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Okay, guys, What You Should Know is beginning to wrap up! I am so excited! This chapter is pretty intense and I worked hard on it. I hope you enjoy reading it!
Here we go...
Harry's POV
I was laying on my bed, staring up at the ceiling, and thinking; well, thinking about everything besides Allie that is. How could she...? I couldn't even think it. I went back to thinking about what I was going to do tonight with Dumbledore instead; we were going to go look for a horocrux and I had to focus on that not only because it was important but because it kept me from going insane.
The door to the dorm room suddenly flew open and a girl with bushy brown hair stormed in, looking frantic.
"Harry!" Hermione exclaimed, almost out of breath. "Allie did not come in last night!"
The girl was frazzled but I, on the other hand, could not bring myself to be. I continued to lay on my bed, soundlessly.
Hermione scuffed before flying at me and jumping onto the bed. "Harry, did you hear me! Allie is missing!" She repeated.
I finally rolled my head to look at her. I pursed my lips. "Hermione, I...don't care, okay?"
Hermione's face fell as she stared at me in shock. My friend blinked a couple of times before digesting what I was saying. "What happened, Harry?" She asked slowly, as if not wanting to know the answer.
I turned away from her and didn't answer. I didn't want to talk about it, especially not with Hermione.
Like I knew she would, Hermione rolled me back over and forced me to look at her. She was not going to let this go, that was for sure.
"Harry, tell me what happened. Where is she?"
I huffed out an angry breath, suddenly furious. I shot up from my bed and glared down at Hermione. "I don't know where she is! But if I were you, I would start my search at the Slytherin dorms!" I ran my fingers through my hair roughly and turned away from her; I began to pace.
"What are you talking about?" Hermione asked, confused.
I placed my hands on the wall next to my bed, trying to calm my sudden rage. I took a deep breath. "I ran into Allie in the corridor on the way back here last night...she was smoking and clearly upset about something..."I trailed off, getting lost in the memory of the crying blond girl. I chuckled humorlessly to myself. "I told her we could get through anything..."
"Harry...?" Hermione prompted me to continue.
I turned back to her and shook my head. "She-she kissed Draco, Hermione." The bushy haired girl just stared at me in awe, giving me no response. I shrugged. "Yeah, that's what I did when she told me, too."
Hermione pursed her lips. "There has to be some reason for it. Allie would not jeopardize your relationship for Draco Malfoy. She must have done it to help her mission or something like that. It probably didn't mean anything-"
"A kiss always means something, Hermione." I whispered through my teeth as I looked out the window.
"So...what you are saying is...?" She prompted.
I sighed. What was I saying? Was it that I was done with Allie? Was it that I was not able to forgive her or that I was going to because I loved her? I didn't know and I still could not deal with the possibilities.
"What I am saying is that you should probably go find Allie." I said.
Without a look at my best friend, I walked out of the room and slammed the door behind me. I was done. Done with the drama. Done with my bloody mission. Done with Allie Cullen.
Allie's POV
I was sitting under my tree when I realized that the sun was now rising over the lake; I had been out all night and I really didn't care.
I took one last puff on the cigarette I was smoking before putting it out in the dirt where the rest of the butts were placed. Damn, I was out of smokes. It caused me to sigh.
I wish there was booze around Hogwarts...if only I could sneak down to Hogsmeade without anyone knowing...if I ran fast enough perhaps I could make it-
"Allie, thank Merlin!" Hermione called from somewhere behind me. I rolled my eyes as she ran toward me, looking relieved and kind of pissed. Harry must have told her then.
She collapsed onto the ground next to me and breathed heavily.
"You've been looking for me." I stated.
Hermione nodded and leaned against the tree. She took a few deep breaths before looking over at me with a look of crazed confusion in her eye. Was she going to try and beat me up for hurting her friend? I'd beat me up, too. In fact, I hoped she tried to...I wish she could do damage. It was nothing more than I deserved.
"Allie, please tell me that Harry is making things up in his mind again." She asked, getting straight to the point.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Did I really need to answer? She knew what I would say already.
Like I thought, my lack of answer was enough for her. "Oh, Allie..." She trailed off as she slumped against my tree. "Why would you do that?"
"Why do you think, Hermione?" I lashed out.
