Okay, sorry for the long wait. I've been having a hard time writing lately. Look, it's a sad story. This chapter is really rough and sad. If you don't like it, don't read it. This is what I want to write like and if you don't like it then fine but I'm not going to change the way I write. Thank you all for reading. :)

"She's awake..." I freeze. "What?" I ask and he explains himself. "Something in the surgery... Triggered something. And she's awake. And asking for you." I clench my fists at my sides. This can't be true. They said she couldn't make it. It's a dream. Don't let this fool you. "Sir, are you coming or not?" He asks and I grab the knife, slicing my arm again. I still feel the pain. I still feel it. This is real. "Yes. Yes. Oh my god. I'm coming right now." The amount of pressure that's off my chest is indescribable. I sprint to Ari's room, feeling bad that I have to wake her up so soon but... I don't think she'll mind. "Ar... Ar get up." I whisper, shaking her. She looks at the clock before turning to me, tears coming from her eyes. "She's gone... She's gone... Isn't she?" I lift her out of bed, spinning her in a circle. I grab my head. Woah. Okay, now is not the time to have a seizure. As soon as I can see again, I smile at Ar. But she's crying. Harder than before. "Woah woah what's wrong Ar? She's n-" she pushes on me, trying to get out of my arms so I set her down. She pushes me as hard as she can out the door and slams the door shut. I hear things rummage around and I panic. "Ariana open this door right now!" I bang on the door and hear her loud cries from inside. I jiggle the knob for a second before I jump, grabbing the key and opening it. My eyes lock with hers and I glance around. I think that this is when I realized that nothing will ever be okay. I thought it was okay and that the bad part was over. But in reality? It didn't even begin.

Ally's POV

"Where's Austin? He- he should be here by now!" I almost yell at the nurse. It's been an hour and they said he was on his way. What if something happened to him? "Look Miss. Dawson, I'm sure he's fine-" I sigh and cut her off, kind of sweetly this time. "I'm really sorry for yelling, I'm just... Scared..." I whisper to her and she smiles at me. A tear flows down my cheek as she sits on the bed next to me. "I'm sure that nothing has happened... Remember, he has two kids with him and its three or four in the morning. It's probably not-" what? "Did I just hear you say... Two kids?" She nods and I sit up gasping, grabbing my stomach. "Oh my god..." I put my hand over my mouth and start crying in overall happiness. "The baby... It's- it's okay?" I ask her and she smiles widely. "You're just like your husband. The look on his face when he saw your son for the first time... Gosh it was priceless. Just as priceless as yours..." She says with a smile and I laugh at myself. But not because something's funny, just because I'm so happy. "Son? It was a boy?" She nods and I look up at her. "He's perfectly healthy and is just like you and your husband." I smile at her again. "Thank you, thank you so* much." She laughs. "You're so welcome." She sighs. "Is there anyone else that can come here for you?" I nod. "Dez and Trish. They should be on my contact list." She nods and walks out of the room for a minute.

"They said they will probably be here in and hour and twenty minutes? Um, it wasn't really updated but they moved to Long Island a little while ago so yeah." She tells me and I smile. "God, I'm so glad they were able to move, I know they wanted to." The nurse just smiles at me.

Dez's POV

"Trish... Sweetheart, get up." She groans but blinks her eyes open and then looks at the clock. "It's three in the morning, go to bed. You've been up all night." She tries to turn around. "No no Trish, get up. Ally's awake and we need to get to her." She gasps and springs up. "Oh my gosh! She's awake! She's awake Dez, she's awake!" I laugh as she pulls me into a hug. "I know, let's get all our stuff and then I need to talk to you in the car." She nods, getting up and we start getting ready to leave.

Once we're in the car, Maci and Austin asleep, I begin to worry. "I called Austin and... Things were said. Mean, horrible things that I shouldn't have said. And now they said that he told them he was on his way, and it's been an hour. Trish, I'm worried. What if he's not okay?" She grabs my hand and sighs. "He is. Don't you think that if he got the call before you fought, he would've told you? I mean, c'mon. He wouldn't hurt himself right after he was told that Ally was awake." I sigh and squeeze her hand. "I... I really hope you're right Trish." She leans over and kisses my cheek. "I love you." I smile. "I love you too."

