A/N I hope you enjoy this chapter, it was very cathartic for me. Thank you for all the condolences, I appreciate each one. This is by far my longest chapter so I hope you enjoy. As always I would love to hear your reviews, I read each one and try my best at working in your constructive criticism, ideas, and worries. Thank You!

Trigger warning this chapter speaks of a character death, but not to worry...maybe! (insert me dodging the CPU's and other electronics being thrown my way.)

"Ma!" The twins yelled. Angela walked in behind them with a smile on her face. It was hard not to smile when you saw how happy the kids were to see there mom. Both kids ran up to Jane's bed, they were enveloped in a hug from her. She positively loved her children especially now that she remembered every moment of their time together. Angela noticed the tears in Jane's eyes as she helped the children up on to her bed, laughing and kissing each one. Maura walked in with her coffee a moment later smiling brightly at the scene in front of her, the twins being tickled by Jane. There was a lightness in the room finally, unfortunately it would be short lived once reality came crashing back in to their minds.

"Jane please be careful" Maura said as she noticed Jane having difficulty breathing.

"Why do you need to be careful Ma?" Jackson asked.

Jane's smile faltered for a second, she wasn't sure how to answer the questions she knew the kids would surely have. How do you explain to children so young that mom has a brain tumor that may be cancer, they told the kids that Jane was sick before her admittance to the hospital, but they hadn't gone in to detail. Maura noticed Jane's hesitance and approached the bed grabbing hold of her son's small hand. She looked to Jane for permission to take the lead on this conversation, Jane shook her head yes.

"Love, Ma has what's called a tumor in her brain, it is making ma sick." Maura said.

Jackson looked to Jane pondering what he was just told, he than looked back to Maura. "Can I see it?" he asked.

"Can you see the tumor, No it's inside Ma's head." Maur replied

"If I had x-ray vision I could though." Jackson stated matter of factly.

Jane and Maura giggled. " Yeah than you could, but than you'd be superman instead of my handsome son." Jane said as she ruffled his hair.

"Nooo, than I'd be me but with x-ray vision." Jackson said while pushing Jane's hand away.

"Oh excuse me." Jane laughed.

Maura looked to Bella she noticed that she had become withdrawn, Bella was so much like her, very analytical. So Maura knew that she was going over everything she had heard and was trying to make sense of it. "Bella sweetie, do you have any questions?" Maura asked.

"No" Bella said as she climbed off the bed, she pulled her coloring book out of her bag and began to draw on the desk that was across from the foot of Jane's bed. Jane looked to Maura, they both knew that this conversation was bothering Bella but she was to scared to continue on with it. Maura knew her daughter enough to give her the space that she needed right now.

"Are you gonna die Ma?" Jack suddenly asked. "Freddy's grandpa had a tumor and he died." He continued.

Jane was caught off guard by the question she sat there with her mouth open trying to figure out how to respond to Jack's question. She looked to Maura who seemed just as stunned, Angela spoke up seeing as both woman seemed at a loss. " Honey Ma isn't gonna die, she just needs to be here a little while in order to get better."

"Angela that's not entirely true." Maura looked over her shoulder at Angela as she spoke.

"What do you mean that's not true." Angela asked as she began to become anxious.

"Ma please ha, not in front of the kids." Jane said as she glared at her mother.

"Jane." Angela said as she placed her hands on her hips.

"Jackson, honey it's true a tumor caused your friends grandfather to pass away, but we don't have all the information about Ma's tumor yet. Ma is strong and she has so much to live for so let's not think like that right now." Maura said as she stroked her sons hand with her thumb.

Jane was still looking at her mother silently asking her to not cause a scene in front of the kids when she felt Jack put his arms around her neck and kiss her cheek. Jane wrapped her arms around his tiny body, relishing the feeling of holding her son. "What's that for buddy?" Jane asked as Jack pulled away.

"Cause I love you." He said. Jane began to tear up again, Maura rubbed circles on her leg as she to began to well up with tears.