The girl jumped back slightly. I looked into her mind and saw that she was semi-frightened of me just them. I took another deep breath to calm down. "I'm sorry...I shouldn't be-" I paused as I felt the red tint blur the edges of my vision. "It's not your fault. It's all on me."
Hermione nodded. "But why? I thought you loved Harry."
I looked over at her with my mouth hanging open. "I do, Hermione. God, I love him more than anyone."
"Then-"
"Despite my best efforts, however, somewhere down the line I also...fell for Draco." I admitted.
Hermione's face, if possible, became even more shocked than it already was. "Oh, Hermione don't like at me like that. I don't know how or why but I love Draco...but I love Harry a hell of a lot more." I paused. "If I could make those feels disappear I would do it no matter the cost...if I could take away Harry's pain I would."
Tears began to flow out of my eyes and down my cheeks. It was then that I realized that nothing good had come from my being at Hogwarts. I had just managed to screw up every possible thing that I could.
Cedric was dead: my fault.
Harry was in pain because of me.
Jake was out in the wizarding world and could be dead at any moment.
My actions were effecting those around me and not for the better. In that moment, I knew what I had to do.
I looked over at Hermione and tried to smile. "I'm sorry for everything."
She just nodded and pursed her lips again. "So what are you going to do now? Who are you going to chose?" She asked, looking out at the lake.
"Hermione, there is no decision to make. I told Draco last night that there was nothing there for us and there never would be...I made a mistake and now everything is more fucked up than it usually is." I told her.
"How are you going to fix it?" She questioned, still unable to look at me.
"I don't know...I don't think I can." I bit my lip. "But, I know something that will help."
The next second I was standing up and gathering my things. I smiled slightly down at Hermione. "Hopefully I'll see you again Hermione Jean Granger."
She furrowed her eyebrow at me but did not answer.
I began to walk toward the castle, ready to, as I said, help this situation that I have created. I prayed that this would make everything right; it just had to.
Harry's POV
It was an hour before the time I was supposed to meet Dumbledore and I was still locked away in my dorm room. As soon as Hermione left that morning, I raced back up here and locked the door, making sure that I would be left alone.
I was sitting on the window sill with Hedwig on my arm. The owl was content to just sit with me and I was thankful to her and her inability to talk and ask questions.
I heard a soft knock come from the door and I groaned at the sound. "Hermione, go away! I told you that I didn't care where the hell she is."
There was a hesitation in the response. I just allowed myself to believe that I was once again alone when an unexpected voice came to my ear.
"It's-It's not Hermione." Allie called softly into the room.
My heart stopped beating as it was accompanied with an unbelievably crushing pain in my chest. All day I had felt numb and with only four words from her that comfort was gone. I put Hedwig down on my bedpost and walked as quietly as I could over to the door; internally debating whether or not I was going to let her in.
I mean, why should I?
I stopped right in front of the door and waited.
"Harry, I need to talk to you. Could you please open the door?" She asked, sounding terribly exhausting and regretful. I didn't know much about Allie apparently but I did know for a fact that you could tell her mood by the way she spoke and her tone was genuine.
I took deep, deep breath as I put my hand cautiously on the door knob. I could not believe that I was doing this.
The next second, I ripped the door open as if ripping off a band-aid, and opened it to reveal the small blond girl that I was all too familiar with. She stood there in her skinny jeans and her leather jacket as if it was a normal day. The only difference was that there was a trunk sitting next to her feet.
I looked down at it then back up at her; I leaned against the doorway. "Going somewhere?" I asked.
She nodded, causing me wonder what she had up her sleeve; I wouldn't ask her though.
"Harry, I know I don't deserve the chance to explain myself-" She started, only to have me cut her off.
"I don't want an explanation, Allie, I really don't." I paused. "As far as I'm concerned it doesn't matter why you...kissed Malfoy, just that you did it There is nothing else you could possible say to me on the matter."
I saw a stray tear come to her eye but she caught it before it dropped. I felt an overwhelming urge then to take back everything I said and just wrap her in my arms but I couldn't, not this time.
"I just came here to say goodbye." She looked up at me then with her piercing blue eyes. I stared at her for a moment trying to figure out what she meant by her goodbye. Was she breaking up with me? I thought that much was already clear for us. She opened her mouth to continue. "I have been selfish, Harry."
