CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
Jacob E. Black's Point Of View... Saturday, August 14, 2010
"Just stay with her." I told Rachel hours after Miley had cried herself to sleep. It was around eight in the morning and I was trying to convince my sister to keep my Miley occupied for the day. "Don't let het think too much about her family... I don't know, just please keep her busy for a few hours?" I asked quietly. Miley was still sleeping in the other bed in the room and there were heartbreaking tear stains on her beautiful face and she was sucking her thumb. She only sucked her thumb when she was feeling guilty.
"Jeez, alright." Rachel agreed and I let out a breath of releif. "But, Jake, she's gonna notice you're not here, and she's going to want to know why."
"Which is why I want you to keep her occupied, so she won't notice." I explained and she rolled her eyes.
"Jake, she's freaking hardwired to you, even when she knows you're not there every time she enters a room her eyes still look for you and then they get a little dimmer when she doesn't find you. She's going to notice, Jake, just tell me where you're going so I can tell her and it won't be so bad." Rachel said and I sighed.
"I can't tell you that, it's supposed to be a surprise for her." I shook my head and looking at Miley. God, I hope I wasn't just going to make it worse, but I had to at least try. "Hopefully I'll be back by lunch, but deffinately no later than three." I assured and Rachel bit her bottom lip, looking at Miley.
"If you're any later than two I'm getting Shane to push your precious rabbit off the highest cliff on the rez." Rachel muttered and I grinned, that gave me almost six hours to get everything.
"Deal." I agreed before she could change her mind.
"Now, scram before I change my mind and wake Miley to guilt you into staying." I didn't need to be told twice as I quickly ran out of the house and into the forest, phasing as soon as I was in the cover of the trees. The first place I had to go was Charlie and Bella's house because I knew that was where her fathers guitar was. She kept it safely down in the basement in case any more bloodsuckers came they'd have no reason to go down there and she knew it would be safe. I knew it killed her to not have it with her in Georgia, but she was afraid something might happen to it there and she wanted to keep it exactly as her father had given it to her.
MACOB
Miley R. Black's Point Of View
"Where's Jacob?" I asked at around ten o'clock when I shuffled into the kitchen after checking the whole house for my Jacob. "I can't smell him anywhere."
"Hey, Sleepyhead, want some pancakes?" Rachel offered and I shrugged, sitting down at the table next to Shane.
"Where's Jacob?" I repeated, Paige was sitting at the other end of the table, Shane was holding J.C and Kyla was napping in her carrier seat. I guess after the incident yesterday the guys must have rebuilt it the table or fixed it.
"He's probably just around somewhere." Rachel replied, setting a stack of pancakes on the table for me. They were chocolate chip with just a tiny hint of something that made them taste all Christmas-y. Possibly nutmeg. I loved Rachel's pancakes.
"No he's not." I shook my head, picking at the top pancake. I probably should eat it 'cause the shape shifter thing made me hungry almost all the time, and I needed the energy and stuff, but I wanted my Jacob. "I can sense it, he's not here."
"You can sense it?" Rachel asked, furrowing her brow and biting her lip, she looked kinda... Guilty? I narrowed my eyes at her.
"Yeah... I know when he's not around me, always. My heart gets heavy and I feel colder inside." I explained, well, that was only the half of it. I felt cold and empty when Jacob wasn't nearby, and I knew when he was coming back even before I could smell him or hear him or anything because I'd start feeling warm and fuzzy again and my heart would stop hurting. "Where is he, Rachel?" I asked a little acusingly and she looked even guiltier. "You can either tell me willingly or I can find out the hard way." I threatened, okay so I probably wouldn't break into her mind, but I could stare her down until she told me.
"He wouldn't tell me, he just said it was supposed to be a surprise for you." Rachel revealed after a couple of seconds of me staring her down.
"I don't want any surprises." I muttered, looking down and picking at the pancakes again. "Not now." Thirty-four and a half hours until it was exactly one year without my Daddy. I just want my Jay, he could always make me feel better... And failing that he could at least make me feel less depressed.
"Hey, I only know what he told me." Rachel shrugged deffensively, dropping down into a free chair and lifting her feet into Shane's lap, something that didn't go unnoticed. I guess she was starting to warm up to him. I wondered how long it would be until she ditched her cougar/cradle robber deffence and just gave in to him. They'd be cute together. "Now, eat your breakfast before my baby brother kills me for not taking good care of you." She commanded and I rolled my eyes before eating a piece of pancake.
"How are the babies?" I asked half way through the first pancake and Shane looked up from J.C.
"He's been great, I don't know why people are so against babies." Shane replied and Paige snorted.
"Have you had one spit up on you?" I asked and he shook his head. "Changed one?" Another shake. "Gotten a total of three hours sleep in a week because you always have to be at a babies every beck and call?"
