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Chapter 35- A prom night to remember

Dear Diary,

It's been a month since Jiro's death and yet I can't help but still ask…

Why?

xXx

I see the sun shining through the window every morning. And every morning I would sigh heavily and roll over and away from the brightness, just lying there, watching my clock reach the time the alarm would go off for school. After, I would slowly get ready and wait for Sesshomaru to pick me up. It had become my routine since Jiro's passing.

It was quiet in the mornings…actually all day. Ichiro finally knew what had happened and…he…he didn't like it and wished for it to be over. All he wanted was his brother, we all wanted him. Mom became so deep within herself, she never left the house. She barely spoke and rarely looked at Ichiro. Jun would spend most of his time in his room, either playing video games until the early hours of the morning or experimenting on who knows what. Dad…I never saw him. He always was away on business trips, but he would call Jun and I every night, telling us he loved us. And for us…it wasn't enough.

The nightmares had stopped after Jiro's death. But new ones appeared, and they involved Jiro himself being taken away by the hooded creature I loathed. I remember waking up in tears and crying in Sesshomaru's arms the first time I got it. Sesshomaru told me it was only a nightmare, but I replied it was real over and over again. I knew it scared him as much as it scared me.

I told Lily about my new dreams about Jiro, and she simply replied, "You just lost someone close to you. These dreams will be reoccurring…but will pass soon." I wondered when "soon" will be.

Sesshomaru had been staying close to me. He would spend the nights, watching over me, comforting me during the nights when I would wake up in fear. And during the past month, I wanted this comfort for the rest of my life. I wanted him. Forever and always.

That was why I woke up determined.

I looked in the mirror, seeing a reflected image in the glass. The girl on the other side with bed-head hair, brown tired eyes, and a frown cease to erase yet. Until now. And I watch as the girl on the other side brings the sides of her mouth up into a small smile, and then speak.

"Today will be a good day."

For once, I made myself presentable. Hair flowing down, showing off the layers, tied a small side pony tail on the side. Orange sundress with a green ribbon down the mid-back. Black flats. It was a perfect day…at least I hoped it was.

It was quiet when I went downstairs. The ominous feeling of something missing was in the air, just like every day. Mom was in the kitchen staring off into space of the sun beams, holding a steaming cup of tea she would dump later. I would feed Ichiro and walk up Jun if I could, telling him to get his ass to school. And when Sesshomaru came, we would drop off Ichiro at school, seeing him run to the jungle gym to play with his friends and at least try to have a good day. What else was a five year old to do?

I heard Sesshomaru's car pull up and told Ichiro to get ready as Jun stumbled down the stairs, smelling like dope. His eyes shot red while mine widened. I grabbed his chin, and looked at him closer as he pushed me away.

"What is your problem, Rin?" He said in a harsh tone, his words slightly stirred.

"My problem? What is yours? Why are your eyes red?" I demanded, catching his shoulder as he tried to walk away. "Jun!"

He rolled his eyes, turning his head slightly. "What does it matter? Not like anyone in this house pays attention to me or you or Ichiro for that matter."

He swiped my hand away and kept moving to the kitchen, sitting down and resting his head on the table. His black hoodie covering his hair and his entire being. I had no idea what happened to the smart, prodigy child who had so much potential, but he was now gone and replaced by…another nightmare.

I hadn't realized yet, but my family was slowly crumbling into tiny, glass pieces.

I swallowed a lump in my throat as Ichiro tried to get my attention. I smiled down at him and helped him with his shoes, grabbing his hand and leading him outside into the pre-summer air. June…the month of June was beautiful but dark at the same time. This was the month Yoko left our family and I would do the same…near the end. But I meant leave as in leave the city…not the world. Yeah…wasn't ready for that yet.

The only problem…I hadn't told Sesshomaru.

About a week ago, I got a letter from Princeton University, saying I had been accepted into their math program. But I hadn't had the heart for telling him I was leaving. Mom told me it would be good for me to move on and make a fresh start, but I wanted Sesshomaru by my side. I guess with everything happening, I just had a moment of relapse in my head and forgot. Perhaps today….

