Chapter 37

Unwoven

Songs:

Kiss Me Slowly-Parachute
Beside You-Marianas Trench
Lost and Lonely-The Rasmus (Thanks to HikariMelody for this one.)

The days passed by slowly, dragging themselves out into forever. With each passing day, Magnus had hoped for progress in Alec, but nothing changed. Alec got up, ate when he needed to, and then just sat on the couch staring out the window until he chose to go to sleep. Most nights, he passed out where he sat, and Magnus would have to pick him up and bring him to bed. And when he did sleep he thrashed about screaming for it to stop. He talked little, no matter how much Magnus tried to get him to. When he did talk, it was to snap at Magnus. Yeah, it hurt, but Magnus took it and just kept pushing Alec. But every time he pushed him, Alec pulled back two more steps. It was like they were in this silent battle with each other, stuck forever with nowhere to go. Magnus tried, he did. He would try to strike up a conversation about some TV show or movie that was on, just something small, but all he'd get was small mumblings of recognition. He just wanted to get through to Alec. He wanted him back. This person wasn't Alec, hell, it was barely a person. Magnus knew that once Alec got out from behind his walls, he could start to heal, but for now he had locked himself so far away that even Magnus couldn't find him.

Magnus had promised himself and Alec after that first night that he would do anything to help Alec. He would take anything Alec threw his way, be it words, looks, or some object. He would take it all just to see Alec return to the way he was. He wasn't going to give up no matter how much Alec might want him to. Magnus had been him once and if he had had someone to kick his ass into order, he knew he wouldn't be the way he was now. He loved Alec too much to see him lose what he was because of this. Alec was strong underneath it all, and they both knew that. Magnus just had to find a way to dig down deep and bring that to Alec's surface. Once Alec knew how to be strong, he would make it through everything.

"Alec, I made you breakfast." Magnus set the plate of blueberry pancakes-Alec's favourite-down on the table in front of him. Alec didn't look up at him, barely even acknowledged that he was there. And it wasn't the first time he had done this. Magnus knew he had to be patient with Alec, but he was getting real tired of this. He could understand if this was one of Alec's friends, or some person who didn't mean a lot, but Magnus was his boyfriend, and Alec was supposed to let Magnus be there for him. He was supposed to let him in, not pull this cold, silent crap on him.

"Alec, you have to eat," Magnus said, trying to hide the frustration that was growing exponentially with every passing day.

"I'm not hungry."

Magnus ground his teeth together to hold his tongue as he sat down on the coffee table. "Don't lie to me Alexander. You haven't eaten since yesterday afternoon. You have to eat something."

"I'll eat later."

"Alec..."

"Stop! I'm not hungry Magnus, okay? Just leave it alone." He looked at Magnus for just a split second before looking back out the window. No emotion showed on his face, it was just a blank slate, void of the volcano of emotions Magnus knew he was bottling up inside his heart.

"No, Alec. I won't."

That caught the boy's attention. Alec's dull baby blues turned on Magnus, staying there for more than a fleeting second.

"I won't leave it alone, no matter how many times you ask me. I'll never leave you alone, and really I don't care what you think about that. All I've been trying to do this past week is help you, but every time I try, you push me away and make me feel like shit for ever thinking about you. Well I'm sorry Alec. I'm sorry I fucking care." Magnus stood up, turning his back on Alec. He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself. It wasn't right for him to snap at Alec, not after everything he'd been through. But then again, maybe it was what he needed. He didn't need to be cradled like his mother was doing, but told exactly how it was. Sometimes the truth was harsh, but sometimes it was exactly what someone needed to break them open.