She moved over to the window, unable to look in my direction. By the way she stared out into oblivion I could tell that she was deep in the words she was speaking. "I came to Hogwarts, thinking that I was going to do good and help to stop Voldemort's followers, that was all I planned to do...and then I met you and everything was different...I was never supposed to fall in love with you, Harry." My heart pinged at the sound of those words. She went on.
"I made so many mistakes, mistakes that caused a life to be lost and numerous others to be screwed up, and I wish I could take them back but Merlin knows I can't. So the best way I know to set things right is by leaving Hogwarts...forever, I don't plan on coming back." She turned to look back at me with fierce sadness in her face. "I won't be able to cause you pain anymore, Harry."
She just stood there for a moment, staring at me with her big beautiful eyes and biting on her pouty bottom lip, waiting for me to say something. And I tried to, oh did I try to think of something to say, but nothing came to me.
Allie smiled ever so slightly and nodded her head. She wiped her eyes with a black polished finger one more time before starting to walk out of the room and my life forever. She stopped right in front of me and reached up onto her tiptoes to give me a kiss on the check. "Goodbye, Harry. I hope you will forgive me for what I have done someday but I understand if you'll hate me forever, too."
Her eyes searched mine for another second. Allie wasn't reading into my mind at that moment but trying to read my soul. Apparently, there was nothing to see for almost instantly she passed by me.
Her ballet flats made a small sound as she crossed the rest of my dorm to the door and I heard her lift her trunk, scratching against the floor as she picked it up.
Words suddenly came to my mouth and I spun quickly. "Allie, I don't hate you." I said in a numb monotone. "I never could. You are the love of my life...but I can't be with you." I was suddenly angry again as an image of Malfoy with his arms around Allie came to my head. I closed the space between the two of us in three strides and put my hands on her shoulders a little more roughly that I should have.
I glared down at the girl. "How can you expect us to be together when I cannot trust you? When you lie and keep secrets?" I pleaded to know.
Allie was looking for an answer in the deepest confines of her brain, trying to find an answer to all of our problems, but she came up with nothing. The girl shrugged, defeated.
"I can't." She said simply, causing my hands to fall from their cold perch. She picked up the trunk that I had caused her to drop. "Let's face it, Harry, I'm not the same girl you met two years ago and you are not the same guy. Things changed; we changed."
My face softened as I realized how truly right she was. I had known for a long time that Allie and I were doomed from the start. It was like Romeo and Juliet, one of Allie's favorite books, we were star crossed lovers that were never meant to be. It all made so much sense now that I was looking back on it.
It was time to let go. I smiled slightly at her. "You don't have to go."
She nodded her head. "Yeah, I do."
A small silence passed between us, allowing me too much time to think, too much time to think of a reason why I should stop her. But, as always, my girl had perfect timing.
"Be safe, Harry." She said before turning and descending the staircase.
And just like that she was gone and out of my life.
I ran my hand through my hair roughly and managed to catch a glimpse of my watch in my peripheral vision. My eyes widened as I realized that I had only fifteen minutes until I had to meet Dumbledore. I thought about skipping the meeting, thinking that I was not in the best shape to go hunt a horocrux at the moment, but then thought better of it.
Getting out of this bloody castle seemed like the best thing to do to get my mind off of things and I would do just about anything right now to go back to feeling numb. I went back into my room and grabbed my favorite track jacket and wand before heading out of the room. It was time.
Allie's POV
I wandered the hallways for what seemed like hours, hell, for all I knew it had been hours.
I had said my goodbyes and now it was time to decide where to go from here.
La Push was my first choice but I thought better of it; putting more of my werewolves in harm's way would not help things in the slightest. Perhaps, I could find Jake somehow and convince him to leave all of this Order of the Phoenix stuff behind him. We could just leave this whole wizarding world thing behind us and start over; we'd done it before.
But, then again, could I really abandon my destiny and not help Harry destroy Voldemort?
