Bound by MoonLight

A/N: Another update, the final rest before the arrival of the Saiyan prince and everyone on earth is spending their moments as best they could. It's an adult chapter and quite a doozy too in terms of length. So big thanks to Lilac'sBloom and TsuandesApprentice for beta reading this over the last few days.

I hope this story is still good for you my readers. Please enjoy.

(Adult, Lemon Warning)

People believed they knew everything, and that their morals, religion, ideas, and society lifted them above others. It did nothing of the sort. It was in fact the opposite, bringing out such fanciful notions of differences, and did nothing but create a greater gap between them.

It was why races and species in general faded...at least, when it came to the more 'advanced' beings.

Sighing, Leocht gently adjusted her long braids of hair alongside her head, feeling warmed by the sun's rays filtering in through those windows. She sat there idly as if nothing was wrong in the coffee shop, listening to chatter of customers she silently observed. Her appearance while foreign did not scream alien! There were all kinds of animals that had evolved alongside humans on this planet to be anthropomorphic, so it wasn't too surprising to see someone like her walking among them. Still, she looked fairly exotic by her own right.

Crossing her legs, she brought her beverage to her lips, sipping it occasionally while calmly reading her newspaper. She wore human apparel, and it was…interesting to say the least. Denim jeans and a low cut tank top, they all played into the illusion that she gave off as being nothing special or out of the ordinary.

Yet, underneath her exterior Leocht could hear the thoughts of those around her, their accosting voices, demeaning her, or making uncouth comments about her. But her mind remained unbreaking as the strongest armor, for none of it affected her.

As she sat there, the words on the newspaper became distant as she began to picture the night before. The memory made her smile…for she, was happy, and it made Light happy because of it. Setting down her drink she reminisced one last time before leaving.

Leocht sat on the bed, calmly observing Chi-Chi as she slept. The woman was exhausted, bruised, and completely drained from her day of training, which no doubt was taking its toll on her like never before.

Tucked in her arms was Gohan, the small half-saiyan having caught a fever and refused to quiet down until his mother held him tightly and softly sang him to sleep. The day's events allowing even the young mother to push through her barriers just to see her baby boy asleep.

"You're a wonderful mother Chi-Chi…"

Bringing her hand to softly brush the hair from her face with her finger, Chi-Chi did not even stir, but that was fine with Light. She did not want confrontation, she just wanted to see how she was doing.

Leocht remained there smiling, just happy to see Chi-Chi like this, so at peace. After the terrible things to have happened to her and the many other things that might've transpired, Light was relieved she had turned out this well. She moved her hands from Chi-Chi's face down to her fingers, her ability to keep the woman's mind at rest allowing Leocht to pull Gohan out from Chi-Chi's arm as she remained undisturbed in her slumber.

The little boy whimpered as he was taken from the warmth of its mother and into Leocht's arms. Using her arm as a small cradle she hefted him up onto her own warm chest. The boy's fever wasn't serious but it made his agitation grow but Leocht softly cooed and nuzzled the little boy. "Shhh, you are alright. Mommy is right here next to me." She whispered softly, her lips brushing the small boys forehead as to reassure him that he wasn't going too far from his mother.

It was so hard to imagine the little pod she had packed away had led to this. She had convinced Gine, who without any real prodding had gotten Bardock to come and take Kakarot's nearly broken body from the dungeon. In the mean time she had relocated Gohan's birth pod into a mobile one. She had swapped him before she had met Chi-Chi back on Vegeta-sei before she died.

She sighed, softly rocking Gohan in her arms, her long tail coming up to softly wind together with his furry one. The unique sensation caused the boy to relax as she brought her other hand to cup his cheek. "I'm glad you recognized your mother, or she might've not believed it was really you so fast. You didn't need any powers, or special tricks did you Gohan?" She smiled as boy lightly purred in her arms. "No, you knew your mother on instinct…although you did try to breastfeed a bit too early." She gave a small laugh at the memory she had seen from his mind.

She had pushed and guided everything to this point, the alternatives to her actions far worse. At least this way the raven haired mother could be happy, for a time anyway. If she had not moved that bomb, it would've left Chi-Chi to be interrogated and tortured until she died months later from her beatings. Leocht had freed the woman from that fate, but it did not prevent her death, merely it accelerated it. Chi-Chi was always destined to die on Vegeta-sei, just the when and how was all that she could alter.

She knew that Kakarot would eventually shift and become Goku, but seeing him in her visions as Goku did not compare to the naive, sweet, bumbling man that he was now. He was so nice, so gentle, and so caring.

But he also would recover his memories, he would remember who he was. That was inevitable, she had been trying to help him. Feeding Kakarot's memories into Goku was difficult but it had to be done, he could remember slowly and not change who he was. Because he needed to remember, he had to be both Kakarot and Goku.

Kakarot was his strength, the unyielding resolve to fight until his death. To never submit or give in, his saiyan side was necessary but those who had come to know him as Goku would not agree.

But Goku was his other half, the emotional side. A saiyan raised by humans. It was his other side, his compassion, his fun and free spirit, and how easy and simple things were without all of old memories weighing him down. But Goku did not understand the way Kakarot did.

He had to fight, he had to gain power not because it brought him joy but because he had to. Kakarot could fight Vegeta. Goku did not understand everything yet. Perhaps if there was more time he could, but not now.

Leocht was not favoring one or the other, but in fact she wanted both sides to coexist inside the saiyan. One that was fierce, but also merciful. A saiyan that loved but did not take or demand. No she needed someone who understood love and what you would do to protect it. Chi-Chi had made that step, now she needed Kakarot and Goku to do the same.

Slowly giving him memories had allowed him to help Chi-Chi, but it would not help him.