"No." Shane denied and I smirked.
"Then tell us what you think when you've done all of that." I shot back and he blushed a little before looking back to J.C.
"No, I'm good with the cute little guy for now, you guys can have him back for all that crap." Paige laughed at that and I couldn't help but smile.
"Speakin' of which, when was the last time you slept and for how long, Paige?" I asked the half vampire critically.
"I'm fine, Miley." Paige evaded, trying to brush it off and I raised an eyebrow at her.
"You ran here from Georgia yesterday and you've barely slept since J.C was born." I reminded and Paige sighed. "Bedtime, Paige-y, I'm sure between all of us we can look after two babies for one day whilst you catch up on some much-needed z's." I rolled my eyes and I could see Paige caving right in front of my eyes. "Scram." I gestured down the hall and Paige laughed, getting out of her seat.
"Love you, Miley." Paige kissed sleeping Kyla on the forehead and then stole J.C back from Shane long enough to kiss him before handing him back to where he seemed content.
"Love you too, now sleep."
"Great, one taken care of." Rachel muttered before turning to me. "Now, you, eat before Jacob kills me." She demanded and I stuck my tongue out at her.
"What happened with Leah and Jayden yesterday?" I question curriously a few minutes later when Rachel was satisfied that I had eaten enough for her brother not to kill her. Honestly, I could feed myself, I didn't need my sister-in-law standing over me the entire time.
"After Jake ran off after you Jayden went after Leah to convince her that he loves her." Shane answered with a shrug and I raised my eyebrows. "He phased in last night and I guess it must've worked because he was thinking about their make-up sex and something about how he could apreciate a hot body because he already had the hottest in Leah... I don't know, I phased out when it started getting visual." He shuddered a little and I laughed. "Besides, he was wrong, I'm the one that lucked out in the hot imprints category." He added, looking directly at Rachel who blushed and stood up, grabbing my plate and busying herself with cleaning up.
"Speaking of you and Jake running off, want to tell me about this rumor I hear about you phasing and not into a wolf or hawk?" Rachel asked turning around again when she got her blush under control. Yeah, I definately had to join the pool on how long it would take her to cave. I think the times ranged everywhere from June just been to six years from now when Rachel stopped feeling like a cradle robber. I think I'd put my money on New Years at the latest, those two are gonna kiss at New Yeras, I just know it.
"Exactly how many people know about that?" I asked, looking down. I hadn't thought about it at the time, at the time I'd been more focussed on Jacob growling at me and Chris' birthday and the fact that I actually changed again to notice the others.
"Well, the whole pack knows by now." Shane shrugged and I groaned.
"So are you going to explain or do I have to guess?" Rachel prompted and I frowned a little.
"Guess." I muttered and Rachel pouted at me.
"My theory is that after the first phase a shapeshifter - of Cherokee decent 'cause Quileutes only have one possible form - needs to feel hightened emotions. More powerful and overwhelming than ever before to have the possibility of phasing again, and the emotion has an effect on the form." I explained and Rachel looked surprised as she listened. "So for me I always associated wolf with anger because that was what Jacob said, that when you got angry and lost control you'd phase and I didn't know about the other forms so the wolf became the anger within. Then the hawk... The hawk is escaping, the first time it happened on the day after Christmas I needed to escape, I needed to go somewhere where no-one could follow me, not on land, not in the sea - not that there was one near by - and the sky is the only place I could be alone, 'cause vampires can't go there." Rachel nodded, paying rapt attention as I told her basically the same thing I told Jacob yesterday.
"And the new one?" She prompted when I didn't say anything for a while, just thinking.
"Jacob growled at me." I murmured and she gasped. "Yeah, I felt horrible, I felt sadder than I've felt in a long time and I ran. I was thinking about a lot of things, Jacob growling at me, Daddy..." I stopped there for a second and I could tell Rachel was about to say something so I started talking again. "And the mother tiger from four days. I watched her die and I couldn't anything to help her, she wouldn't let me help her... And then the next thing I know all that sadness is mixing together because of one angered growl not even meant for me and then I'm an animal, not a wolf and not a hawk." I shrugged as I ended lamely. "Jacob says I'm a white tiger with black stripes, like Marble only less black."
"You are." Shane nodded and I looked up. "You're, like, the same size as when you're a wolf, and really white and the stripes are only thin black ones down your back and tail and on your face and stuff." He explained before looking down again when J.C fussed. "What's wrong with him?" Shane worried when J.C started whimpering and squirming a little.
"Come here, Baby." I cooed, taking J.C out of his arms and holding him close, kissing his tiny little head softly. "Don't you worry my little J.C, we won't ignore you any more." I assured, rocking him a little and he stopped whining. "Yeah, you were just bored, weren't you, Sweetie?" I cooed and I saw Rachel smiling out of the corner of my eye. "Well don't worry 'cause Miley is going to keep you heaps entertained."