I helped Ichiro in the back and buckled him up. Then I moved to the front, seeing the dog demon wearing aviators over his golden eyes. We didn't say anything to each other as we drove off, dropping Ichiro at school ten minutes later. When I came back into the car, he took the shades off and looked at me.

"You seem off," he said.

I scoffed, shaking my head. "Jun is doing drugs."

"What?"

"He smelled like weed this morning," I bit my lip turning to him. "My family is falling apart in front of my very eyes. First Jun doing this, I mean…he's only thirteen. No thirteen should be doing something like this!"

"Having Jiro pass a few days before his birthday…I know it was hard for him, Rin. I cannot help you in this. Nothing I say will make you feel better, and that is the truth. I'm sorry."

I shook my head, grinning, and looking forward once again. "Don't be. My family is a wreck. And it's nobody's fault. Nobody's except…Death."

My eyes moved to the side window, crossing my arms in frustration. I wasn't going to cry over the fact my brother was now ruining his life. It irritated me deeply, and he would be getting a mouthful from me soon if Mom didn't find out. Jun was young, and Jiro…wouldn't have wanted him to do this. It was wrong.

We arrived at the school and I sighed heavily. It was time to forget about Jun for now and focus on the last few weeks in the Hell hole I called high school. I had exams and papers to write. I needed to focus.

I waved Sesshomaru goodbye in the halls as he left for a meeting while I went to my locker. As usual, Ayame was chilling there with Jak. Wow…no Koga. That was a first for a while.

She smiled at me when I appeared. And it was the smile when she had a plan.

"And I'm going this way," I said, turning around.

"Hey! Rin!" She grabbed my shoulder and turned me around.

"Whatever it is…no. The answer is no."

"Oh come on! I need a date to the prom tonight and I thought you would be perfect!"

Prom night. The one night where a senior high schooler dresses up in an eight hundred dollar dress and dances with her prince. For some it was the best night of their lives, but for others, it wasn't, and could end it tears. They would get all dolled up, looking like a fake Barbie doll only to sit in chairs all night waiting for the perfect guy to ask them to one dance. I would not be going. One, because Sesshomaru wouldn't be there. And two, I had to babysit tonight.

I know I said I wold make a move blah blah blah. And I would. The day was young, and so was I. Sesshomaru would find the truth out by three.

I wanted him back.

I wanted him as my mate again.

"I'm not going," I simply answered, opening my locker.

"What!?" she shrieked.

"Rinny, how can you miss prom?" Jak added.

I shrugged. "It's called taking care of my family. Ichiro…he needs me. And Jun is in a bad state right now. Same as my mother. I can't trust her to take care of Ichiro in her state. All she does is stare outside the window."

"Rin…"

I sighed. "And Jun…he's not himself right now. I need to be there for them right now. I'm sorry."

Ayame sighed too, nodded with a sad smile. "I understand. Do you want me to come over and help?"

"What about Koga?"

"He's gone with his dad for the weekend. Not going to be back until Sunday."

I shook my head, giving her a smile. "You should go, Ayame. Go for both of us."

And that was the end of our discussion. The bell rang shortly after. The plan had begun.

The only problem was Sesshomaru.

I blame the meetings he was in.

xXx

For the rest of the day, I didn't see Sesshomaru at all. I was told by a few of the teachers he had to go to the school board for a large district meeting and wouldn't be back until tomorrow. My plan had failed and now I was going to have to wait until to tomorrow to fulfill it. Even though I was nervous out of my mind, and wished it to be over and done with.

But it did keep my mind off of other worrisome things.

I got home by Ayame's car. Sesshomaru left the building early and his phone couldn't be picked up so I was left to take the best friend way.

At home I found Mom sleeping in her room and Jun playing video games. My best guess was he didn't go to school and on top of that, there was a distinct green atmospheric smell coming from his room. Mom obviously didn't notice so it was time for the big sister talk.

I interrupted his gaming time, swiping his headphones off his head.

"What the hell?" he snapped.

"I'm done with this, Jun!"

"With what, I don't know what you're talking about," He said, putting his head phones back on.

I ripped them away, frowning. He signed in exasperation. Then I started to pat him down. "Where is it? Is it on you?"

"Stop, all right? You need to chill yourself!"

"Chill myself? What is that, stoner talk?"

"Look, stop! I don't have anything on me, Rin! Are you crazy?"

