True Harmony
Chapter 37
I didn't know what was happening. I couldn't read what she was doing. I feared the worst out of this. The last time she was this forceful, we argued. Then again, that was the same day we got together, so...
Miku took me into the empty school, which was mainly being lit in the hallways by nothing more than the now setting sun. It was rather quiet, but there were a few extracurricular activities going on in different spots in the school. She brought me to a place where the rooms were dark and quiet. She finally let me go and she turned to face me, her face still red as a tomato. She said nothing.
"Okay, thank you for giving me my arm back. Really appreciate that, first of all." I remarked, stretching my arm to realign my shoulder. "Second what was that whole thing about?" Miku said nothing in response. "Look, I understand if I overdid it back there. I apologize, and I don't want you to be mad at it." Still no response. "Okay, you know what? I think I can handle whatever I did and whatever you're gonna say or do. I can handle whatever it is! So hit me with it, Miku! I'm ready for anything!" Finally I got a response out of her.
"...Kiss me..."
"I was NOT ready for that!" I reacted. "What?!"
"GC, I... I want you to kiss me. A real one. Right now..." Her voice was trembling a bit.
"I'm sorry, but where did this come from?" I asked, still exasperated.
"I just want you to, alright? We've dated for a month and we still haven't had our first kiss yet, and I don't want to wait any longer." She explained, seeming even more nervous, now visibly starting to shake.
"M-Miku, are you alright? You look really tense..." I commented.
"Just... come here..." She walked over to me and put her arms around me. I felt her tension against my shoulders and I could see how worried she was about it, especially in her expression. It almost felt too...forced. I didn't want things to end up being so awkward, and I wanted to stop her.
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"AUGH, WHO'S THERE?!" She shoved me away and hid her face in her hands. That noise made her jump quite a bit.
"W-What the Hell was that about?" I asked in a huff.
"I-is...is someone c-coming this way?" She sputtered. Poor thing was losing it.
"No, Miku. No one's here. We would've seen them by now, right?" She didn't seem convinced. "Seriously Miku, what's the matter? Why are you trying to do something you clearly aren't ready for?"
"B-b-but...I..." She could hardly say a word.
"You know I can tell you're really nervous, but I don't understand why. I mean, why worry about this kiss? I mean we kissed before we started going out, right?" This slipped my mind last time, partly due to the fact that it was brought up was rather ironic.
"It's not the same, GC. I don't want it to be the heat of the moment. I...really want a real first kiss, GC... No pecks on the cheek either..." She told me, her face practically ignited.
"I...never thought you felt that way about this whole thing..." I replied. This side of her was something I don't think I ever saw before. Poor thing looked like she was about to break down and cry. "I can understand how you feel, but you don't have to worry about feeling the way you do right now."
"Oh yeah? What makes you say that?" She asked looking away in embarrassment.
"Well, do you honestly think you're the only one who's nervous?" I asked with a raised eyebrow, and Miku looked at me with a confused look. "Seriously, I may look calm right now, but I'm actually freaking out on the inside. I can feel my heart racing all over my body."
"But... you seem so...calm right now..." She was surprised as well as still shaken.
"I don't know. Might be because I dealt with this before or something." I was honestly not a hundred percent sure on that, but it sounds reasonable. "What I learned from past experience is that you show weakness to your other, things might go wrong for either one of you."
"B-b-b-but... I...I just..." She tried to speak.
"Miku, sweetheart, do you really think you can go through with this?" I put my hand on her shoulders, which felt exceedingly tight.
"W-what?!" She responded.
"I can see how afraid you are right now. This might be showing you that you, well, may not be ready to do this yet, despite how much you want to." She put her hands on my shoulders this time.
"But, GC... I really want to, but it's just..." She took a deep breath and finally started to calm down a bit. "I just want to make this moment special for the both of us. I know it isn't the best place for it, but... I don't care, GC. I... honestly wanted to do this for a while now..." This was news to me. The only time I can think of when we were going to go that far without heat of the moment fueling the fire was before Jack attacked us the first time. "But, whenever I wanted to, I just got scared and..."
"You lose your confidence and essentially chicken out." No way to beat around that bush.
"P-pretty much... And I also knew that when we had our first, actual romantic kiss... the whole set up should be, well, romantic."
"So that's why you acted so rash after I said all of that earlier." Sometimes the moment comes and goes, I imagine. She nodded. "But then...why worry about people seeing us? I mean, we haven't exactly been keeping our thing a secret lately."
"I want the moment to be special, just for the two of us." She replied, the tension seeping out of her body like air from a tire. "It feels weird if people are watching us, you know? I don't want the moment to be shared with anyone else...but you." She blushed again, but this time it seemed sweeter.
"But you essentially made it that much more difficult for yourself by trying to jump the gun." I placed my hand on her shoulder again. "I really don't care if we have to wait a bit longer to make this happen. I mean if you're gonna jump at some noise and shove me away like that, then..."
"No, GC... I've waited long enough... I want to, but..." Her eyes were welling up with tears. "I'm just afraid something will go wrong and it won't be as romantic as it should be!"
