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Kira opened his eyes, panting as the remnants of Light Yagami were expelled from his mind for the third time. His vision cleared and he focused on the man standing in front of him. He watched the hope fade from his eyes yet another time, and grinned,"Not going how you wanted, L?"He chuckled darkly, not bothering to try and pretend to be Light.

He'd tried that the first time he'd awoken, but the nuisance had figured out it was an act within a minute and taken the notebook away.

"Kira…"L trailed off.

He tested the limits of the bonds again, already knowing he wouldn't be able to move freely. There was no way out of this for him, he could tell that much from Light's memories. He knew that asking Misa for help would just lead to Rem killing him. But he refused to submit to his enemy. To the man he should have been successful in killing. To anyone.

He was supposed to be the god of the new world.

Now, the only victory he could have was breaking them.

"Snap out of it, Light!"Matsuda insisted, the fool.

He laughed,"I love how you think there's a difference."

"Kira, you are being deliberately cruel."Near noted.

"You are being deliberately naïve."He kept smiling,"Light doesn't want to be in control. He doesn't want to live. I do."

He could get on board with them being two different people.

Light was weak, and Kira was strong. Strong enough that he didn't need those pathetic connections to others. He didn't need a soul, a conscience. He didn't need to be loved. He had embraced what he was a long time ago, a monster, but a monster was just a word for something inhuman. He had risen above humanity, he saw the world more clearly than anyone.

"You're lying."L replied.

"I'm not."He met his gaze again.

"Where is the other notebook?"The oh so great detective asked.

"Why should I tell you?"Kira tilted his head.

"You've lost. There is no way you can continue killing."His enemy said, and he wished he would say it as a taunt,"You gain nothing by refusing to cooperate."

He scoffed,"I gain nothing by cooperating."He tilted his head,"Are you going to keep asking politely?"

He'd promised Light that he wouldn't torture him, but even Light, as weak as he was, had known it was the only way to get him to do anything. He may have lost, but he'd make sure that Light wouldn't want to look his lover in the eyes after this. That little domestic shit he was starting? He would end it, and the heirs would never be able to look at their mentor the same way.

"Don't make us do this."Soichiro pleaded, as if he meant anything to him.

"I am determined to prove a villain and hate the idle pleasure of these days."Kira drawled with a smirk.

"What's that mean?"Matsuda asked.

L turned away,"Dive, thoughts, down to my soul."

He would leave him with no good decisions and his bad ones would destroy him. He wanted his bitterness, his resentment, to infect him, consume him, break him. For the chance to beat L in any way, he could be content with losing his ideal new world. He could die happy knowing neither of them ever would be.

"It's pathetic how much he loves you."Kira stared at his back as it tensed,"He never told you that, did he?"A tremble, he was sure of it,"My fault I suppose. There was always a part of him that wondered if his attraction to you was because of me, because I wanted you to come to care about me."He didn't need to see his face. The sudden worry on Near's was all he needed to know.

"I never thought it would work this-"

A punch across his face interrupted his words.

"Don't lie about that."L rubbed his fist, his eyes filled with a cold fury.

"So you can lie to yourself?"Kira chuckled. He could handle pain, better than Light,"You know as well as I do that lies don't last forever."He shook his head to move his hair back into place.

"Where is the notebook?"L demanded again.

"Is that all you want to ask me?"The god raised an eyebrow.

"It is all that you are good for, Kira."The detective replied.

"And what are you good for, L?"He asked,"You think you're saving Light but you'll only end up ruining him."He smirked,"There's a reason you were alone before him."

That would have earned him another punch, but Mello caught his arm,"As much as I'd like to see you punch him, this isn't working, L."

He wondered if they would give up.

There would never be an instance where he wouldn't overpower Light. Light wanted them to be punished, and the only way that would happen was if Kira was in control. He was even alright with their afterlife punishment. If he hurried, he was certain that he would be able to get his place as a Shinigami in the deaths he'd caused so far. He wouldn't oppose the king, but he wouldn't ever be nothing.