"Oh Chi-Chi," Leocht whispered, stroking Gohan's hair as she watched over his sleeping mother. "Though you wish it, Goku cannot remain the naive man that he is; he must be stronger. You may try, but he still struggles rationalize his mind. He lives in blissful ignorance as do you. It may pain you, but you cannot pretend to love one side of a coin, expecting him to always remain this way…."

Leocht lifted Gohan up, so that his face was level with hers. His brown eyes opened, looking into hers rather sleepily. Although she could've done, she had no desire to force her powers on the small boy to remain sleeping.

"Hello Gohan…do you remember me?" Leocht asked, smiling from amusement as he just stared at her unresponsive. "I suppose not."

She sighed, bringing him close to hug him. Her lips pressed against his cheek. "Be a good boy for your mother, make her happy and love her like she loves you." Softly she stroked his back, her fingers running under his pajamas and touching his skin gently. Her white hair mixed with his black locks as she bit her bottom lip, and as her white eyes fell closed she held him closer, not wanting to let go of him yet...

A whisper came from her, gentle to the boy's ears. It was heard to him, and no one else.

"Gohan…I'm sorry."

The door to Chi-Chi's room was pushed open by a frail hand holding the handle. The woman wore a thin robe, as the thick one made her feel like she weighed an extra ten pounds; she barely weighed seventy right now as it was. She came in to check on her daughter, not that she should, but she wanted to. She wanted to feel like a mother, not some charity case barely clinging to life.

She made her way slowly towards the bed, her body slightly cold even with the nighttime air around seventy. She balanced herself against the nightstand as she stopped just before the bed.

Blinking, as she felt the faint presence in the room, and the heavy breathing, Chi-Chi woke up. Though still half asleep, she recognized the raspy breathing.

"Mom?" She called yawning slightly, her mind not realizing straight away that Gohan was just a foot away from her on the bed, instead of in her arms as when they'd fallen asleep. Chi-Chi didn't want to disturb him, not upon seeing her baby boy curled up sound asleep as he was, hugging his tail like a teddy bear which he snuggled to his face all while sucking his thumb.

"S-S-Sor-ree," Bhiruo managed to raspily get out, "D-Did I…"

Chi-Chi shook her head, not wanting her to feel upset. "I was already awake. I was just, resting my eyes...Sit down mom, you shouldn't be up like this." She didn't want to sound scolding, but her mom did a lot of things she shouldn't be doing without hurting herself. "Dad must be-"

"Snoring," Bhiruo finished with the faint crack of a smile, yet her voice sounded like she hadn't been able to get much rest, "Couldn't, I couldn't sleep." Gingerly, her mother took a seat on Chi-Chi's bed and soon enough she found the older woman resting against her.

Chi-Chi brought an arm around her mother, her sickly thin frame trembling from exertion. "You can sleep here then Mom; I don't want you to be uncomfortable."

"Oh. But this-" She started but Chi-Chi shushed her with her finger.

"None of that Mom, you need to rest. It's a big bed and Gohan won't mind his grandma here." Chi-Chi said softly, letting her mother lay down on the pillow next to hers. She pulled away the covers while getting up, quick to retrieve another blanket for her mother in the closet.

As Chi-Chi came back to the bed, she saw her mother had tears in her eyes and was on the very verge of crying. Immediately, Chi-Chi set down the blankets at the edge of the bed, going to her side as she touched her shoulder. "What's wrong?"

Bhiruo shook her head slightly, sniffling. "I can't help you…and I'm so weak you have to care for me when I'm like this." Chi-Chi could see more salty tears forming in her mother's brown eyes, beginning to run down her cheeks as she spoke out brokenly. "Just like before…I-I can't, can't do anything."

"Mom, please don't cry." Bhiruo felt her daughter's arms slide around her neck, pulling her close into a desperately needed hug the frail woman clung onto. "It's okay, you don't have to worry about me. I'm just happy to have you with me, even if it means having to look after you. So please don't push yourself to do things you don't need to do."

"Chi-Chi, you don't understand. I may not be...I may not be around that much longer. Soon I could be gone and not once would I have been a real mother to you." Bhiruo closed her eyes, her thin hands slipping just around Chi-Chi's back, as she buried her face into her daughter's shoulder whimpering out a sob. "I'm a failure…I'm ugly, weak. I can't barely even walk or even hold my grandson properly when I'm like this. I'm just a corpse, a useless skeleton!"

Her eyes stinging with tears, Chi-Chi rubbed the back of her mother's bald head, the smoothness of it not bothering her even though she wished her mother could grow it out like she wanted. Her father had to shave it, as her hair still came in unevenly and in patches which made her mother more miserable, often finding it hard to view her own appearance in the mirror.

"I don't need you to be my mother, I need you to be my friend; I just need you here." Chi-Chi's voice cracked, and she bit down on her own tongue, trying to hold it together. "You're a strong woman, a lot more than you realize...but you'll always be my mom. You don't have to prove anything to show that. Just being here with me is enough."

Bhiruo clenched her bony fingers into back of her daughter's gown, unwilling to release her.

"I'm sorry," She whispered, and in response Chi-Chi held her even closer, her body shaking as silent sobs wracked her form.

The pair staying that way for a long time, seemingly endless in its infinity...until Bhiruo could stay awake no longer, and allowed her daughter to help settle her down to sleep. She was drained, and could give no complains as Chi-Chi covered her with an extra blanket, before getting in on the other side of the bed. Pulling Gohan close in her arms, the little boy's tail winding around her mother's waist as he snuggled between her warm breasts and fell asleep.

They remained that way peacefully until morning dawned upon them, when the Ox-King in a frenzy, ran around the halls frantically searching the rooms for his wife. Upon discovering Bhiruo was sleeping, still in her daughter's bed, relieved and quiet as a mouse did the Ox-King wake Chi-Chi and a very hungry Gohan up.

