Hi! to all New followeres who has started Reading my story while I've been away.

EVERYONE PLEASE DO NOT HATE ME! PLEASE
I am so sorry I never meant for it to go so long, I wanted to post the first because of the 1 year anniversary and all that, but I was so lucky that December 25th I got sick, I've had something called infectious mononucleosis, which we call the kissing disease. I still have it but I'm much better it's just that I've been so tired and I've had muscle ache and have barely been able to lift a finger, so I've been gone from life.
Also there are a lot of mess in my life, I'm getting a taxi to and from school so that I can attend and not miss more classes, and I had a driver that was very inappropriate, he touched me (not in a sexual way) and told me that I needed to improve my body, that I had no muscles, and he was rude all the way from my school and home. And now the police is involved, and its one big mess!

But that's not important, you don't want a update in my life but the story so here you go 3

ANA

I'm slowly woken up by small kisses covering my face, my eyelids, nose, cheeks, and lightly on my lips. I can feel the scruff on Christian's face as his cheek rubs against mine. I let out a moan and wrap my arms around him, holding him close to me. ''Morning,'' I murmur, and he kisses my lips again. ''What time is it?'' I yawn as I slowly open my eyes to look up at him, my heart beating faster and harder at the sight of him.

''It's half past four,'' he answers looking me in the eyes, neither one of us looking away. ''I need to get into the office early, but how about after work you and I go out and eat dinner, and we'll talk about things?'' he asks, looking a little nervous, but still intently into my eyes.

I know what he's referring to in regards to what he wants to talk about or, I hope I know because we have a lot to talk about. We really need to find a way to avoid what happened yesterday, again. ''Like a date?'' I ask shyly smiling up at him.

''Yeah, we can call it a date,'' he says with a frown on his face. He takes my hand in his and kisses it. ''So Anastasia, will you do me the honor and go out on a date with me?'' he says teasingly.

''It would be my honor, kind sir,'' I say with a giggle, and he leans forward, kisses my nose and gets out of bed and walks towards the closet.

''But,'' I say a frown appearing on my face as I watch his naked back disappear as he enters the closet. He stops and looks back at me with raised eyebrows, ''I thought you woke me up for sex,'' I say and a pout follows the frown.

Christian disappears for a second before returning with pants on, making me pout even more. He walks toward me and leans over to kiss me when he reaches the bed he whispers, ''Are you pouting because you wanna fuck?'' and I nod blushingly. ''We can do that later, as many times you want. We can even skip dinner and go right for dessert.'' I shake my head, I really want to go out with him, and we need to talk so we can stop having this problem. So I am definitely not saying yes to that suggestion. ''No, I'll take you on the date, and we'll talk about what happened yesterday,'' he chuckles at my head shaking. Then he kisses me on the lips before walking back into his closet to finish getting dressed.

I lie back and quickly fall into sleep with a smile on my face, and don't notice Christian leave for work.

CHRISTIAN

''Boss?'' I look up to see Ros standing in my doorway. I motion for her to come inside and I look back down on my phone at the picture I took of Ana before I left this morning. I close my phone and look at Ros sitting in the chair in front of me. ''The deals ours,'' she says as she lays the file on my desk and smiles proudly.

''Good work Ros,'' I say lifting up the file and looking through it. I didn't ask for the deal to be finalized before the end of next week, so I know there must be a reason she got it done so quickly. ''So, how many days are we talking about?'' I ask laying the file back down and folding my arms.

She looks me right in the eye, never looking away from my stare. That's something I like and something that annoys me at the same time about Ros. I do not intimidate her in the slightest. ''Only the rest of the week, I've done all that needed to be done, and if you need me you can always reach me. It's been a while since Gwen and I both had some time off.''

Ros doesn't ask for things often, and when she does I grant it to her, because she's good at what she does, and a few days without her will be fine. ''Yes you may take the time off, was that everything?'' I ask and then something happens that I've never seen before, Ros looks away flustered and blushing. ''You okay?'' I ask a little bit shocked and she nods.

She gets up from the chair and walk to the door before looking back at me, her expression back to her usual business face. ''I'm proposing this weekend,'' she says with a smile before exiting my office.