"You...really want to go through with this, huh?" I asked and she nodded. "Well... I think I know something that can help."
"What's that, GC?" She asked as I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.
"I say we should start with what we're used to." I said in response, smiling as I held her tighter. "Besides, you really look like you need some cuddling anyway."
"GC...m-my GC..." She was kind of stunned at my idea. I could tell because she was still stammering, and I could feel her heart racing in her chest, but she wasn't shaking anymore. Her embrace felt softer and more natural than earlier. Progress.
"There we go... Feeling a little better now?" I said softly in her ear, lightly stroking her back.
"Y-yes, a little..." She replied as her embrace tightened. "Just...don't let go..."
"I won't, my princess. I promise. I'll never let you go..." I could hear her let out a sigh of comfort. She was beginning to relax, and I was glad to hear it.
"GC? Do you really believe I was going too fast with it earlier?" She asked me.
"The fact that you seemed rather uncomfortable when trying to kiss me the first time just made it seem a bit off." I replied. "When it comes to having the first kiss and making it very romantic, it's all about how you approach it. If you go for it too soon, it won't be pretty for either one, but if you allow some time to simmer and build the feeling over time, what you have is one of the most magical kisses of your relationship."
"You know a good amount about it. I guess you remember your experience with your old girlfriend, right?" She asked me, slowly since she still feels odd about bringing Kaylee up in conversation.
"I guess so...but..." I began as I shifted our positions so we were still in each others arms, but we looked into the other's eyes. "You know how I said that no girl ever made me feel the way you do? I wasn't joking. Even the girl I thought made me the happiest man in the world has nothing on you." She smiled and blushed. "That smile of yours seriously melts my heart like nothing else. You have those eyes that sparkle better than even the shiniest diamond in the world. Even if I'm having a rough day, the moment I see you, everything gets so much better. Like I said, I could say more, but I refuse to ramble on further."
"Oh, my sweet boyfriend..." She said to me with a smile on her lips and red in her cheeks. "I still don't know how you know just what to say to make me happy. I mean, you say these things all the time and I never get tired of it."
"Because you deserve every word I say, and you know it." I smiled back at her. "In fact, you deserve so much more than I can say or do. No word could easily describe you and do you the utmost justice, just like I said earlier." I could see her eyes begin to sparkle like stars. She giggled a little, too. That was how I knew she was feeling much better.
"Does 'absolute perfection' not work?" Miku asked, leaning her head in so our foreheads were touching.
"My dear, sweet angel, even those words won't do enough for you. I can't describe with words at all how I feel about you..." I said, looking into her eyes. The best I could anyway. It's really hard to see someone's eyes when you're that close up. What I did take notice of was what she looked like in the light, yet again. "Miku?" I began.
"Yes? What is it, baby?" She asked in reply. Yeah, she definitely felt better.
"Did I ever tell you how amazing you look in the sunset?" I asked, and she giggled. "No, seriously. When you're in the right light of the setting sun and your face is this adorable shade of red, you practically glow in the light. Seriously, it's something I've noticed for a while now, and every time I see your face like that is exhilarating."
"Aw...you just make me the happiest girlfriend in the world." She giggled some more. "I...don't know what to say..."
"You don't need to say anything, Miku. It doesn't even matter at this point."
"Huh? What do you mean?" She asked with a soft voice and a touch of confusion.
"We don't need to speak anymore... We've said enough." I lightly stroked her cheek. "All that matters now is..." I trailed off as we moved closer together.
"I-is...what?" She was breathing heavier, but I felt her hands move up near my shoulders and head. We moved so close to each other that our lips were practically touching.
"Making this last forever..." was all I said before we finally came together and we shared our first romantic, passionate kiss together. Right there in that hallway. No one came to spoil our moment. All of her nerves disappeared.
What an experience it was, too. It started small, but soon those pretty, pink lips of hers parted and our kiss became deeper. It was an odd feeling I didn't even get from before I asked her out. It lasted longer and I felt the passion in it. We stopped for air a few times, but we didn't even speak or even let go of each other. We didn't want to. Her moans while we kissed were unimaginably stimulating, and even feeling her breathing was enough to keep me coming back for more. After a few minutes and after another time of coming up for air, we went even further and slipped each other the tongue. It took a bit to get the motions, but it felt amazing. Her skill was far greater than I expected, and I loved every second of it. After what felt like an eternity, but not long enough, we parted, each of us breathing heavily.
"W-wow..." Miku was the first to speak. "That...was the best kiss ever... I loved it!" She looked so happy! That huge smile on her face was what made it even better.
"You...really liked it?" The only thing that came to mind.
"Mmm-hmm!" She said, still beaming. "Thank you so much! It was even better than I expected it would be!"
"Uh, heh heh... Well whenever you want more, there's plenty where that came from." I chuckled, blushing.
"You're just the best, GC. I'm so glad we could finally share that kiss."
"You and me both, sweetheart." She ran up to me and hugged me tightly, smooching my face practically all over. I never thought I could make her this happy.
Well, I know that no matter what, she'll always be worth it.