Thanks for the wonderful reviews! I think I am over my writer's block, so I can pop chapters out a little faster. I will try to update Reasons tomorrow. Not too many chapters left on that one. So here goes Chapter 36.
I do not own Twilight or the characters! Just the little ol' Cherokee wolf pack.
Next Day around 11:00 pm-Jacob's House
" So it was brought to my attention that Adahy has been lurking around. What I don't get is why we have not caught him yet, and I also take some blame for this. I have been slacking on patrols too and my mind is not fully focused when I am patrolling. We all need to work harder and get this guy. Who knows what he is up to and who he might be linked with," Jacob looked over at Sam, who ignored Jacob's glance. " I have decided that Leah is going to be allowed to patrol once a week. Seth it's your job to look after her and make sure she is okay."
"Why can't you do that," Seth asked rudely. Embry elbowed him in the side.
" Because I am Alpha and I say so, that's why," Jacob replied firmly. Seth growled and tightly balled his fist.
" Seth calm down, geez," I whispered and patted Seth's leg. He took a deep breath and sat back on the sofa.
" Like I was saying, Seth you will look after Leah. I will be doing extra patrols along with Sam," Jacob finished. Sam stood up and walked towards the front door. "Where the hell are you going Uley?"
" I refuse to do extra patrols. I have a pregnant wife at home who is not feeling well. I have to do my job as her husband and take care of her," Sam stated through clenched teeth. If only he knew his sick wife was not pregnant anymore and that she probably didn't feel good because she was worried he would find out the truth.
" You are being really selfish Sam. We have to catch this guy and you are acting like an ass," Quil said.
" Why should I give a fuck about that half vamp's baby daddy?"
" Well maybe because he attacked your wife," Embry replied. Sam leaned on the door post and crossed his arms.
" Come on Sam, just do the patrols so we can get this guy and be done with him," Paul said walking over to Sam.
" I never get to spend time with my wife, all this patrolling is getting ridiculous," Sam said.
" I thought it was in your blood to protect La Push? What's the problem now," Jacob asked Sam.
" I don't have a problem protecting the people ofLa Push. But who are we protecting? That half vamp and her fucking child? I am here to protect people not the damn undead," Sam yelled.
" It's not only about the Cullens Sam. How do we know if Adahy is not trying to kill us off? His pack was already killing humans and you know that. So what is your problem," I asked standing up to face Sam. " Oh I know. You are just pissed that Emily is screwing Adahy and the baby might not be yours."
The room fell silent and Sam's body began to shake.
" Don't speak of stuff you don't know about Leah," Sam said quietly.
" I know what I'm talking about Uley. You just are trying to deny it, but it really happened," I spoke. Sam started to shake even more and Jared stepped in front of me.
" Maybe you should step outside Sam," Jared proposed blocking me from Sam's vision.
" Fuck you Lee," Sam spat before slamming the door. I ran to the front door and yanked it opened.
" No fuck you dumbass," I yelled to Sam's back before slamming the door shut.
" Lee you should probably calm down, all this yelling is not good for you," Jared led me over to the couch and sat me down. Jacob looked at me in concern but quickly looked away once I caught his eye.
" What is this you were saying about Emily," Seth asked.
" She has been messing around with Adahy and she has a past with him. I know she knows where he is, she is just not telling. That bitch," I said rubbing my stomach.
" Wait, so the baby might not be Sam's," Paul asked sitting in a chair across from me. Paul was very protective of Sam because he was next to phase after him. Although Sam was older, Paul always had his back. Most of the time, I called it kissing his ass.
" I don't know. We will never know."
"Sam can just have a DNA test when she has the baby. People do it all the time," Embry said.
" Is that what your mother had every man in La Push do," Paul asked with a snicker.
" That was uncalled for Paul," Jacob sat on the other side of the room, far away from me.
" It's not a good idea to piss me off today Paul," Embry said. His temper rarely went out of control, but when you said something about his mother you were asking to die.
