A/N: Thanks to Tiffany & Sherry x x

Chapter 36

Edward sighed, grabbing hold of my hips and lifting me so that I was now straddling him. "What am I going to do with you?" he asked, running his thumb down my cheek, and then over my lip, freeing it from my teeth. "What do you want from us, Bella?"

"You," I whispered.

"You already have me."

"I know, but we both said we didn't want the traditional D/s relationship and me staying here is confusing. I mean, we haven't… you haven't touched in me in days. I don't know where the lines are drawn and what is and isn't correct."

Edward cupped my face with both hands and forced me to look him straight in the eyes. "I haven't touched you because I figured you needed some space. You seemed pretty shaken up, and I wasn't sure if you were up to playing, but I agree, you are right. This half in and half out isn't working. There is too much confusion and I will admit I do have trouble trying to take a back step at times. I say we either go for broke or call the whole thing off."

I looked down at my hands, trying to keep the tears from falling from my eyes. I figured this was his way of breaking up with me. I was more than he had signed up for and he'd had enough. When I didn't respond, Edward continued.

"I'm not trying to force you into something you don't want to do. You are more than welcome to think it over for however long you need. I also realize that we haven't really done a scene yet, so maybe you don't realize what you are getting yourself into. I have a solution for that as well." I looked up at him, with a little smile on my face. He wasn't trying to get rid of me after-all. "Jasper and Alice are going to perform a scene for Emmett and Rosalie. I thought we could go along and watch it too. Then, you may have a better idea of what you're getting yourself into."

"Emmett and Rosalie want to get into the lifestyle?" I asked shocked.

Edward smiled. "It seems your friends are more like you than you knew."

"I guess so."

"I also don't think you should quit your job, sell your apartment, or make any other rash decisions until you decide if this lifestyle is really for you. Please promise me that you aren't doing all of this because of the sicko who broke into your apartment."

"I'm not."

"Good. Jasper and Alice will be performing tomorrow night, you can take as much time as you need after that to make your decision."

"Thank you."

Edward lifted me off his lap, and kissed my head before standing up. "I'll go and make us dinner."