Jack jumped off the bed and grabbed his Ipad, he sat down on the couch that was against the windows. Jane wiped at the tears that formed in her eyes with the back of her hands. Maura wiped at her tears with a tissue she had in her pocket, she stood from the bed. Angela still stood with her hands on her hips." There's something your not telling me and I would like it if you spilled it...now." she said.

"Not in front of the kids Angela." Maura said.

"When than?" Angela asked.

"Ma I asked Korsak and Frankie to come down when they get here we'll talk." Jane said.

Angela covered her mouth with her hand stifling the sob that crept up on her. She knew by Jane's tone and need to wait for the boys that something was seriously wrong. She sat down with a thud in the chair that was to her left. Jane and Maura tended to the kids while she sat there trying to not let her fears get the best of her as they waited for Korsak and Frankie.

After a few moments Frankie and Korsak showed up. Jane looked up from her seat on the couch with Jack and Maura stopped her coloring with Bella. Jane looked to Maura. " Babe could you get the kids some dinner." Jane asked.

"Yes..Come children lets go try to find something nutritious to eat." Maura said to the twins as she helped them to the door, she turned around and winked at Jane before leaving.

"OK there here now talk...please." Angela asked as hse stood from her chair.

"Yeah why are we here Jane?" Korsak asked.

"Hey Janie." Frankie said.

"Alright well there's something I need to tell you three, something that will undoubtedly effect you." Jane said.

"Jane what ever it is we're here for you." Frankie said.

Jane took a deep breath and walked over to her bed with her mother's assistance, she was unsteady on her feet. Once in her bed she began to tell the three of them what Dr. Becher had planned for her tonight. She recounted every detail, her fake death, her transfer to the morgue, and than a transfer to another hospital. She also explained to them that they would have to make everyone believe that they were grieving her death or it would all be for nothing. As she spoke she could see the emotions washing over each of their faces, Jane could tell the exact moment when what she was saying had sunk in.

"So that's what I called you all here for...any questions." Jane asked nervously.

Angela, Korsak, and Frankie all stood there looking at Jane. No one knew what to say, Jane just told them that she would be involved in what sounded like a very questionable method of faking her death. She had explained that there was a risk that it would not work and that she wanted them to know of the plan so as not to make any of them feel that she didn't believe that they could be trusted with this information.

"Why the hell would you do something so stupid!" Angela was the first to speak she was outraged at what she just heard.

"Ma, please try to understand this is the only way. If we wait any longer for my surgery my health could be compromised. I have trouble walking and had a seizure already I'm getting worse, we need to find out why." Jane said

"Janie she doesn't know everything." Frankie said.

Jane just stared at her brother before opening her mouth than closing it not knowing what to say. Once her brain caught up with her mouth she spoke through her teeth. "I told you to tell her."

Frankie stepped closer to Jane's bed." No, no you didn't!"

Jane looked to Korsak who shook his head no, confirming what Frankie just said. Jane put her hands up to her face and groaned. "Stupid, stupid tumor." Jane looked up from her hands. "I'm sorry Frankie I thought I told you to tell her, my bad."

"It's ok Jane." Frankie said as he placed his hand on Jane's foot.

"Excuse me would someone like to tell me what the hell is going on, what don't I know?" Angela demanded.

"Ma there's a lot you don't need to know." Jane began to speak but was interrupted by Angela. " Like hell I don't." Angela said.

"Let me finish Ma, there are details you just can't know not yet anyway. I got myself in to some trouble with the Irish mob." Jane spoke as her mother placed her hand over her heart and gasped. " They threatened my family's lives if I fight whatever is going on with me. They threatened to kill Maura and the kids Ma, they threatened you, I cant let them take all of you away from me and I'll be damned if there going to take me from you."

"How does faking your death solve anything eventually your gonna have to come back if not we lost you anyway." Angela asked.