L muttered something to the boy, who nodded and departed the room with Near and Matsuda.

Kira watched them go,"What are you planning, L?"

"Why would I tell you that?"The detective crossed his arms.

"Why wouldn't you tell Light that?"He narrowed his eyes,"You were confident that Light would maintain control. You never brought up a backup plan."His enemy shifted,"Unless you aren't sure this plan will work."He chuckled,"Are you that desperate not to hurt your love?"

"Is there nothing you love, Kira?"L asked.

"Monsters like us can't love."He replied easily.

"I thought that true about myself until I met Light."The detective watched him.

He met his gaze, unrepentant,"You aren't going to get anywhere with that."

"Mogi, Aizawa, Chief, if you would please leave the room."There was a hesitation in the NPA officers, but they left. L grabbed his hair, his grip tight enough to hurt,"I am going to give you some time to consider telling me where the second location of the Death Note is while I prepare the backup plan."He let go,"I hope you reconsider."

"I won't."He said confidently,"Do your worst, L."

The detective walked out, and he wondered what was going to happen to him. He could try to move his hand and throw the notebook to the side…no, Light wouldn't beg, he wouldn't make it as heartwrenching. They didn't have the time to isolate him, and he doubted Soichiro could look him in the eye to tug on that severed heartstring. He forced his body to relax.

Anything that broke him would break Light more and in turn, his greatest opposition.

Which was a victory for him.

Sayu was cleaning the dishes after dinner when her phone rang. She frowned at it as she grabbed a dishcloth to dry her hands. She checked the caller ID and smiled, answering it immediately,"Light! It's been forever since you've called!"

She still couldn't believe Mom and Dad had let him go on a trip for so long, especially since he was taking time away from school for it, and time away from Misa since she was currently filming a movie with Hideki Ryuga! She had been waiting for him to come home so she could demand to get onto that set and meet her idol, but alas, he seemed happy to be who knows where doing who knows what.

"Um…"A voice that was definitely not her brother's responded,"Is this Sayu Yagami?"

"Yes."She frowned,"Why do you have my brother's phone?"

"My name's Mello."The voice seemed to gain confidence,"I'm an…acquaintance of your brother."

"Never heard of you."She moved out of the kitchen,"And that doesn't anwer my question."

"Look, something's happened to your brother. I'll explain more in person."Mello, and what a weird name that was, said,"I was just calling to let you know we'll be at your house in five minutes."

She sat down,"What happened to Light? He's in Japan?"

"Believe me, it's better if I tell you in person."

She bit her lip, debating whether or not to trust him. Her brother was meticulous, he wouldn't have just lost his phone. And if something had happened to him, why would she be the first one to know about it? She was pretty sure if Mom and Dad knew they would have told her…maybe it wasn't anything serious. She made a noise to show she was still there.

"Is there anything you can tell me?"She asked impatiently, used to the evasive answers when her father was on a case.

"Are all Yagamis this sarcastic?"Mello wondered.

"All Yagamis?"She echoed,"How many of us do you know?"

He had to be a really good friend if he thought Light was sarcastic. Her brother was careful to be polite with everyone. He only got sarcastic with her, and maybe Yamamoto or a few of his other friends from when he was younger. But not someone she wouldn't have heard about…unless her brother either really liked him or really disliked him.

"Your father and your brother."Mello sounded young, she decided, but people tended to sound weird over the phone.

"Weird."She noted aloud,"So…should I call Mom?"

"Please don't."Another voice said, this one even younger,"We're here. Please open the door."

She hung up and prepared the number for the cops if she needed it. Something about them sounded…desperate. She jumped at the knock on the door, but peered through the lookout. It was a strange site. She was pretty sure she'd met the older guy before, but the two kids with him didn't look any older than her. One was blond with blue eyes, and the other had white hair and grey eyes.

Foreigners?