No, I never could do that...however, I could go after him by myself. While Harry was hunting for horocruxes I could be hunting the Dark Lord. Perhaps I could even get him to kill me and give Harry a fifty percent chance of living instead of a thirty-three percent-
A crashing sound rang in my ears from the floor above me. I looked up to the ceiling as if, along with my super sonic hearing, I could suddenly see through walls too. Footsteps followed the crash and worked past me.
Wait, what floor was I on? I shook my head when I realized where I was.
Seriously? Could I, like, take a walk through the school without coming anywhere near the Room of Requirement? Is that too much to freaking ask?
Really, I thought that I was just going to walk away and leave whatever Draco was up to alone but then that didn't seem right...something about this day was different. I couldn't explain why but I could just feel it in my gut that today was the day that everything was going to go to crap.
I dropped my trunk and slowly walked over to the nearest staircase and began to trudge up to the fifth floor.
"I hate this. I hate this. I hate this." I chanted with every stair I climbed. I shouldn't be here. After last night, why the hell would I follow Draco back into that stupid room? I tried to, but I couldn't stop my feet from moving—something was wrong up there.
The stairs ended and I was several feet from the door and I was kind of scared; it was going to be hard to face him. But I was going to suck it up and do it anyway because... I just had to.
The door open and as always it was the room filled with junk, except that night, it seemed colder and the objects seemed more eerie and threatening. What the hell...?
I walked slowly and silently over to the row that housed the large cabinet. Draco was standing in front of the thing with his wand pointed straight at the door and was muttering a spell under his breath.
I took steps closer, trying to see what he was doing, and as I got closer I noticed that he was even hollower than he was last night; Draco Malfoy was wasting away.
The next second I heard a crunch under my foot and Draco spun at me so fast I didn't even have time to check what I had stepped on. The blond boy held his wand up at me in his shaking hand.
"Allie! What the bloody hell are you doing here!" He asked in a pained, frantic voice.
I bypassed his glanced and looked over his shoulder at the cabinet. The wheels in my brain were beginning to turn. "Were you trying to charm that cabinet?" My eyes narrowed as I studied the object of Draco's attention for the last year.
"Allie, get out or else-"
"What are you going to do, Draco? Kill me?" I challenged. I scuffed before walking past him to get a better look at the stinking piece of wood. "Well, knock yourself out trying, Draco. Voldemort couldn't kill me and I don't really think you can either."
I heard him snarl behind my back and I could tell that he still had his wand pointed at me. "You got lucky the first time, Cullen."
I chuckled and turned my eyes onto him. "No, I'm not lucky. I'm a vampire; I'm cursed with the inability to die." I turned back to cabinet and reached out to touch the knob .
A sudden pain, one I remember vividly from experiencing it twice last year, ran through my body and I fell to the floor in pain. I clenched my mouth closed so he wouldn't have the satisfaction of hearing me scream.
The pain stopped as suddenly as it started and I looked up at Malfoy while taking deep, gasping breaths. He had a tear in his eye and his wand still pointed at my chest. "I didn't want to use the Cruciatus Curse on you but you cannot open that door, Allie." He paused and looked down at his watch. "What you need to do is run as far from here as you can...they-they are coming."
I tilted my head at him as I held onto the corner of a broken down table to help myself up from the floor. "Whose coming, Dra-" It hit me then what that thing behind me was. "Why didn't I see it before?" I asked myself quietly before looking back over at Draco. "It's a vanishing cabinet, isn't it?"
He didn't answer, just kept his eyes and wand on me as I worked through his plan in my mind. "It all makes so much sense now. You are going to sneak Death Eaters into the castle and...Oh, my God." I ran over to him and stood right in from of his wand. I glared at him in shock and awe. "They are going to kill everyone, aren't they?"
Draco didn't answer as another tear ran down his cheek. "And once you get them in here, it's not the end for you. So who is your target? Is it me? Did they want you to kill me since your werewolf goons failed during Christmas break or..." I trailed off as a sudden vision of Katie Bell came into my head. He had given her the necklace. If he was trying to kill me he could have simply handed it to me; however, Katie was supposed to give that necklace to... "Dumbledore." I started sobbing. "You are going to try to kill Dumbledore."
I stepped away from him and started shaking my head. This wasn't happening, it couldn't be.
"Allie," He forced my name out from between his teeth. "I don't have a choice."