Magnus turned back around to face Alec, who was still looking away, unable to face Magnus. "Actually, you know what? I'm not sorry. Why should I apologize for being here for you, for wanting to help you as you helped me? Why can't you just see me Alec? You stare out that goddamned window everyday while I'm here trying to find some way to help you. I push and I pull, but somehow it's just never enough, because you can't see that I'm right here. You're so blinded by what happened. And I get it Alec, more than anyone else, I get it. I get what it feels like to not want to go outside, to not want to be touched. I know the pain that you feel every time you close your eyes and every time you breathe. I know that Alec, and I know that you can beat it. Sebastian doesn't control you. And by doing this, by stopping your life, you're letting him win. You're letting him beat you down again and again, and if you keep this up, it's going to hurt more than anything he did to you. You have to get your life back Alec, and if you just let me, I can help you. You promised me once that you would fix me, that you would help me through my past, and you did so much more than that Alec. But now it's my turn. It's my turn to be here for you, but I can't if you won't let me. There's only so much pushing away one person can take and I don't want you to push me so far away I can't find my way back. I want in Alec. I want to help you. But you've got to let me. You've got to stop fighting this yourself because I promise you, you will never win. It will tear you apart piece by piece from the inside until you don't even recognize your own face in the mirror. So let me in baby. Let me help you and together, I promise you it will get better. You showed me that it does, and now it's my turn to show you." Magnus stopped as he looked at Alec hoping for some reaction. But as always, Alec was frozen there as he had been every hour of the last week. Alec's lack of reaction was tearing Magnus apart. He was expecting something, if not words, at least for Alec to look at him. He just wanted Alec to acknowledge that he had heard at least a word of what he had spoken. But there was nothing. Absolutely nothing. And as much as Magnus was hoping for something he wasn't necessarily surprised.

"Alec please say something. At least look at me."

Nothing.

"Alec, baby. Come on."

Still nothing.

"Fine, don't look at me. But at least eat something so you don't die in your self-induced confinement. If you suddenly feel you need me, you know where to find me." And with that, Magnus turned his back to Alec and walked away. He said what he could and it was Alec's decision what he chose to do with it. Magnus just hoped that at least some of it had gotten past Alec's walls, that at least part of what he had said meant something to him. It was tearing him apart not being able to help Alec through all of this, and even if it meant just bringing food so he didn't starve, Magnus would do what he had to do to be there for Alec. He wasn't giving up on him. He knew that the Alec he knew was still there, he was just quiet, lost behind walls of pain and demons that he wasn't strong enough to beat yet. But if he let him, Magnus would help him beat those demons. He would fix Alec as Alec had once fixed him.

Alec put the plate back down on the table, leaning back into his corner of the couch. His eyes automatically went back to looking out the window. He wasn't really looking at the street below him, but at his reflection in the window; a reflection that no matter how long he stared, he couldn't recognize. He saw his features, the ones that were so familiar to him, but underneath all of that, he didn't see him. It was like that part of him had just disappeared; he was just a body, nothing more. He kept searching for it, hoping with each movement of the sun that it would cast a new light on his soul. But even as it set behind the horizon, Alec still saw nothing. Magnus was right, he didn't even recognize himself.

He felt numb, not just physically, but emotionally and psychologically too. He felt like an outsider to his own body. But he didn't want to be that way anymore. He wanted to be whole; he wanted to smile and laugh and love Magnus again. He didn't quite know why he treated Magnus the way he did. He didn't want to, it just happened. But what Magnus had said, it was like his words had burned themselves into his skin. He could feel them and they kept echoing over and over in his head. He knew Magnus was right, he had always known. But it was so hard. By not accepting Magnus's help, he could keep with his delusion that none of this really happened; that it was all just a really really bad dream. He liked that idea, he felt safe in that idea. It meant he didn't have to face the world ashamed and broken.

When he looked at Magnus, he felt a new wave of pain that tore him apart. He knew what all of this was doing to Magnus and he hated himself for it. He figured if he just pushed Magnus far enough away, it wouldn't hurt as much for him. But no matter how hard he pushed, Magnus pushed back harder, and Alec was too weak to keep it up anymore. His strength that he thought he had was draining out of him, and if he kept this act up any longer, he knew he'd break.

Alec got up slowly, stumbling slightly on his weak legs. He caught himself against the table. Magnus was right, he really needed to get his ass off of the couch. He took a deep breath as the soft sound of the shower filled his ears.

Magnus.

He needed Magnus.

He started towards the bathroom, stopping at the doorway. It was slightly open and through it, Alec could see Magnus's bare back, water dripping down it. He hummed softly to himself, a song Alec didn't know, the notes bouncing off the walls of the small bathroom. Alec opened the door slowly but Magnus seemed too lost in his shower to sense Alec's presence. Alec stood there, contemplating his actions. A part of him told him to turn around, but the other part told him to go to Magnus. Right now all he really wanted was to feel Magnus's arms around him, to hear his voice in his ear. He wanted Magnus's help, he needed it. He had spent too much time alone trying to fit together the pieces, and it was time he gave in and did what he knew he should have done from the beginning. He didn't want to be like this. Magnus was right. If he kept this up, Sebastian would win, and there was no goddamn way he was giving him that satisfaction. He was going to win this, and he knew that he needed Magnus's help to do so.