She opened the door a little bit, and the man smiled,"Hey, Sayu. I'm Matsuda, I work with your father."

She'd probably seen him before at some work event, that's why he looked familiar. She smiled,"Yeah! You're the one Dad's always talking about. Come in."She'd probably get in trouble for letting two strangers in, but if they were with Matsuda they couldn't be too bad. She bowed slightly to them,"Sayu Yagami, but you probably already knew that."

"Mello."The blond awkwardly returned the gesture. So she'd been right about the foreign status.

"Near."The white haired kid offered, and she noted she was taller than him.

"So what's wrong with Light?"She asked,"I didn't know he was near Tokyo."

"He hasn't left."Matsuda rubbed the back of his head,"He's been working the Kira case with your father for the last few months."

"What?"That wasn't that surprising, but why keep it a secret? And why suddenly tell her now?"Is he…?"

"No, he's alive."The NPA detective assured her quickly,"We just need your help."

"You need my help?"She repeated. How could she help fight Kira?

"It's complicated."Mello sighed, and she found he couldn't quite look her in the eyes,"Your brother is Kira."She stepped back in surprise, because her brother could not be Kira. There was no way that he would have become a killer, no way he would break the law.

Except…he'd been different before he left. He spent a lot more time in his room and barely went out. She'd also been worried that he was depressed in his last year of high school. He always looked bored, always looked alone. It really wasn't until Kira came around that he seemed to have any ambition, that it felt like he was trying to do something. She'd thought he'd finally decided to start dating.

She slowly frowned,"Are you sure?"

"He's not always Kira."Near explained,"When L was getting too close, he was forced to give up his memories of being Kira, as well as his power."She frowned, because how was that possible?"We've regained one of Kira's weapons, but we've run into problems with the second."

They told her a story that was so ridiculous that it had to be true. A Death Note had been dropped in front of her brother, and he'd been unable to resist its power. Apparently, no one had once they used it once. The power warped his mind, destroyed his morals, and he turned into Kira. Without the memories, he was still her brother, but with them…he was a stone hearted murderer.

They'd apparently been shown the future? She wasn't so sure about that, but she decided to listen until they actually made a request.

In the future, there were only two people that Kira hesitated to kill. Their father and herself, but the only one where he'd been put at a disadvantage because of that reluctance to kill had been due to her.

They hoped she could convince Kira to give up.

"Do you really think it'll work?"She asked, shivering at the thought of looking into her brother's eyes and knowing there was a murderer's mind behind them.

Near and Mello exchanged glances,"Maybe."The blond answered,"L hasn't really been able to get through to him…"

"Why would…?"She sighed, honestly too confused with the situation,"Whatever. You need me to get my brother to tell me where this murdering journal is? My brother, who I didn't even notice was killing people? And I know where he hides his porn."She wouldn't say she knew everything about her brother, but she knew more than anyone else,"Otherwise you'll have to…?"

Torture him? Or his body, since Kira's mind wasn't really her brother.

"I'll do it."She decided before they could confirm her summary. The details didn't matter that much anyways. She was no good at keeping them straight in her head.

"Are you sure?"Mello asked,"We don't want to force you into this."

"I want to help."Sayu said more confidently.

So they got in the car. Mello pointedly looked out the window, while Near sat next to her fiddling with his hair. She knew they were giving her space to digest what they told her, but she couldn't really make a plan. She didn't want to think about it, and the longer they didn't look at her, the worse she felt.

"Are you guys not looking at me cause I'm Kira's sister?"She asked.

Two sets of eyes snapped to her,"No."They said in unison, one angrily, the other in a firm monotone.

She met Mello's gaze, and he averted it after five seconds. She crossed her arms and huffed,"Then why can't you look me in the eye?"

"In the future, I kidnapped you to use you as leverage against your father."He revealed tightly, as if that meant anything to her or she should be angry with him for something that didn't happen.

"But you're not planning to now."She rolled her eyes,"So we can be friends, right?"

"…friends?"The blond looked at her.

