Rose: Hey everybody. Believe it or not I've had this laptop since Christmas and this is the first chapter I've written on it. It takes some getting used to I'll tell ya that!
Disclaimer: OC's and plot.
You've been getting alot of updates because I'm on half-term. But come Monday they'll probably slow down a little as I focus more on school. You will still get one update a week and with a bit of luck maybe two or three. Depending on my homework.
Deidara didn't look particularly happy when I exited the bathroom wearing a long coat, thick pants and some boots. The blond had discarded his cloak and shoes, the winter ones that covered his toes, and was sitting on the edge of the bed sulking. I moved closer and placed myself in his lap; he automatically slipped his arms around my waist and pulled me tight against him "stay in here with me, un" he mumbled "why'd you want to go outside?"
"Snows fun" I grinned at him, he pecked my lips softly "why don't you come out with us?"
"Ha" he snorted, I frowned,
"Is something wrong? You seem upset" he rubbed my stomach subconsciously and shook his head,
"No, un. You go play. Nothing's wrong" he pushed me away slowly and rolled over so he was facing the wall, I kissed his cheek,
"I won't be out for too long" I promised.
The spider on my shoulder chirped impatiently as Tobi and I placed the finishing touches on our snow-man, we were out on the cliff-side where Deidara had almost had sex with me that night. I looked over towards the entrance to the hideout where said blond was waiting with his arms crossed,
"I'll see you later Tobi!" I waved and turned, only to have the man grab me from behind and lift me up by my waist, my laugh turned into a kind of joyful scream when Tobi tripped over and fell flat on his back with me on his stomach,
"Damnit Tobi! Un" we looked up at the sound of Deidara's shout, he looked particularly sour, his arms were uncross and at his sides, fists clenched, his jaw was set and his lips were pulled back into a snarl,
"Aw Geeze" I sighed and pulled myself up, the masked-man followed suit "bye Tobi…Really this time!"
"Bye-bye Pretty Flower!" I started towards the blond but he started motioning me to go faster so I broke out into a run; he opened his arms and embraced me tightly,
"Did that idiot hurt you? Un" he asked as we moved back inside,
"Don't be so protective. I'm fine!"
"You're freezing, un" he growled, taking my hands "I can feel the cold through your gloves!" I stared up at him,
"Really? I don't feel it!" he shrugged off his cloak and draped it over my shoulders so I had an extra layer, he still didn't look too happy as we made our way back to his room so I smiled up at him "would you…" I felt my cheeks heat up but I wasn't sure if it was because if the cold or something else "…Cuddle with me to warm me up?" he blinked at me before grinning,
"And what would we be doing before the cuddling? Un" he purred, wrapping his arm around my waist
"Um…"
"Today was the happiest I've ever seen you" he decided not to pursue his previous question "when you were outside, it was like you had no worries, it was like nothing was bothering you" I nodded, at a loss of what else to do "I wasn't going to go get you, you know" he scratched his cheek "I was going to see how long you really took, but Kisame came in and disturbed me, saying you looked totally different to usual. Like a cloud had been lifted. So I had to go and look, un" I nodded again,
We'd just reached his room when a voice called out, looking over we saw Itachi approach us "Deidara, it's your turn to do the grocery shopping" the blond sighed,
"Can't I do it later? Un"
"Not unless you want an angry Hidan chasing after you"
"Fine, fine!" he snarled, the Uchiha strolled off smirking in amusement, when he was out of sight I felt myself being hastily pushed past the threshold, when the door was shut Deidara pinned me against it and began to tug off my coat, the spider let out an angry squeal and leapt onto the floor and scurried under the bed,
"Don't you have to-"
"I can do it in a bit, un" he panted, holding me around the waist so I couldn't escape "I'm just going to warm you up a little" I caught the grin and scowled,
"We aren't doing it"
"I never said we were, un. You shouldn't suspect the worst of me all the time Petal"
"Uh huh" he pecked the corner of my lips, then my jaw and neck,
"You wouldn't mind if we did everything but that though, would you? Un"
I laughed and shoved him away playfully "Dei-Dei, what happened the last time you didn't do what Itachi asked?" he flinched at the long-forgotten memory "that's what I thought" I strolled past him "I'll take a bath to warm up"
"Why don't you come with me? Un"
"I thought you didn't want me going outside when it was cold?" I smirked, he faltered,
"I hate it when you turn my words around like this, un" I giggled again but froze as he strolled closer "you know everyone says I give you far too much freedom?" I backed away but he followed and eventually boxed me into the wall "despite the fact you're my prisoner, you waltz around like this is you house back in Konoha. Completely carefree and helpless, especially now…" he pressed the back of his hand to my stomach "we can't have anything happen to you can we?" I gulped and bit back the sharp comment I wanted to say,
"I'm perfectly capable of looking after myself" I frowned "pregnant or not" he purred,
"You have far to much power over me, un" he kissed me on the lips softly this time before backing away, I was slightly pale now,
"You aren't going to-"
"What? Un, lock you up? I couldn't do that" he shrugged "for one you'd be upset and I'd have Tobi on my ass everyday" I snorted with laughter as he left the room.