"You're great with babies." Rachel observed and I glanced up.
"Big family, always being babied, tons of babies always around." I shrugged, pressing my lips to J.C's head softly. He was so warm, a complete contrast to his older sister. But, I couldn't help but love both of them the same. Even though I had no relation to either of them other than being Kyla's step-mother - woah, feels weird to think that. I'm sixteen and I'm someone's step-mother. I still couldn't help but love them. "Plus, the telepathy doesn't exactly hurt."
"What do babies think?" Rachel asked curriously as I returned to fussing over J.C. I already knew - not that telepathy could tell me at this point - but I just knew in my heart that Kyla would be the strong-willed, outspoken type, always shooting for the stars. And J.C would be the quiet shy type. I don't know how or why I thought that, but just from watching them both for hours on end I couldn't help but imagine that's what they would be like.
"It's vague." I tried to explain. "They don't know a whole lot yet, they have to be taught what things are and stuff and they haven't developed enough to properly identify things... Kyla knows that she likes the warm stuff that fills her tummy, and she likes hearing Paige sing even though she doesn't do it a lot. And she likes laying on Jacob's chest and feeling his heartbeat - even though she doesn't know what a heartbeat is." I sighed, holding J.C closer carefully. He was so unimaginably fragile. I could remember when Kyla was this fragile, she still was almost.
"Wow." Rachel murmured in wonder. "So how did you know he was bored before?"
"He didn't need changing, he wasn't tired because his eyes aren't drooping, and he didn't want food otherwise he would have turned his head toward Shane out of instinct." I explained and Shane's mouth dropped. "Yes, Shane, as in breastfeeding... Some women do that after birth, and babies have an instinct to try and breastfeed." Shane blushed and Rachel laughed at his discomfort. "They're not just there for boys to play with, they do have a use."
"Though judging from the way you scream you're not adverse to having them played with." Rachel mutterd and I gasped, covering J.C's ears protectively. "Oh, please, you said yourself he doesn't understand." She rolled her eyes and I flushed bright red.
"Just so you know he's sleeping." Shane spoke up and I looked down to see that J.C had in fact lulled to sleep in the last couple of minutes. I carefully stood up and went over to his carrier seat, gently laying him down covering him in a little blue blanket. He fussed a little, but didn't wake up.
"There, he's asleep, now you want to get back to your screaming orgasms?" Rachel teased and I blushed.
"Rachel." I gasped and out of the corner of my eye I could see Shane sitting up a little straighter at the turn of the conversation.
"What? I'm almost twenty-one and I haven't had a good orgasm in over two years. College guys are very selfish lovers, I have to live vicariously through my BFF." She deffended and Shane looked a little jealous/angry at the mention of other guys. "Give me something to survive on?" She practically begged and I blushed harder.
"You do realize that it's Jacob, your brother, that's the one doing those things to me?" I reminded her pointedly. "Do you really want to hear about what your little brother does with his wife?" Rachel made a disgusted face and I laughed.
"See, now this is where it really sucks for my best friend to be my sister-in-law, when I want to hear about Earth-shattering sex it's with my baby brother." She shuddered and gagged a little at the end.
"Yeah, well, F.Y.I, it's not sex yet, I'm still a virgin." I sighed and Rachel's eyes popped.
"You're kidding, right?" She demanded with wide eyes whilst Shane lost interest seeing as it wasn't about his imprints sex life anymore. "You've been married to my hormonal seventeen year old brother for over two months now and you're still a virgin? Is it because he's little? 'Cause it's doesn't hurt as much for him to be small... Not that I want to discuss my brothers sex life, but seriously, you two should be at it like bunnies. And it's not how much a guy has that matters, it's how he uses it." My mouth dropped open and I swear if I turned any redder I'd burst a blood vessel.
"Okay, what is with everyone thinking it's because he's small when I say I'm still a virgin?" I asked, God, how did we even get on this toppic of discussion?
"Because you're sixteen and he's seventeen, you're hot, and you two have been married for two months?" Rachel suggested in an obvious tone and I rolled my eyes.
"Jesus." I muttered to myself, first Vita, now Rachel, who's next? My Gammy? Is it let's see who can make Miley more awkward by talking about her sex life competition? "It's not because he's small. Jacob is anything but small. He's freaking surgically-altered-porn-star huge. And the only reason we haven't made love yet is because he wants it to be special for me and we haven't had the opportunity to make it special yet."
"Oh, God." Rachel made a sour face and gagged. "I don't want to hear that, this is my brother you're talking about, Miley."
"You're the one that wanted to know the details of what we do not even two minutes ago." I accused and she clapped her hands over her ears.
"Don't remind me, this is disgusting, just change the subject." Rachel muttered, squeezing her eyes shut and I laughed.
