Chapter 36

Hogwarts

November

No one saw James or Severus for a few days. On the morning of the third day, Sirius was trying to convince Remus to go with him to check on them, when both appeared at the breakfast table that morning. However, their excitement died a little when they saw how miserably tired they both looked.

"Are you two okay?" asked Remus slowly as the pair sat down.

"Peachy," growled Severus as he glared at the food in front of him. After a few tense seconds, he picked some grapes and started munching on them.

James turned to his friend and gave him a tired smile before taking out a paper and just handing them to Remus. As Remus looked over them, he realized that they were medical instructions for after care.

At first, he was confused as to why James had handed this to him, but then he noticed there was a highlighted area, 'The transformation takes a lot out of a person and completely changes their body chemistry. They will be uncomfortable in their own skin for at least a week, and will need space.'

"I see," Remus gave James a tight smile before glancing down the table at Severus. He truly looked unhappy, as if at any moment, he might start crying and that seemed to just make him angry.

Remus looked at James and saw him looking at Severus, clearly wanting to hold him, but was keeping his distance. With how twitchy and fidgety Severus was being, Remus couldn't blame him.

Using the paper as an excuse to look away from the discomfort, Remus looked back at the medical sheet. At the bottom of the sheet was another highlighted note, 'It is important to resume sexual intercourse within the first two weeks of the transition. This may be difficult at first, but intercourse will actually reduce pain, strengthen the pelvic muscles, lower blood pressure, and improve sleep….

The writing ended but there was clearly more information. I wonder if James will let me see the whole thing, pondered Remus as he glanced over at Sirius. Remus had been equal parts annoyed and flattered that Sirius had taken a potion that would trigger a natural transformation.

It had annoyed him that Sirius hadn't talked to him about it more, but Remus was more flattered than anything that Sirius fully intended to stay with him and have his children. We'll both have to talk to Severus and James once he is feeling better. I need to ask James for all of the papers so that Sirius can read them.

"Don't touch me!" snapped Severus, making everyone around them jump a little.

"Okay, okay," whispered James trying to calm Severus down as he started shaking. "Hey, its okay. It's okay. How about we go back to the room, okay. I'll get you all your homework and you just go and lay back down."

"I don't want to lay in bed all alone," cried Severus as he reached for James but as soon as he touched him, he flinched. Letting out a frustrated whimper, Severus started tugging at his clothes, "I hate this! I hate this! I hate this! I hate clothes, and light and sound, and people and smells, and…"

"Okay, let's go back," said James firmly as he gently took a hold of Severus's shoulder and helped him up. Now that he was worked up, Severus didn't seem to notice the touch and just nodded and cried quietly as he stood next to the table.

Turning to Remus and Sirius, James asked, "Could you get all of our homework? We thought we could do it today, but he can't, and I don't want to leave him alone."

"I'll bring everything around dinner. Is that okay?" Remus gave them a tight smile as he handed the sheet back to James.

James nodded his thanks and led Severus out of the Great Hall. A few people were staring, but most actually didn't seem to notice and went about their morning. Once they were gone, Remus turned to look at Sirius, "And that right there is why I want to wait until we are out of school before you change."

Sirius didn't say anything as he ate his breakfast, but Remus did catch him glancing at the doors where their friends had just been. Hopefully this will give him a little more patience, hoped Remus as he wrapped an arm around Sirius and gave him a light reassuring hug. Sirius let out a soft sigh and leaned into Remus. Taking this as a good sign, Remus let his worry slip away so he could focus on his own breakfast.

5 days later

Severus was lying on his stomach as he read; James was above him gently massaging his lower back and hips. It was the most intimate they had been in over a week. The pair had been sleeping in the same bed with James protectively hugging his fiancé, but Severus hadn't been willing to tolerate much else.

The transition had left his whole body on high alert and everything seemed to bother him. Luckily, for James that was the first thing that the packet had brought up, so he was prepared when Severus was pushing him away to be alone.

If he hadn't known it was coming, James would have been a little hurt, but being given a heads up made it easier. Instead, he focused on making sure his lover was as comfortable as he could make him. The number of pillows had tripled and James had been little more than a gofer the last few days as he made frequent trips to the kitchen for tea, chocolate, crackers, and anything else Severus happened to be wanting more than cuddles.