"Frankie, Korsak, and the FBI are working on a sting operation to take the guys who are threatening me down." Jane said.

"You agree with this?" Angela said as she turned her attention to Frankie.

"It's the only way Ma. Trust Jane she knows what she's doing." Frankie said as he placed a hand on Angela's shoulder.

Angela stood there contemplating all that she just heard. After a few moments she spoke quietly with tears in her eye's. "I...I can't be her right now." Angela stormed out of the room.

"Frankie." Jane said.

"I got it." Frankie said as he made his way to the door. " She cant speak of this outside this room Frankie." Jane reminded him.

"Don't worry." He said as he left.

Korsak walked over to a chair that was on the left side of Jane's bed he sat down. Korsak took in a deep breath than spoke. "So there's something I need to say." Jane interrupted him. "I'm coming back." Korsak smiled than sat forward in his chair to be closer to Jane. "I know you are kiddo, but there's something I need to say, and I need you to listen. I know we haven't been on good terms lately but I want you to know that I always thought of you as a daughter. Which is why I never left you even though you did your best to push everyone away. I...I love you Jane, always will too." Korsak became choked up so he coughed to clear his throat from the impending tears making their way up into his eyes.

Jane grabbed a hold of Korsak's hand. "I love you too old man." Jane said as she smiled brightly at Korsak.

Korsak chuckled at Jane's comment never the one to let things get to serious. As they both sat there holding hands Frankie and Angela walked back in, Frankie had a frustrated look on his face. "Ma." Jane said.

Korsak stood up and said goodbye to Jane, but not before promising to take down Flannigan and all involved so that she and Maura never had to worry again. Angela replaced him in the chair to Jane's left. "I don't like this." Angela whispered.

"Neither do I Ma, please believe me when I say that this is the only way." Jane said.

Angela stroked Jane's hand while wiping at the tears that wee falling from hr eyes. She looked up and in to Jane's eye's. "You're strong you can do this, and I'll be by your side the entire time, figuratively of course."

Jane pulled her mother in to a bone crushing hug, happy that she had come to terms with the plan. "Thank you Ma...I love you." Jane whispered in to her mothers ear.

"I love you so much Janie." Angela responded.

Frankie looked on at the scene before him with awe. Things have changed so much in such a short time, it wasn't but a week ago that Jane was at odds with her entire family and friends. Now he was watching his mother and sister in an embrace that spoke so much of their love for one another. Frankie began to tear up, he was afraid for his sister, he had a feeling that the worse was still to come.

A little while later Maura came back in with the kids. " Ma, mommy let us have hot dogs for dinner."

"She did, wow you are some lucky kids." Jane responded as she still held on to her mothers hand. Angela now sat back in the chair with Frankie at her side.

"Yes well it was that or deep fried chicken so I chose the lesser of two evils." Maura said while running her hands through Bella's hair.

Jane looked to Maura and noticed that she kept checking her watch. Dr. Becher told them that he would come to Jane's room with the medicine that would effectively stop her heart at seven, it was now five thirty. Jane wanted to make sure she conveyed her love to her family before they would have to leave in case disaster happened.

"Come here my babies." Jane asked. Jack came up to Jane's bed right away, it took some encouragement from Maura to get Bella to do the same.

"Can you help them on the bed." Jane asked as she looked to Maura. Angela let go of Jane's hand, reaching for Frankie's instead. Maura lifted both children on to the bed, she gave Jane a small smile as she positioned herself at the head of the bed so she could have access to Jane and the kids. Jane grabbed both kids hands in her own squeezing them softly, she had tears in her eye's.

"Do you two know how much I love you?" Jane asked the twins.

"How much." Jack asked.

"Bella do you know." Jane asked trying to get her to open up. Bella looked in to Jane's eye's with tears on her tiny cheeks.

"To the moon and back." Bella said in a soft voice.

