Chapter 38: Regret

I find it so sad that Tobias can't come with me to the publishing event tonight. Christina was all for it. But, when Tobias told me he couldn't make it, I thought he was just saying that out of anger and bitterness, now the day is here and he still can't come. Christina has been down about the whole pregnancy thing, and I know my bestfriend, she doesn't do good under stress and when she's under stress she does the unexpected thing―like get an abortion.

But, to get our minds off of things going on now, we went shopping for a few new things that will go good with our outfits. I have my hair pulled back into a slick ponytail with a part on the side with a slim nude dress with a close crew neck collar, long sleeves, and matching shoes and makeup. Christina's outfit looks similar instead it's black and her makeup is red, her short hair is getting longer and left in her natural waves.

All I wanted was to spend this night with Tobias, but he does have to work still. Christina, and I decided to catch a cab rather than drive and it doesn't take us long to get there. The event is so formal and prestigious. Max is there and I don't find him with Troy which is great because I feel that if Tobias were here he would pull me away instantly and steer clear of any man near me.

"This is nice." Christina sips her water at the table. The new book has just been announced and we got to sit down and eat a little bit of hors d'oeuvre while we listened to the authors idea about the book and answering any questions. It does feel nice to just spend time with Christina and get her mind off of things. I know she needs to, "Well needed." It's like she can read my mind.

Honestly, too much has been going on and I wasn't prepared for this. It's like all my fun stuff goes out the windows, my youtube videos, and I barely spend time on social media because I am busting my ass at work and then coming home to a slightly rocky relationship with Tobias isn't helping. I just want a nice, long, vacation with no one but the ones I love with no worries.

She turns to me and gives me a grimacing look, "How are you and Four?"

"We're fine, you know. It's like we aren't trying to really get too deep into issues and just work through them when they come." I shrug my shoulders at her.

"Sex life still great?"

"Ugh, I wish. I mean we aren't as active since are pissed at each other at the moment, but I hope that soon we can just get our stuff together." I wink at her and she laughs. My mood is great until Troy walks around. He hasn't really rubbed me the wrong way but Tobias kept reminding me before we left that he doesn't want me around any men especially ones that give me 'the looks' like Tobias would put it.

"Tris, you look stunning tonight." Christina clears her throat and excuses herself before she gets up and walks towards the line of food. I want to throw my plate at her like a frisbee to her head for leaving me. Instead, I just cross my legs and watch Troy sit down beside me.

"Thanks." I smile at him, "Thanks for inviting us tonight. It was nice seeing something like this, we haven't seen anything like this before."

He laughs and glances down at his hands while meeting my eyes, "No problem, hopefully one day that will be you up there and we can be sitting in the audience listening to your lovely voice." Okay, now it seems that he is flirting with me. I just give him a smile and raise my eyebrows at him almost suggesting what the hell he wants, "I wanted to ask you if you can stop by my office Monday to help me with a few things. I will talk to Max and have Max give you the location if it's alright with him."

I think about Tobias. But, the real question is if he was thinking about me when he was with Nita. I nod my head at him, "I will."

Oou, it's a lot of fishy sh-stuff going on in this book. I know I haven't updated since December but is it still too late to say happy new years! Lol, but I am coming back with a schedule. I am going to update Brooklyn on Tuesdays and probably some bonus chapters in between. But I have many other books to work on and I hope you understand. Love all of you!