"I'm hungry!" Shane anounced and Rachel's eyes flew open, showing releif.
"Hungry I can deal with." She nodded, getting up and going to fridge. I honestly don't know how there was always so much food here. I think they might have been magical cupboards that restocked themselves every ten minutes.
"Did someone mention food?" Brady appeard at the doorway to the kitchen and Rachel rolled her eyes.
"Mention food and they all come running." She muttered and I laughed, getting up to help her.
"You P.B, I'll J." I offered, grabbing the peanut butter and jelly. (Americans are weird... What's with calling jam jelly and jelly jello? Not to mention calling milk cream. You people are weird. I actually had retype that because I put jam instead of jelly and half my readers probably wouldn't even know what jam is.)
"Deal." Rachel agreed with a grin.
"So when are you going to put Shane out of his misery?" I asked casually and behind us I heard Shane splutter a little on nothing.
"Huh?" Rachel tried to play dumb and I rolled my eyes again.
"You blushed when he called you hot before, you totally have the hots for him."
"I have no idea what you're talking about. It was getting hot in here, you people have a constant temperature, it affects the air around you." Rachel deffended and I snorted. "And us normal people get hot from it."
"Sure, that's it." I muttered and I could feel her glaring at me even though I wasn't looking. "You and me are talking later, when there are no prying wolves hanging around."
"Nothing to talk about." Rachel tried to deny and I looked at her pointedly. "Fine." She agreed before muttering incoherently under her breath.
MACOB
Paige N. Denyer's Point Of View
DREAM FLASHBACK
"Do you ever wonder if there are other life forms out there?" I asked Jason absently, looking up at the stars in the hours after we'd made love for the first time. We were laying out on the beach where it had happened and my eyes had wondered skyward.
"What?" I could hear the amusement in Jason's voice without looking at him.
"Well, it's just there are humans and vampires that exist in this world, and even if there aren't other life forms on the other planets in this gallexy it'd be stupid to think we were the only ones in any gallexy." I shrugged, the stars had always amazed me. Even after almost eighty years of being alive there was always more to learn about them because more was always being discovered. "What if there is some other life form laying down and watching the stars like we are right now and wondering the same thing about us, if we exist... It just makes you feel small and insignificant when it all comes down to it, we're not even a blip on the radar."
"You're not insignificant." Jason murmured softly and I finally tore my eyes away from the shimmering balls of fire in the sky. "Not to me, to me you're everything."
"Who knew the bad boy had a soft side." I teased and he rolled his eyes.
"Babe, nothing about me is soft." Jason muttered, getting up and rolling on top of me, bracing himself and looking down at me with smoldering icy blue eyes.
"Oh, yeah?" I raised an eyebrow at him and he smirked. "Prove it.' Before the words had even left my lips he was filling me up with his hardness. "Jase." I gasped, he was so good. It almost hurt my heart to think about many other girls he'd been this good with. I didn't understand why I felt so attached to him, why I felt like I'd die if he left. "Oh, Jase, you feel so good." I moaned, I could help it, he was amazing. "Jaaaaase..."
"Paige." Jason groaned, nipping at my neck lightly. He liked to feed when he came, I'd learned that early, before we even slept together.
"Don't leave me." I breathed out. I don't know why, I just had the sudden need to know he would never leave me. That I'd never be alone as long as he was there. "Promise me you won't leave me, Jase."
"I promise." Jason murmured, doing that special thing with his fingers that me go crazy inside. "You and me forever."
END DREAM FLASHBACK
Hello :)
I uploaded a new video on my youtube :)
It's the video of all the main vamps in the story except for J.C, 'cause I don't know any newborn baby boys... If you have any picture of one yo'd like to have featured I would totally use it if you sent it to me :)
Okay, so here's the link: .com/watch?v=2pLVD8L0wOw
Juat because I used a nicholas jonas song does not mean I have in any way changed my stance on him. My views on his music when he was aprepubescent little kid who didn't yet think with his little nick dick does not reflect on my personal views of the little ****head somehow making it not impossible for me to listen to the music he record before his voice entered a seemingly never-ending state of cracking. The song I used was Apreciate, and I can't even remember getting it, it was just on my computer when I was looking for a song to use since youtube wouldn't let me use A Year Without Rain. But, despite my personal views of the singer it is a good song and I do like it, especially the message. It's just a beautiful song...
Oh, dear God, I'm actually talking up and advertising nick jonas. Someone kill me now.
What? No takers to make a video of Miley set to 5, 6, 7, 8 by STEPS? But, I really want one, and I doubt it would be any good if I did it myself. For one, whenever I try and download the videos there's either 'errors' or their too big. But, if someone else makes a video then I will as well. :)
49 DAYS UNTIL MILEY'S 18TH BIRTHDAY!
Peace, Love, Miley! :)