Alec stood in the middle of the bathroom, watching Magnus. He still couldn't understand how he was lucky enough to have him. After all the crap he'd put him through the last two days, he was surprised he was still here. But it was Magnus, and he wasn't the kind to get up and leave just because things got tough.

Alec pulled his shirt up over his head, the familiar feel of his aching ribs cutting through him. The pain had gone away, gone numb long ago, and now his wounds were just reminders of what had happened. He tried not to think of them, but every time he moved, some part of his body protested, bringing up memories Alec was trying so hard to forget. He forced them down now as he watched Magnus, his humming filling Alec's ears and calming his soul.

Alec stripped off his pajama pants so he stood naked in the bathroom. He walked slowly towards the shower, placing his hand on the door handle. He took a deep breath before opening it. Magnus turned around then, his humming stopping as his eyes landed on Alec. At first he looked surprised, but then he just smiled, holding out his hand for Alec to grab.

Alec looked from Magnus' hand to his face, his heart beating wildly in his chest.

Touch.

That was why he'd been pushing Magnus away, because despite the fact he knew it to be irrational with Magnus, he was afraid of being touched, of being hurt again. He was afraid that even a brush of someone's skin would bring back everything he'd fought to bury. As long as no one touched him, he was safe. But he knew Magnus wouldn't hurt him. And yet, he was still afraid. But looking at Magnus now, he knew he couldn't do this anymore. He couldn't deny Magnus and he couldn't deny himself Magnus either. He wanted to be touched again by Magnus, to feel him against him and know it was okay.

He took a deep breath, steadying himself, and he took Magnus's hand. A part of him was expecting a rush of pain, but all he felt was a sort of peace, a retreat from the pain. He let Magnus pull him into the shower. Alec closed the door behind him as he felt Magnus' strong arms wrap themselves around him. He let himself fall into them, wrapping his own arms around Magnus to pull him closer. Something inside him seemed to come together, something that he'd been fighting to fix for days.

This felt right. This was where he was supposed to be. In just those few seconds, his heart had started beating regularly again, the numbness had faded a bit, and for once, it didn't hurt to breathe. He let himself get lost in the feel of Magnus, let him wash away everything from the past week.

He let himself feel again.

He hadn't even realized he was crying until Magnus' hand came up to wipe the tears away. He hadn't cried since the attack, hadn't let himself release the pain. And so now, he let it out. He let all the pain escape on to Magnus's shoulder. Magnus held him tighter as his body shook. He let himself break down there in Magnus's arms. Everything from the last week came rushing to the surface and started spilling over. He struggled desperately to hold on to something, and found his anchor in Magnus. Magnus didn't move, didn't falter, he just held on tighter as Alec fell further.

Alec didn't know how long he stood there with Magnus, but when he finally managed to calm himself down, the water had turned lukewarm and he had grown weak in Magnus's arms. Magnus was about the only thing stopping him from collapsing and right there in that moment, Alec saw everything he needed. He saw that Magnus was going to be there until the end, and he meant everything he said earlier. And right there, in that shower, Alec finally saw that everything was going to be okay. Sebastian wouldn't win. No. Together, they would make it better. Together, Alec would find himself again and he would live as he had before. He would be strong as Magnus had been in his life and he wouldn't be afraid anymore. This was his life, and no one was going to ruin it.

Alec walked out of the bathroom, a smile on his face for the first time in what felt like forever. He had opened himself back up to Magnus, and everything felt right again. He actually looked forward to tomorrow, and the day after that, and the next week. He felt alive again and he wasn't going to waste that now.

Alec opened the door to the bedroom, his smile falling a bit when he saw Magnus wrapped up in the comforter, snoring softly.

"Really?" Magnus didn't move, deep in sleep.

Alec was looking forward to really spending the night with Magnus again, and here he was, sleeping. But then again, the more Alec thought about it, he probably deserved it. He'd denied Magnus a lot over the last few nights, so it was only proper that Alec get the same. Alec crossed over to the bed, getting under the covers on his side. He turned over on to his side to look at Magnus. He smiled softly, brushing a stray strand of hair from in front of Magnus' eyes.

