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Music is love in search of a word – Sidonie Gabrielle
Chapter Thirty-Six – This Song is for you
Jasper's POV
When I arrived to check into the hotel, and saw that Bella and Rose had not checked in yet, panic filled me instantly. I quickly called, and found out that they were on their way back from shopping. Hearing Bella's voice calmed me, so I was able to run out and do some quick shopping of my own.
By the time I got back, Bella and Rose had arrived, but as Emmett, who was waiting in my room, unhappily reported, they were holed up in Rose and Emmett's room getting ready for our date.
"All I wanted was to spend some alone time with my wife, but no! I get kicked out of my own room so they can play dress up. Since when does Bella care about what she looks like?" Emmett grumbled.
"Hey."
"You know what I'm talking about, and besides, those two don't even like each other. It's strange, and weird, and I don't like it one bit."
"You don't have to like each other to get dressed in the same room. Girls have this thing about getting ready together. I'm not sure why, but that is just how it is."
"Whatever," he huffed, throwing himself onto the bed, tossing the pillows across the room. "This bed is way too soft. I sure hope the one in our room is firmer than this one," Emmett announced randomly, bouncing up and down on the bed.
"I'm going to shower and get ready. Can you call Rose and tell her to hurry up?" I asked, thinking that I needed to get this date over with so that, not only could I be alone with Bella, but so that I could get away from Emmett for awhile.
"Dude, no fucking way. I plan on having sex tonight, and you know how she gets when I try to rush her."
I just shook my head and walked into the shower, hoping the shower would wash away some of my stress. It didn't, but seeing Bella standing there when I got out did.
Without saying a word, I walked over and took her into my arms, savoring the feel of her. Her sweet aroma of freesia and strawberries was like breathing oxygen to my long-dead lungs. I immediately felt better.
"I've missed you," I whispered into her ear.
"Me too," she whispered back.
"Oh how sweet…"
I heard the smack, and then Emmett's voice: "Fuck, Rose! I missed you. Let's go back to our room, and you can show me what was in those lingerie bags."
"Can't you think of anything else?"
"Yeah, but why would I?"
"You look beautiful," I whispered to Bella, trying to ignore Emmett and Rose. I really wished they would go to their room for awhile, or better yet, the rest of the night. It felt like I had been away from Bella forever, and all I wanted was to have some time alone with her.
"Thank you," she whispered back. And though she couldn't physically blush anymore, I could still feel it. "Rosalie took me shopping."
"Yeah, and they went to the lingerie store. You know what that means don't you? Someone is going to have sex tonight," Emmett boomed.
"And that someone is not you," Rose informed him with another smack.
"God damn it, Rose! Every time I open my mouth you slap me."
"Well, maybe you should keep your mouth shut."
"How about we just head out on our date," I interjected. I could feel all the pent-up tension, both sexual and emotional, and knew that we needed some distraction.
A club…of all places Rose could have come up with for this date, this important first date, she picked about the last place that Bella would ever want to go. I looked over at Rose, and her eyes shined with a wicked light. Yeah, it was clear to see that this had been intentional. Operation 'make Bella uncomfortable' was in full effect.
"We don't have to go in. You and I can go somewhere else. Any place you want…just name it. We can just go back to the hotel if that is what you want," I told her as I shot death glares at Rose, who was radiating innocence. Oh, I was so getting her back...she'd better find a place to hide her precious car collection.
"No way, José. We are all staying here, and we are going to have some fucking fun for a change. Understand?" Emmett almost growled his demand.
"Emmett, calm the heck down. No one is going anywhere. Let's go have some fucking fun," Bella replied, flashing me a reassuring smile that widened to a full smile as Emmett's laughter filled the air.
"Seriously, I'm okay. Please stop worrying so much about me. It will be fun, if for no other reason than Emmett," she told me as we walked to the front of the line and straight past the velvet rope.
The place was average, far from the upscale-VIP type of club that we normally hung out in. That didn't bother me, except for the fact that we were sticking out even more then usual. That was one thing we didn't need. Especially not with Bella being an unpredictable newborn. Seriously, what the fuck were we doing here? Had I lost my ever-loving mind to even think about having her out in the mist of all these innocent, unsuspecting people?