Well that caught me off guard. I never expected that from her, but I'm happy for her. I hope they'll be as happy as I am with An… wait, am I happy with Anastasia, have I really been happier now then before? It's been different, I've been different I think and she does make me smile and laugh a lot. I frown as my head fills up with different memories of Ana and I, I take my phone out of my pocket and look at the picture I took of Ana before I left for work. The rational side of me said that I should just let her sleep and taking a picture of her weren't normal, but she looked so cute that I couldn't resist.

ANA

''Morning,'' I yawn as I enter the kitchen where Gail is cooking and Jose is eating. He looks up and smiles and Gail turns around.

''I made an omelet for you,'' she says and puts it down in front of me. ''I also made a salad for lunch if you want it with your breakfast instead,'' she says before leaving the room. I turn to Jose who is smiling at something on his phone.

''So… did you have an okay night?'' he asks chewing the last bite of his omelet. To say that this past day didn't go as planned is an understatement. Well it wasn't even like I had planned it either, because I had forgotten about it. However, I had imagined that the three of us Jose, Christian and I would get along well. But, that didn't exactly happen.

I look at Jose and I don't know what's up with the stare he's giving me, but I shrug it off. It's probably nothing. ''Ehm, yeah I had a good night's sleep, what about you?'' he looks down at the bag next to him, and then up at me again with a smile.

''It was super, I really like it here.'' He looks around the room, and then gets off his chair. ''You know what? I really should get going,'' he says as he picks his bag up, walks over to me, gives me a hug and then walks over to the elevator.

''Already?'' I ask following him out, ''what's the hurry?'' This is odd behavior for him. He's never before been in a hurry to get away from me, we usually hang out for hours. I need to get to work later today, but I thought we would at least hang out before that.

''Oh, just got places to be, I'm meeting with someone, I need to get going now. Thanks for having me though,'' he says giving me a second hug and then entering the elevator.

When the elevator starts going downwards I walk back into the kitchen, and now Gail is sitting there at the kitchen island with a cup of coffee. I smile at her and sit back down and start on my omelet. ''I don't like him,'' Gail says after a few minutes of silence. I look up at her shocked. ''The way he looks at you, it's not good.''

''How does he look at me?''

''The same way Mr. Grey does,'' she says her face expressionless. ''It's not my place to tell you what to do though,'' she says standing up and placing her cup by the sink. ''That's just my opinion. But something's not right about him.''

Gail's words got stuck in my head and it was all I could think about on the ride to work. What way does Jose look at me, no wait, what way does Christian look at me? He doesn't look at me in any way, at least not one that I've noticed. ''Morning Ana,'' I turn around when I hear Claire's voice.

''Good morning,'' I say and laugh when she yawns. ''Any messages for me?'' I ask her. Lately Mr. Hyde has been leaving notes for me with Claire, which is fine, but it just makes me wonder where he is all the time.

''Yep, I've got one for you,'' she says handing me the note. I look at it, and on this note he has given me more work than I'm used to, and there's also tasks on it that aren't really mine to do, it's his. ''Lunch today?'' I nod my head and give her a smile, and then walk into the office. I sit down and start the computer. I think about the absence of Jack, the fact that he's gone every morning and I don't see him at the end of the day. He says he's in board meetings, but I've seen board members together, and he's not there.

I've gotten the notes every morning, and Jack gets in an hour before lunch and a couple of hours after lunch. But when he is here, everything I'm doing is wrong, and then he either gets an e-mail or a phone call and he's gone again. It's just odd. I don't know him well so I don't know what kind of person he is, but this is a really odd way to work as an editor.

I don't mind the notes Hyde leaves for me, but right now I am feeling frustrated. It feels like I'm doing all his work while he's not even here, but he gets all the credit. I don't mind it because I love doing it, but I'm not supposed to be doing this work so I'm getting underpaid which bothers me because he's getting paid for what I do, he's getting money he doesn't deserve. I like to be busy, but it's getting tiresome now.

It's just been a shitty week and nothing has been going well at all for me. Stuff with Hyde, the whole deal with Christian and to top off the list is Jose's weird behavior. What is happening? I really need this date with Christian, because we need to talk about everything, lay it all out there.

''You ready, Ana?'' I look up at Claire before looking over my shoulder at an irritated looking Jack Hyde. Looking back at Claire I see how she suddenly she got really nervous. I nod my head at her and smile. ''I'll wait out in the lobby,'' she says and quickly leaves the office.