"Thank you Magnus." Alec bit his lip. He didn't quite know why he was talking, it's not like his sleeping boyfriend would hear him. But yet, it felt good to speak, to say what he'd been wanting to say, but just couldn't. "I'm sorry for how I've been. There's no excuse and I hope you can forgive me. Of all people for me to push away right now, you shouldn't have been one of them. All you've ever done is try your best to be there for me, and I guess I just didn't want to see it. I didn't want to see you. I was so blinded by everything that I forget about what was the most important thing in my life. I just wanted to get away from it all, to sleep forever and never have to face the pain. But I can't sleep, and even when I'm awake, I see his face. I've been searching for days for an escape, thinking that getting away from the world and into my brain would be enough. But you know that there is no way out. Not really. But then, then I let myself see you again. And in your arms, I found an escape. It didn't hurt anymore and for once I didn't feel so numb and broken. I was so stupid Magnus, to have let myself be blind to you. Everything that I've been looking for is right in front of me. With you I can see a better tomorrow and I feel like despite what happened, I will make it through. It will get better, because with you I have everything I'll ever need. I know you can't hear me, and maybe one day I'll tell you for real. But tomorrow I promise things will be different. I'll be different. I love you Magnus. Thank you."

Alec stopped, letting his words hang in the air. Magnus still slept, his breathing steady and a small smile on his lips. Alec smiled too, feeling better for having said what he did. He meant it, he did. Tomorrow would be a better day and the day after that even better. Alec would heal and he would get stronger and he would live. Together with Magnus, everything would be okay.

Magnus smiled as Alec's words filled his ears. He hadn't been asleep, but Alec didn't need to know that.

Magnus's eyes fluttered open and the first thing he noticed in his mid waking state was that Alec wasn't beside him. At first he thought that the day before had all been a dream and Alec was up early and gone as he had been the last week. But then he caught sight of those vibrant blue eyes coming through the bedroom door. Alec smiled at Magnus as he set a tray down at the foot of the bed.

"What's this?"

"Breakfast in bed." Alec sat down across from Magnus and Magnus had to blink a few times to make sure he was actually awake. Was this seriously Alec? He'd barely said two words to him in a week and now he was making breakfast in bed. Not that Magnus was complaining, he liked that this Alec was back. Apparently something he said yesterday had had an impact on Alec. If he knew snapping on Alec was going to get him back, he would have done that a long time ago. Magnus had been extremely surprised when Alec had come into the shower. He wasn't expecting that, let alone for Alec to actually let him hold him. As soon as his arms were around him, he never wanted to let him go. They had only separated when they both agreed that the water was far too cold to stand in any longer. Alec breaking down in his arms had been the accumulation of everything he'd been bottling up since his attack. That was Alec finally letting himself feel the pain and let it out.

Magnus sat up, looking down at the tray of food. Alec was by no means a cook, so he wasn't expecting pancakes or French toast or anything. So as he had expected, Alec had cut up some fruit, filled a glass with orange juice, and poured some Lucky Charms. He had also put a purple daisy on the side which Alec had taken from the only flowers they had in the apartment.

"I thought about making pancakes but then I didn't really want to kill you, so I thought cereal was a safe bet."

"It's amazing. Thank you." Magnus picked up an apple slice, biting into it as he looked at Alec. He met his eyes and once again they had that light that had first driven Magnus toward him.

"Magnus I'm-"

"I know what you're going to say Alec. It's okay. Let's not think about the past, and just move forward from here."

Alec didn't say anything in return as Magnus picked up the Lucky Charms. He laughed. "You took out all the cereal pieces."

"Thought I'd save myself your bitching as you dig around just for the marshmallows."

"I do not bitch," Magnus defended. Alec just looked at him and he knew Alec was right. So he just went back to eating his cereal. Magnus couldn't help but keep smiling. It had been so long since he'd just sat and talked to Alec. He'd missed the small things-like dividing his cereal-and the bickering, and just how much Alec knew him. It was nice to have that back and Magnus wasn't going to let it go.

"So I was thinking. You know how you always said you wanted to teach me how to cook, but I always said no? I was wondering, if the offer still stands, if you'd teach me."

"When do we start?"

Alec and Magnus talked as Magnus finished off his breakfast. Alec forgot how much he treasured these moments. Magnus was the best thing he had in his life and no matter what happened to him, he promised that he would never forget that. He would never push Magnus aside, not when Magnus was the one thing he needed.

