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Chapter 36: The Notebook has all the Answers

Kurt walked up the stone path to the door of the small brick house. After hesitating for only a second, he knocked softly on the door. While he waited, he remembered that just only a week and a half ago he was standing on this porch for the first time. He was still happy with Blaine and everything was perfect. The door opened to reveal Paul Karofsky looking down at him.

"Mr. Karofsky, is Dave here?",Kurt asked and Paul looked him over before stepping aside and allowing Kurt to enter.

"He's in his room.",he said and Kurt muttered a, "thank you", before walking toward the stairs.

Kurt walked up to Dave's door before softly knocking.

"What?",Dave's voice asked and Kurt took a deep breath before opening the door and peeking in. Dave was sitting on his bed looking down at a notebook. He looked up and their eyes met. Dave looked away and slammed the notebook closed.

"Can I come in?",Kurt asked from the door way and Dave refused to look at him, Kurt stepped in and closed the door, "Dave, I…"

"You're Grandma Julie had the measles, that was a good one,",Dave said, looking down at the closed notebook, "I actually believed it.",Kurt blinked and stood with his back against the door, "When really you were too busy playing doctor with Anderson.",Dave said, this time with a little chuckle behind his words.

"Dave I…"

"Don't you dare say you're sorry,",Dave said, finally turning his eyes to Kurt. Kurt backed even further into the door, Dave's eyes were dark and emotionless, a look that scared Kurt, "Because you're not.",Dave said and Kurt looked away, ashamed, "You used me Kurt.",Dave's voice changed to a hurt tone and that tone forced Kurt to look back at his boyfriend.

"I…"

"It was all a lie from the very beginning.",Dave said, his voice breaking and tears forming in his eyes.

"Dave, please, I…"

"I love you Kurt!",Dave said and a tear fell down his face. Kurt felt tears filling in his own eyes, "I really do and you knew that!",Dave was full on sobbing now and Kurt could do nothing but stand and listen, "But you decided to just walk all over that! You act like my feelings don't even matter!"

"Dave, I never wanted to hurt you.",Kurt whispered and Dave looked away again.

"You wanted to just use me, and yet you didn't want to hurt me?",he asked and Kurt suddenly heard how stupid it sounded, "What the hell Kurt? Did you think I was just going to be your Blaine substitute forever and never catch on? Do you think I'm that stupid?",Dave yelled and Kurt shook his head.

"No Dave, I just wanted to move on! I really care about you and I thought…",Kurt couldn't finish, he couldn't remember what he was thinking doing something so stupid, "I didn't want to hurt you…",he whispered and Dave looked away before opening the notebook in front of him.

"This is the notebook Mildred got a hold of.",he explained, calmly, and Kurt looked down at the notebook as Dave slowly turned the pages. On almost every page there were doodles of his name with hearts and other little drawings, "For years my notebooks were covered with this stuff.",Dave continued, "Even before I kissed you, you see, I've been in love with you forever Kurt.",Dave said and Kurt swallowed, "I REALLY loved you, for all that time.",Dave said as he continued turning the pages, "When you agreed to go out with me, it was the best moment of my life.",he said and Kurt looked up into Dave's eyes, which were still on the pages as tears slowly fell down his cheeks. Then he cleared his throat and looked up, causing Kurt to look away, "Anyway, then I found this.",he said and reached across the bed to his bag and pulled out a sparkly purple notebook that Kurt recognized as his own, "I went to your locker to get your books for you because I was going to drop them off at your house so you wouldn't get behind.",Dave said as he moved his notebook aside and placed Kurt's in front of him.

Kurt knew what was in that book, and suddenly wanted to die of sorrow for what he's done to Dave. Dave opened the front cover and Kurt looked down at the picture of him and Blaine by the lake in the park last spring.

"Cute picture.",Dave said and Kurt rested his head against the door, "You'd think since you guys were fighting, this would have been thrown away.",Dave said, then gave a shrug, "Oh well, it doesn't matter, maybe you just forgot.",Dave said and continued flipping through Kurt's math notes, which were almost as colorful as Dave's, "Ah cute doodles, but these are all dated before we got together, so that's understandable.",Dave said with another shrug then flipped some more and paused, "Wait a second,",he said and Kurt looked away, "These notes are from two days ago.",Dave said, then held up the book for Kurt to see the many doodles of Blaine's name and hearts, "Mr. Hummel- Anderson, that's real cute.",Dave said and Kurt looked away. Dave slammed the book closed the noise making Kurt jump before the notebook was thrust into his chest, he hesitated slightly before taking it and pressing it to his chest, "I went to your house after I found that notebook. Carole was the only one home so she let me in. She told me I could wait for you in the living room. But I went up to your room when she was in the kitchen." Kurt knew he should be upset about Dave sneaking into his room but he couldn't really care right now. "Your room is full of pictures of him, there's a CD of him singing in your CD player, and you rushed to his bedside when he was sick.",Dave said, as he re-opened his own notebook and Kurt blinked as he waited for Dave to continue, "You love him Kurt.",Dave said and Kurt looked up into his eyes, "I always thought it was just a "silly little first love thing" but no, you are IN LOVE with him, and I could never compete with that.",Dave said with a small shrug and Kurt looked down at the notebook in his arms, "Not everyone is lucky enough to find that kind of love Kurt.",Dave said and Kurt looked up at Dave to find him looking back at him, "You may get pissed at Anderson, but no matter what he does, you will always love him. And as long as you love him, there's no room in your heart for me.",Dave told him and Kurt wanted to apologize but when he opened his mouth no words came out, "So, good bye Kurt.",Dave said and Kurt stood there for a long moment before he felt himself nod slowly.

He looked up at the small picture of Dave and his mother.

"Can we still be friends Dave?",he asked and was surprised at the strange sound of his own voice.

Dave looked at him before slowly shaking his head no. Kurt looked away as a fresh round of tears formed in his eyes, making them sting. He nodded again before he turned around and placed his hand on the handle, his vision blurry through the tears.

"When you try your best, but you don't succeed"

He heard Dave sing and turned around in surprise.

"When you get what you want,"

Dave put his hand on his chest before dropping it and nodding toward the notebook in Kurt's arms.

"But not what you need"

Kurt noticed Dave was directing the words right into his heart and he knew he was talking about Blaine.

"When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep"

Dave gave Kurt a small sad smile before nodding toward the door.

"stuck in reverse,"

Kurt paused for a second before opening it and walking out.

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"And the tears come streaming down your face"

Kurt continued the song, softly, as he walked down the stairs.

"When you lose something you can't replace"

He looked up at the last sight of Dave's door before walking across the downstairs hall towards the Karofsky's door.

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"When you love someone, but it goes to waste"

Dave sang as he walked over to the window, just in time to see Kurt walk up to his car.

"Could it be worse?"

Dave sang as he rested his head on the glass.

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"Lights will guide you home"

Kurt sang as he pulled out of the Karofsky's drive way.

"And ignite your bones"

Suddenly his phone began to buzz, he looked down and saw Blaine's name flashing across the screen, causing him to smile through the tears.

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"And I will try to fix you"

Dave sang as he sat back down on the bed and softly closed his doodle infested notebook.