After my bath I changed into a pair of Deidara's boxers and the same white shirt I'd had on before. Opening the door to the bathroom I glanced around, in the back of my mind I felt like someone was watching me, then I caught sight of the spider and breathed a sigh of relief,
But I'd only taken one step into the room when everything took a turn for the worst, the room began to spin like a kaleidoscope yet I remained perfectly still, watching as the furniture seemed to move from the floor to the ceiling to the walls, I stumbled heavily as I tired to manoeuvre my way to where I knew the bed was supposed to be, I'd barely moved an inch when there was a flash of red in my eyes that slowly faded to black as my skull connected with the stone at my feet.
Something was not right! When I next opened my eyes I was in the bed, but something was off, the room looked the same in every way. The spider was even asleep on my pillow. I tried to sit up but found myself unable to. My breathing quickened as I began to panic, trying to will my arms and legs to do something but they remained motionless, my eyes darted around looking for anyone to help but no matter what I did they suddenly decided that they were no longer going to listen as-well, I couldn't even blink! I felt so helpless and scared. From my left I heard footsteps, they stopped beside the bed but I knew that even in my position I would have been able to see them out of the corner of my eyes; it was like they were invisible!
Then a pressure started to build in my chest, it moved around my form, behind my eyes, making me feel like they were going to pop out, down my arms so that they ached so much, until finally settling on my stomach, the air was sucked from my lungs and I could take none in. I felt as though I'd been punched. In an instant my body was free from the invisible bonds and I clawed at my throat, drawing in oxygen shakily and slowly, the pressure on my stomach grew. For a second I thought that there was something on me but when I reached to remove it there was nothing,
My fear escalated.
I fell out of the bed and screamed as what felt like a non-existent knife was plunged into me, I rolled over and arched my back, there was nothing! There was always nothing!
The spider didn't wake up! Why didn't it? Why didn't it find help?
An iron scent hit my nose and I gagged, I'd never smelt something so strong and so sickening at the same time, the footsteps were by my head now and looking up I…Saw nothing, this time I cried out in frustration, where was the owner of the footsteps?
Something trickled down my thigh as I forced myself to my feet, the smell found me again and I almost vomited, the footsteps moved behind me, I span and found myself staring at the same red eyes that haunted my dreams. They were floating in-front of me, in invisible eye-sockets on an invisible head, I flung my arms out wildly and collapsed to the floor as the sheets I'd taken with me tangled around my legs, I heard someone shouting my name but it was drowned out as continuing screams ripped from my throat and my eyes wouldn't break away from the red ones…
"AKINA! AKINA!" my body was being rocked back and forth and slowly the room began to dissolve away, the eyes followed at the last possible second and in their place a pair of onyx ones replaced them "AKINA!" I struggled wildly and the person calling me held my arms but I kicked out, yelping as pain shot through me but still I didn't stop fighting, my backside connected with hard stone and my legs were bound "AKINA!"
At last my eyes snapped open and Itachi was restraining me, I'd fallen from the bed and the covers had been was tied my legs as the Uchiha had been trying to calm me down "Sharingan!"
"What?" he panted, slowly releasing me,
"Sharingan! Those eyes were Sharingan!" I repeated, Itachi studied my whitened face for a few seconds before they darted to the bed; I followed his gaze to a patch of red,
"We need to get you to Konan!" he threw his cloak around my shivering body and picked me up, outside a few other members were crowded around the doorway,
"Itachi!" Kisame shouted after us "what happened?"
"HEY!" Hidan joined in "he asked you a fucking question!"
"Itachi!" Zetsu tried "why do I smell blood?"
"Find Deidara!" the Uchiha ordered, refusing to answer any other questions they threw at him, they stopped when we turned the corner towards the infirmary, we didn't reach it before I blacked out from exhaustion.
"WHERE…SHE?"
"She…Kay…Ara…
"…Happened?"
"She…Asleep…Blood on the she…"
"Will…She…Alright? Un"
"She'll…Fine…De…"
I slowly drifted back into consciousness as Konan's voice washed over me, my vision was blurry but slowly three people became clear to me "she's waking up" I heard Itachi say, the other two forms moved closer, I felt Deidara run his hand through my hair, I blinked up at him,
"Where am I?" I asked hoarsely,
"The infirmary" Konan answered, I began sit up but three sets of hands tried to push me back down, I let out a moan of frustration and batted them away, they backed off and the only female of the threesome coughed nervously "Itachi, I have something that needs to be discussed with Deidara and Akina privately" the Uchiha nodded and left the room without argument,
"What's wrong? Un" the blond gripped my hand tightly; I winced as I twisted in the bed to make myself more comfortable,
"I wasn't completely truthful before" she started "although Akina has escaped this…Incident…Mostly unharmed I'm afraid that…Well…Akina has suffered a miscarriage. Probably caused by the trauma of the nightmare Itachi told me about" I fell back into the pillows and watched Deidara's face pale,
"You can't do anything? Un"
"It's already gone" she replied sadly, he collapsed on the chair by the bed and held his head in his hands, I saw his shoulders shake and knew he was trying to fight back tears, I didn't know how to feel exactly, on the one hand I hadn't wanted the baby in the first place but on the other hand I knew that I'd unknowingly become attached to the unborn thing that had been growing inside me,
"Konan" I whispered, she looked over towards me "where was I when Itachi found me?"