"There is always a choice!" I yelled, incredibly angry. I had to stop this—now. But how? I looked back up at Draco. "I swear, I will stop you, no matter what it costs. You. Will. Not. Do. This."
He shook his head again as more tears fell. "You can't stop this, Allie. Everything is already in motion."
It was my turn to shake my head defiantly. "Draco Malfoy, you clearly don't know me then because I am a master pf screwing things up."
Without another word, I started to run. I was about to run past Draco when I felt his hand grip my arm firmly. "I can't let you go now. It's too late."
I looked up at him with red eyes and without a thought, I punched him in the face. The force of the blow was enough to make him let go of me and fall to the ground in agony. "Don't mess with a vampire, Draco."
After the words we out of my mouth, I was gone at my vampire speed; running, running to find anyone that could help. It was then that I rounded a corner and by the luck of the gods ran straight into Professor McGonigal. I skidded to a halt, almost out of breath.
"Miss Cullen, you know that we do not like when you run at your vampire speed. It endangers other students that are walking in the-"
"Professor, no offense, but you have got to shut up and listen to me." I said between gasps of air. The Transfiguration teacher glared down at me but did what I requested. "You've gotta find Dumbledore and tell him that Death Eaters are going to be attacking the school..." I trailed off as I took another breath. "Draco Malfoy is letting them in by means of a vanishing cabinet."
The professors eyes widened as she digested my words. "Professor Dumbledore is not here, he- he and Potter went-"
"It doesn't matter where they went! It's good that they are gone.- Get in contact with the Order then and tell them to get their asses here now!" I was about to start running again and warn the other DA members that they needed to be ready for a fight but McGonigal stopped me.
"Allie, we are expecting the Professor and Harry back in a matter minutes time. They will not be prepared for what is to come."
I bit my lip and shook my head. "No, they won't; I'll warn them. Where-where can I find them?" I asked frantically. I was suddenly more nervous than before because Harry and Dumbledore were going to be in the same place at the same time; it would be too easy for the Death Eaters to take them both out at the same time.
"They are supposed to arrive in the Astronomy Tower."
The next second the sound of a cackling laugh came echoing down the hallway and an over potent smell overwhelmed my senses. I looked up at McGonigal with frightened eyes. "They are here and they have werewolves."
Her mouth fell open. "Allie, you need to leave the school. Take the the Floo Network in my office. If they have werewolves they mean to kill you." She pleaded.
I shook my head as the smell flooded my nostrils even more. "I've got to warn Dumbledore and Harry; I'm the only one that can get to them fast enough... Go get help!" I yelled before starting to run again. I didn't want to hear anymore of McGonigal's attempts to save me. I wasn't who I was worried about right now.
I ran the hardest I have ever ran in my lifetime. The Astronomy Tower was on the opposite side of the school and it would take me a good minute or two to get there. But, I would get there and warn Harry and the headmaster. Hopefully, they could still get out of here before the Death Eaters found them.
My thoughts went blank as I concentrated on running to them. Finally, I arrived at the stairs and had to slow down to avoid falling back down. I took the stairs up three at a time and arrived at the door to the tower. I ripped the door open to reveal that Harry and Dumbledore were already there.
But something was wrong, Harry was holding onto the headmaster as he leaned greatly on his shoulder; the graying man looked weak, too weak.
Harry looked up at me with shocked eyes. "Allie, what are you doing here? What's going on?" He asked.
I stood in the doorway, staring at the headmaster, who, in turn, was staring back at me with knowing pale blue eyes. "Oh, my God. You know, don't you? You have always known!" I realized.
The weak man nodded his head. "I am so sorry."
The next second he righted himself and retrieved his wand from his robe. He pointed it at Harry and, using a silent spell, caused Harry to fly over to the wall and be stuck there, frozen. The next instant his invisibility cloak was draped over him and it was as if he was gone. I, then, knew that Dumbledore did this to keep Harry safe.
I saw the old man then turn to me and point his wand in my direction. He shot the same spell my way but I managed to dodge the ray of light coming at me with a quick vampire step to the side.
"Allie, please, you have got to hide. They will kill you." He said as he attempted the spell again. As before, I avoided it. Thank Merlin, he was weak or else I would never be able to avoid capture.