[***]

It had been nearly two months since Raditz had arrived, and now all of their remaining time was quickly evaporating. With Vegeta scheduled to arrive in three weeks -if Raditz wasn't lying- then this huge confrontation was finally going to take place.

Fortunately, against her own judgment and doubts about the saiyan, Raditz adapted fairly well to life on Earth. Though Chi-Chi did not have any time to spare to be in his presence long enough to be sure on this, Raditz hadn't gone on any mass murdering sprees and had been mostly on his best behavior, so she consider that a plus. He spent many hours carousing nightclubs and gambling, his saiyan strength proving quite well in underground fighting arenas while he amused himself. Gine though, still acted like his mother, and when he got far too rowdy, she would make sure to drag him out of the city by his tail if she had to. Chi-Chi was glad somebody was keeping an eye on him, and felt relieved that that somebody was his own mother.

Raditz had no intention of causing trouble, instead, he was going to drown his sorrows and live a life of debauchery and pleasure until he got his sweet Anareese back. The female slave he had purchased following the fists of fury had been well worth his money, but he owned her in many ways as he had her son as well. The small boy would work in his mother's store once he grew up another four years for free in exchange for her willing consent and being with him and not objecting to his desires.

The rest of the Z-fighters continued to train, with bribery they got Raditz to train them on occasion and give them a more thorough lesson on how to fight with saiyans. It amused him and the humans were taking any advantage they could get.

Gine had recused herself for the most part, she took care of Gohan when Goku and Chi-Chi were in the gravity chamber, Chi-Chi had gained that spark to keep training and pushing herself again. Goku had helped too, encouraging her every step of the way and reminding her of all the fun times they had, and that once this was over, they could go back to the way things were.

But.

Chi-Chi wasn't sure if that could ever happen. She tried to be optimistic, thinking of a future where she would see her son grow up into a healthy, strong young man...but deep down she feared the end, of them losing everything. No amount of determination or positive thinking could snuff out the unshakable anxiety knotting in the pit of her stomach, that their days on this planet were growing short.

Preparing for Vegeta's arrival had been taking a toll on her not just mentally but physically too, with Goku having to carry her from nearly every training session when her body finally quit. If she'd sustained any scrapes or cuts from sparring, Goku treated them when she was too tired to, as she had done the same for him in the past. He took care of her when she couldn't, he did everything for her when she could not, and Goku asked for nothing in return. He helped her to get through every day, to push beyond her boundaries and fears when they threatened to cripple her completely. He gave her hope that maybe, just perhaps they might see a time beyond all this.

She loved Goku truly, and he reciprocated those feelings. He had come to mean so much to her, much more than Chi-Chi could've ever imagined, when not so long ago, it was an entirely different story. Yet even though Goku meant a great deal to her, with the connection between them strong, there was a line they were yet to cross. She didn't imagine it going beyond that, for both of their sakes, but fate meddled with them always, drawing both mother and father to where neither could avoid the inevitable. Accepting the uncertainty that they shared to take that step forward, was the part that unbeknown to the other, scared both of them.

It was less than a week to go, seven days already beginning to slip away like grains of sand, and now Chi-Chi was left in a situation where she had might have nothing by the end. If they were to die, if they weren't to succeed, then at the very least, she didn't want to die with regret…

"Chi-Chi?" The voice behind her made her jump slightly, so lost in her own thoughts she had forgotten that Goku had been here. She turned back to him, studying him from where he sat in her room on the very edge of her bed. The cool late evening breeze from the open window was being a tease, ruffling lightly at those spiky locks of hair. He looked handsome in the low light of dusk, those well defined muscles relaxed beneath his clothes, with a pure energy resonating within him. In seconds, Chi-Chi was rendered speechless again, her inside knotting as if she were nothing but a child again, meek and shy.

Goku eyes were soft, staring at her inquisitively, with the concern growing ever more apparent behind them. "What's wrong?"

She could only bite into her bottom lip, unable to form an answer, as her feet remained rooted to the floor where she stood.

"Do you love him?"

"I, I do…"

"And he loves you?"

"Yes of course, but…"

"Then that's all that matters. If you love him and he loves you, then whatever will be, it'll be. You don't need to be afraid honey."

"Mom, it's not that. I…just…I don't know if we're ready for that, if I…I…"

"You don't need to explain, I understand. You forget hon, I've been where you are with your father before. It's okay to be nervous, everybody gets like that; I'm sure even Goku feels the same as you do. So, why don't you just leave Gohan with me and your father for the night? We can manage. You and that man need time alone to sort things out, and time isn't a luxury you have, nor do I. So take your mother's advice while she still has air in hers lungs, and make a dying woman happy for having made a difference in her daughter's life…"

"Mom…"

Speaking to her mother about such delicate issues hadn't been hard to do, still, how did she get herself into this? Now here she was, all alone with Goku and she was supposed to just act like this was normal? Intimacy had just never been on her priorities. She and Goku had kissed and held each other, even sleeping in the same bed together, but it had never progressed further than that. Mostly Chi-Chi's previous disinterest not to engage in such acts stopped her in the past, while for Goku, although his naivety was a large factor, Chi-Chi was certain his fragmented memories of Kakarot were what warded him off the most. The bad dreams that left him afraid to be in his own skin; he had demons of his own to confront, much like hers… but perhaps with her help, they could face them together.

Still, was it right what she was doing, or was it wrong of her to do this?

The seconds ticked by, but there was no answer from Chi-Chi. Slowly she went over and sat beside him on the bed, their knees near touching, but still she said nothing. Goku sensed her uneasiness, her body locked tight with tension, but he did not understand why. They had been together before like this, tonight though, she seemed skittish.

"Chi, are you okay?" He asked, lightly touching her shoulder. "Seriously, you're kinda freaking me out. What's going on?"