"Times that by infinity, I can't love you enough. You are my reason for being, my everything, this piece of my heart right here." Jane said as she pointed to her heart. " Is where I keep my love for you Bella, this spot here is for you Jack." Jane said as she moved her finger down.

Bela began to cry, Jane scooped her up in her arms and held her close as she rocked back and forth. Jack looked on with tears in his eye's not quite understanding what was happening, but just seeing his sister so upset made him equally sad. Maura reached around her son from behind and hugged him whispering in his ear that everything would be okay. Jane tried her best not to cry so not to scare her children any further but holding a sobbing child in her arms feeling her shake with fear and sadness was to much for her, she let the tears flow free. By this time everyone in the room was crying some more than others, Frankie had to excuse himself in to the bathroom not wanting the others to see him cry.

Jane continued to hold on to her daughter, she looked up and reached her hand out for Maura's. Maura unwrapped one of her arms from Jack and held on to Jane's hand, feeling more like a bonded family in this moment than she has in months. After a few minutes both children calmed down and Maura spoke softly to Jane.

"We should probably prepare soon."

"Prepare for what mommy?" Jack asked.

"Ma has to have some... tests done soon, so your going to have to go home with Nona soon." Maura responded hoping that her play on the fact that they were testing this plan of Dr. Becher's not knowing if it would work, would keep her from getting hives.

"Nooo."Jack cried.

"Oh, buddy please don't get upset. " Jane said.

"I don't wanna leave." He said. Just than Frankie came out of the bathroom with red rimmed eye's. "Hey bud it will be ok, I'll come with you and we can play your new video game." Frankie said.

Jack looked to Maura for permission as she normally didn't approve of video games so late in to the night. Maura shook her head yes and smiled. "Ok can we go now." Jack said much happier.

Jane chuckled along with Maura's giggle. "Yes we can go now." Angela spoke as she stood up sadly.

Jane brushed her daughters long dark locks out of her face and looked down at her. "You ok now sweetie?" Jane asked her.

Bella shook her head yes against Jane's chest, reluctant to let go. Jane lifted her chin with a finger so as to look in her eye's. " Everything is gonna be just fine, I swear."

"Promise." Bella asked sweetly.

"Cross my heart." Jane responded with a smile and a wink.

Bella smiled and kissed Jane on the cheek before extracting herself from Jane's arms. Jack kissed Jane before they both climbed off the bed. Angela helped them get their bags together before turning to Jane, she walked over and hugged Jane with all that she had. She stroked Jane's arm before squeezing her hand, she than kissed her on the cheek. Before walking away Angela placed her hand on Jane's cheek and looked in to her eye's saying. " I'll see you soon... I never stopped loving you and never will. I have always been proud to call you my daughter, I love you Janie." Angela said as she kissed Jane one more time before walking over to the door waiting for the kids.

The twins kissed Jane one last time before giving Maura a hug and kiss, they then left with Angela. Frankie told Angela he would meet her at her home, Frankie walked over to Jane's bedside.

"Hey little brother." Jane said as she grabbed hold of his hand.

"Hey sis, I..I.." Frankie began but was interrupted by Jane.

"Don't...Don't you give up on me." Jane warned.

"I need you to know..." Frankie said but was yet again interrupted.

"I know Frankie, I know." Jane said as she squeezed Frankie's hand.

Frankie wiped at the lone tear that ran down his cheek with his free hand. He cleared his throat and said. " I'll see you soon."

"Yes you will." Jane responded. Frankie leaned down and hugged his sister before doing the same to Maura and leaving, but not before he gave Jane one last look.

Maura Gave Jane a sad smile as she walked over to her bed, she climbed on to the bed and snuggled in to Jane's left side, resting her head on Jane's shoulder. Maura wrapped her arm around Jane's waist, grabbing hold of her hospital gown.

"I love you." Jane said.

"I love you more." Maura responded.

Jane smiled turning her head to kiss the top of Maura's. " You ready?" Jane asked.

"You?" Maura asked.

"As long as you're with me." Jane said.