"I don't care, Professor! I never have cared if I live or die! Right now, we have to get you out of here before-"
"Before I show up?"
I froze dead in my tracks as I turned slowly to see that Draco had entered the room. He closed the door behind him and locked it.
Slowly, so slowly, he began to move toward Dumbledore. In response, I moved between them. That seemed to piss Draco off. "Allie, move." He demanded.
I just shook my head. "You'll have to kill me if you want to get to him." I told the Slytherin.
Draco narrowed his eyes painfully at me. Every fiber in his being did not want to do this.
"Now, children. Let's not fight, eh?" Dumbledore said with a smile in his tone. So, he was going to be playing the role of hostage negotiator in this situation...great. "Good evening, Draco." He greeted from behind me.
"Professor." The boy acknowledged as he began to circle the room. For ever step he took, Dumbledore and I took the exact same.
"So, I hear you have come to kill me tonight? You are a very clever boy for thinking up this plan." Dumbledore said. "It was you that gave Katie the necklace to give to me and poisoned the alcohol that Slughorn was going to gift to me. I'm rather impressed."
"It would have worked, too, if the people in this world were not so incompetent." Draco snarled.
"Well, it was a nice plan nonetheless." The graying man commended.
I kept my eyes on Draco the other time, he was crying and shaking, and I kept my ears on Dumbledore, seeing if I could figure out his plan for getting us out of this. This was the calm before the storm and the rest of the storm was coming quickly.
The smell of werewolf was getting more intense, causing my nose to burn, and I could hear screams and crashes coming from below us in the castle; the enemy was getting closer.
"You do not have to do this, you know, Draco. We have people that can protect you." Dumbledore explained, taking on a more serious tone.
"Alli has already told me this! I have no choice, don't you people get that! I have to kill you."
Suddenly, the sound of pounding feet coming up the staircase filled my ears; I gasped.
"Professor..." I pleaded for him to do something silently. From the corner of my eye, I saw that he was inching his way to stand in front of me—he was going to sacrifice himself.
I stepped even more in front of the headmaster. "Draco, don't kill him...kill me instead."
The Slytherin stared in shock for a second before a pounding on the door started. Quickly, I took out my wand and put a silent locking charm on it. That would hold them for a while, at least, while I convinced him to do this.
"Remember what I said," I told him, hoping that he would remember my words from the Room of Requirement. "I am a vampire and I might be able to survive this. And-and Voldemort won't be upset because you got one of the Chosen Ones instead of a stinky old headmaster." I looked quickly back at Dumbledore. "No offense, Professor."
I spun back to Draco and gave him the most pleading look I could.
My sacrifice would be a step up for the rest of the world. It would enable the wizarding world to keep their greatest leader and give Harry a better chance of stopping Voldemort.
"Draco, you don't want to kill, Allie. You care for her. But what do you care if I live or die?" Dumbledore said from behind me.
Another loud BANG came from the door.
Draco's eyes passed from me to Dumbledore and then back again.
"Do it, Draco. Please, just kill me!" I asked.
"You don't want to do that, Draco. Remember, I am the one you want." Dumbledore butted in.
I spun at the old man. "Professor, shut up!" I spun back.
"Do it. Come on, I dare you." I snarled.
I could see in his eyes that I almost had Draco convinced.
Another crashing BANG came to the door and I heard the wood begin to crack.
It was now or never.
I looked over at the spot where I knew Harry was hiding, so I could see him one last time but he was still invisible, I mouthed the words I love you before turning back to Draco.
"Do it, now! This is your last chance! Kill me!" I shouted.
He shook his head and I saw him backing out of it; but, I wasn't going to let him.
"Come on, Draco. Kill me! Do it! Kill me now!" I kept shouting.
The Death Eaters were almost broken in and I could see Dumbledore inching his way in front of me again. It was now or never.
"DRACO, KILL ME NOW, DAMMIT!"
He screamed in rage, yelling the words I was happy and terrified to here. "Avada kedavra!"
Three things happened then: The door behind Draco burst open to reveal Snape, Bellatrix LaStrange, Fenrir Greyback, and a russet wolf that looked vaguely familiar, a flash of green light came at my chest with such force that I fell back, and then, everything went black.
I was dead.
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