His words only caused her to bow her head, looking away from him. She gripped at her hands on her lap, taking a few slow even breaths as she waited for them to stop shaking.

"Goku…I love you…You know that right?"

By this, Chi-Chi felt the palm of his hand cup her cheek, tilting her face gently to look back at him. Her heart melted and broke at the same time upon seeing the tender smile Goku had for her.

"Of course I do, Chi. I love you too," he announced in earnest, his thumb brushing softly along the side of her temple.

"Good, I…good," Chi-Chi said, trying to fumble her words, but couldn't form them into a coherent sentence. As if sensing her internal conflict, Goku's hand slipped away from her face, and nudged closer to her, wrapping his arm around her shoulders.

"Something is wrong, isn't it? Tell me."

The maturity in his voice within in that brief moment, it caused Chi-Chi to close up even more within herself. It was difficult to talk. The idea of having sex wasn't something she had considered, and for the most part she had ignored any desires of that kind since her death. It was supposed to be deep emotionally and spiritually, that's how she had been raised. But all of that had been thrown away and buried when Kakarot taught her all about sex, about pleasure and pain; how it didn't matter how much your mind loathed what was happening, because the physical response was a bodily function which reacted of its own accord against her will.

Chi-Chi's many rapes and own participation -when drugged or unable to control herself- broke down the deep fundamental intimacy she had once assumed was involved. Her own mind thought it was twisted and didn't desire the act, but her body still remembered everything. She had woken up in a cold sweat several times from her vivid dreams of what had happened to her, of her body betraying her and shamefully giving her the satisfaction she denied herself.

Just sitting here now with Goku made her uncomfortable, though Chi-Chi wished it wouldn't. It was crazy and not crazy at the same time, and different. She was in love with him. When they were together, she felt warm and content, and when they were asleep with her wrapped in his arms, she felt safe and loved, like nothing else mattered.

That's why Chi-Chi had to try and push beyond this. She promised herself she wouldn't let Kakarot take everything from her, that she would beat him. If overcoming this with Goku was part of it, then…then, she'd do it, and not because it was a deed to be done, but because she wanted to.

Slowly Chi-Chi head tilted upwards, looking at Goku who tried to read her expression and understand what she was doing. He saw the trepidation, but it wasn't because of him. That look came from something inside of her, something she had expressed a few times when she had been unsure of herself during their training; they were the unreadable depths of her he couldn't fully understand.

"Goku…I," Chi-Chi struggled to find the words, but there was nothing that could explain this away easily. "I want, I want you to help me."

His head cocked to the side ever so slightly, his smile dipping into a neutral expression. She was having a hard time talking to him right now and it concerned him, it always did when Chi-Chi was like this.

"I'll always help you; you don't need to ask," Goku assured, his confidence unwavering. And in response, Chi-Chi reached out to him, her hand resting against his chest.

"It's really important…I just, need you to follow and do exactly what I say, okay? I'll show you what to do," Chi-Chi hesitated, before letting her hand fall away again. "But if, if at any time you're, uncomfortable, just tell me and we'll stop. Do you understand?"

Do what she said, and say so to stop if he didn't like it; it sounded simple enough. He was used to her teaching him about things, and this seemed really important for her to be so nervous, so…

Goku gave a firm nod.

Her heartbeat spiked as Chi-Chi tried to hold it together, steadying her breathing the best that she could before she finally found it in her to speak again.

"My clothes," she said, looking into his black obsidian eyes. "I want you to take them off me."

Without asking, he knew she was being serious. Although Goku had changed her clothes before, they never did anything like that unless training was involved, and even then it was when Chi-Chi was exhausted and needed help getting out of them. Something about her request in the present, was new to him, but how, he couldn't explain.

"Are you hurt?" Goku asked, his fingers touching the collar of her shirt, pinching it between the digits of his fingertips. He was apprehensive.

"Yes, I am…and I want to heal, Goku. Please help me do that." Chi-Chi spoke softly to him, her eyes pleading as she placed her hands gently over his wrist. "Take my clothes off."

So he did. As if she was made of glass, Goku gently pulled at her orange training top, slowly drawing it up and over her head. All that was underneath was her white satin bra, having changed her undergarments into something more comfortable, but she had remained in her training clothes. Already she felt goosebumps on her exposed skin, but resisted the urge to cover up.

Setting the top on the bed, Goku looked down at Chi-Chi's pillows, his eyes tracing over her exposed skin. She said she was hurt, but he didn't see any cuts or bruises, at least not any new ones from outside of training that hadn't already been treated. That thought should've relieved him, but only made him more concerned if the thing hurt wasn't seeable by sight.

Taking another breath to calm herself, Chi-Chi slowly got up and stood in front of him, pressing down on Goku's shoulder to keep him sitting when he tried to follow. Her own hands taking Goku's in her own, she set them on the ridge of her pants, and silently she nodded her head, giving him consent. Goku's fingers pressed into the warm flesh of her waist, and in the same careful motion he tugged down her pants, exposing her finely toned, defined legs.

Goku always liked her body, but her legs were always nice to look at. He liked it when he had seen Chi-Chi in shorts before, or when she came out from the bathroom in a towel revealing her long legs, just like when she wore a gown when they slept together. As he remembered these however, a memory came back in a brief flash. Memories with her legs over his shoulders, how he was slamming his hips down into her and-

He swallowed, forcing the it away. They were only bad memories…he wasn't like that.

Once Chi-Chi stepped out of her pants, her matching undergarments were all that were left. Her brown eyes looking to Goku who blinked back at her. Her body was shaking, but not because it was cold.

"I'm going to take your clothes off now. Is that okay…?"