Austin's POV

Have you ever felt so... I don't even know. Sad, mad, hurt, angry, surprised... That everything seemed to move in slow motion? I felt like collapsing the second I unlocked her door. As soon as I locked eyes with her, she knew something bad was gonna happen. I saw the fear in her eyes. But it wasn't aimed toward me. It was toward her pain. The pain she just put herself through. The pain she must be in. When I really realized what she had done, I ran to her. I picked her up bridal style, dialing 911 already. I was so... Scared... At that moment, that I remember the blur of the words coming through the phone and remember seeing everything as a blur, except for her. Her eyes were barely open and she groaned a little every time I made a move. I remember yelling through the phone, hoping that someone could understand me and help me. And they could. Kind of...

The ambulance got to the apartment immediately and took her. I ran down with Austin and watched them put her inside. She stared at me with wide eyes until the doors were closed. My heart continues to pound in my ears, being the only thing I could hear. I place Austin in his car seat and speed behind the ambulance. I see the bright lights from it but I can't seem to focus on anything but the fact that my daughter was inside. When I get there, they sit me down and question me, asking what had happened. They investigated the apartment and what had happened, narrowing down the results. I wasn't a suspect. They know it was her. They still question me though. They ask me why and how. I can't really answer. I'm not sure why she did it. I don't really know how she managed to do it in less than a minute. I just feel like I don't know anything at this point.

This is how I'm where I am now. Sitting in the waiting room of a hospital I don't recognize. Which is weird. I've been to a lot of them... It seems familiar but it's really quiet. Maybe I'm on another side or something? I'm not sure. They won't let me use their phone and I forgot mine. I refuse to leave. But I wish I could call Dez, even though I'm mad at him, or Trish because I know she misses Ally like crazy. I wish that maybe I could even call Ally. I wouldn't want to worry her though... I don't know. I can't go in and see her yet. I don't really know what I'll do when I can. I have Austin with me so I don't know what I should do. She's in surgery. They said she'll be okay though. But... Will it really be okay? Do they really believe that?

A nurse comes out, walking toward me and makes me stop panicking. "Mr. Moon, she's okay. She's asleep right now but you can go in if you would like." She tells me and I nod, but don't move from where I'm sitting. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I stand up with Austin and walk into her room. She's bandaged up and is on a feeding tube... I'm- I'm a horrible, horrible father. How could I let this happen? To my precious baby girl... I sigh, kissing her forehead and placing Austin next to her and wrapping her arm around him. That's how it should be.

About two hours later, she begins to move. But she's... Moving and talking in her sleep? I wonder if she does that a lot. I try to make out what she's saying. "We made a deal.. Dad we made a deal." She says and I freeze. I cut myself. She saw my cuts. "The deal." I whisper to myself. "Ari, oh my god..." I kiss her forehead and my tears trip on to her forehead. "I love you so so so so much Ari... Never think otherwise. I'm so sorry I did this to you baby..." I whisper and I lean back, closing my eyes. I start to cry a little harder and before I know it, I'm sobbing. But a little voice breaks it, making me go silent. "Dad?" She whispers and I hold my breath. "Say something to me..." She says, reaching her arm out to me. I grab her small hand and envelope it into mine, going over and kneeling next to the bed. "Ari." I whisper. I couldn't say more. The fact that she was awake and okay was enough to make me a little happy again. "The deal." She says and I shake my head, tears falling from my eyes. "I'm so sorry Ar..." She squeezes her eyes shut, tears slipping down her face. "It hurts dad. It hurts so much." She says and I feel my heart take yet another beating. "Where does it hurt Ar? Maybe a doctor can help you..." I say and she shakes her head, a choked sob coming from her throat. "No, my heart. My heart is sad. It wants you to be okay. It wants us to be a family again. It wants mommy. I miss her so much. I can't believe she's gone." I look up at the ceiling, tears rushing down my face. "She's not gone Ar, she's a-" she groans and cuts me off. "Don't pretend that she's okay dad! She's not!" She screeches and thrashes around. I grab her arms gently until she's calm again, collapsing into my arms. "I woke you up because she's awake. She's really awake Ar." She gasps, clutching to my wrists. "She is? Is she really? Dad don't lie to me!" She sobs out, trying to get from my grip again. "She's awake. I'm not lying. Mommy is awake. I promise you." She puts her head against my chest and starts to sob. "Daddy..." She whispers and I feel myself start to fall apart. To hear her call me daddy again... Should be nice. Shouldn't it? Well, it made me realize how much she's been hurting and that after all, she's still a three year old. "I miss her so much and now because of me, we can't see her... Well you can, I can't." I shake my head, lifting her chin up to look at me. "I'm not leaving without you. We are going to her as a family." She smiles at me and nods. We sit there, her in my arms with Austin in hers for awhile. It's hard to explain what happens but something happens as we sit there.

