Dear Diary,

Today began...with grogginess.

Though last night was...beyond words, and perhaps the most wonderful night of my life, I can't help but regret the sleep I am now lacking. It dragged at me all day.

And when Eddy decided today would be the perfect time to discuss my "relationship" in relation to Kevin, well...I was less than thrilled.

I had until lunch to prepare. Unfortunately, I'd forgotten that Eddy had signaled this the day prior. Woe is me.

Lunchtime...

We sat down together, and the silence had a heartbeat. Eddy drummed his thumbs on the table, fidgeting, grunting, and...surprise, surprise...he exploded on me, as he is prone to do.

"Who the fuck was that weirdo with the hair dye, Double D?!" He practically pulled himself onto the table with the force his hands placed on it. I dabbed my lips with a napkin. I was too utterly exhausted to even feign that his outburst had an effect on me. I simply could not care, in my state.

"That would be Nat, Eddy. He is a friend of Kevin's, and that is all you need to know."

"As if! I saw him go all googly-eyed on you! Was he gonna kiss your hands?"

I gasped, "Eddy, were you...spying on me?!" I wasn't surprised, per se...just frustrated at his lack of trust.

"So? Good thing I did. Kevin's up to something. I can smell it. What's he makin' you do, huh?"

I blinked unamusedly, "He is making me do nothing. He is simply a close friend."

"Close?! But we're your friends, Double D! Not Shovel-Chin and his lackeys!"

Meanwhile, Ed simply watched us converse, scooping mashed potato into his mouth periodically.

"I do remember, 'friend', that you said you had no say over my friends. Kevin is no exception."

"I'm not gonna let that jerk use you!"

"Use me?!"

A dramatic gasp...from Ed, "But Kevin and Double D are like the pigeons and the flies Eddy!"

I caught on immediately, "You mean 'the birds and the bees', Ed..."

"Wait wait wait..." I cursed my automatic correction and Eddy continued, "You...and Kevin?"

I was not in the mood for this. I just needed to eat, get through the day, and sleep.

"What, are you butt-buddies now?"

"Eddy!"

"Oh oh, I wann-" I covered Ed's mouth, as disgusting as that was for me to do.

"We are merely friends! Just...it's none of your business, anyways! Now, I'm going to finish my lunch elsewhere. You're welcome to join me, Ed. At least -you- can be mature about this situation."

Eddy was, as you'd expect, steaming. I tuned him out.

I will say this...Eddy has nothing against my sexual preferences. Or, I assume he doesn't; he's always been fairly 'whatever' about that sort of thing. I believe he is taking offense in my...choices. I imagine if I liked anyone else, we wouldn't have been having that discussion.

Onto brighter matters...I did see Kevin today. Twice. The first time, he was talking to Nazz...it looked awkward. I felt it best not to intrude.

The second time, we passed in a crowded hallway, and he (purposefully, I imagine) rubbed his arm against mine as he passed. His scent wafted past me and the warmth of his arm rubbing against mine, well...it was enough to make me smile. Widely. Even if he didn't see it...

I wish he'd come over tonight. Or called. Or...anything. I dare-say I...really miss him.

Goodness...we're nothing more than, erm, 'friends', and here I am, yearning for him with every passing thought. I look out the window at his house occasionally, fingers crossed I'll see him. Last night has consumed my thoughts, and appears to want to keep me from my restful sleep as well. Strangely...I don't care as much as I would have in the past.

But I suppose I've put it off long enough. I must bid you good night, Dearest Diary. Thank you for being someone I can talk to, truly, faults and all...

Oh, Kevin...what have you done to me?

Your questioning companion,

Eddward