I was talking to my friend on Skype yesterday. She went on Tumblr. Ross's tumblr. She was just casually scrolling through it when she saw Ross having a conversation with a fan or something. The fan asked him if Ross knew what Fanfiction was. He said YES. Then he said "I read a Rosslington FanFiction and it just felt awkward.." I SCREAMED! I am the ONLY one on FanFiction with a Rosslington story! So... HI ROSS! :D that's if your still reading.. XD

Oh yeah.. and he showed Ratliff ASWELL. Ratliff laughed. Nervously apparently. LOL.

But.. This.. This is just one question playing on my mind.. If Ross read this.. Knew it was about him and Ratliff.. Why did he show Ratliff then if it made Ross feel awkward? XD

I'm not complaining anyway! :D

So yeah.. My message to Ross & Ratliff if your reading this right now...: HI! :D

K.. To the story! :D

Torn Between What's Right and Wrong Chapter 36

=== 2 WEEKS LATER ===

It had been 2 weeks. Ross had finally realized by hurting himself or trying to kill himself isn't gonna help bring back Ratliff.

He'd stopped cutting. Mainly because Riker was watching his every move when he got out of the hospital. Ever since that incident, Riker had been looking out for him to make sure he didn't hurt himself or cut himself. Occasionally for about 2 days after Ross got out of the hospital, Riker would catch Ross trying to cut himself and well.. Riker just kinda wrestled him until he stopped. Rydel and Rocky.. They were like the referee's in this whole situation.

But.. It had calmed down and Ross had completely stopped cutting.

Today Ross was gonna go out for a walk. Little did he know what the day had planned out for him instead.

As Ross came down the stairs, he proceeded to the door. Only to be stopped by footsteps and somebody clearing their throat. Ross turned around to see Riker.

"Arms." Riker demanded.

Ross rolled his eyes and sighed before rolling up the sleeves of his hoodie and holding them out. Sure Riker had been a great brother to Ross ever since this whole incident. Riker believed Ross had stopped, but there was something telling him that he had to check twice.

Riker grabbed Ross's arms and looked at them. Because he knew Ross was good at hiding things he wiped Ross's arm with Riker's sleeve of his shirt incase Ross decided to take any of Rydel's make up and hide the scars, scratches and cuts from everyone. Nope nothing.

"Told ya." Ross said rolling his sleeves back down.

"Just double checking." Riker said.

Ross sighed and shook his head "I'm going out for a walk." Ross said going to the door.

"Where?" Riker asked.

Ross shrugged "Probably around the park or on the beach," Ross said opening the door "probably both." Ross then left.

When Ross left he went on the beach for a change. Decided not to go to the park. On the beach there wasn't many people as usual. Maybe it was because it was coming in black.. and it looked like the heavens were about to open. Funny. How it can go from nice and sunny to dark and miserable in 0.5 seconds.

Kinda how he felt 3 weeks ago when Ratliff died.. He didn't get it. It just went from almost the happiest day ever to a total nightmare. Oh god.. Memories just began to flood back to Ross now. So he shook his head and decided to get the memory of that day out of his head and try to think of the happy times he had with Ratliff.

Thinking of the bad times would just make him un happy again.

So once he got lost in deep happy, really happy, thoughts he saw.. Holly. Ergh. The sight of her made him want to throw up. There was something about her that he really didn't like. Not just because she tried to rake Ratliff from him.

For one she looked horrible and a mess. Like she'd had no sleep..

"Holly?" Ross asked walking over to her.

Holly jumped when she saw Ross, her heart broke even more.

"Ross.." She said shocked "oh my god Ross! I am so so so so so so so so so sorry!"

"For?" Ross asked confused "if it's about Ratliff dying, don't worry about it. It's not your fault.."

Ross then saw more tears fall from her eyes. What could this chic be so upset about? Even Ross isn't crying about Ratliff's death anymore... Much. Sure.. he cried every now and then.. But not all the time.

"Are you okay Holly?" Ross asked.

"Ross, I am so so so sorry," Holly said falling into him and hugging him "I didn't mean to.."

"D-didn't mean to do what?" Ross asked confused hugging back.

It was the only thing he could do. Hug her. Because if he didn't it would just be rude.

"I.. I didn't mean to shoot him.." She said.

Ross's eye's widened and he pulled away from the hug before glaring at her.

"You did what?" Ross asked in disbelief.

Was his ears playing tricks on him?

"I did it," She said "I killed him. I shot Ratliff."

"WHAT?!" Ross shouted "HOW COULD YOU DO SUCH A THING?! I THOUGHT YOU CARED FOR HIM?!"

"I did Ross, I really do!" Holly cried "but I didn't mean to kill him!"

"Then why were you even there in the first place with a gun if you didn't wanna kill anybody?!" Ross asked.

The amount of blood that was boiling right through him. If it wasn't for the fact he was in public infront of people he would of smacked the fuck out of this little bitch. Ross knew it was wrong to hit a girl. But she so fucking deserved it right now. The though that it was Holly who killed Ratliff just brought tears to Ross's eyes.

"Cause I was meant to kill you instead!" She blurted out.

That slap. Holly didn't see coming from Ross. Ross kinda lost it and slapped her where she fell to the ground.

"Don't. Even. Come. Anywhere. Near. Me. Again," Ross said gritting his teeth together "see.. I could live knowing that I didn't know who shot him.. But now that it's you.. I don't see the point in living anymore.." Ross then held out his arms and spread them out "so go on.. do it.. kill me. I'll let you have the pleasure."

"What, you just think I randomly carry a gun with me every day?" Holly asked.

"YOU DID THAT DAY!" Ross shouted "HOW COULD YOU BE SO FUCKING SELFISH INTO KILLING HIM! ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU SAID YOU LOVED HIM!"

"LIKE I SAID BECAUSE I WAS MEANT TO KILL YOU!" Holly screamed back "I figured the only way I could have Ratliff was if you were gone out of his life permanently."

Ross shook his head. He couldn't believe he was hearing this right here right now. If Holly hadn't of gotten up off the floor, Ross would of kicked her in the face. Right now.. He needed Riker here to come get him and calm him the fuck down before he completely lost it. So he turned around and began to walk away.

"Where are you going?!" Holly asked "are you gonna go tell the police?"

"Gimmie one good reason why I shouldn't?" Ross asked turning around.

"Please don't," Holly begged "I don't wanna go to jail for something I didn't mean to do."

"Oh, but you'd of gladly of gone to jail if you'd of killed me?"

"It'd of been worth it." Holly shrugged.

Ross took a deep breath. He needed to end this.

NOW.

Chapter 37 coming soon! :D

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And everyone hates Holly XD