"Why not?"If they weren't enemies or strangers, then that just left friends.

"I don't have many friends."Near muttered.

"Light's dating their mentor so you should be friends."Matsuda informed her of what was probably the second most important piece of information.

She turned to look at the boys,"Light's dating someone else? What happened to Misa?"

"They broke up last Friday."Near told her, while Mello rubbed at his ears.

"What?!"She demanded,"And he's already moved on?"

"Um…"Mello hesitated again,"Our mentor's a guy?"

Whoa, she had missed a lot, but good on her brother to come out. It wasn't entirely unexpected. She'd seen him with the Director's son at that party, but she always figured that gender didn't matter to him as long as he found the other interesting,"What's he look like? Is he cute?"

"He looks like Near but with black hair."The blond explained,"He's twenty-four."

"Twenty-four?"That was about the same age difference as some of her friend's parents. She scrutinized Near's face, before deciding,"He must be pretty cute then."The white haired kid looked at her in surprise, and she shrugged,"What? I'm just being honest."He blushed a little, which was weird, but then she refocused,"How much money does he have?"

"Does that matter?"Mello wondered.

"I mean, he's twenty-four so he should have a job."Sayu rolled her eyes,"He can't be mentoring you in something unless he is something."

"He's L."Near told her.

"L? As in the detective?"They nodded, and she almost vibrated in excitement, because this was the stuff of dramas,"Oh my god, Light seduced the detective investigating him? And I thought Misa was an impressive catch."

"Shouldn't you be more concerned about facing Kira?"The blond frowned.

"You want me to reach the part of him that's still Light?"She smiled back,"I need to know what's going on with Light. So, is he rich? Does L get paid?"

"He had a skyscraper built in under a year."Matsuda told her,"He's insanely rich."

"See?"Sayu looked at the two her age,"Mr. Matsuda's being way more helpful than you guys."

They stared at her in disbelief.

"So he's rich, attractive, super smart, and foreign?"They nodded, still stunned,"And Dad approves of him?"Matsuda made a noise of affirmation,"But since he's L, Kira hates him and he can't get through to him."She knew how her brother got really irritated at people who told him he was wrong,"That must suck. Does he like hugs? I'll give my future brother-in-law a hug."

They didn't talk much before they arrived at the tower. There was a slight issue with the security of the building, but then they brought her to a room with what she assumed had a one-way mirror. The notebook was in her brother's hand, but that was not her brother. It was his face, sure, but he had never had such a sinister expression. She walked closer to it with a small gasp.

"Sayu."Her father looked like he'd aged the five years they had been shown into the future,"You didn't have to agree to do this."

"He's my brother."She replied, turning to look at the rest of them.

There was a man who was only watching her brother. He wasn't textbook handsome, but she could tell nothing mattered more than the young man in the room. That had to be L. She broke away from her father and ran up to him, wrapping her arms around him,"Thank you."She said as his arms tentatively hugged her back,"For wanting to save Light."

"He's going to be so mad I brought you here."Her future brother-in-law replied.

"I'll convince him to forgive you."She decided he could use some practice with hugs,"After I get the location of the other journal."

"Notebook."Near corrected.

"Same difference."She chattered because otherwise she would lose her nerve,"Can I go in now?"

"We should have a plan."Mello worried,"Do you know what you're going to say?"

"No."She drew out of the hug,"But if you guys give me a script, he'll figure it out and get angry. I'm the only one here Kira doesn't see as an enemy, right?"

"You can't get through this on luck."The blond shook his head.

Sayu looked at the greatest detective in the world,"I can do this."

L met her gaze, and then nodded,"Whatever you think best. He's your brother."

"That doesn't mean anything."Near said dismissively.

"It means everything."They said together, and she liked who her brother chose.

He looked like he believed in her, so she believed in herself.

