Hello Gladiators! So sorry it has taken so long. Life has been crazy.

How about this weeks episode, happy and in love Fitz and Liv. Loved it!

Thanks again for all the love you show for this story. I have enjoyed writing it so much. As I wind it down I hope you will enjoy it as well.

Here it is, hope there are not to many mistakes!

Chapter 36

The family was enjoying their vacation, it was the third day they had been there. Olivia and Fitz along with her parents had taken the girls down to the beach. Teddy and Samantha were having some alone time on the island with only one secret service agent.

Fitz and Olivia were sitting in the sand watching the girls play in the sand when a huge wave came rushing up and knocked the girls over. Olivia immediately panicked and grabbed both of them up while her mother laughed at her.

"What are you laughing at Mom?"

"Honey, they were fine, you made them more upset rushing at them like that. When this other baby comes I can't wait to see how you change with the reaction to things. You will be like they are fine, just like I said about Amelia and Brittany." Loretta was laughing again.

"Livvie, you got up so quick I didn't know what had even happened." Fitz was now laughing along with Loretta and Charles.

"I am so glad I can be of amusement to you all. I am taking MY children back to the house. Tom can you help me?"

"I will go back with you baby, wait a minute and let me get some stuff up." Fitz said reaching for the bag of sand toys.

Olivia looked at him and pointed a finger at him, "oh no, you and the peanut gallery can sit down here and laugh at me and how I am an over protective mother."

"Liv" Fitz said as he walked after her with Tom. He leaned in to whisper to Tom "you think it is pregnancy hormones?"

" . . !" Olivia turned looking at him with an evil eye.

"Uh oh Tom, this may be a night I sleep alone." Fitz again tried to whisper as Tom smiled at him.

Olivia stopped and turned around to him, "I think that would be a safe bet Mr. President."

Fitz knew she was emotional and he had taken it to far and even though she would let him sleep in their bed, it would feel like he was alone.

They were making dinner when Teddy and Samantha came back in all smiles. Olivia looked up at the two of them.

"Did you two have fun?"

Teddy and Samantha giggled before Teddy answered "Yes, we had a ball, we went to lunch then snorkeling. It was a lot of fun, especially with only one agent to be our shadow."

"I am glad. The girls are up will you two go run upstairs and grab them for me and bring them down. If you would like to change their diapers, I wouldn't object to that either." Olivia said smiling.

Samantha looked at Olivia, "Miss Olivia, do you think that Teddy ever changes their diapers? If we are watching the girls I am doing it. He gags, such a baby?'

They all laugh out loud as Fitz finally walks into the kitchen.

"What's so funny?" Teddy told him what Samantha said and then he looked at Olivia. She turned her head but not before she gave him an eye roll. He knew it was going to be a long night.

After dinner and everyone went to their rooms Olivia was sitting on the bed holding her stomach when Fitz walked in.

"Livvie, you okay honey?"

Olivia looked up at him with tears in her eyes "We need to go to the hospital Fitz, something isn't right."

Fitz saw the look of panic on her face and he immediately started getting her shoes and sweater and try not to look alarmed himself. He called her mother and father at the other house to let them know and they were there in minutes. Teddy was going to stay at the house with his sisters.

On the way to the hospital no one said much except to reassure Olivia that everything was okay and that it is probably nothing. They all could see her wipe tears away every few minutes. Fitz just held her hand or rubbed her leg.

They took Olivia back as soon as they got there and the doctor examined her. Once he was done he went to the waiting room to get Fitz.

"Mr. President, your wife is asking for you." the doctor said as he moved him towards the hallway.

Fitz walked into the room and knew by the look on her face that she had lost the baby. Fitz walked to the bed and sat down. Olivia looked at him tears constantly coming down her cheeks.

"Fitz, I am so sorry. The doctor said it happens and everything looks okay with me. My body just couldn't carry this baby." Olivia reached up for his face.

Fitz looked down at her and went to kiss her lips "I am sorry too my love. It does happen and we will get through this honey. I love you and we will be okay."

With Olivia's ordeal the vacation was cut short and everyone got home safe. As Olivia walked in the residence after putting the girls to bed with Fitz she walked into the bathroom and locked the door.

As she sat in the bathtub sobbing she heard a knock on the door.

"Livvie, baby, can you let me in?" Fitz said in a whisper. He knew this was the first real moment she has had to herself since they lost the baby and that she was in there crying.

"I am in the tub Fitz, I will be out soon." Olivia said trying to not let him hear her voice crack.

Fitz placed his forehead on the door, "Liv, since when do we lock doors? Please baby, come open the door."

Olivia closed her eyes "Fitz, I just need a minute. I will be out soon. I am fine. Please just give me a minute."

Fitz moved away from the door and got dressed for bed. An hour later he heard the door unlock but Olivia didn't come out. He started walking towards the bathroom but before he opened the door he knocked again.

"Is it okay if I come in Liv?"

Olivia let out a breath, "Yes, come in."

Fitz walked up to her and placed his hands on her shoulders.

"Do you want to talk about it? Do you need to talk about it with me or someone else?"

