Chapter 32
I'm going home But so many people are looking to me Most days But so many people are looking to me I wont give up like this But so many people are looking to me But so many people are looking to me
Downhearted and hoping
I'm close to some new beginning
I know
There's a reason for everything
That comes and goes
To be strong and to fight
But I'm just surviving
I may be weak but I'm never defeated
And I'll keep believing
In clouds with that sweet silver lining
I try my best to put on a brave face
But inside
My bones are cold and my heart breaks
But all the while
Something is keeping me safe
And alive
To be strong and to fight
But I'm just surviving
I may be weak but I'm never defeated
And I'll keep believing
In clouds with that sweet silver lining
I will be given strength
And now that I've found it
Nothing can take that away
To be strong and to fight
But I'm just surviving
I may be weak but I'm never defeated
And I'll keep believing
To be strong and to fight
But I'm just surviving
I may be weak but I'm never defeated
And I'll keep believing
In clouds with that sweet silver lining
Selena pressed the final piano keys as she wrapped up the personal encore she gave for her dad, Mary, Chrissy, Tabitha and Louise in their room. They clapped. They had set the fire in the fire place which was something rarely done. Selena and the rest of the cast (as tradition at Dowsley) were permitted to bring home one copy of their costumes (as long as they had one there). Selena grabbed hers and wore her current one home and was still wearing it.
"Aw, that was lovely Selene" Tabitha told her.
"I agree" said Louise. "I'm gonna miss this family so much"
"We're going to miss you too!" said Christianna sleepily.
"Somebody looks tired" Jeffrey commented. "Maybe we should go to bed?"
"NO!" she exclaimed.
Jeffrey raised an eyebrow. "Really? Why not?"
"I'm afraid that if I go to sleep, I'll wake up and Marianna will be gone and everyone will be angry again" she confessed. The room went silent.
Jeffrey cast a look at Selena then to Mary. "Will you excuse us for a second?" Selena said as she pulled Mary out on the fire escape.
"You don't need to say it Selena." Mary told her. "I Will Stay…" she started as Selena cut her off and said.
"You need to go."
Mary looked at her in amazement. "What? Why!" she demanded a little hurt.
"Don't get me wrong, I wish you could stay and be with us forever. Be apart of our lives again and never going, but that cant happen."
"Why not, Selena?"
"Because Mary, you helped us and gave us all peace of mind again. We all have been given our second chance. It's time I gave you yours. You need a chance to find you again. No more drama that we had. You need to be Mary Poppins again. Somewhere you can get back into the swing of things. Other families need you too; it's selfish of me to keep you to myself when the world needs you more than I. I lost the magic from my life, you gave it back to me, and others deserve that chance too." Selena almost couldn't finish her sentence because she had begun to cry.
Mary gave her a hug with tears in her eyes too. "Thank you Selena. I feel as if I can finally leave my troubles behind and be myself again. Pull my mysterious ways onto others and fix people. Thank You Selena, You've set me free."
Selena began to cry harder which made Mary cry harder too. "Promise that you will come back to us, when the time is right."
"I promise, I promise to return. I swear it. I swear it on the beauty of the moon that is captured perfectly in you and your personality." Mary told her.
"Sending you away is the hardest thing I've ever had to do."
"And leaving is the hardest for me." She told her. Mary looked up and saw peeping eyes peering from across the way. "I'm going to go back inside for I believe someone wishes to see you."
Selena turned around as saw Gregory still too dressed in his costume. Minus the hat that Selena still wore on her head. He climbed down his fire escape and walked over to the edge where a fence closed his off, protecting him for the one inch of empty air to where Selena's fire escape came up to. Selena did the same. "You okay?" he asked pointing to her teary eyes.
"Oh, I'm fine, I'm just going to miss her that's all." She said casting a look back to her home.
"I wanted you to know that you did fabulous tonight, it blew me away." He told her. Selena blushed a little. She was easily getting used to their new friendship/truce thing, but she wasn't expecting full on flattery just yet. "Just like you do on a daily basis…" he admitted sheepishly.
Selena looked up at him. She had NOT been expecting that! She did not expect him to just practically flat out admit that he 'Liked' her. She felt her cheeks go red. Then found it surprising that she wasn't totally weirded out by this fact. In fact she kind of liked the idea.
"You did pretty well too, and you're pretty amazing on a daily basis yourself." She told him. Her tone of voice played it casual and friendly but her eyes. God her eyes told the truth.
"I'd like a chance to get to know you better. Especially since you're leaving this summer." He told her.
"I'd like that." She said sweetly.
"So selena, did you ever happen to read the books?" he asked her, implying what he meant with their costumes that they still wore.
"Actually yes I Did, Did you?"
"Yeah, what did you think about Chapter Two in the first one?" he asked her questioningly with a sly smile.
Selena smiled, remembering the chapter. It was the Chapter where Mary has her day out and she and the Match Man (Bert) go into the sidewalk painting for a lovely lunch and then rode the carousel. She knew that's not what he meant though. She knew he was talking about pages19-21. The pages that Selena considered first showed subtle signs of a hint of romance between Mary & Bert. (.ca/books?id=FlkcyK7xwqMC&lpg=PP1&dq=mary%20poppins&pg=PA20#v=twopage&q&f=false)
"I liked it." She said. "Breathtaking, I found it."
Selena slid the hat of her head and shook her hair out and gave it back to Gregory. "Here you go by the way; I don't feel right keeping your hat. You need it."
"I need it? What do I possibly need it for?" he asked her curiously.
Selena smiled as she stepped closer. "How can you be my Match Man without you're hat?"
Gregory smiled and placed the hat back on his head completing his costume.
Then, and I don't know for the life of me what exactly happened but a few seconds later Selena found herself kissing Gregory. Her hands were place on his arms and his on her waist.
Perfect, not Practically Perfect, 100%.
Selena and Gregory pulled away. "I'd better get back inside." She said sadly. "It's late."
"See you tomorrow." He said. "By the way, I remember the chapter ending differently in the book."
"I prefer our ending, much better!"