"I'm ready now."Sayu said, walking towards the door. She took a deep breath, then entered the room with one of the biggest mass murderers in recent history. The door closed automatically behind her and she approached, trying to find a glimmer of anything familiar in those brown eyes. He was quiet in his surprise, but slowly they filled with an unfamiliar rage.

No, not unfamiliar. One time some boys were messing with her and her brother had defended her. That was the only other time she'd seen him angry.

Her brother was in there.

"You shouldn't be here."He glared at the glass,"L should not have brought you here."

She sat in front of him, looking up,"Aren't you happy to see me?"

He strained against the chains,"Did they force you to come here?"

"No. They asked and I said yes."She kept smiling.

"And they think you can convince me to give up just because you're my little sister?"He chuckled, and she forced herself not to be scared.

This was her brother. He wouldn't hurt her. Nothing could undo a lifetime of him protecting her, not even a diary from a death god.

This was the first time that he needed her help and she would help him.

"I don't think Mello or Near really believe in me."She pouted,"Pretty sure they think I'm an idiot."

"You're normal."Light/Kira assured her,"And that's fine."

"Then why isn't it fine for you to be normal?"Sayu asked.

"Those are completely different circumstances."He sighed.

"Not really."She tilted her head,"You started this because you wanted to make a better world, right?"He nodded,"Well, you don't need a deadly journal to do that. You can make the world a better place just being yourself."She smiled,"The world doesn't need Kira."

"Sayu…"His eyes softened, and then he shook his head,"You don't understand."

"Then explain it to me."She demanded petulantly,"It's not like you're going anywhere anytime soon."

His eyes closed, and he let out a deep breath. She was used to that, and waited patiently for his eyes to open. He stared at her,"None of that matters now. I've lost."

"Admit defeat then."Sayu leaned forward,"No shame in losing."

"Kira wasn't supposed to lose."He tensed.

"Everyone loses."

"I'm not like everyone else."

"You're human Light."She smiled, hoping she was reaching him.

"Kira's the god of the new world."He didn't look away from her.

"You can't be a god and my big brother."She pleaded. He looked in pain, and she hoped that was a good sign. She hesitantly got on her knees, reaching out to touch his hand,"Please. The world doesn't need Kira, but I need you. Can't you keep being my hero?"

The pain increased, and she tried not to wince at how tightly he was holding her hand. He let out a gasping breath, before chuckling,"I'll always be your hero."

Did that mean they had Light back all the way? She beamed,"Then tell me where the other notebook is, and we can go home."

There was another pain filled silence, before he told her.

She grabbed the notebook and tossed it to the side of the room. Without it, his memories of being Kira should be forgotten. He closed his eyes again, taking a few shuddering breaths. He didn't look at her as he bowed his head,"Did I…Did I scare you?"

"A little."She frowned at the chains, wondering when L would come in to unlock him,"But that's okay as long as you get Misa to introduce me to Hideki Ryuga. And Mr. Matsuda told me your new boyfriend is really rich so I expect something really nice from him."The door opened, and L showed up with the key.

He was making eyes at her brother so she ducked out to give them a little privacy. There was another kid when she got into the other room, this one a brunette with nice blue eyes. Mello stopped talking to him to look at her,"I can't believe that worked."

"Why not?"She frowned.

"Why should his little sister mean more than everything else?"The blond grumbled.

She shrugged. Why did siblings care about each other anyways? She and Light were nothing alike, they didn't even look that alike. She knew people like her brother, well, not exactly, but the aloof handsome genius type. The ones that didn't have to try to be perfect. And she avoided them because she was never able to be friends with them.

None of Light's friends were anything like her either.

If they were strangers that met at school or at the mall or something, they wouldn't have even been friends. There was something about them simply being related that made them automatically more special in each others' eyes. She didn't know why it worked that way, it just did. But her brother was someone who would be with her for most of her life…

"You're thinking out loud."The third kid her age told her.

"Whoops."She shrugged, not caring.

So what if she wasn't a genius?

She'd been enough, and that's all she wanted to be.

There was nothing wrong with normal.