Chapter 36: iBreak Up

Sam's POV

"Hey Carls" I said as I opened my locker

"Hi" She smiled "Where's Freddie?"

"Gone to class, he had to talk to Brad about something"

Carly nodded.

I walked up the stairs and headed to Social Studies. I sat down and the teacher walked in.

After class I met Carly and Freddie.

"Sup" I smiled

"Hey Baby" Freddie said kissing the side of my head

"We doing iCarly rehearsal after school?" Carly asked

I nodded "Yeah"

Carly's POV

"Ok, What comes after Messing with Lewbert?" I asked

"Hey Hey Hey, what am I licking" Sam said

"No" Freddie said "It's The blab cam"

"No it isn't" Sam said

"Yeah it is"

"Guys it doesn't matter"

"Whatever" Sam sighed "But we all know i'm right"

"Sure" Freddie said sarcastically

"Excuse me?" Sam asked turning to look at him

"Guys, please don't fight about this. It's stupid" I sighed

"We wouldn't be fighting if that would just admit I'm right!" Sam yelled

"That?" Freddie asked "Your calling me 'That'?"

"YEAH I AM"

"GUYS!" I screamed

"You always think your right!" Freddie said

"Really?" Sam asked "NO! I don't always think i'm right"

"Oh, what was I thinking?" Freddie asked sarcastically

"I have no idea" Sam mumbled

"Sorry?" Freddie asked

"Guys this is so dumb!" I said "It doesn't matter what comes after Messing with Lewbert"

"Yes it does" Sam groaned "Because I AM RIGHT!"

"If you say so" Freddie said "This is sooooo annoying!"

"Whats annoying?"

"YOU!" He yelled "YOU ALWAYS THINK YOUR RIGHT!"

"If I'm so annoying, why am I your girlfriend?" I asked

He shrugged "I don't know"

"Do you still want me to be your girlfriend?" I asked

There was a long pause. My head dropped.

"You weren't suppost to think about it" I sighed "Thats that then"

"Sam, wait-" He started

"No, If you really loved me, you wouldn't think about whether or not you still want to be my boyfriend, it's something you should know"

I picked up Mia and headed for the door.

"Sam, I didn't mean it like that" He whispered

"I know what you ment" I sighed "Goodbye"

I left the iCarly studio and went downstairs, I saw Spencer in the kitchen, he noticed I was crying.

"Sam, whats wrong?" He asked

I shook my head "Nothing, Don't worry about it"

I left the apartment.

Freddie's POV

Sam left the studio and I turned to look at Carly.

"What just happend?" I whispered

"You just lost your girlfriend"

Spencer came running into the studio.

"What happened to Sam and why did she leave her crying?" He asked

I looked down at the floor.

"Sam and Freddie were fighting, then Sam asked him if he still wanted to be her boyfriend and he didn't answer straight away, he was thinking about it" Carly explained

"Dude" Spencer groaned

"I know, I'm an idiot"

"I reckon" Carly agreed

"What am I going to do?" I asked "I love her so much, of course I still want her to be my girlfriend"

"This is something we can't help you with" Spencer said "You have to fix it yourself"

I decided to give Sam some time, If I tried to talk to her now it would just make things worse. I went downstairs to my moms apartment and asked her if I could stay there for the night.

Sam's POV

I got home and went straight up to my room. I put Mia in her crib and I fell onto my bed.

I'm usually not the kinda person who cries easily, but I couldn't help it this time. The tears just keep pouring down my cheeks.

*The next morning*

I woke up hoping yesterday was all I dream, but when I turned over and saw Freddie wasn't there, I knew it was real.

I got dressed and went over to Carly's place. I needed someone to talk to.

"Hi" I said walking inside

"Hey"

She came over to hug me, I started crying again.

We walked upstairs to her room and I sat on her bed.

"Where's Mia?" She asked

"With my mom" I said

"Have you talked to Freddie?"

I shook my head "No, he didn't come home last night"

Freddie's POV

I walked into Carly's apartment and saw Spencer sitting on the couch.

"Carly and Sam are in Carly's room" He said

"Thanks"

I walked upstairs, Carly's door was open a little bit and I could hear them talking.

"Sam, you didn't do anything. He was probebly just in a bad mood or something"

"I've seen him in a mad mood before, it's different. Maybe he was serious, maybe he just doesn't want to be my boyfriend anymore"

"I doubt it Sam, he loves you alot"

"I don't know, he didn't seem to certain about whether he did or not"

"So, it's really over between you guys?"

"I think so"

"Do you want it to be over?"

"Of course not! I love him so much, no one could ever understand how much. Last night, he wasn't there, it didn't feel right, I couldn't sleep without him there. Then when I woke up this morning, I was hoping it was all a dream, then I turned over and he wasn't there, I reliesed it was all real. Yesterday after the fight, he didn't even try to stop me from leaving. I hate this, I hate that all of this happened. But I can't force him to do something he doesn't want to do. He is still Mia's dad, nothing is going to change that. But I guess from now on thats all he is.

"Im sorry Sam, I'm not sure what to say"

"There's nothing you can say, but thanks for listening"

I couldn't listen to this anymore, I turned around and walked back downstairs. What am I going to do? It can't be over, I love her so much. What she just said breaks my heart, How could I hurt her so much?

I left Carly's apartment. I went downstairs and got in my car, I drove to Sam's house and went inside.

I saw a note sitting on the table.

Sam,
I had to go out, I took Mia with me. We will be back later tonight.
Mom x

I walked up to 'our' room, and sat on the bed.

Sam's POV

I said bye to Carly and started walking home. I walked in my front door and saw a note on the table.

I read the note and rolled my eyes.

I walked up stairs and opened my bedroom door, Freddie was sitting on my bed.

"What do you want, Mia's not here"

"I'm not here to see Mia"

"Well then why are you here?"

"Can we talk?"

"We broke up Freddie, what is there to say?"

"What I did yesterday was so stupid. There is no question about whether I still want to be your boyfriend. Of course I do, I love you, I love you so much Sam. If I loose you, I'm not sure what I'm going to do. Your the best thing thats ever happened to me, I can't live with out you. Please, please don't leave me"

"I don't know, you really hurt me yesterday. When I left, you didn't try to stop me, you didn't come after me, it's like you wanted me to go"

"I'm so sorry Sam, I hate that I hurt you, it breaks my heart when your upset. You don't understand how much I love you, If there was some way for me to proove how much I love you I would. I would do anything for you"

I was starting to cry again.

"I'm so sorry" He whispered before wiping a tear of my cheek

He grabbed my hand and kissed the back of it before standing up.

"I love you, I always will. If your ready to talk i'll be waiting, I would wait for you forever" He walked to the door and turned to look at me again "Bye Sam"

He left, I sat frozen staring at the door.

"FREDDIE WAIT" I called running out my room

I ran down the stairs and he turned to look at me.

"Yeah?" He asked

I walked closer to him "You would really wait forever?"

"I would, you've only been gone a day and i'm already falling apart without you. your the one I love, your the only one I will ever love. Even if you don't love me back, I would never stop loving you. "

"I would never stop loving you either. But I don't want you to wait for me forever"

"...You don't?"

I shook my head "No...I don't want you to wait for me forever, cos I want to be with you forever"

I stepped forward and crashed my lips into his, I wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist.

I pulled away and put my forehead to his.

"I can never loose you again" He whispered "I can't live with out you"

"I can't live without you either. I love you Freddie, more than anything"

"I love you too Sam, so much"