Yesterday
Yesterday I cried for the first time in years. I cried until my eyes were dry, before starting up again minutes later, wailing so loudly that people in the main room were wondering what was going on.
Yesterday I lost something I held dear to me. No, it wasn't a memorable and/or humorous key-chain, or a puppy I'd gotten a week ago. I lost something that most women these days are very nonplussed about, and I can never understand why. It wasn't the fact that I lost it, it has happened before in a very different way, but the fact that I felt as if I had no say in it made it so much worse.
Yesterday I felt as if the weight of the Sun was placed on me, to go nicely with the Earth already on there. I thought that it would make it all better, that if I did this one thing then the whole world would stop pressuring me and making me feel guilty for not following their expectations.
Yesterday I'm pretty sure may have been the last day I have a comfortable conversation with Sam. She cried too, while begging me to not go through with it. But maybe not, I'm fairly sure I can get the Sun off my back, not to mention the expected son I was supposed to produce.
Yesterday I married Fredward Benson, ignoring my lover's pleas for me not to.
Yesterday I married him. Tomorrow I'll run away with her.
Okay, so I wanna have this over and done with by the end of the year, so review fast guys!!