Goku said nothing, as he'd given her a nod. He simply watched her, raising only his arms when she lifted up and pulled off his shirt, exposing that strong muscular body that she had once feared; the new scars and marks were just additions to the battle hardened saiyan that he once was. Chi-Chi bit her bottom lip as she gripped Goku's pants and with little effort, so were they pulled off too, left to be discarded beside his shirt.

"Goku…"

"Yes, Chi-Chi?"

She stared down at his hips. "Why aren't you wearing underwear?"

"Ehhh? Oh well, they're kind of...constraining?" He said blushing a bit, with a nervous chuckle following shortly afterwards. Although he'd been given him, Goku often didn't like boxers or briefs, as he didn't feel free enough when moving. "Wait, was I supposed to? I can go get some."

"No it, don't, d-don't worry. They're not important!" Chi-Chi's face went red as she tried to calm herself.

Relax…Relax….He's not even aroused.

Her words repeating her mind, she felt her body beginning to react in two different ways. A part of her knew that pleasure and had been unwillingly trained by it. She knew what could come, and, that part of her loved that feeling of ecstasy even if it'd been wrong. Twisted it was, it was the only good thing she had for months on planet Vegeta-sei. It was all Chi-Chi knew, that immense wave of pleasure her only temporarily escape from the brutal training, cooking and violations forced upon her.

But the other half of Chi-Chi, it was consumed by anger. She hated what had been done to her, and she came to revile his anatomy, seeing it as an extension of his dominance over her body. It had tormented her, that she wished nothing but to cut him to pieces, to make him suffer.

It's not him...

She mentally talked herself down, breaking her thoughts down into basic logic. It was just a piece of him, the same body but not the same man as before. It helped her refocus, but it didn't change anything.

Goku sat there patiently in silence for some minutes, too nervous to do anything little less so much as talk. He noticed Chi-Chi's own breathing increase, as her fingers touched his legs, curling slightly as they graced over his skin. She had told him to help her heal, and he would. He would help her and him get through this.

Chi-Chi finally lifted her head to meet his from where he sat at the edge of the bed. Resting her hands on either of Goku's shoulders, she sat on his lap, drawing her knees up on either side of his thighs. Pushing down on his chest, he fell backwards with no resistance, with his eyes never leaving hers. She laid atop of him, her black hair spilling all around their heads as she undid it and let it fall free.

Her hips were pressing against his abs, the warmth of his skin in contact with hers making Chi-Chi want to flee. Instead of doing that though, she leant down, resting her forehead against his shoulder as she breathed in the smell of him. And so waited, letting herself relax once again.

She tried to focus on everything else but her fear, as her lips pressed to Goku's skin, softly kissing his shoulder. It's just tissue, muscles, and bones. It does not define him. She told herself silently. Each moment, she became that more calmer, more in control.

Goku didn't move an inch from where he laid as Chi-Chi continued to softly kiss his shoulder, a few locks of her long raven hair tickling his skin as she did so. He could feel her heartbeat like a jackhammer against his chest, its rhythm a few beats faster than his own. He was unsure of what Chi-Chi was doing exactly, but he did nothing to stop it. He wasn't sure he wanted to stop it.

Her body shivered pressing closer to him, but he still remained still as her mouth softly played with his shoulder. It was a nice feeling, really nice, and yet…

"Fuck…you are so wet and hot!"

His arms wrapped around her back as he drove up from underneath. Chi-Chi's screams ripped out from her mouth, clawing at him as his hips thrusted upwards, rocking both of their bodies together. He growled against her, his voice rumbling outwards….

Chi-Chi froze as something pressed against her underwear, her lips slipping from his shoulder on realizing what it was. His erection was slowly becoming apparent. Her actions were having an effect on him.

"G-Goku…" She whispered against him, seeking his gaze as he stared at her. He looked worried.

"We, we don't have to," Goku spoke with some alarm in his voice. With the exception of his body's reaction, he still did not move. She was starting to sweat, her eyes wide with panic and he was slowly starting to understand why; her actions, all of it, what she was asking of him. "Chi, I don't want this to hurt you."

She shook her head in refusal. "It won't hurt me, I promise. What you remember, it's not all like that. There's another side..." extending her hand out, she stroked at his chin in comforting reassurance. "Trust me, Goku…I need to do this, we both do. I don't want to be afraid of being close to you." Chi-Chi leaned down, and kissing along his jaw, until brown and onyx eyes looked into one another once again. "I love you, please help me heal." She breathed against him.

It was then at last Goku moved, reaching to tuck some of her hair behind one ear. The locks soon fell loose again, as he curled them playfully between his fingers. The whole time, he was looking at her, their faces only inches apart. Pretty, was the word that came to his mind. Chi-Chi was pretty.

The gap soon closed, and Goku felt her lips softly press against his in almost feather light kisses. They lasted several moments before breaking and starting over.

Chi-Chi found it easier to kiss him. His soft lips pressing against hers for brief moments. Comfort, reassurance is what she needed. Chi-Chi wanted nothing to associate with her past experiences. She needed to conquer her fears. It was something she had done many times throughout her life, but this was more of a mental barrier than before. Goku was nothing like Kakarot, but it felt as if she was being drained, her mind and body wanting two separate things. These soft brush stroke like kisses on his lips were her reassurance, the anchor that kept her grounded. She needed to be in control, and as Goku remained calm below her, she felt her mind slipping slowly from the grip of fear.

She slid backwards, her panties smoothing over the erect length now pressed between their bodies. A shiver shooting up her spine, Chi-Chi looked to Goku, whose hands were slightly gripping the sheets. He laid there almost docile as he waited, giving no signs of wanting her to stop, nor raising any further concerns with her. The calm look Goku gave her assured her of all it needed to.

"I'll guide you," Chi-Chi whispered softly, relieved when his grip loosened on the sheets and he nodded. Her hands trailed up to behind her back, and with a simple pop, her bra loosened and she tugged it down.