A nurse comes in and I sigh, I wish we could just be here and not be interrupted. I turn and smile at the woman and then frown I'm confusion. She looks at me in what's probably the same way I'm looking at her. "Do I know you from somewhere?" She asks me and I shrug, placing Ari and Austin on the bed. She glanced down at them and her eyes pop open. "Are you... Are you Ally Dawson's fiancé?" She asks me and my eyes widen. "Oh my gosh! Your wife, she's so upset. She's worried about you, it's nerve wracking to even be in the room with her." I walk up to the woman, placing my arm on her shoulder. "She's here?" I whisper, looking into her eyes. "Yeah... She's upstairs... Can you co-" I shake my head and cut her off. "I- I can't leave my daughter here. But don't tell Ally. I would like to tell her myself." She nods. "I'll see what I can do. In the meantime, I'm going to let Ally know that you are okay and I'm gonna send one of your friends down here." I nod and sit back down.

"Austin." I recognize Dez's voice immediately. "Dez..." I whisper, looking up at him in the first time in weeks. "I'm sorry." He says and I nod. "I know... It's okay." I smile a little at him and he smiles back, sitting down on the chair next to mine. "So. Would you like to tell me what happened?" I take a deep breath.

"I started cutting myself when you hung up the phone. I'm sure you figured that. It wasn't just you, it was everything. That was just my breaking point I guess." I see the guilt in his eyes and I sigh, continuing. "After I picked up the second time and I hung up on you, I got the call about Ally." He smiles when I say her name. "I wasn't thinking straight and I ran right into Ari's room, without covering anything. I guess... She saw the cuts. Which meant I broke our promise. She shoved me out her bedroom door." I look down to the ground, trying not to break out in sobs. "And when I unlocked the door, she had stared at me. With fear. I think she realized what she did. She... She stabbed herself." I let out a sob and cover my face, screaming into my hands and then yanking on my hair. "Dez. I need your help. Nothing will ever be okay. She stabbed herself Dez. She stabbed herself..." I trail off, leaning against the wall. "Help me..." I whisper. I whisper it to Dez, to Ari and just to anyone who was listening to me in that moment. Because I really needed it.

Ally's POV

The nurse explains a few things to me but not many. All she told me was that Austin was okay and that I had to go downstairs. They put me in a wheelchair and Trish helped me down there. When we got in front of the door, Trish went in and told Austin to come out. Wait. "If he can walk out, why couldn't he come upstairs?" I ask Trish and she sighs. "He'll explain everything." I nod as Dez and Trish go into the room and Austin comes out to sit with me. I glance at him for the first time in god knows how long and I feel like a weight is lifted off my shoulders when he says my name. "Ally." He comes over to me and pulls me into a bear hug. "Austin." He pulls back for a second and places his lips on mine. I smile into the kiss but... He doesn't. I actually start to feel him... Frown? I pull away from him with my eyes closed. "What's wrong?" I whisper and he lets out what sounds like a sob. My eyes pop open and I stare at him. "You look... Better. But... Worse. Does that make sense?" I ask and he closes his eyes and pulls me into a hug, letting out another sob. "God what's wrong Austin? You're worrying me." He pulls back from the hug and I don't think I've ever seen him so... Distraught. "It's honestly a really long story. We'll start from the beginning some other time." I sigh but nod, telling him to continue.