''Huh, you're going for lunch already?'' he says disapprovingly, I look at my watch and it's close to 1pm. ''The day just started,'' he huffs. Well for him maybe, but I've been here for 4 hours. I open my mouth to reply but he stops me with a ''Fine, go to lunch.'' I get up quickly and go before he changes his mind.

When I meet up with Claire she gives me an exasperated look, and I giggle. ''Let's go,'' I mouth to her, and she takes my arm as we walk to the deli. ''Claire how long have you worked at SIP?'' I ask Claire as I take my seat in the booth.

''A couple of years now, why?'' I wait for her to finish her order before continuing my questions. I have the salad Gail made for me in the office, and I decide to just eat that when Hyde leaves again, so I only order a cup of tea at the deli.

I tell Claire about the way Hyde has been acting, and weird things I've noticed about him. ''Has he been like this always?'' I ask her, and she looks deep in a thought. ''I don't think he was like this when I first started.''

''He… well,'' she starts still looking deep in a thought. ''I haven't spent much time with him, but I know there's been… I don't know how to phrase t correctly, since I don't know much about it, but in the years I've been a receptionist at SIP, he's had 4 assistant editors. The longest lasting for 9 months or so… I didn't form a friendship with them, like I have with you, they mostly kept to themselves, or hung out with Mr. Hyde… why they never stayed I don't know.'' It still looks like there's something on her mind, she looks troubled.

''Claire'' I say, and she take a deep breath.

''There was this one incident, it was late and there were only a few of us left in the building. He came out to me and wanted to chat, and I love chatting with people so I he asked questions and I answered. When I asked him questions though, he never really answered, just shrugged them off.'' The waiter comes with her food and my tea, we thank her and she continues. ''I had this weird feeling, but I ignored it. And then he became, well he got too close to me and started stroking my arm and moving my hair,'' her eyes become wet and I'm feeling worse and worse about this. ''I leaned away when he tried to kiss me, he didn't like that. He really didn't like that,'' she wipes her eyes and gives me a weak smile.

''It's okay, you don't have to share anything you don't want to.'' I said when I saw she was having some difficulty talking.

''No I don't mind'' she said flipping her hair over her shoulder. ''Nothing happened really, the security guy came in and then he followed me to my car, and I left… I did consider quitting, but I need the job and there's been no contact with him since really. I do see him around, but he ignores me now, which has been very good,'' she said with a smile. I believe every word she said. I don't think she sees it as a big problem or is really scared of him, but I am kind of now that I know what he's capable of. It confirms a lot of the creepy vibes that I've noticed coming from him. ''Oh no!'' she gasps, and I look up at her wide-eyed. ''I didn't mean to scare you, he's not dangerous… you look terrified.''

''Hey baby,'' I smile at Christian as I climb into the car, and I leap over the middle seat and hug him tightly. ''Hey,'' he says with a chuckle, ''what's that for?'' he asks hugging me back. I just hug him for a while, enjoying the comfort of his hand stroking my back. ''You okay?'' he whispers, kissing me on the head.

''Yeah, everything's good now,'' I say muffled into his shirt with a huge smile on my face. I lift my head and look up at Christian's happy face, and my heart speeds up. It's so loud I'm sure he can hear it, or at least feel it. ''I missed you, that's all,'' He leans down and kisses me hard on the lips. It's then that I first notice that the car isn't moving. I sit back down in my seat and buckle up. Christian tells Taylor we're ready to go and he takes my hand and strokes my knuckles all the way to the restaurant.

When the car stops, Christian gets out and walks around the car, then he opens my door. I take his hand and get out. When he closes the door, Christian pushes me back against the car as he kisses me, and he really does kiss me to where I am left feeling dizzy. In only seconds, his tongue is entering my mouth, and getting in a tangle with my own. When we hear some catcalls, Christian stops the kiss and looks at me with a smirk on his beautiful face. He presses his erection into me and leans down to whisper in my ear, ''wanna skip dinner? I can take you. Right. In. This. Car. Right. Now.''

I swallowed hard, take a deep breath before finally managing to shake my head no. He chuckles, kisses me swiftly on the lips ''I might take you in the elevator then,'' he whispers, and then I notice the dizzyingly tall building. It's taller than Escala and Grey House. He clasps our hands together and says, ''Come, let's go inside.''