Goku lightly bit his bottom lip, unsure of the feelings being awakened inside of him as the garment fell away. He watched as her breasts slipped free, their pink tips hardening in the cool air.

"Such a wonderful pair of tits! They are delicious."

His face twitched slightly, the line of his brows furrowed for a moment. Why am I remembering…. things. Normally they were in his dreams, or by the off chance. But this time every single action, was slowly loosening old memories, as if they were being torn free one after the other. It was too much in one go.

"Goku?" Chi-Chi saw his face contort slightly.

His onyx eyes blinked, and he saw her chocolate orbs staring down at him. "Memories." Goku stated simply and he saw Chi-Chi's apprehension grow, and so did his own. "We can-"

"No," she stopped him before he could say it. "We have to get over this…Goku, you can touch them. It's okay."

Goku didn't understand exactly what she meant by touch, but he knew how Gohan touched them, propping himself up on his elbows, he leaned his head upwards and brought his lips right around her nipple. Chi-Chi's gasp almost made him let go as she froze up, but her hands soon slipped behind the back of his head, urging him to continue.

He suckled softly on the fleshly globes, his tongue rolling all around the sensitive skin. He felt her fearful shaking become gentle shivers as he kissed them, his actions rewarded as Chi-Chi pressed his head between the valley of her breasts, with her arms wrapping around Goku's spiky haired mane.

The memories of Kakarot and how he teased and toyed with her chest faded under the gentleness of Goku's actions, the touch of his mouth igniting a fire in her lower region. Chi-Chi moaned as his head switched to her other neglected one, feeling him breathe a sigh that made her shiver. Her fingers ran through his coarse hair, dragging along his scalp as she began to rock her hips against him.

"Does it feel good?" Goku asked tenderly as he kissed the aching peak.

She bobbed her head in approval. "Mhmm...it does. It feels really good." After a while, Chi-Chi let go of his head, her back arching upwards as she was ready to go just a little further; touching and kissing were only small stepping stones after all. Getting him to lay back down, she took a hold of his wrists.

"You can use your hands," Chi-Chi guided them to her chest. "Let me show you…"

She didn't flinch as Goku's palms cupped her breasts. He slowly let his fingers press into her flesh as gently as he could, feeling unsure of his actions. Seeming to catch it, Chi-Chi brought one hand around the back of his own, demonstrating the motion, while he tried to mirror her movements with the other. Like training, he caught on quick.

As she slowly showed Goku how to manipulate her flesh, her cheeks reddening with every passing minute as she closed her eyes, a realization struck Chi-Chi. She was being very timid still, but felt more confident than before. She wanted to go even further, and if they were going to do this, they were going to do it right. If she ever fell Goku would catch her. He would bring her back if anything happened, so why not fall forwards off the cliff head first?

Don't focus on your pain, focus on your pleasure. He can be your lover, and you need to grow past this. You love being a mom Chi-Chi, you can still have more children. You can have your dream…

She had nothing to lose, she let her eyes open, and in her mind she took a step off that cliff.

"My, my breasts...Goku, suck them, and be rougher with your hands," she told him. Goku's eyes snapped upwards to hers, surprised by her words as his face reddened and he blinked rapidly. Chi-Chi nodded her head, smiling as she leant down and gave him a kiss on the mouth. "I trust you. It's okay, don't be scared."

He did not wish to upset or disappoint her. Even as a pleasant chill ran through him, he knew Chi-Chi needed this, and he wanted her to enjoy it. So Goku did what she asked, squeezing that bit harder around her left breast before drawing it into his mouth, sucking hard as his tongue swirled and teased her rosey peak. Memories of the past, of the two of them together, they were flashes in his head. But this was different, this made her feel pleasure not pain. He could make her feel good and happy...

Chi-Chi moaned, her hips dragging along his abs and down as Goku's 'assault' continued. He was being more forceful now, but he did nothing to harm her flesh in the slightest. He licked and kissed away the impressions he made. She clung to him as her body warmed to his ministrations, feeling a potent dampness coming out from her core.

"Touch more of me." Her voice was faint, almost pleading. "P-Please."

Goku's mouth never left her breasts as his hands slipped down her sides, his fingers feeling along the soft bumps of her ribs as they slid around to her back. Pressing into the curve of her spine, his fingertips dragged upwards, making Chi-Chi cry out, her voice slipping as her self control fell apart at the seams.

Kakarot had broken her down by teasing her painfully with pleasure until she begged for him, forcing her to accept him and his actions. While she had always loathed to do so in bending to his will, she had still refused him for as long as she could before that, her pride as a fighter not willing to admit how good it felt. Later she had given herself up willingly, to not only spare herself embarrassment and beatings, but because it actually felt good and she needed something to take her mind off the torment of being a slave before escape was made possible. It was twisted and every time she climaxed thanks to him it made her hate and feel disgusted with herself that much more. It was a vicious cycle she lived in for those several months, but not anymore...

Chi-Chi gasped as Goku's hands ran down her backside, gently rocking her hips fluidly against his own without even having to be shown how. Upwards those strong hand trailed up her body, until they slowly slipped into her hair. Goku's mouth broke away from her chest, and Chi-Chi felt the breath stolen from her lungs as she was pulled down to his lips, his other arm wrapping around her back as her flushed face pressed against his.

"Chi," he whispered against her mouth before she silenced him, deepening the kiss.

Their tongues dueled together, Goku's slipping past and along her white teeth as he let instinct drive his actions. No matter how much he and Chi-Chi kissed, he couldn't get enough of her. It was never boring, she tasted great and he always wanted to sample her lips whenever he could, and now more than ever for they'd never kissed this deeply before. Something had awakened in him, and Goku didn't want it to end.