"Bella, maybe we shouldn't be here," I gulped as the aroma of intoxicated blood hit me full force.
"Jasper you can calm down. I'm not going to go on a feeding frenzy and drain everyone. I'm not feeling any bloodlust, as I'm sure you can feel. If I start to feel anything, I'll let you know. Okay?" she explained, and I had to wonder how she knew what I was feeling.
"You're projecting," she whispered, making me wonder if she would read my mind. Fuck! I was worried about her taking out half the bar, and it was me I needed to be worried about.
"Chill the fuck out Jasper," Emmett said as we found an open table. "You need a drink," he said, motioning for the waitress.
"We can drink?" Bella quietly asked.
"Yeah, but we don't do well with it."
"What can I get for you?" the waitress asked. The lust that was coming off of her was ridiculous. The thing was, it was directed at Rose and Bella, not Emmett or me. She had good taste, I had to admit.
"I'll have a Cum in a hot tub," Emmett announced, followed by Rose, who asked for a Skinny Dip. I just asked for a beer, and then it was Bella's turn.
"What would you like?" the waitress asked, eying-fucking the hell out of Bella in her tight-assed jeans and her form-fitting, blood red shirt. Not to mention the mile-high fuck me boots...Bella was wearing heels. Man, all I could think about was ripping her clothes off and having her wrap those boots around me as I buried myself deep.
Fuck! The waitress's lust, coupled with my own, was going to send me over the edge.
"I'm not really sure…"
"Get her a Cherry Bomb," Rose told the waitress before dismissing her with just a look.
"So Bella, are you going to let Jasper pop your cherry bomb tonight?" Emmett asked with a straight face, but just barely, before he broke out in roaring laughter.
At vampire speed, not only did Rose haul off and smack him, but so did Bella.
"Jesus fucking Christ, now I got you hitting me too, Bells? I am so used and abused... I can't even open my mouth anymore without someone attacking me. You all better be careful, or I might just find someone who will appreciate me for me."
"I would appreciate you keeping your big fucking mouth closed. Remember our little talk on the way here? Remember the little talk you had with Carlisle before we left? If you don't, maybe you would like me to remind you?" I threatened.
Before Emmett could answer, the waitress was back with our drinks.
"Here you go. Can I get you anything else?" the waitress asked, her meaning clear.
"Four shots of Tequila and another round of these," Rose demanded in her normal put-off tone.
"She wants me," Emmett boasted as she walked away. I couldn't help the laugh that escaped my lips.
"She wants to take home two of us," I said, then added, "But it wasn't you or me."
"What?"
"She would take home both Rose and Bella if she had the chance, but neither of us."
I knew Bella would be blushing if she could, but Rose was in her glory.
"Sorry, Emmy, you are just no competition for me," Rose gloated.
"That's all right babe…as long as I get to watch."
"Emmett…"
"Fine, fine I am going to keep my mouth shut."
That lasted all of five minutes.
"Now what?" Emmett asked, his ADD kicking in. He was not good at standing still and doing nothing.
I had to agree with Emmett, though. No one was dancing, and there was no band or DJ. Pop music was pouring out of bad speakers, and it seemed everyone was just standing around drinking and staring at us.
Suddenly, I could feel the spike in Bella's emotions. Fear, worry, and uneasiness pooled and poured off of her.
"We are out of here," I demanded, ready to take Bella out by force if I needed to. She could be mad at me later.
"God, Jasper, when the fuck did you turn into Edward?" Rose attacked, going straight for a low blow.
"You can call me every nasty word in the book later, after I get Bella out of here."
"Jasper…I am fine."
"No, you are not. I felt your fear spike off the charts."
"Yes, but just because you can read my emotions does not mean that you can read my mind to know what is causing them. The fear you were feeling was from that…" she explained, pointing over to the make-shift stage in the middle of the club.
A karaoke machine had been set up.
"Surprise…" Rose grinned. "I blocked out the first four songs for each of us.
"Yes…" Emmett jumped up and down, pumping his arms in the air. "I'm so going first," he called rushing up to the stage.
All I could think was that I was going to kill Rose. A slow and torturous death, but only after I made her watch me destroy the garage of her cars. That bitch was pure evil. Not only had she taken us to a bar, but it was a karaoke bar. Seriously, it would have been more humane to rip Bella limb from limb and set her on fire.
