All I Can Be
Pairing; Hunter(Hiccup)/Treyden(Toothless)
Rating; M for Mature
Author; Nightstar Fury
Disclaimer; I do not own any songs I might use or anything regarding HTTYD.
Better Off Friends
The next morning came bright and early at 6 am to Dustin Fury, Treyden's father yelling in the hallway at them to get up for work. Hunter was first to snap awake and notice he was naked holding an equally naked person in his arms. Coming out of the haze, Hunter saw that it was Treyden and quickly let go, then backed up as Treyden came out of his sleepiness to see the same sight Hunter had. Both of them were in shock but Hunter motioned to the door as if to say; I can't answer him or he'll know what happened. Treyden took a few breaths to calm himself down.
"Sorry, Dad. Overslept, Hunter and I stayed up late gaming since it was his birthday!" Treyden called.
"Well, have fun explaining that to Harry, son. He's called the house four times wondering if you're both alright. I'm leaving for my doctor appointment. See you later on. Love you," Dustin replied.
"Love you too!" Treyden answered. All that was heard were footsteps down the stairs, then the main door opening and shutting. Hunter and Treyden looked at one another a little afraid; it wasn't hard to tell what happened last night. The Southern Comfort almost gone, beer bottles in the trash, chips, and dip left out on the table, their clothes all around, and them naked. It only meant one thing; they got wasted and had sex.
"D-Did we?..." Hunter started to asked.
"I highly doubt it was us getting too hot and stripping down to stay cool, Hunter! Gods, what the hell happened?" Treyden panicked. "We were supposed to be at Fort Draco an hour, and a hal-" Trey stopped short as he put a hand to his mouth and Hunter grabbed the bedside trash bin for him, and Treyden puked three times.
"Take it," Hunter started then paused to keep himself from throwing up next, "easy. Freaking out...won't help either...of us. I don't...remember what happened. It's a huge blur accompanied with a major headache right now. We should...shower and get dressed, then we can talk about this," he added slowly trying to get off the bed and locate at least his boxers and pants. Treyden nodded, he couldn't be mad at Hunter over this. Whatever happened, the two must have agreed because they woke up in each other's arms. Treyden took a few breaths and nodded to him.
"Okay. You...shower faster than I do so you go first. I-I need a few minutes, kind'a sore still," Trey admitted looking down.
"The hot water will ease that soreness. You go first, I'll help you," Hunter said now with his pants on and offering a hand to Trey after he managed to reach his boxers and slip them on with only a little pain showing on his face. Trey put his hand in Hunter's and was brought to his feet as Hunter led him to the bathroom. "I'll take care of work," he informed as Trey closed the restroom door then Hunter heard the shower go on. Hunter went to Treyden's room and started cleaning things up, then putting dirty clothes in the hamper while collecting his own to put in his place. Hunter took out the trash then gathered some clothes for his shower and set them on the edge of the bed.
Hunter grabbed his phone seeing missed calls and texts from his parents, Audrey, friends, and Harry. Most of which were wishing a happy birthday or wondering where he was. Hunter called back Harry. First, there was no way they could go to work today. Aside from the massive hangover, there was a lot to talk about. Hunter already started recalling some aspects. On the second ring, Hunter heard a pickup.
"Haddock. Where in the name of Odin are you and Fury?!" Harry demanded.
"Major Andersen, please don't yell. I'll explain things," Hunter began.
"I'm listening intently," Harry replied.
"Treyden and I had a couple of drinks to celebrate my birthday since my girl is sick and parents with my sister are out of town til Friday night. We ordered take-out, and then around 11 pm, we both started feeling like crap and have been throwing up every few hours. We think it's food poisoning, I'm sorry...we didn't call out sooner. When there was a break in the puking, we just fell asleep past the alarms," Hunter explained.
"Well, I'm not as angry and worried as before. You're excused for a couple of days to get better, but I expect you both here Monday morning for work," Harry informed.
"Thanks, boss. And I'm sorry again," Hunter said weakly, Gods, he felt horrible.
"It's alright, but you should know we worry when people don't report to work and don't answer calls and messages. I hope you both feel better. I've gotta get back to work now, take it, easy boys. Bye," Hunter hung up after that and tossed his phone down.
"Hunter, I'm...out of the shower if you wanna go," Treyden said.
