A/N: I figured it was time to finish this one, and not leave it undone, like I have for such a long time :P sorry for the wait guys.
Chapter 37
I could feel the air change when he came through the door, the thick air and pressure on my chest seemed to relax, though I could still feel the ache and sting of my body trying to work.
" you know I love you, I would have married you, been with you for as long as you wanted me around, I cant breathe without you. It hurts to see you like this, I don't know what I should do, become selfish and bound you to a life no one wants, but keep you with me. I love you, I love you" Landon whispered hoarsely his voice cracking and puttering, with cold tears running down his face.
" I Love you." Was the only thing I could muster to say, through my cracked lips with desiccated blood. He only cried and pulled me closer, That was the end it was all I felt after no softness no center, I closed my eyes, feeling my muscles give in and a stab in my chest to end it all.
- A Year Later-
~landon~
I went back to the apartment that I knew so well, still feeling so empty now that Maya had gone, still her things were here I had no heart to move them from there places. I couldn't allow my self to change anything, clinging to the hope she would eventually somehow come back. Alyssa left soon after, running somewhere she could find sanctuary to hide from the thoughts she had, a place we both knew she could never find. My life had ended a year ago, the last time I truly cared about something that ended up taking the rest of my happiness. I missed her everyday, hanging pictures and memories were not enough for me, all I dreamt about was the day I could die so I could stay with her. I've tried to end my life many times before, forgetting the rules my life offered, getting hit by cars would only send me into a stumble, a knife would only break and bend uselessly. I tried to will other vampires hoping they would, but in the return I just wound up stuck. I had killed Koby that night, which was the only thing I can regret now, because I bowed down to the only thing he wanted and I was left to live the life he wanted nothing more to do with. I had the perfect life once, when my heart had meaning and my body knew wanting. I missed her more than I missed anything, and I did nothing short than to show her every moment. My life had ended once she died, everyday it made my breathing heavy for the fact I waited for her to come back. I laid on the couch that sometimes still smelt like her if you found the right spot, and dreamed again about her, the women that was always in my mind.