"I don't want to talk about it to anyone. There is nothing I can do to change what happened, right?"

Fitz turned her around so they were looking at each other. "That's right Olivia. Nothing could have changed what happened. There things happen babe. Remember, we are in this together and we will get through this but you have to let me in. If you need time, okay but I also lost a baby Liv and I need my wife."

Olivia wrapped her arms around him. "I am sorry, you did lose a baby also. I love you Fitz. We will be okay. I just keep thinking to that day and what happened, did I do something?"

Fitz grabbed her fave in both of his hands "Olivia Grant, you look at me. You did nothing wrong. You have done everything the same as with the girls right? Plus, there is a lot less stress now. It just happens honey. Please, quit thinking about it like you could have done something to change the outcome. There is nothing you or I could have done."

As they stood in the bathroom grieving their loss and holding each other both knew everything would be okay in time.

It had been nine weeks since they lost the baby and the twins birthday was tomorrow. They had planned a huge party and everything was being prepared in the garden for it. Olivia was in the garden when Fitz found her talking to one of the workers.

"Hi, everything coming together?" Fitz placed his arm around her waist and felt her tense up.

"Um, yes, we have everything under control. It is going to be way to much for a first birthday but oh well." Olivia moved away from Fitz and didn't look at him. She knew he felt it too and she couldn't. They had not be intimate since they lost the baby. He had tried once but she pulled away and he never tried again. He looked so hurt by her saying she didn't want him touching her that night. She heard him go into the bathroom and cry. She knew it wasn't because she wouldn't sleep with him, it was because she was shutting him out again and he didn't know what to do about it. She couldn't do anything about it, she didn't know why she was asking like this.

Fitz looked at her as she walked away from him again. "Well, I guess I will see you at dinner. I am going up to play with the girls a little while before my afternoon meeting." His face was defeated. He was defeated and she could see it.

"Fitz" Olivia said in a whisper and he turned around.

"It's okay Livvie. Don't pretend with me right now. I will see you at dinner." Fitz walked off and went and played with the girls.

Dinner came and was quiet as usual. Teddy and Samantha were there and all made small talk but Olivia and Fitz didn't speak to each other. After dinner Samantha asked Teddy was everything okay.

"No, since vacation and Livvie losing the baby they have been weird with each other."

Samantha kissed hiss cheek, "Things will get better. They will work through it. I have never seen two people love one another like they do, so it will be alright in time."

Olivia came out of the bathroom from getting her pajamas on. Fitz was already in the bed reading. He didn't even look when she came in the room anymore and it broke her heart that she had done that to him. Before if it was a room full of people or just them two, if she walked in the room he would look up and smile not caring at all who was in the room. Now, she had even taken that from him.

Fitz felt her crawl into bed and he finally looked at her.

"Would you like me to turn the light off, I can read this tomorrow morning?"

"No, you can read. I am not sleepy."

Fitz put his papers down. "Olivia, do you want me to start sleeping somewhere else? Do you want to leave me and are scared of what it will look like in the public? I can't keep doing this. I married you and I love you more than I could ever tell you but I can't keep watching you disappear from me."

Olivia had tears rolling down her cheeks. She moved his papers off his lap and moved to straddle him. Olivia placed her hands on his face.

"Fitz, I love you. I am so sorry. I can't explain why I am feeling like this. I can't talk to you about it because I don't understand it myself. Please never doubt that I don't love you or my life with you and our children. I keep thinking that I will never give you another child, that I will never be able to give you what I know you want."

Fitz grabbed her hands from his face and placed the on his chest.

"Liv, my heart belongs to you and you not being able to give me another child has never once crossed my mind. Don't ever think that. I love our girls and wouldn't trade them for anything in this world but this is our life. If we never have another child I am so happy with our life that I don't feel like I am missing anything. Please come back to me Liv. We can get someone to come and talk to you about what you are feeling and try and figure it out okay." Fitz kissed her forehead and then her nose.

Olivia leaned into his chest and Fitz wrapped his arms around her.

"I love you Fitz. I would like to talk to someone. Maybe they can figure it out since I can't."

Olivia moved her head to kiss his neck and Fitz relaxed for the first time in months. "Kiss me." Olivia said looking up at him.

Fitz moved his head down and gave her a peck on her lips. He smiled at her as he moved his head back to the headboard of the bed.

"I know we haven't done that in a long time so you may be rusty but that was not a good kiss baby. I mean I want you to really kiss me." She smiled at him.

Fitz moved them both lower on the bed and had moved over her slightly and kissed her with all the passion he had. When they broke apart because they were needing air they looked into each others eyes. Both knew what they needed. Olivia moved to get back on top of Fitz and removed her shirt.

"Livvie, are you sure?" Fitz looked at her with passion but also concern.

"Yes, I need my husband to make love to me. I need my husband to ease the pain. I just need my husband."

Fitz took her and pulled her to his chest. "and I need my wife because she is the only person that takes my pain away with just a smile. I love you Mrs. Grant."

The two of them connected again that night and made love to one another until the sun came up. There was no need after that night for her to talk to anyone. She finally accepted that he didn't blame her for what happened and that he was happy with their family just the way it was.