"What were you thinking?" I demanded, trying to keep my voice and anger controlled.
"What?" she asked, trying to play it off like Emmett, but whereas you believed Emmett meant no harm, I knew that Rose did.
"It's fine, Jasper. It might be fun," Bella told me, trying to calm me down. "Really, I'm fine with it. I mean, as long as you plan on singing a song too," she said, as if she hoped I refused so she would have an excuse to back out.
"As long as you are okay with this, I am okay with it."
She smiled a smile to make me forget everything else, and then she moved in closer, brushing my hair to the side, and whispered in my ear, "If you think I would ever give Rosalie the satisfaction of me running away with my tail between the legs, you don't know me that well at all." Then she downed her drink in one shot and licked the lingering liquor off her lips.
Fuck, I never was more turned on in my life. I was about to drag her off into a corner Emmett's voice broke through my thoughts.
Hee-Hee!
Ooh!
Go On Girl!
Aaow!
Hey Pretty Baby With The
High Heels On
You Give Me Fever
Like I've Never, Ever Known
You're Just A Product Of
Loveliness
I Like The Groove Of
Your Walk,
Your Talk, Your Dress
I Feel Your Fever
From Miles Around
I'll Pick You Up In My Car
And We'll Paint The Town
Just Kiss Me Baby
And Tell Me Twice
That You're The One For Me
The Way You Make Me Feel
(The Way You Make Me Feel)
You Really Turn Me On
(You Really Turn Me On)
You Knock Me Off Of My Feet
(You Knock Me Off Of
My Feet)
My Lonely Days Are Gone
(My Lonely Days Are Gone)
I Like The Feelin' You're
Givin' Me
Just Hold Me Baby And I'm
In Ecstasy
Oh I'll Be Workin' From Nine
To Five
To Buy You Things To Keep
You By My Side
I Never Felt So In Love Before
Just Promise Baby, You'll
Love Me Forevermore
I Swear I'm Keepin' You
Satisfied
'Cause You're The One For Me
The Way You Make Me Feel
(The Way You Make Me Feel)
You Really Turn Me On
(You Really Turn Me On)
You Knock Me Off Of My Feet
Now Baby-Hee!
(You Knock Me Off Of
My Feet)
My Lonely Days Are Gone-
A-Acha-Acha
(My Lonely Days Are Gone)
Acha-Ooh!
Go On Girl!
Go On! Hee! Hee! Aaow!
Go On Girl!
I Never Felt So In Love Before
Promise Baby, You'll Love Me
Forevermore
I Swear I'm Keepin' You
Satisfied
'Cause You're The One For
Me . . .
The Way You Make Me Feel
(The Way You Make Me Feel)
You Really Turn Me On
(You Really Turn Me On)
You Knock Me Off Of My Feet
Now Baby-Hee!
(You Knock Me Off Of
My Feet)
My Lonely Days Are Gone
(My Lonely Days Are Gone)
The Way You Make Me Feel
(The Way You Make Me Feel)
You Really Turn Me On
(You Really Turn Me On)
You Knock Me Off Of My Feet
Now Baby-Hee!
(You Knock Me Off Of
My Feet)
My Lonely Days Are Gone
(My Lonely Days Are Gone)
Ain't Nobody's Business,
Ain't Nobody's Business
(The Way You Make Me Feel)
Ain't Nobody's Business,
Ain't Nobody's Business But
Mine And My Baby
(You Really Turn Me On)
Hee Hee!
(You Knock Me Off Of
My Feet)
Hee Hee! Ooh!
(My Lonely Days Are Gone)
Give It To Me-Give Me
Some Time
(The Way You Make Me Feel)
Come On Be My Girl-I Wanna
Be With Mine
(You Really Turn Me On)
Ain't Nobody's Business-
(You Knock Me Off Of
My Feet)
Ain't Nobody's Business But
Mine And My Baby's
Go On Girl! Aaow!
(My Lonely Days Are Gone)
Hee Hee! Aaow!
Chika-Chika
Chika-Chika-Chika
Go On Girl!-Hee Hee!
(The Way You Make Me Feel)
Hee Hee Hee!