After a week, following the instructions, James dared to get a little closer again, and it appeared to have worked. Severus had been catching up on his homework and hadn't said anything as James had started rubbing his lower back and hips.

At first, James was a little worried that Severus might pull away, but he was slowly lowering his head and just enjoying the feeling of James touching him. When Severus pushed the book away and let his head rest on the mattress, James risked putting a little more pressure on him as he leaned forward and nuzzled the back of Severus's neck.

Severus made an annoyed grunt, "James. Don't."

James whined as he laid down on top of Severus and started kissing his neck. "I'm sorry, Love. I just want to hold you."

Severus sighed and rolled onto his back so he was looking up at James. "I know, Lovey. I'm sorry. It's just… My body feels so weird."

James brushed the hair out of Severus's face before giving him a light kiss. "I know. I know you went through a lot. I'm just trying to be a good mate, and follow the doctor's advice. I'm worried about you. When you fainted, I was so worried."

Severus pulled James down and hugged him tightly. "I'm sorry. I'm trying, but I'm scared."

"Why?" asked James as he hugged him back.

Severus buried his face against James's shoulder and nuzzled him. After a few seconds, James could hear Severus mutter, "I'm different now. I don't look right. I don't look right anymore."

James's grip on Severus tightened, "Love, I know you changed. I know, and I love you. Don't worry. No matter how much you changed physically I still love you." Severus nodded, and James could hear him sniff a few times.

"We don't have to right now," continued James as he rubbed Severus's sides. "But remember we do need to have sex soon. Doctors orders."

"That is so fucking weird," snorted Severus. "Pervy old witch, telling us to have sex regularly."

"Paper says at least three times a week," smiled James. "And it is about strengthening the new muscles, and helping your body adjust to the changes so sex doesn't hurt. If we don't, birth will be much more painful for you."

"I know. I read it too," grumbled Severus as slowly opened his legs, so that James could rest between them. He had been keeping his legs closed tight, and bathing alone the last week, so James saw this as progress.

"We don't have to do it yet if you don't want to," reassured James.

Severus sighed and pulled away to look at James. "I have wanted to, but… I know the first few times are going to hurt, and after what happened… I'm just a little scared."

"It won't hurt if you are relaxed and I am gentle," smiled James as he touched his nose to Severus's. "I want to see you, Love."

Severus smiled despite everything and sat up a little so James could pull his shirt off. James pulled Severus's shirt off before pulling off his own and tossing them to the floor. "I love you," whispered James before hungrily kissing Severus. He had been holding back for so long, James hadn't realized how pent up he was.

"Careful," whispered Severus as he relaxed against the bed as James kissed his way down Severus's chest and stomach.

"I'll be gentle," purred James as he tugged down Severus's pants and tossed them to the floor.

Severus made an unsure hum and tried to close his legs again, but James was in the way. Seeing the tension rising again, James rubbed Severus's outer thighs, "Relax, Love. I won't hurt you. I promise. Just take a few deep breaths and spread your legs."

Severus made the most pathetic little whimper that James had ever heard before slowly allowing James to push his legs open. Gently, James rubbed Severus's shaft as he slid down further. He knew Severus didn't want him looking, but James's curiosity was too great, "We are a bonded pair, Love. No matter how you have changed, you have changed for me and our baby and I love you for that." Another small whimper escaped him, but Severus nodded as he visibly relaxed and let James inspect him.

Knowing that his lover was okay, James gave the head of Severus's dick a light suck before licking further down. Severus was trembling again, but James was certain it wasn't from nerves this time.

When he reached the base there was a drastic change, "It's almost like you just have a very large clitoris," whispered James as he ran his finger over the slightly parted lips.

"Shut up," whimpered Severus as he tried to close his legs again.

"I didn't say I didn't like it, Love," pointed out James as he kept Severus's legs open. "Remember I usually slept with women before. I like this."

"I don't see how," growled Severus. "I'm a damn hermaphrodite."

"Love, you knew this would happen when you asked for a partial transformation," smiled James as he used his thumb to open Severus up more.

"I don't want to be a woman. I want to be a man. I—" Severus's voice caught in his throat suddenly as James licked him. "James," cried Severus as he tried to get his breathing under control. "Get your mouth off there!"