"Always Jane." Maura responded.

"What do you want to do while we wait?" Jane asked.

"I want you to hold me tight, I want you to tell me that everything will be okay, And I most definitely need you to teach me how to be strong." Maura responded.

"The first two I can do but as far as being strong you got that Maur. You are the strongest woman I know,Maura You have so much strength in you, I wish you could see what I do. You have dealt with so much in your life and you still walk with your head held high. You had to go through all the pain I put you through and yet you're still here lying in my arms and asking for my love. Some may say that shows weakness but I see it differently, I see it as taking strength to open your self up again and allowing your self to possibly be hurt. I need you to give me some of that strength now, because to be honest I'm scared Maur, I just got you and the kids back I can't lea..." Jane began to cry squeezing Maura in to her body.

Maura returned the strong hold that Jane had on her, she began to cry as well. Maura had rarely seen Jane cry, so to witness it now was heartbreaking. " I'm here Jane, I got you."

Both woman laid there holding each other and shedding tears as they waited for Dr. Becher, neither spoke again. They must have fallen asleep because before they knew it both woman were startled by the sound of the door closing. Dr. Becher was walking towards both woman showing no emotion.

"It's time." Dr. Becher said.

Maura sat up and ran her hands through her hair, than she stood up and straightened out her clothes wiping her hands at wrinkles. She looked to Jane giving her a reassuring smile. "Already." Maura asked Dr. Becher but never looked away from Jane.

"Yes." Dr. Becher responded.

"We're ready doc." Jane said as she looked in to Maura's eye's.

Jane grabbed hold of Maura's hands as the doctor walked over to Jane's right side. he pulled out a vile of medication and a syringe from his lab coat pocket. Dr. Becher plunged the syringe in to the vile pulling back on it filling the syringe. He placed the vile back in his pocket than pushed on the syringe releasing some of it's contents on to the floor. He opened a alcohol prep and wiped a port, he then placed the syringe in to the port on Jane's I.V tubing, before he pushed the medication in he spoke to both woman. " Ready for this?"

Jane shook her head yes, unable to speak as she was afraid that if she did her voice would betray her and say no. Maura could feel Jane shaking, she placed a hand on her shoulder and smiled down at her. Maura than leaned down and kissed Jane, she let her forehead rest on Jane's cheek as she spoke. " Do it."

Dr. Becher pushed the medication in to Jane's I.V, He than placed a cover on the syringe and placed it back in to his coat pocket. He sighed and said. "It's done, you should start feeling the effects in a few minutes. I'll give you two some time alone." Dr. Becher left the room.

Jane took in a couple of deep breaths before saying. " I don't feel any different."

"He said it would take a few minutes." Maura said as she remained in her position holding Jane's hands and resting her forehead on Jane's cheek. "Maur I need to shut off the blocking device and you need to hide it." Jane said.

"Okay." Maura said as she took the device and placed it in the pocket of her tailored pant's. Maura than settled back in to her position of resting her forehead on Jane's cheek and holding her hands.

Jane removed one of her hands from Maura's grasp and lifted Maura's face. Jane turned her head so that their faces were mere inches from each other. " I need you to promise me something." Jane said.

"Anything." Maura responded.

Jane smiled as she said. " If the worse is to happen I want you to mourn me forever. " Jane said with a chuckle.

Maura slapped Jane's arm as she stood up. Maura pulled Jane's hand up to her chest and leaned her head down to kiss Jane's knuckles. " I will never find another like you Jane Rizzoli." Maura wiped at a tear on her cheek with one hand while still holding Jane's hand to her chest.

"Damn right." Jane said a bit breathlessly.

"Jane are you alright?" Maura asked nervously.

"Maur, kiss me." Jane asked.

Maura leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on Jane's soft lips. The kiss began to get heated as both woman felt the urgency of the moment. Maura pulled away and rested her forehead on Jane's, she also placed one hand on Jane's cheek the other rested on Jane's chest. " Your heart is beating erratically Jane."