Before I know it, we're inside the elevator and Christian's lips are back on mine. His hands are roaming my body, gently squeezing my boobs, before his hands land up on my ass. ''I can't get enough of you,'' he says against my lips, and my heart does that fluttery thing again. The sound of the elevator arriving at the top floor came way to early.

Reluctantly we both get out and enter into a beautiful restaurant. The hostess greets Christian, it's clear that he knows who Christian is, and then shows us to a table that is next to a window and overlooking Seattle. Christian orders for us, and I've begun to really trust in whatever he's ordering will taste delicious.

''How was your day?'' I ask him when we're alone again. He smiles at me and yet again, something happens to my heart.

''It's been good. Although I spent a large part of it missing you and regretting like fuck that we didn't have sex this morning.'' I blush, I can't remember much of it, I think I was really sleepy, but I remember wanting him, and possibly begging him to have sex this morning.

''Well because of you,'' I start, ''my panties have been wet all day.'' His eyes widen and I see his Adam's apple jump. I have no idea where that came, or how I even thought to tell him that, but it seemed to have the desired effect. He shifts in his chair, and by the slightly pained face he's making, I think I know what is going on. I let out a giggle, and he lets out and exasperated breath.

''Behave, or I might take you right on this table and soon. I won't care who might see us,'' his playful smirk disappears when he sees the frightened look on my face. He opens his mouth, but before he says something, I let out a full and very unattractive belly laugh. His mouth closes again and he stares at me in shock, but I can't help it and I keep laughing. After a few seconds, Christian joins me and I stop laughing so that I can listen to the amazing sound coming from him.

After a few seconds he notices people staring at us, but I just keep looking at him in mesmerize. That is without doubt the most incredible sound I've heard coming from him. I've heard him chuckle at stuff I've done, but that sound? That was something else, and I'm going to play it on repeat inside my head whenever I'm feeling down. ''Why were we laughing? Actually I know why I was laughing. I laughed because of how cute your laugh is. But why did you?'' he asks with a frown and then a smile takes over his face.

''You're beautiful,'' is all I answer, and, if I'm not mistaken, he blushes a little. But he hides it well, better than I could. I smile at him, and he smiles back at me. And that's all we do, look at each other without uttering a word, just smiling. He reaches over to hold my hand, and we sit like that until the food arrives.

When the waiter takes our plates and hands us dessert menus, I feel like it's time for us to start talking. That was what this dinner was about, and so far, we haven't talked that much. ''I have next Thursday and Friday off,'' I say, not sure where, or even how, to start.

''You do? Why's that?'' he asks, sipping his wine.

''Mr. Hyde, my boss is going on a conference in New York,'' I tell him. I don't tell him that Hyde also wanted me to accompanying him. I know that Christian would've never let me go in the first place, but that's not why I said no. After the talk I had with Claire, I wasn't that interested in being alone with him, especially not in such a faraway place like New York, so I took a risk and said no. He didn't ask for an explanation as to why I said no, he just accepted it, which I was very happy about.

''Hmm, that sounds good. Maybe I could at least take Friday off? And we could maybe do something?'' he said with a shy smile, which made me grin.

''I would love that, but I understand if you can't take time off. You don't have to, I know how much work you have to do.''

''I want to spend time with you. I'll see what I can do.'' Well I definitely wasn't going to complain about that. ''So about yesterday,'' he says and looks down at my neck where I've done as good of a job as I can in covering the hickey he left on me. ''I'm sorry. I should've never gotten mad and started yelling at you. I should've started talking to you calmly instead of yelling. However, you should've told me, even if you forgot when you initially said yes, you should've told me when he was at your work. You should've at least sent a text or called… but the way he was looking at you, and the memories from that night at the bar, I just saw red and wanted him gone. I'm sorry baby.''

''I'm sorry too, I get that I should've said something, I know I should've. But you hurt me,'' I whisper, looking down at my drink.

''I hurt you?'' he whisper in shock.

''All week has been weird,'' I say, and his frown deepens. ''And then on Tuesday when I didn't see you at all, except for when I was about to go to bed and then you came and…fucked me, and then you left again.'' I look up at him sadly, and I can clearly see the regret shinning in his eyes. ''And then the hickey. Christian, that was completely unnecessary. Jose knows I'm married to you, he knows I'm not interested in anything more than beings friends with him.''

''I'm sorry Ana. I'm just so sorry. I wasn't thinking, I just… I didn't know what to do and I just don't know…but you're mine.''