Chi-Chi gripped the sides of his face, as she let her own tongue push alongside his. It was the same taste, the same mouth, the same cruel tongue...but she pushed through it, and she kissed him until her lungs burned. Breaking apart for only a few seconds, Chi-Chi managed to gasp for air before being sucked back into another air stealing kiss by the saiyan, and she didn't resist his gesture. Goku was kissing her with a mixture of love, desire, and passion he had never shown before, and it making her senses go crazy. How could she stop?

Goku's fingers brushed back her long, black, raven hair from her face as he unconsciously purred into her mouth. Their hips began to rock together, his own control fading as he rolled along with her hips. It felt really good…no, she felt really good!

Shuddering, Chi-Chi let a heavy groan escape when her nether lips split across his erection, the feeling of flesh and fabric dragging and shoving together as her clit was pressed and rocked against him. She buried her head in the side of his neck as they kept that slow rhythm of pleasure going, until finally Chi-Chi pushed her hands against his chest, signaling Goku to stop.

He wanted to protest, but kept his words bottled up as Chi-Chi slowly detangled herself from him. She rolled off to the side of him, her hand remaining grasped on his wrist as she tugged him up with her, away from the bed's edge. She laid down on her back, the white sheets outlining the raven haired fighter's figure as her long untied hair framed her features. Drinking in the sight of her, Goku allowed himself to be pulled between her legs on his knees, as her hands were resting on either side of her stomach. He looked Chi-Chi in the eyes with unspoken questions in his gaze.

"My underwear, take it off," she said, leading his fingers to the soft piece of fabric.

He hooked onto the white panties, digits touching the warm flesh beneath. Goku looked at her again for certainty that this was what she wanted. Chi-Chi closed her eyes and nodded.

Gently, he pulled away her final article of clothing, sliding it slowly down her smooth legs, until it slipped off at her feet. He felt something beneath the surface of his senses, drawing him to her. The smell of her body, especially between her legs, it was making him breathe heavy, his mouth becoming dryer as he licked his top lip. The small neatly trimmed black patch of hair was just around her womanhood, where he could see the wetness spreading out from her thighs.

She opened her eyes and saw Goku's transfixed expression, he looked hungry, but he didn't move. His black orbs flicked to hers, seeking approval to go forward, and she nodded giving him consent.

He didn't wait, his mind was pounding as his body was telling him to act. He dipped his head down towards her thighs, the warm smell that flowed into his nose was so alluring. He found himself panting, his nose inhaled her scent and he began to take deeper breaths.

Chi-Chi clenched her eyes shut, inhaling sharply as Goku's mouth suddenly touched her flower. He kissed at the sensitive flesh, his tongue rolling outwards to take long licks. Chi-Chi gasped, her knees bucking as Goku continued to lick and kiss away. His hands slid underneath her back, holstering her bottom off the bed slightly as the warm breath from his nose rolled over her swelling bud.

Her fingers gripped fistfuls of his hair as images of Kakarot flashed through her mind, of her wrists bound in that nameless hotel room as he tormented her nether regions for hours on end. She fought to keep the thoughts repressed, gritting her teeth. No! Goku was the one devouring her flesh right now, not him. Goku was he one building up this fire of passion she hadn't experienced in over a year, and now it was on her terms, and not being forced upon her. Those memories could go to hell...

Whimpering, her head tossed from side to side, holding onto him desperately while his tongue quickly began to dive deep within her depths.

"G-Goku!" Chi-Chi cried out as the sensation drove her mad, her hips bucking upwards into his warm lips.

The saiyan continued unabated, wanting more and more. It was so sweet. His dreams showed that he had never gotten enough, now he could understand why. She was like honey, her unique flavor that dribbled along his tongue as he swept upwards along her edges until it sparked a reaction when he found her sensitive clit.

Chi-Chi's ki spiked, her body jolting, not voicing out protests as Goku came down again. His tongue swirled around the bud of pleasure making Chi-Chi cry out more, her head thrashed to the side as her fingers dug harder into Goku's scalp.

"Don't stop! D-Don't!"

And he didn't. Goku continued, bringing his lips closer allowing his teeth to gently press against it until he was eventually rewarded with an ear shattering scream.

Chi-Chi's legs locked upwards vertically, her hands pulling at the roots of Goku's black spikey hair. Her climax was numbing, she lost control of her body for those few short moments as her eyes locked up and she saw stars. Chi-Chi was in pure bliss, and it wasn't cheated from her, it wasn't forced out of her by tricks or poison. No, Goku had given her a taste of what she never had before, without anything else violating that.

She panted as her eyes blinked back into focus. Goku was still firmly trapped in her grip, but continued to drink from the warm liquid that seeped outwards without stopping.

Goku was always one who didn't enjoy loud noises, but hearing Chi-Chi's scream, the way her voice ripped out from her as her body clenched around him, it was like hearing an angel sing. He wanted her to make that sound again.

Waiting just a little longer until Chi-Chi's grip loosened, he let her body slide back down to the mattress. Her brown chocolate eyes were hazy and clouded with pleasure as they gazed up at him, and faintly she smiled at him. She looked so beautiful right now.

He marveled her, the light sheen of sweat atop her skin, the way her chest heaved, her nipples aching for his attention. He needed more, he craved more.

Drawing himself up over her body, Goku hungrily kissed her lips. Chi-Chi reacted, her lips parting as his tongue swept inside of her mouth, his hands cradling the side of her face as she wrapped her arms around his back.

"Goku…" Chi-Chi voice was heavy with desire as he pulled back, his own eyes mirroring the same lust she shared for him. As their bodies pressed together, their hearts hammering against one another's chests, Chi-Chi had never felt so complete. She felt warm, loved, and happy with him. It was amazing…

She didn't want to be anywhere else.