"You haven't seen crazy, Jun! You smell horrible and so does your room." He rolled his eyes at me and breathed heavily. That was it! "You know what? No. No, no, and no. I don't know how long this has been going on for, but I'm done watching you destroy yourself. So go ahead, keep it up! But just know I am going to be there for now on to ruin your buzz every time, you got it?" I took a breath and calmed myself. "Jun, I know who you are. And it's not this person. So don't be this person."

"I don't need this," he mumbled low. "Just leave me alone, Rin. I don't need you to mother me."

I clenched my teeth at his words and left in a huge huff. I had to at least try to make my night good without a kill from the brother.

My mom ended up locking her door and I assumed she was just asleep, so I remained downstairs, watching over Ichiro until he fell asleep around eight pm on my lap. After I put him to bed, I remained lying on the couch, being bored as I was.

Until the doorbell rang.

And I answered it and found Ayame and Jak dressed in their perfect prom outfits. Ayame in her forest green, strapless dress like she was Mother Nature herself. And Jak in his pink dress suit looking fine like the spring time, a perfect flower in bloom.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"Picking you up,"Ayame said.

"I already told you, I can't go."

"Rinny, Ichiro is asleep, come on…you'll be fine for a while," she slurred.

"Are you drunk?" I chuckled.

She shifted her eyes. "Maybe..."

"Ayame…I can't go. I'm sorry."

"Rin, honey, this is your last night to have fun and after that, life begins. Don't waste it," Jak said.

I shook my head, smirking, "You know I hate it when talk like that."

"It's because I love you, Rin." He turned then and picked up a large black box from outside, handing it to. "Now, put this on and we'll go."

I eyed the box carefully, having a good idea what was inside. I smiled and nodded, racing upstairs. And when I opened the box in my room, I found the most beautiful red dress. It flowed down to the floor, the strapless dress fitting like a good pair shoes. Once I put it on, I felt confident.

I did check on Ichiro before I left. He was fast asleep in his bed while the one next to it was left still vacant…and always would be. "Keep an eye on your brother, Jiro."

My friends gave me a big smile when I came downstairs. I was like one of those cliché prom movies. Anyways, I had a feeling it was going to be a good night.

And there was a limo! I had no idea how Jak and Ayame could afford one, and when I got inside I was greeted with Bankotsu. That would explain the limo. Rich bastard.

Going to a school dance was a strange and rare occurrence for me. I went to first and final during my early school years. And it didn't turn out very good. I landed me with a twisted ankle the second I stepped a foot onto the dance floor. It was also the last time I wore six inch heels. Never again I told myself and now I was stepping once again on the cursed floor.

"So…?" Jak started.

"So far so good," I said with a smile.

"Great! So then let's go dance!" He grabbed my hand and pulled me and Ayame to the dance floor, Bankotsu following behind.

And for a couple of songs all we did was dance the night away. I forgot everything troubling me and I let myself go, moving around the music, twisting and turning through the sounds. I felt so free.

Then I twisted around and right into the arms of Sesshomaru. I blinked, looking up at the golden eyes I only saw just this morning. He was dressed in a black dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up, showing off his strong forearms and the marks on his wrists.

"Sesshomaru…"

"Rin, you look beautiful tonight," he commented.

"What…are you doing here?"

"Can you believe I go roped into chaperoning some teenagers at some ridiculous dance?"

I laughed. "And how did that happen?"

"You can call it community service."

The music then changed to a slow beat, and couples started to move together. Jak and Bankotsu were already close and Ayame was probably sitting alone now. "I better go find Ayame and…" There she was dancing with Koga. So he came after all.

"Would you like to dance, Rin?" I heard him say.

I turned around, feeling my knees start to shake. I shouldn't be nervous like this. It was only Sesshomaru. But I nodded, taking a hold of his hand.

Our movements were slow, and even though there were many other couples, it felt like we were the only ones there.

Perhaps it was the way he looked at me; those eyes making me fall deeper in love with him like never before. I wanted him, but I wondered if he wanted me just the same.

"Sesshomaru…please stop looking at me like that."

"Like what?" he whispered.

"Like that," I smiled. "Because then I will fall deeper and I don't know what will happened."

