I really don't know what to say in these things any more. Do they even have a point? I mean, do people actually read these parts or just scroll past them until they hit the yaoi? I guess the purpose of these paragraph thingies before the chapters was to describe what I was feeling during the time. But these feelings I have a pretty hard to explain in words.

Day 4-Friday

I used to love Fridays. They were my favourite day of the week because it meant that after work I could go out and have fun at a bar or something like that. But instead, I had the pleasure of spending my evening at home. I couldn't even be with Ed, because Al was in Central, and we couldn't let him suspect anything.

It was probably around this time when I started to think about things like this which would mean that our relationship wouldn't work. Unlike me, Ed had a lot of people who were really close to him. After all that they'd been through, he and Al were inseparable, which I understand. But that made it really hard for us to have any time alone. Every second that I spent without him felt like a second wasted, and I'd already wasted a lot of time in my life.

But I should stop with all this deep, feeling-filled crap and get back to telling the story like it is. Was. Whatever.

I needed something to do. I couldn't stand being stuck in my apartment alone all evening. There were plenty of fun things that I could do without Ed, weren't there? I mean, I could… go… talk to my foster mother?

Wow. My entire life before Ed consisted of paperwork, setting things on fire, drinking and picking up women. Simple times.

So, out of any other options, I decided to pay my foster mother a visit. I hadn't seen her since I'd come back from Ishbal, and a lot had happened since then. How much of it I was going to tell her, I wasn't exactly sure.

Madame Christmas's bar/brothel/hostess club bar thing was surprisingly empty for a Friday evening. I spotted about two or three guys in the distance, too absorbed in their dates to notice me, which was the way I liked it right now. Of course, this meant that the girls outnumbered their customers, so a lot of them were sitting at tables, talking and drinking amongst themselves. When they saw me coming, most of them waved or said hello. I walked straight over to the bar where my foster mother stood, pouring drinks. She smiled when she saw me.

"It's been a while, Roy-boy, where have you been?" She said, pouring me a glass of scotch without hesitation. I took a seat at the bar.

"I've been busy. I actually do have a job, you know." I said.

"From what I heard, not so much."

"What?"

"I've been hearing rumours that you're not working." She said.

"What?" I repeated.

"Apparently, you've got some well-deserved time off."

"Well, I wouldn't exactly call it that." I said, taking a sip.

"What happened?"

"I really don't want to talk about it."

"What happened?" She asked again.

"It was more of a forced leave than a vacation." I replied.

"What did you do?" She rolled her eyes.

"Why are you saying it like that?! I didn't do anything?"

"Then why did they more or less fire you?"

"Like I said, I don't want to talk about it." I took a larger sip.

"Roy-boy." She said, " If you come in here looking all depressed, what do you expect me to do?"

"Think that I need a break?"

"No. Ask you about it until you get it off your chest, of course." She smiled. Why couldn't I, for once, be able to talk to someone I care about without it being emotionally scarred.

"Rumours." I said quickly. Not a single part of me wanted to explain in more detail.

"Oh, so that was probably you I heard about." Apparently, I didn't need to go into specifics.

"What did you hear?"

"A high-ranking officer more or less announced that he was gay."

"Yeah."

"So are you?"

"Am I what?"

"Gay?"

"No! Of course not!"

"Roy-boy," She leaned closer, "You know that I'll love you just the same, don't you?"

Hey!

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*dodges objects being thrown at her*

Sorry for not posting in ages and then finally posting with a terribly short abomination, but I have had super-uber writer's block and have been distracted by excessive RPing (follow first-ship-captain on tumblr for Karneval awesomeness!)

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