James pulled back a little, "Does it hurt?"

"No, it's gross!" snapped Severus not wanting James to know how good those few licks had felt.

Seeming to sense the subtext, James smiled up at Severus. "Baby, I've eaten out your ass. What makes you think I wouldn't enjoy this?"

Before, Severus had a chance to reply, James's head was down again. The small whimpers quickly turned into pleasured screams as James stroked him in time with his tongue. It wasn't long before James felt Severus tighten up as he orgasmed. Looks like I wasn't the only one that was pent up, thought James smugly as he pulled back and sat up so he could look down at his boyfriend.

"Ready, Love?" asked James as he lined himself up.

Severus nodded as he enjoyed is post orgasm haze; however he was quickly pulled out of it as James slowly stretched him open. The stretch wasn't so much painful as strange. It was a sensation Severus wasn't used to and he wasn't sure he was enjoying it.

"You okay, Love?" asked James when he saw the look of displeasure on his boyfriend's face.

"Feels weird," whimpered Severus. "I don't know. I don't know if I like this, James. How am I going to enjoy this?"

"There is a spot in here like there is in your ass," reminded James as he made sure to sit still. Severus clearly needed some time to adjust to this new feeling. "Wasn't your first time doing anal a bit uncomfortable?"

Severus nodded, his first few times doing anal had felt a bit unnatural, and now that James was pointing it out he did notice a similarity. "I'm going to move a little," coaxed James as he slowly pulled out and started a gentle rhythm.

Focusing on the feeling on James sliding in and out of him, Severus was able to let out a pleased hum. Seeing the look, James allowed himself to speed up a little as he moved around, suddenly Severus let out a startled gasp.

"Did I find it?" asked James as he slowly slid back over the spot. Unable to speak, Severus just nodded as he wrapped his legs around James's waist. "Knew I would," chuckled James as he started to speed up now that he knew where he needed to aim for.

"Cocky, asshole," gasped Severus as he started rolling his hips up against James.

"You fucking love it," growled James as he took Severus's hands in his, held him down, and kissed him.

Severus opened his mouth and wrapped his tongue around James's so he could pull it into his own mouth and suck on it. James moaned as his thrusting became erratic before stilling suddenly.

"So warm," moaned Severus as he tightened his legs and held James closer. James groaned as he reached between them and started stroking Severus. Letting out a series of happy gasps, Severus's thighs tightened with his second orgasm.

The pair stayed still for a moment before James slowly slid out of Severus and laid down next to him. "You okay?" whispered James as he loosely wrapped an arm around his boyfriend and pulled him closer.

"I feel so much better," admitted Severus with a sigh as he leaned forward and lazily kissed James. "God I needed that."

"You know what the best part is," smiled James as he returned the kisses.

"What?"

"You have two holes now," giggled James as he nuzzled Severus's face. "We can do a lot of awesome stuff.

Severus stifled a giggle as James lightly tickled his neck. "Think Remus would let us borrow Sirius?"

James gave Severus a light swat on the ass. "We have a dildo."

"I thought that was what Sirius was— ow," Severus gave James another teasing smile as James lightly pinched his butt again. "But Lovey, I actually have three holes now. Maybe Remus would like to join in."

James snorted before giving his mate a rougher nip on the neck. "Let's wait until those two are regularly having sex before we ask if they want to have an orgy, but honestly, I doubt Remus is interested in playing your little games Severus Snape."

"Ooo full name," taunted Severus. "Is my fiancé going to punish me?"

"You'd enjoy it too much," chuckled James as he got his wand, summoned the riding crop, and gave Severus a few swats.

Severus let out a theatrical gasp before rolling so that his back was to James. "You still haven't taken me where I really want it."

"You're insatiable," smiled James as he tapped Severus's inner thighs with the crop so he would spread them.

"You started this," moaned Severus as he got on his knees so his ass was in the air. "You better finish it."

"I've created a monster," whispered James failing to keep the ecstasy out of his voice. They both knew they had a whole week to catch up on.

AN/

Sorry this one is a little short, but I have been a bit busy. Next chapter we get to have a bit of Sirius drama, (ha get it… okay I'll shut up).

Tumblr- Lennydark