"It's starting."Jane said.

"Nooo." Maura whispered.

"It's ok, everything will be ok." Jane whispered.

Maura could hear Jane's monitor begin to beep loudly and sporadically. "Jane stay a little longer, please."

"I... lo..ve...y..ou..." Jane stuttered as it was becoming hard to breath. " I love you Jane, I love you."

"It's... ha...rd to bre...athe, hu...rts ch...est." Jane was begining to panic she grabbed hold of the material over her chest. Maura held on to her other hand and turned her head so that Jane was facing her. " Look at me Jane, just keep looking at me."

Nurses and doctors came pouring in to Jane's room, the monitor in Jane's room is broadcasted at the nurses station so when they saw the abnormal readings the staff came to check on her. Nurses and doctors crowded Jane's bed pulling out stethoscopes, medications, and a crash cart. One nurse tried to get Maura to release her hold on Jane's hand. " Keep looking at me Jane." Maura said as she held on tight to Jane's hand.

"Ma'am you need to let go." A nurse spoke.

"NO." Maura yelled

"We need to get to her, let us help her." The nurse said.

Maura felt two strong hands on her shoulders, just as she was about to turn around and yell at whomever dared touch her at this moment she heard a voice whisper in her ear. "Let her go Maura." Dr. Becher said.

Maura reluctantly let go of Jane's hand and stepped back allowing the staff to gain better access to Jane. Jane had a breathing mask placed on her face but she never looked away from Maura, as the staff worked frantically to stabilize Jane the two women never stopped looking at each other.

It was getting increasingly harder for Jane to keep her eyes open, she felt as though they were being forced closed. Right before Jane closed her eye's for good she pulled the mask down from her face slowly and silently worded "I love you" to Maura.

Maura gasped and covered her mouth with her hands when Jane's eye's closed, immediately following that Jane's heart stopped. The room was filled with many sounds but the only one Maura could hear was the sound of the monitor flat lining. She fell back on a chair and sobbed as she wrapped her arms around herself and rocked back and forth. The room was bustling with activity as the staff worked to start Jane's heart, but Maura knew that their attempts were futile.

"Time of death 1942." A doctor said.

"I'm sorry for your loss." A Doctor who walked over to Maura said. Maura just continued to sob

"We will give you some time with her." The doctor said.

The staff shut off Jane's monitor and removed all equipment that they used to save her, they all gave Maura remorseful looks as they left her and Dr. Becher alone in the room. Maura continued to sob as Dr. Becher kneeled down next to her chair, he placed a hand on her knee and whispered in her ear. " This is only temporary." Maura's head shot up and she glared at the doctor saying. " You better hope so."

Dr. Becher knew not to take Maura's comment personally she was grieving right now and people who are grieving can say harsh things. He stood up and checked to see if anyone was at the door before walking over to Jane. Maura was watching his every move as she tried to calm her self down. The doctor pulled out another syringe, this time he pierced the skin right between her upper and lower arm the area known as the Antecubital Fossa. He pushed on the syringe releasing the antidote in to Jane's bloodstream. He than walked over to Maura and whispered in her ear. " You have to walk away now, I need to get her down to the morgue before someone notices her breathing."

Maura looked straight ahead at Jane, she stood up and walked over to her. She stroked a lock of Jane's hair back, she then leaned down and kissed Jane gently on soft lips. As she stood up she placed a hand on Jane's heart and whispered. "Come back to me."

Maura than grabbed her purse and walked over to Dr. Becher stopping at his left side, looking straight ahead, and said. "You have my number."

Dr. Becher nodded his head and watched over his shoulder as the woman he has come to respect walked out of the room. He than walked over to Jane and thought, It's all up to you know. Dr. Becher walked out of the room hoping that he would find a breathing Jane Rizzoli the next time he see's her.

Happy Memorial Day to all those in the states, and to all who have served this country proudly, I thank you for your service!