn away. Remus had talked to Hermione and Hermione had apologized profusely to both her and Soot. Carina had given forgiveness, Soot had stomped away. And so the week and weekend had passed and she she woke knowing that today would be the first day of a new life.

Severus's week was slower then Gillyfigg Juice on a cold day. His heart ached when he was away from Carina, and it ached even worse when he was in the same room with her and had to act so chilled toward her. He was not the Head of Slytherin for nothing, and he was the kind of subterfuge. But the hold she had over him was strong, he had to watch and make sure she was eating, she wasn't much. She seemed to feel his eyes on her often because he was caught more then once starring, then he forced his scowl or an icy glare. Today would be her first day in the wizarding World, she would meet people, make friends, and move on. Today he figured would be the first day of a new life.

She walked into her office, the colors were all warm reds, greens, blues and yellows, each house would feel comfort, It was a well blended mixture so that the room had a soft feeling. The large window made the room both warm and the light only helped the atmosphere. She stood looking at her office, she had done all the reading her father had wanted her to do. She had read some twice, there was nothing she could do but wait until the students arrival at dinner time, she glanced at her clock 9:00am.

It was a hot, hot day. Her father must be playing with the weather. Maybe trying to keep the dementors away. Enjoy the weather while you can, she said to herself. She took her outer robes off, and once again in her muggle clothes she started for the Astronomy Tower, stopping of course to pilfer a broom along the way. She cast a sticking spell from her right hand to the broom, making sure she didn't drop it. She soon enough stood on the very edge of the bulwark

She lifted her hands still holding the broom in her right hand, any second now the wind would pick up and she would feel as care free as it was.

Severus was looking at a spot on his window, some stupid bird must have choosen his for a accidental suicide, how completely ironic. He sneered at the feathers stuck to the glass, stepping forward to the window he waved his wand vanishing the blasted remains of the bird. As he turned away his eyes caught the sight of something on the Astronomy Tower across from his tower. He looked back horrified to discover the it was Carina. What was she doing so close to that edge?! He put both hands on the glass and as she drifted closer to the edge he gasped. He watched as a she stooped, and relief flooded him thinking she was lowering herself, then to his utter horror she threw herself right off the tower. "NOOOO!!!!!!! CARINA".

Carina felt the wind rush at her back, she stooped and then threw herself as fast and hard as she could off the edge. The wind felt amazing, and the calm of falling was blissful compared to her week, for a few seconds she thought about not pulling the broom under herself, that was until she heard a voice calling. She opened her eyes swiftly and pulled the broom to her and pulled up and rocketed up into the sky. 'What was I thinking!' she zoomed to the top of the astronomy tower. Sure she had flown off the tower before, but she had never thought of killing herself. And she would have if Someone had'nt screamed to her. she was shaking like a leaf when she landed and fell to her knees. She felt her stomach began to lurch and soon she her whole body tensed as she throw up. Hardly anything came out of her empty stomach but the yellowish bile that burned her throat.

And that was how Severus found her hunched over and spiting up. He was furious, worried, and elated all at once. "What in Merlin's name do you think you were doing?" She looked up to him with eyes so full of shock and terror that all his resolve crumpled to the ground. He could have lost her, she could have just as easily not heard him and fallen to the ground. He stepped forward. She could have died, and he would have not even been able to yell at her right now. He stepped forward.

"Oh Severus..." she began to sob. He ran forward.

"I was so scared." HE shouldn't be holding her, he shouldn't be letting her know how much he cared. He should be cold and unfeeling. He should be, but he wasn't. Too much time already was wasted, he would continue as they had been before and when the time comes and she decided to love or hate him, then thats when he would ultimately decide to stay or go, but now he would hold her while she cried.

A/N I discovered the line maker! I will now learn to use it!

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