(You Really Turn Me On)
(You Knock Me Off My Feet)
(My Lonely Days Are Gone)
(The Way You Make Me Feel)
(You Really Turn Me On)
(You Knock Me Off My Feet)
(My Lonely Days Are Gone)
The crowd roared in applause as Emmett finished his song, complete with crotch grab. I had to admit, Emmett sure knew how to work a crowd. He also knew how to work Rose. The love and lust pouring off of Rose was enough to start an orgy in this place.
"That's for you, baby," Emmett announced, shaking the place as he jumped off the stage. Rose was waiting right there for him to start the face sucking.
"You're up baby," Emmett announced as he pulled away, slapping her on the ass as she headed up to the stage. She just looked back at him and smiled.
The whole bar was in quiet awe as Rose stood on stage, waiting for the music to start. I wasn't sure what song she was going to pick, but, knowing Rose, I would have never expected the one she picked.
"This is for my only love," she whispered.
You've got a way with me
Somehow you got me to believe
In everything that I could be
I've gotta say-you really got a way
You've got a way it seems
You gave me faith to find my dreams
You'll never know just what that means
Can't you see... you got a way with me
It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love
You've got a way with words
You get me smiling even when it hurts
There's no way to measure what your love is worth
I can't believe the way you get through to me
It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love
Oh, how I adore you
Like no one before you
I love you just the way you are
It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love
It's just the way you are
Rose was just finishing as Emmett ran up to the stage and attacked her. The love radiating between them was pure and complete. No matter what crazy shit happened between them, there was no doubting the love. It was something to envy.
Moments later, they were back at the table grinning.
"Who is going next?" Emmett questioned, eying both of us.
"You don't have to," I told Bella once again.
"I'm fine, but I'll go last. Okay?" she whispered, and I knew she was quietly panicking, but I could also feel her resolve.
"Alright," I told her, wrapping my arms around her and kissing her sweetly on the lips, fighting for control to keep the kiss light. Between my own raging lust and everyone else's in the place, I was a ticking time bomb. Thankfully for me, Bella had the smarts to pull away, giving me a smile that expressed that she understood. I smiled back, and made my way to the stage.
Picking a song was harder then I thought it would be. Nothing seemed to say what I wanted to convey, but then, there it was. I took a settling breath and started.
I'm desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
I'm desperate for changing
I'm starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you
The crowd erupted in applause, but to me, it was all back ground noise. I was completely focused on Bella and her reaction.
"I'm falling more in love with you too," she whispered as she slipped past me and onto the stage.
She flipped through the song list, taking her time. I figured it was a stall tactic, as if taking long enough to choose a song would make time would run out before she had to sing it. . I focused my gift on her and felt her emotions. No matter how scared she was, she was determined to get up there and prove, not to us, but to herself, that she was not going to be controlled by fear.
It was some thing that Edward had instilled into her… this fear, her mistrusting her own abilities, and thinking that she couldn't stand on her own two feet without someone behind her to hold her up. I hated him for doing that to her.
I wanted to be with her, supporting her every step of the way, but I didn't want to be there holding her up or holding her back. I wanted her to be her own person, making her own choices. I wanted her to be happy and secure with herself, and within our relationship, so that she felt confident and assured to go out and do everything she wanted to, and even some things she didn't, knowing that, at the end of the day, I would always be there for her, no matter what.
I watched as she set down the songbook and stepped up to the microphone.
You're a song
Written by the hands of god
Don't get me wrong cause
This might sound to you a bit odd
But you own the place
Where all my thoughts go hiding
And right under your clothes
Is where I find them
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey
Because of you
I forgot the smart ways to lie
Because of you
I'm running out of reasons to cry
When the friends are gone
When the party's over
We will still belong to each other
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey
I love you more than all that's on the planet
Movin' talkin' walkin' breathing
You know it's true
Oh baby it's so funny
You almost don't believe it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the ceiling
Like a lady tied to her manners
I'm tied up to this feeling
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey
"I approve," Rose said simply as the song ended.
So did I.
A/N: Songs in this chapter are:
The Way You Make Me Feel – Michael Jackson
You Got a Way About You – Swain Twain
Hangin By a Moment – Lifehouse
Underneath Your Clothes - Sharika