"He heard you scream and found you in bed, thrashing about. And when he tried to wake you, you fell from it"
"But I didn't fall asleep in the bed…"
"What?" Deidara's shoulders jerked and I knew he was listening too,
"I fainted…Outside the bathroom door"
"I don't understand…That means someone moved you! That explains the injury on your head…" we waited for her to continue "I'll…I'll check into it, the good news is that I've stemmed the excess bleeding from your uterus and healed the bump on your head. So Akina, you should be out of here my tomorrow at the earliest" I nodded stiffly, Deidara raised his head to stare at her,
"So she's defiantly going to be okay? Un" the bluenette nodded and he released a sigh,
"I'll leave you two alone for a bit then" Konan said quietly as she left, the blond moved to sit on the bed and buried his face into my shoulder and wrapped his arms around my waist, I returned the gesture,
"I'm sorry, un, I'm sorry! This is all my fault!"
I knew in my head that is was nobodies fault, but my mouth wouldn't listen to my brain and I remained silent as he poured apologies out onto my skin for hours.
Deidara hadn't wanted to leave me but I'd convinced him to get some sleep some time after midnight, I myself fell asleep soon after he left and awoke around what was the usual breakfast time, outside the door I heard voices and footsteps as the others passed to get some food,
I was waiting for the blond to return like he'd promised he would, absently thinking that it was rather ironic that I held so much control over him when what we'd said was true; I was the prisoner so therefore I was powerless yet that wasn't the case!
The door cracked open "Dei!" I grinned, sitting up quickly, but it wasn't him, instead Tobi stepped through the door "oh…Hi Tobi" I tried to act cheerful so as not to upset him but secretly I was a little bit,
"Tobi heard Pretty Flower was ill" he moved over to the bedside and pulled his hand out from behind his back to hand me a bundle of colourful blue and white blooms, obviously native to Rain because I couldn't identify them,
"Wow, thanks Tobi" I grinned and lay then across my lap, I was about to ask him if he's seen Deidara when said man entered frantically,
"I'm late, I'm sorry, un" he panted and caught sight of Tobi, then his cornflower blue eyes moved to the flowers, I followed his gaze,
"Aren't they pretty? Tobi got them for me"
"Uh…Yeah, un" he coughed nervously,
"Tobi should go" the man said, rubbing the back of his head, as he passed the blond he waved "bye Deidara!" he muttered some kind of reply before occupying the space on the bed Tobi had vacated, I heard a rustling sound as something hit the floor,
"What was that?" I asked, trying to lean over the side to see but he stopped me,
"Nothing, un, you're imaging things…" I blinked up at him "there's something I need to tell you…Actually there's a few things"
"You're breaking up with me aren't you?" I joked, trying to lighten the dark mood that was contained in the small room,
"No, un, never…It's just…The others know"
"Know?"
"About…Yesterday, un"
"Oh" I whispered, realisation hitting me "how did they find out?"
"I accidentally blurted it out when they surrounded me on my way to bed…By the way I slept in the living room, un"
"Oh" I repeated,
"Also…Although this is possibly the worst thing to ever happen to us…I think it was for the best, un" he saw me staring in confusion "not saying that I didn't want the baby! I did…But Leader, he was…He wanted to…" he paused to take a deep breath "he was going to turn it into a weapon and there would have been no way to stop him" I smiled,
"Then maybe it was for the best…The baby obviously wasn't right for us" I consoled,
"I don't think I'd be a good father anyway…Not here in Ame at least…And we can always try again…Right? Un, later down the line?" he avoided all eye contact with me,
"Of course" I grinned, though in my I head I was screaming every profanity known to man "this is just a bump in the road! We get through this!" he nodded, blond locks swaying,
"I…Um…Have your spider, un" he dug into his cloak pocket and pulled out the little clay beast, it chirped happily and crawled onto my shoulder to nuzzle my cheek "it came to find me yesterday. I was on my way back when Kisame and Zetsu ran into me and told me about you. But the spider had already explained everything but they said where to find you…You wouldn't believe how scared I was, un" I pecked the top of his head softly,
"I think I'm ready to leave now" I whispered to him "if you'll just help me up" he supported me as I stood shakily,
"Petal…" he sighed, eyes locked onto my legs where dried rivulets of blood tattooed my skin,
"It'll wash off" I clenched my eyes shut as the memory of the smell came back to me, my bare foot landed on something crunchy, looking down I saw flowers, purple tulips and white lilies "oh Dei!" I smiled, herding them into my arms, they were a little damaged but I didn't mind,
"They aren't as nice as Tobi's, un" he mumbled,
"There're better than Tobi's" I said "because they came from you!"
Rose: That was so sad yet so touching at the same time!
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