Magnus put the bowl back down on the tray and with that, Alec picked the tray up, placing it down on the floor. He turned back to Magnus, an idea in mind that he had had last night, but hadn't been able to act on. There was a fiery need inside of him unlike anything he'd felt before. It was screaming at him to be sated and with each passing second it got worse. He wanted Magnus. He had denied himself him for too long. All his fears, he knew now that they meant nothing with Magnus. He wasn't afraid to touch him, not as he had been. Magnus wouldn't hurt him, ever, and it was wrong of Alec to think he would. Outside these walls, Alec knew he would feel different with other people, but right here, with Magnus, it was as it had been before. He loved him, he needed him, and he trusted him.

Alec closed the distance between him and Magnus, kissing him. He poured into their connection a week's worth of need, letting everything he felt flow between them. Magnus pushed back and the kiss turned into one of desperation, of a raw hunger that couldn't be filled. They both needed this connection about as much as they needed to breathe. Alec's hands found the hem of Magnus' shirt and he pulled it up quickly over his head. Magnus's hands did the same, their lips only separating for a split second before they connected again. Alec's arms wrapped around Magnus, pulling him closer towards him, their bodies molding together perfectly.

Alec moved his lips to Magnus's neck, sucking on the sensitive skin behind his ear. Magnus arched his neck in reply, opening it up to Alec's lips. Alec took control, his lips placing a multitude of hungry kisses on Magnus's skin as Magnus's hands moved down his back. He hooked his fingers on the band of Alec's pajama pants, sliding them down slowly. His hands cupped Alec's ass, pulling him closer. Alec could feel Magnus's hard cock pressing against his own through the thin cotton of his pants. Magnus rolled his hips against Alec, forcing a moan of pleasure from Alec's lips. He had every mind to just throw Magnus down and take him right then and there, but he wanted to enjoy this, to make it more than just a physical act.

Magnus pulled Alec's pants down to his knees and Alec then proceeded to kick them off. He found Magnus' lips again, his tongue sliding past his lips into Magnus's mouth. His hands explored every inch of his body, trailing up and down Magnus's smooth skin. He wanted to pull him closer, but there was no more room between their bodies. He wanted more, he craved it. It was eating at him, ready to burst out and take him over.

"I want you Magnus," Alec said between kisses.

"Then take me," Magnus whispered, his breath teasing Alec's skin.

Alec obliged, pushing Magnus down on the covers. Magnus's eyes opened in a look of surprise and anticipation. The sight of Magnus lying there, completely open to him, sent a rush of blood to his already throbbing cock. Passion burned in Alec's eyes as he traced a line of fiery kisses down Magnus' chest. Magnus arched into his touch and Alec gave him everything, holding back just enough to keep Magnus wanting more. He traced his fingers lightly over the delicate skin of Magnus's hips, playing with the hem of his silk pants. Slowly, he inched them down Magnus's hips, teasing each inch with a kiss. Alec knew Magnus wanted more, but he wanted to please Magnus this time. He was going to take it slow and make sure he gave Magnus everything he deserved.

He pulled Magnus's pants over his pulsing member and then quickly stripped them off the rest of the way. Alec was glad to be rid of the fabric between them as he returned his lips to where Magnus wanted him the most. Magnus's fingers entwined in his hair lightly as Alec slipped his tongue out to tease Magnus's head. Magnus's body pulsed beneath him, asking Alec for more.

"Just take me Alec. Please." His voice was full of untamed need and it burned like a fire between them.

Well, Alec was never one to not oblige.

Alec took Magnus into his mouth, taking him straight to the base. Magnus moaned beneath him, his hips rolling upwards. He pulled up, running his tongue along Magnus's shaft and reveling in the sounds of pleasure escaping Magnus's lips. It was different being on this end, being the one pleasuring the other. There was something about having Magnus give himself over to him completely, to just trust him no matter what he did, that brought a whole new fire to Alec.

He took Magnus to the base again, moving up and down slowly. He looked upwards to meet Magnus's gaze, smiling against him. Magnus's eyes screamed at him for more, and a fiery passion burned within their depths. Alec pulled off, teasing Magnus's head with his tongue before placing his lips once again against Magnus's. Magnus pushed into it with desperation, his hands going to Alec's back where they pulled their bodies closer together. Alec rolled his hips against Magnus, eliciting a low moan of pleasure from him that vibrated through them both.

"Fuck. Me. Please," Magnus said between kisses, his words caught in between ragged breaths.