"Thanks, I'll head there now. By the way, Major Andersen thinks we have food poisoning, so we're off til Monday. I figured...we could use a few days to recover and...settle with things," Hunter told him.
"Good call. I'll uh, meet you in the living room then?" Trey asked.
"Will do," Hunter replied. After that, there was Treyden's door shutting. Hunter exited his room and went to the bathroom to relieve himself and then take a hot shower, hoping to recall more of last night.
(Twenty Minutes Later)
Treyden and Hunter sat on the couch in silence, neither knowing how to begin. It wasn't every day you had to have a conversation like this. "Thank you...for cleaning up my room," Treyden broke the silence.
"You're...welcome," Hunter replied then took a breath.
"I'm really sorry about last night," Hunter and Treyden said at the same time, they paused and laughed a little.
"Look, let's just...chalk it up to being shitfaced and not well thought out decisions. We both confided in one another private details about the other. You being bisexual, myself being gay," Hunter said afterward.
"Right, yes. We were drunk and just let things go too far. I said I'd never been kissed and at least you got to experience all you have. You were just trying to help as a good friend would," Treyden added in.
"Still, it...wasn't something we should have...experimented with under those circumstances. I mean, you said you liked someone else who was taken, and I'm...with-Oh, shit!" Hunter said with wide eyes.
"What? What is it, Hunter?" Treyden questioned quickly with concern for his friend.
"I'm with Audrey. Gods, this means I cheated on her last night. Fuck, she'll never forgive me. This will kill her; then she'll come back and kill me," Hunter panicked with his head in his hands. Treyden realized Hunter was right; they didn't just kiss or get off last night, they had sex, and it meant Hunter was unfaithful to Audrey even if it was a drunken accident.
"Hunt, deep breaths. It's...going to be okay. Just don't tell her, how is she ever going to know we slept together unless you tell her. Audrey...knows you live with me and she was sick last night. What is she going to question about what we did for your birthday? We had had a shot, then a beer each and watched TV the rest of the night until Dad found us crashed on the couch and told us to go to bed. That's all that happened, right?" Treyden assured trying to get Hunter to catch his hint.
"Trey, that means I'm lying to her and keeping secrets. The same thing I broke up with her for doing," Hunter sighed.
"So? What she did was a hell of a lot worse than what we did. We were smashed last night; she was perfectly sober and aware of her actions. I mean it's up to you man, but I wouldn't tell her," Treyden replied. "That's how I'm looking at this; it never happened. We just celebrated your birthday with a few drinks and watching TV," he added.
"You're right. What no one knows won't hurt them. You and I are the only two who know and we won't tell anyone. Thanks, Trey. You...sure you're okay though? I didn't hurt you or nothing?" Hunter asked while calming down now.
"Little sore but I'm sure I'll be okay. You were...surprisingly gentle so, thank you for that," Treyden nodded. "D-Did I...hurt you?"
"I'm glad. And no, you didn't hurt me either. Alright, we agree then. This...never happened and we're still friends?" Hunter inquired curiously.
Trey smiled with a hand out to him. "The very best of," he said as Hunter connected his hand to Treyden's. The two sat in silence a moment after relaxing on the couch.
"Okay, I have to ask...Did you enjoy it? Like, was I good?" Hunter asked, and Treyden laughed out.
"Yes, you were great. I hope I was too, never done something like that before," Treyden responded.
"Neither have I. Well, the anal side of sex at least," Hunter chuckled. Neither of them remembered much of last night, but they knew without a doubt that it was unbelievable for them both. Hunter and Treyden spent the remainder of their day sobering up and taking it easy. Hunter and Trey ended up discussing that maybe it was time for Hunter to go back home. Initially, he said he would only stay a few months while the project was going on. Now that was over plus he was back with Audrey so it might be a good chance to go home but they'd still hang out and see each other at work. Treyden didn't want Hunter to leave but knew that they weren't a thing so he couldn't as that Hunter stay.
Also, Treyden recalled that Hunter and him started on the love life talk because Hunter admitted he wasn't happy with Audrey because it didn't feel the same anymore. Treyden also remembered that Hunter said he liked someone else before Audrey and him got back together and Treyden remembered telling Hunter he liked him after Hunter said it first when the kiss ended. It hurt Trey a little to know that Hunter didn't remember but maybe he would with time.