"Make love to me," She whispered softly against his lips as she drew closer. "Love me Goku."

They kissed again, their lips finding the same rhythm. Chi-Chi's legs spread wider, her body shivering with anticipation as Goku rocked his straining length against her stomach.

"Inside me," Chi-Chi whispered huskily, her breath tickling his ear. Goku understood what she meant. Drawing his body backwards, he guided himself in, the thick head pushing at the entrance of her warm core. Chi-Chi raised her hips, staring at him in a silent agreement as they both held one another's gaze for that heart skipping moment, before he pushed inside of her.

Goku hissed as her tight wet core enveloped him, his previous perception about how this was supposed to feel immediately destroyed in that instant they were made whole. Chi-Chi's body was warm, tight, and wet, the pleasure so immense he struggled to catch his breath. He felt, he felt like he was melting inside of her.

"Ch...Chi-Chi!" he cried out against her neck, as he needily rocked his hips forwards, pushing that bit deeper inside of her and heard her gasp softly in response.

Chi-Chi locked her legs around his waist squeezing him tightly. His heavy cry made her body shudder as his arms slipped down, tightly wound around her back. She could feel him deep inside of her, but there was no forcing things like Kakarot did, none of that. Goku's breathing was heavy and labored, his eyes clenched shut as he was still, trying to adjust. He clearly wanted to go further, but he waited for her consent.

She gave him a minute, stroking the back of his hair as she waited for his breathing to relax a little bit. Lightly she traced along his well-defined shoulder with her mouth, tasting the sweat on his skin, until finally, Chi-Chi, let her legs loosen.

"You can move Goku." She pulled back, enough to look into his onyx gaze again, that warmed her heart as he smiled intoxicatingly. He leaned down to kiss her once more, capturing her lips and savoring their taste.

Their bodies interlocked tightly together, electricity was inside of him as he thrust against her. His rhythm began slow, gaining pace each time he delved into her depths, craving more and more each time. Every nerve ending in Goku's entire body screamed with a level of pleasure that he had never felt before, until he was drowning.

Chi-Chi's back arched as he shoved his aching cock inside of her, moaning louder as he continued to drive himself that bit harder, drunk on hearing every single one of her blissful cries. A shiver swept over him, watching as Chi-Chi's body rocked beneath him, ecstasy written on her face as her skin almost seemed to glow in the dull light of the room. Goku never wanted to leave. Her pleasure was more important than his own. In his dreams he hurt her, made her scream and beg with tears. Goku wanted to take it all away, to take the pain and memories away. He wanted to be hers for eternity.

"G-Goku..."

Chi-Chi's arms wrapped around his neck, her long legs clamping together around his hips, the look in her eyes made him wish to drown in them.

"Harder...p-please…" it escaped from her lips, and her body and physical chants of pleasure drove him onwards.

Goku could never escape her grasp now. He grunted, his length continuing to pulse inside of her. Her face drew to the side allowing, his lips to lick at the sweet honey taste of her neck. Chi-Chi's hands clawed at the muscles in his back at his actions, her nails digging into the softness of his flesh jagged with scars.

"Goku," She begged, pleading for more. Reveling in the slip and slide of her breasts against his chest, Goku grabbed at her hips, and continued to drive inside of her, wanting all of her screams and fears to be expelled through her lips. She was perfection, her long black locks like the midnight sky.

Her nails dug into him, in a balance of pain and pleasure as she felt Goku reaching deeper than ever before. Chi-Chi arched her back off the bed, hefting her hips upwards to meet his. With only the top of her head touching the mattress, he buried himself one final time inside of her wet core and Chi-Chi cried out alongside him, her body clamping down so tight and hard that Goku thought he'd never be able to separate himself from her.

His own release came and he emptied himself into her trembling body. He hissed as his eyes clenched tightly together, groaning through tightly clenched teeth until numbness took over. He collapsed on top of her, his face resting the side of her face, feeling her panting just as much as he was.

Only their breathing could be heard for several minutes afterwards as Goku and Chi-Chi basked in the warm afterglow. They laid there together in a tangle of limbs, holding onto the other without the need for words. They were in their own personal domain right now, their little piece of heaven. It was perfect, she couldn't ask for anything else.

"Chi?" she felt the pads of Goku's fingers on her face, and opened her eyes. Chi-Chi couldn't describe it, how amazing he looked, the rawness to him that none could compare to. She loved him so much that it hurt, so much that she couldn't put it into words… so she didn't.

His weary gaze on her, breathing unevenly with sheen of sweat on his skin, Goku's face bore worry as he pawed at her cheek lightly, wiping away the tears from under her eyes.

"I'm okay," Chi-Chi assured softly, giving him a quick kiss on his nose. She wriggled slightly from under the weight of him keeping her pinned, and he got the cue to roll over to the side of her. That's how they stayed for the longest time, holding each other in blissful silence with onyx eyes staring tenderly into brown ones as the last of the evening light began to fade from the skies outside. The world beyond those windows was so quiet and distant, Chi-Chi could almost believe they were the only ones left, that it was just them here for miles and miles.

"Goku?"

"Hm...?"

Chi-Chi smiled, tilting Goku's face down towards her more as she caressed his cheek.

"Thank you," She breathed, her warm breath tickling his cheek. Goku smiled back at her, with a happiness that ignited a warm feeling in his chest. His arms circled around her, resting his chin on the top of her head as he breathed in the smell of her hair, unwilling to let her go.

"I love you, Chi."

That's all she needed to hear, to know everything would be okay.

A deep soul intensifying kiss was soon shared by both of them, claiming each other and moving beyond their previous anxieties and trepidations. Their devotion spoken in their actions to one another, not words.

They would cherish their time together, for in less than a week, they might never have this chance again...

A/N: Well what did you think? Not bad for their 'first' time?

R&R

MB