"Ari found out what was going on. She found out that I... Cut myself, tried to kill myself, made myself throw up and... And while I was in the hospital, she cut herself. She made herself throw up. She tried to stab herself..." I freeze, not really knowing what to do as Austin sobs in front of me. Tears start flowing down my face. "Oh my god... Where is she?" He doesn't answer, I don't think he can. "Let me finish." He whispers. My hearts beating faster than ever before and I start shaking. "Austin, is she okay?" He takes his hair in his hands, letting out yet another sob. "Physically? Yeah. Mentally? Not even close." He sighs. I want to see her. I don't get why he won't just tell me what's going on. "Austin, I'm getting f*cking pissed. What's going on?!" I yell at him and he looks up into my eyes for the first time since I got downstairs. Something happens. He stares blankly at me and he starts to shake. A lot. "Austin?" I try, but he doesn't even acknowledge that I'm speaking. I tap him, grab his arm, anything I could. What's going on? What's he doing? Is this all a joke? It's terrifying me. "Austin!" I yell, tears now pouring from my eyes. Dez comes rushing out, looking at him. He moves me away from him. "Dez, what's going on?! What's happening to him?! Dez!"

"Ally. Ally! He's having a seizure. He obviously didn't explain that to you yet. It happens a lot. He did something that caused this. The doctors said that if he gets really upset or stressed, his body will try to shut down. That's what the seizure is. I don't know what happened but... Try not to upset him. They said that... If it's bad enough, the seizure will eventually shut his body down completely." I look up at his face, sniffling a bit. "What'd he do?" I whisper to him. "That's for him to tell you..." I nod, looking over his shoulder at Austin. He's looking at me, not shaking. His eyes roam around so I know he's "awake", per say. "I'm sorry Ally... I-I don't know what to do with myself anymore..." I slowly stand up and walk to him. "Austin, we can do this." He shakes his head. "I can't... She... She stabbed herself today. She's in this hospital room right now. She stabbed herself. Ally, she's three... It's my fault." I shake my head, sobs now coming from the both of us. I lift my arms around his neck and his go to my waist. "Ally I missed you. I missed you so god d*mn much I can't even explain." He pulls back and presses his lips against mine and I kiss him back hard. The kiss means something. I feel like it's saying that we can push through this. God can give you h*ll but once you work through it, you'll reach what you're looking for. We pull back and put out foreheads together. He begins to shake his head. "I-I told myself that when you woke up... I'd be gone. You shouldn't have to deal with me anymore. That's... That's why I have your ring. Ally..." He whispers and he cups my cheek. "When you and Ar are feeling better... I think I have to leave. I'm- I'm so sorry that I have to do this but I can't keep hurting you guys." I sigh, pulling away from him as a few tears fall from my eyes. "You can't leave me here Austin." He sighs, shaking his head and closing his eye. When he closes them, his body starts to shake. "Austin." I say. Is... Is he having another seizure? "Austin!" I yell. He's shaking. A lot. It's much more than before. His eyes remain close as Dez comes running out. "He's never had them so close together." He tells me and he turns to look at Austin. His eyes remain shut after he stops shaking. In an instant, he toppled over. "Oh my god Dez." I say as he runs to help Austin. "Ally. Get a doctor. Now." I sit back down in my wheelchair and roll as quickly as I can to a doctor down the hall. "Help. Please, please sir. I need your help." The doctor looks at me and nods, following me down the hall. "My husband has been having seizures and he had two almost back to back and he collapsed." I tell him as calmly as I can, tears running down my face. We walk together and Austin has already been put into a room by some nurses. He won't let me in the room. They need to do some testing. The doctor comes out twenty minutes later. "Is he okay?" I ask him and he shrugs. "It depends on what you think okay is." He tells me. My hearts starts beating faster as I wait for him to explain. "He's alive and breathing. But his body is still trying to shut down on its own. I don't know how to stop it. If it continues... He may die or become paralyzed. It depends on what the next seizure brings." He tells me and I squeeze my eyes shut. I don't even know what to do anymore.

Well...?