(A Month Later)
~Hunter's POV~
I was back at my parent's house and they were glad too, so was Caitlyn. On Saturday following me leaving Treyden's after my birthday, Mom, Dad, Caitlyn, and Audrey all came out for the usual dinner. Was it bad to say I didn't have nearly as much fun with them as I did the night with Treyden? Gods, I was a horrible person. I harped on Audrey for lying and keeping secrets from me and I was doing the same to her. On Sunday was the typical surprise party with all my friends over, including Trey, Theo, and Andrew. Oh, Gregory too. That was a decent time, Treyden and I struggled not to talk about our night though. It was hard to refrain from it but we knew we had to. If anyone found out, that was it. There would be disappointment, betrayal, and tears galore.
Now, it was a month later. The end of March and tonight, Audrey and I were going to a karaoke night with our friends, and then Audrey and I were supposed to hang at her hour for a few hours to watch movies or whatever. The guilt was tearing me apart; I had to tell Audrey the truth about what happened with Treyden that night. I knew I might not ever get to be with him, but I couldn't stay with Audrey knowing I cheated on her with Trey also that I just wasn't happy because things weren't the same and never would be. Trey was right that night, I forgave but won't forget what happened and as long as I couldn't then Audrey and me just couldn't be a couple.
I recalled some things from the night with Trey. One of them was me telling him I liked him before we had sex. Another was me telling him I wasn't happy with Audrey. The last thing I remembered managed to remember was Treyden informing me that he liked someone who was taken and satisfied with said person. That just proved to me that Trey didn't like me and was straight so I couldn't pursue him. I figured on my own that Trey had to be bisexual or he wouldn't have enjoyed the sex we had that night and he said he did. All that aside, no. I had to tell Audrey tonight, there was no hiding it anymore.
(Audrey's House; 8 pm)
At the moment, Audrey and I were sitting in her room watching a movie. The two of us were holding hands but locked in kissing which I knew was sure another attempt for her to have sex with me. Unlucky for her that I didn't have any condoms on me or in the truck because I never restocked after the night with Treyden. I felt her shift and climb over me, going in for deeper kissed and I knew it was time to stop this.
"Audrey," I stated, and she kept going. "Stop, Audrey." I tried again as she made a go for trying to unbutton my pants. Finally, I put my hands on her shoulders and pushed her back. "Audrey, damn it, I said stop. We're not having sex, I don't have any condoms on me or in the truck, and I'm not in the mood," I remarked firmly.
"Alright. What gives, Hunter? We've been back together for two months now, and this is the first time I hear you don't keep condoms on you. Not to mention, you've been completely distant since the night of your birthday party. What's going on? Talk to me, please?" Audrey pleaded while still sitting on my hips. I had to tell her; there was no getting around anymore. I sighed and sat up as I had her get off me and I moved away from the bed facing the window.
" Look. I haven't been entirely honest with you about a few things, Audrey. I want you to be aware of them," I said sternly and closed my eyes. I heard Audrey sit up and on the edge of her bed.
"Okay, I'm listening," Audrey replied slowly.
"For starters, our relationship is not what it used to be. I told you, in the beginning, two months ago, that I wanted to take things easy and you've been...trying to have sex with me and drop hints about getting engaged and married for like six weeks now," I informed.
"I'm sorry, Hunter. I just...thought maybe we could go back to how it was when things were good. This feels like we're dragging our feet and as I said, you're distant," Audrey answered.
"I know. Unfortunately, Audrey, things will never be that way again because of what happened to cause the breakup. You did earn my trust, and I did forgive you, but I can't forget it, and I'm not going to. That fear keeps me from letting this go back to how it was. On other notes, Audrey, I'm...not happy here. I thought I would be with some time in and being together, but I'm not. I-I can't lie to you, while we were broken up...I started developing feelings for someone else, and those are still with me," I told her calmly.
"Y-You like someone else?" Audrey stiffened a little.
"Yes. Someone on my squad who has been there for me through thick and thin, even when things with you happened. Unfortunately, this person likes someone else, and I doubt we stand a chance at being together. However, we did share one night together and...it was god damn incredible," I admitted.
"You know, this...isn't really something I want to hear. You had a fantastic time screwing someone else, Hunter," Audrey muttered.
"I'm glad that is all you got out of that statement that I had sex with someone else instead of me having feelings for someone else who I see every day and has been there for me through everything," I rolled my eyes with a sigh.