With that Alec pulled away, leaning over to the bedside table drawer to take out the lube. He flipped open the cap, squeezing a small amount onto his fingers. He dropped the tube onto the covers, moving his attention back to the beautiful man beneath him. He took his lips as he pushed his fingers in. Magnus gasped against him but gave in completely to everything Alec did. Alec moved his fingers in a circular motion, loosening Magnus's muscles. But he wanted more, he needed more. Alec had wanted Magnus before, but never with the hunger that filled him now.

Alec took his fingers out as he went to grab the lube. But Magnus had grabbed it, squirting it onto the palm of his hand. He smiled at Alec, moving his hand down to Alec's hard cock. His hand moved up and down along Alec's shaft as his other hand slipped behind Alec's neck to pull him down. He kissed him, his tongue slipping past Alec's lips as his fingers teased Alec's sensitive skin. Every inch of Alec was on fire, burning at Magnus's touch. The rest of the world didn't matter. All his fears, all his pain, all of it was so trivial now. Even when Magnus's hands had slid over his faded bruises, he didn't feel them. He didn't feel Sebastian's hands or the pain, but Magnus and the love he felt for him. For the first time, something else dominated his thoughts than that night, and Alec welcomed it with open arms. Alec welcomed Magnus and silently thanked him for everything.

Magnus let go of Alec, wiping his hand on the comforter as Alec slid his hands down the backs of Magnus's legs. He picked them up, putting them over his shoulders. He positioned himself in front of Magnus and the need in Magnus's eyes was stronger than before.

"I want you inside of me Alec. Take me. Take me now," he pleaded.

And so Alec did. He pushed himself inside of Magnus, slowly at first, but then quicker until he was completely inside of Magnus. Magnus let out a cry of pleasure, his body arching into Alec's. His fingers entwined in Alec's hair as Alec started moving his hips in and out. He leaned down, kissing Magnus slowly. The passion still burned within them, but right now they took it slow, both lost in the feeling of their connection. With every movement Alec made, Magnus mirrored it, their bodies moving in perfect harmony. They were one as they gave themselves over to the moment. Alec pulled away from the kiss, resting their foreheads together as he slowly quickened his pace.

"More Alec. Give me more."

Alec quickened his movements, driving deeper with each thrust. The need inside of him was growing, reaching its climax.

"Fuck!" Magnus explained as Alec thrust in deeper, hitting Magnus's prostate. Their eyes met, both of them unblinking. Alec continued his motion, quickly sending them both to a point of no return.

Seconds stretched into minutes into what felt like forever. Magnus's body screamed for more and Alec gave it to him without a second's thought. Alec lost himself in the sweet sounds that escaped Magnus's lips, his pleasure adding to Alec's own. Alec could feel his strength wavering as his thrusts slowed down. He gave one last hard thrust, coming inside Magnus as he did. His orgasm wracked his body as Magnus screamed out in pleasure, reaching his own climax. Magnus's body contracted around him as they both rode out their orgasms, holding onto each other as the feeling overtook them. Their ragged breathing mixed together as their bodies came back from their peak. Their eyes met and smiles played across both of their faces.

Alec pulled out, a small moan escaping Magnus's lips. Alec placed Magnus's legs back down on the bed as he fell down next to him. He tried to steady his breathing as he looked over at his boyfriend. This was the beauty of being touched. This was why he shouldn't be afraid of another's skin, because even though it could hurt, it could please too. It could sooth you, hold you, shelter you, and love you. Alec wasn't afraid of Magnus's touch, not as he had irrationally been a few days before. He wasn't afraid because no matter who hurt him, Magnus would always be there to fix him. And it might be a bit of a learning curve to be comfortable outside of their apartment with other people, but right now, here in this bed, he was in the greatest state of peace he had ever been in in his life. With Magnus, nothing else mattered and for the first time since that night, Alec really felt like it was going to be okay. He had called out for Magnus that night, and although Magnus hadn't been there then, he was here now, and he would always be here.

So there you go. I don't know about you guys, but I'm pretty proud of Alec for finally taking some control, especially after everything. I hope you enjoyed it and there's only one chapter and an epilogue left after this. I don't know how soon I'll get it out as I've got a script to write by next monday for a competition, my mom just got out of surgery, and I've got a bunch of stuff with school. But i'll try my best. It's all written in my head, I just got to get it in print. So I'll work to get it out as soon as possible. But thanks for reading and I love all of you. Until next time.

Be the change,
Amber