He moved to my ear, and whispered softly. "Don't you know I'll always catch you?"

I closed my eyes then and felt his lips moving on mine. And even when the music stopped, we never did. I knew there were probably eyes on us since our relationship was considered taboo, but the whole world probably already knew so who gave a crap?

We pulled away but our foreheads still touched. I smiled, breathing deep and held onto him tightly. Then the tears started to come forward, and I stepped away. "I'm sorry…excuse me."

I ran passed him and through the crowd of people and into the bathroom, wiping the tears away with my hand. Ayame came in shortly after asking if I was okay.

"Yeah…just some memories."

She smiled at me softly. "Rin, you know you love him so why not just go with it? Why are you acting like this?"

"I'm afraid it'll all come rushing back, Ayame. I can't deal with it. I don't want history to repeat."

"And how do you know it will?"

I shrugged. "It always does. Whenever I get close to Sesshomaru, something bad always happens. It's like destiny doesn't want me to be with him."

"Then screw destiny. Listen to your heart and just go for it. Sesshomaru will be there for you no matter what happens. You know that, Rin! So go out there…and make this night the best night of your life."

I looked at her, knowing she was right. Then I nodded and hugged her. "Thank you."

She pushed away, and nodded too. "Go get him, girl!"

And I did. But when I came back onto the dance floor he was nowhere to be found. I panicked, making me wonder if he left. So I ran outside to see a black car driving away down the road. I chased after it, calling out Sesshomaru's name, but he never stopped. He was gone. And so was my chance.

"No," I breathed.

Then it started raining…great.

It poured as I stood out there, watching the lights from his car disappear.

"Dammit!"

"Rin?"

I turned to the sound of his voice, seeing him standing in the rain, watching me.

"What are you doing out here in the rain?" he asked.

I pointed behind me. "The car…I thought you…never mind. I was wondering if maybe we could talk."

"Can we do it inside?"

"Where it's noisy? Actually I was thinking perhaps your apartment?"

He chuckled lightly. "Very well."

"And can we take your car?"

He gave me a strange look, but agreed.

Driving in the rain still bothered me, but not as much as it used to. I guess with everything going on, I forgot about the fear and pushed it aside.

We made it to his apartment, walking inside to a clean interior. "It's been awhile since I've been here. I forgot how beautiful it is."

"Did you want to put on some dry clothes?"

I blinked, and took a breath. "Actually, no. I just want to talk now. I don't want to wait any longer."

He stood silently and waited.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything that has happened to you, for being a burden to you. I've been selfish and idiotic, demanding things that I shouldn't even be demanding. But what I'm not sorry for is meeting you. I'm not sorry that knowing you had made me question everything in my life. I've made a few terrible choices, but you are probably the worst one, and I'm not sorry for it. Because I'm in love with you, and I'm not going to feel guilty that I want you back and I want to be your mate again. I'm more deeply in love with you then before, and I don't give a damn what destiny will do. I love you, Sesshomaru. I love y—"

Then he kissed me passionately, cradling my face in his hands.

It all started from there.

He lifted me up, as I wrapped my legs around his waist, both of us not pulling apart. My head fuzzed up as I fell into electric ecstasy. In moments I was flat on a bed, Sesshomaru ripping my dress off and burying his face in my neck, kissing and nipping the sensitive areas I loved him to kiss. I breathed heavily in this thick atmosphere, getting consumed in the colourful fireworks in my head. Never thought I would be lying under him again.

His mouth moved to my chest, and I arched my back to give him permission to move forward, as he took one of my breasts in his mouth, massaging the other, and leaving me in full bliss.

"Sesshomaru…please…"

He raised his head and smiled a crooked smile, one that could leave an enemy trembling. But it made me want more.

We kissed deeply, our tongues dancing together, twisting and turning as one. Then he pulled away, stripping his clothes away and revealing his pride and joy, his abs. Oh and his other pride and joy too.

And for the next ten minutes all we did was touch, exploring each other's bodies as if it was our first night together. It was perfect.

Then he pushed into me, as we became one once more, and I feel deep into abyss, shouting his name over and over again. And when I felt his teeth bit down onto my neck, imprinting the mark once again, I knew it was forever.

Because now I was home.

THEY'RE BACK TOGETHER! =D

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