"Do you still have feelings for this girl? Is that what you're telling me, that you're falling for this person?" Audrey asked.
"I do still have feelings for this person. But there's still one more thing I have to tell you, and I'm pretty sure that it's going to affect our relationship. You keep saying I've been distant since my birthday, well, something happened that night while I was staying at Treyden's," I closed my eyes again and looked away.
"Tell me," Audrey stated.
"Audrey. I slept with Trey," I stated firmly.
"Hunter, sleeping in the same bed with Trey isn't going to af-" Audrey started.
"No, Audrey. I mean that I SLEPT with him. Treyden...and I had sex the night of my birthday," I emphasized for her as she froze.
"Y-You mean...that you cheated on me?" Audrey breathed out as I nodded to her. "H-How did-I don't understand, Hunter. How in Thor's name did this happen?! You're...not gay; you told us all that during lunch that day! Explain! Right now!" she demanded getting to her feet now.
"You were sick; friends were busy, parents had to leave town for a few days because Grandma Gigi broke her leg. My birthday was turning out shitty for having one when I was home since the last two years, and I had been deployed for both my birthdays. Treyden apparently noticed I was miserable so he went out to get chips, dip, alcohol and we hung out in his room to watch TV and listen to music. Trey and I...got hammered drunk and...ended up having sex," I explained to her calmly. I wasn't ashamed of what I did with Trey.
"Hunter, you had sex with another man! That makes you gay; you lied to your sister and our friends in the lunch room. You cheated on me and have been hiding it for a month," Audrey said quickly.
"Audrey, I'm fucking sorry okay!" I yelled as she was taken aback by the anger. "I'm sorry I cheated on you and hid it. I-I didn't want anyone to know that Trey and I had drunk sex together. I didn't...lie to anyone. I said I wasn't gay...but I never said I wasn't bisexual. Yes, I'm attracted to males and females and the person I have feelings for...is Treyden. I started...liking him when we broke up. I don't...care if you leave me just...please don't tell anyone about me being bi. Please? You know my sister and mother will never approve and I don't want it come out until I'm ready to tell them. Please, I'm begging you,"
Audrey's angry look held for a moment or two then it faded as she sighed and finally, she smiled and I was confused. Audrey walked up to me and put a hand on my cheek, then she kissed me deeply but I didn't return it as I once used to. Audrey pulled away and held my hand. "You don't like him, Hunter. You're in love with him, it's in your actions. You don't kiss me with the same passion you used to and don't think I haven't seen how happy you get when Treyden is around you. You spoke of having an incredible night with him and you've never said that about the times we made love," she said.
"I'm confused. Are you mad and breaking up with me or forgiving me and telling me something I already know?" I decided to ask boldly.
"I'm not mad at you, and yes, I do forgive you. You're right; we aren't what we used to be and honestly...I've noticed you aren't happy with me, but we were more comfortable as friends after you forgave me. So I...think it's best if we don't try to push this and lose that. I love you, Hunter, but your heart belongs to someone else now, and I have to let you go so you can be happy, so we both have a chance to be. What I'm saying is that we should break up and just stay friends like we were. I won't tell anyone about you being bisexual, and I won't even mention we broke up because everyone will wonder why and I know you aren't ready to tell them," Audrey said softly.
"I am sorry, Audrey," I stared at her.
"Don't apologize for falling in love. We do love one another, but we aren't in love. I know you say Trey likes another but there's no way the night you two shared won't bring him towards you eventually. Thank you for giving me another chance, I got to prove you can still tell me anything and I will listen, and help all I can. So don't forget that, okay? I want you to be happy, Hunter," Audrey smiled and hugged me. I had returned it before we pulled away and I started for the door to her room.
"I want you to be happy too and thank you for understanding. Catch you later, my friend," I smiled back as I left and exited the house, got in my truck and went home. I couldn't believe how well it went, we broke up on mutual terms and she understood that I loved someone else and things between her and me weren't the same anymore. We were truly better off as friends. Audrey was going to keep my secret of being bisexual until I was ready to tell everyone. Now I had to figure out how exactly I was going to do that; it wouldn't be easy because I knew how many people would approve. What else could I do, it would come out that Audrey and I weren't together soon, so that meant I had to come out before then. And I knew exactly who I could talk to about this; My Dad.