A/N Well, final chapter, readers. If this chapter is emotional, fluffy, dramatic, and sweet, well, that was the plan. Hope you guys enjoyed my story. Much love to you all.

I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW DESPARATELY I NEEDED YOU

Tony had driven Ziva back to his place, after her visit with Ray. She didn't have much to say but for some reason, she seemed content with the whole thing. Like the closure she was looking for, was found. Tony was planning on doing something for Ziva tonight. Something that he had planned for a while now. He was scared out of his mind, already shaking over the thought of doing this, but if this whole thing with Ziva taught him anything, it was that he would never be ok without her.

The idea that Ziva might be scared off from this had crossed his mind but he couldn't think about that possibility right now. He just had to focus on the fact that Ziva was finally in his life, and if things went his way tonight, for good. They quietly walked into his apartment, where Tony turned on his light so he could see Ziva more clearly now. He just walked up to her and took her by the hand. "Ziva, I know that the things that happened to today, that you want to talk about, you'll talk about when you're ready but please, just answer one question for me."

"Ok, anything, Tony." Tony just brought her hands up to his cest now before he proceeded to ask his question. "Ray didn't hurt you, did he?" Looking at Ziva with such intense passion, his eyes said that if Ray did anything at all to her Ziva again that he would finish the job he started the last time. "In any way, Ziva?" Ziva just smiled a little bit and pulled Tony into her now. "No Tony, Ray did not hurt me." Looking up at him now. "He can't not hurt me anymore, Tony." He was soo happy to hear this and it gave him more of the courage he needed to talk to Ziva now.

Tony just took a deep breath in, as Ziva noticed how nervous he was acting. "Tony, what is wrong?" "Ziva, I want to do something tonight that will effect both of our futures. I mean both of our futures together but before I do, I want to tell you a few things first." Ziva just nodded at Tony, understanding that this was something big for him and for her, also. "Ziva, when I called you that night and I asked you to come see me, I had no idea what I was even doing or what I was going to say to you. All I knew was I could not let you marry Ray without speaking up, and, of course, it wasn't just because I knew Ray was the wrong guy for you, it was also because I did not want to lose you to him."

"And knowing that getting you to confess your feelings for me would be the first step. Lets face it, I don't have the best track record when it comes to committment. I could even write a whole book on what not to do while in a relationship, one of the first references being my own father. " She just smiled at him. "Tony." Reaching up and touching his cheek, thinking he was being way too hard on himself. "I'm just saying all this because I didn't really know what to expect from a relationship with you but um...for some reason, I knew deep down in my heart that things would be different with you, that somehow things would work and that scared me . It scared me soo much that I just ran away from it."

"After believing you were dead, while you were in Somalia, It was hard to get though each day but to be honest, my feelings for you were still complicated. I still didn't know what you meant to me. I knew that I missed you and that I wanted you back into my life, I just didn't know in what way. Ziva, when you came home with me that night and we gave one another to each other." Taking her hands and kissing them while tears formed in his eyes. "I knew I never wanted to give myself to any other women but you, for the rest of my life. I gave my life to you that night, Ziva." Tears ran down Ziva's face now.

"And when Gibbs called me the night after and told me that you were in the hospital and that something terrible happened to you, I could feel my life coming back to me but um... it no longer had you in it. Wow, I thought Somalia was hard but to get through this... "Shaking his head as Ziva just tried her best to relax him. "I tried so hard to be strong without you, Ziva and I put up a very good front until I just couldn't anymore. I don't know if the nurses talked to you at all about this but I almost did something stupid. I almost ended things for myself."

Tony just broke down while Ziva couldn't believe what she was hearing. "God Tony, no." Reaching up with both her hands so she could brush some of the tears off Tony's face. "Yes Ziva, I wanted, so badly, to be in the place that you were, even if I didn't know where that place was. I've never been so scared in my life because I knew, in that exact moment, that I would do anything, go through anything, if it meant that I could be with you again, Even if it meant that I had to die." Tony reached in his pocket and pulled out a box now as Ziva just watched him get down on one knee.

Continuing to sob on the floor, Ziva knew this wasn't the traditional way and she didn't want to ruin things for Tony but she got down on her knees, aswell. She wanted to be where Tony was at and she wanted to feel everything that he was feeling. "I didn't realize how desperately I needed you until you weren't there anymore." Barely able to speak, he was soo worked up. "And I never want to come that close to losing you, losing me, again. Ziva David, I know we've only been together for a short time, you probably think I'm crazy by now and if Gibbs were here, I would receive the biggest head slap of my life but... I just don't care because the second you opened your eyes, that was the second my life started again. Ziva David, will you marry me?"

"Yes Tony, I will marry you." Her voice was shaking with emotion, Tony quickly dropped the box, while still holding onto the ring. He could NOT put that ring on her finger fast enough. He just let out the biggest gasp of emotion, like he just recieved the greatest news of his life, They remained in that position for the longest time before finally standing up and holding each other, clinging to each other for survival. "God, I love you, Ziva. I love you soo much." Laughing in pure joy while holding Tony. She was almost hysterical, and Tony just rubbed Ziva's back, reassuring her that he had her and wasn't going to let go. "Are you ok?" She just nodded. "Uh huh. Are you ok?"

Tony was practically in hysterics himself. He couldn't believe she said "Yes.", that she was standing there, and was in his arms. "Because of you...I am now." Kissing her a couple times on her head, while the tears continued to fall.