Was I?

''For how long?''

''What?'' he asks as his eyes widen. ''What's that supposed to mean?''

''What's that supposed to mean? Christian, you know what I mean. The divorce,'' I say, and I can immediately see the wheels inside his head spinning.

''We have 4 months left Anastasia, why talk about that now? Isn't everything good right now? Why complicate shit?'' he asks, and I'm surprised by his harsh tone. I don't want to complicate anything, I just want to be honest about how I feel. But I can see now that it's not a good time.

''I just thought that was one of the things we were going to talk about. But you're right, I'm sorry. We can wait awhile to talk about that.'' I look away, a bit sad to be honest, I want us to work this out now. I need to know now that the man I love won't just get rid of me when our time is ''over.''

''Hey look at me,'' he says softly and I look back up at his worried expression, ''we will talk about it Ana. Just not now… it's just that… well… uhm I don't know what to say about it yet, I need to think more about it, I need more time with you, I..''

''It's okay Christian,'' I say cutting him off, ''I get that, we still have lots of time.'' I say with a smile, a sincere one at that. Because if he needs more time to think, that means he's not tired of me, and I can try and get him to fall in love with me too.

''That's a huge grin you've got going on,'' he says with a smile, and I start blushing I wasn't even aware that I was smiling. ''I love your smile, your whole face just lights up,'' he says and good god what his sweet words can do to me. ''I'm going to do everything I can do to keep that smile on your face.''

We spend the rest of our date not discussing bad stuff, but just enjoying the company of each other. We've agreed to work harder on better communication. Christian is also going to work on his anger and his reactions, and I think in the end this will work out perfectly.

''My mom invited us over for family dinner next weekend,'' Christian says. We're just laying in bed and he's toying with my wedding ring. ''She wants to gather the whole family together, but Elliot won't be back by then, so I don't know if we need to bother with going."

''Of course we're going, we're not doing anything else…'' he rolls over so that he's on top of me and cuts me off with a kiss.

''Okay if you want to go then we'll go,'' he whispers before going back to kissing me. ''But now,'' he whispers hoarsely kissing a trail over to my neck as he starts to lift my t-shirt ''I need inside you beautiful, that's all I've wanted all day.'' I lie there enjoying everything he's doing to me. ''Can you be on top baby?'' he whispers and I hesitate for a second, I've done it before, but I'm not sure… ''It's okay, you're so good at it, come here.'' He says rolling us over so that I'm on top of him.

He shifts so that he's sitting up with me on top of him. Then he lifts his hips up and drags his boxers off and I start to get more and more nervous. I let out a shaky breath and he cups my face with his hands. ''Hey,'' he says with a soft kiss to my lips, ''don't be nervous, you never have to be nervous around me.'' He slides his hands down my sides until his hands are resting on my ass. He starts lifting me up and positioning me over his hard cock, ''like the last time'' he says as his head enters me. ''Put your hands on my shoulders, and take it at your own pace… if it's good for you-'' I groan as I take him deeper, ''-then it's good for me too,'' and I sit all the way back down on him. He lets out a loud groan. ''Yeah… ah'' he groans against my lips.

I grip his shoulders tighter as I start moving up and down, and his hands tightens on my ass. I keep the slow pace for a while, enjoying his raged breathing against my neck, and his moans of appreciation. ''Can I go faster now?'' I ask him, kissing him on his forehead so that he'll get his lips back on mine.

''God yes,'' he says.

''Will you help me?'' I ask him shyly, and he grins.

''Of course baby,'' he starts lifting me up and down and I clench around him and he stops. ''No baby don't do that,'' he says in a tight voice, and I do it again. ''I'm gonna blow too soon if you do it. You've gotta stop,'' I don't listen to him and clench a third time and a fourth time.

''I want to make you come,'' I whisper. ''I know you'll make it up to me,'' I clench him and I see him biting his teeth together. ''It's okay, don't hold back.'' I clench a last time and he lets out an animalistic groan as he rests his head on my shoulder. When his breathing calms down he rolls us over again and starts trailing kisses down my stomach.

''That was something else,'' he says his eyes full of excitement. ''Now I'm gonna taste my girl.''

It's not a very good Chapter, it's messy I feel but I hope you liked it and ill continue to be patient With me,

I love all of you X