" Okay back on subject," Jacob interrupted the brewing fight. " Focus more on patrols and try to catch every scent you can."
" Okay Almighty Alpha," Jared said with a smile. Jacob shook his head and went on talking.
" I will patrol at 12:00 am, Seth and Quil go ahead and patrol an hour from now and Embry and Jared pick up after them. Paul you will alternate with me."
" So who is patrolling with you," Embry asked Jacob.
" I can do it alone, it's fine. Leah you patrol with Seth and Quil sometimes. But only once a week," Jacob said looking in my direction but not directly at me.
" I can patrol with you sometimes," I suggested. He really did not need to be patrolling alone, I would not let that happen regardless of our circumstances.
" No you patrol with Seth and Quil," Jacob said finally looking me in the eye.
" So what about Sam," Quil asked.
" He will probably be patrolling with Paul when he gets his shit together," Jacob replied.
Everyone nodded and got up to leave.
" You coming," Seth asked offering his hand to me.
" I will be home in a little bit. I'm going to talk to Jacob," I whispered to Seth.
" You sure that's a good idea? We will wait outside foe you," Jared offered.
" No you guys go, it's fine." I shooed them out the door. Quil and Embry frowned at Jared before following him out.
" You are free to go," Jacob said walking toward the kitchen.
" I thought I should stick around and talk to you. You know Alpha Female to Alpha Male?"
Jacob raised an eye brow. " I don't think it's possible to be Alpha Female anymore. We aren't really…mates anymore right?"
" That doesn't mean anything, it's all about the pack. We shouldn't let our problems destroy the formation of the pack," I said sitting on the counter. Jacob gathered plates and bowls and put them in the sink. " Jake?"
" What," he turned on the water and squirted soap in the sink.
" This between us is not going to affect the pack. Right?"
" I don't know. It's hard not to be pissed at you when they are around. Plus I know the pack is still not happy with me." He threw the plates and bowls in the sink and began scrubbing them.
" Well just try to keep your pissed offness to the bare minimum," I said swinging my legs.
" I think you should go home and get some rest," Jacob said drying his hands.
" Just because we aren't together doesn't mean we can't talk," I replied. Jacob sighed and turned back to the small amount of dishes he had left to wash.
" I just want to be alone."
" Why?" Maybe that was not the best question to ask, but I wanted to get rid of some of this tension.
" I just do okay? I will take you home," Jacob replied slamming a bowl into the sink.
"You know what, I can take myself home," I hopped off the counter and stormed out the kitchen. I didn't hear Jacob's footsteps behind me as I walked out the front door. The sky was darkening up as if it was going to storm. I hurried to my car and sped off.
Hot tears streamed down my face as I drove away from Jacob's house. I hated that nothing ever went right for me, everything always fell apart on my path. Why couldn't I just live a day without stress and drama? Why is it that every single ounce of negativity had to land on planet Leah? Most of the time I didn't let things bother me. I just let them fly over my head and kept on moving. But there is a breaking point for everyone. People are meant to break at some point and my point was now. More tears blurred my vision and the car swerved. I pulled over to the side of the road and put the car in park. I punched at the steering wheel and screamed at the top of my lungs. All the hitting didn't seem to take the pain away. My punches slowed down and more tears fell down my cheeks. Loud sobs escaped my chest and filled the small car. Breathing became difficult inside the small space. I opened the door and fell out the car onto the cool grass. I grabbed my cell phone and dialed Seth's number.
" You okay," Seth asked frantically.
" I need you," I said between sobs.
" Did he do something to you? Are you okay," Seth asked. I heard a door slam in the background.
I cried harder and clutched my chest. Everything that I had experienced had broken free of being closed up in my mind. Every memory came back to me. Sam leaving. Me phasing. Dad dying. Ending up with Jacob. Getting pregnant. Leaving Jacob.
" Leah you've got to calm down. Where are you," Seth asked. I could hear Paul in the background demanding Seth to tell him what was wrong. " Shut the hell up Paul! I can't hear her!"
" Right…right down the street from Jake's. The block before you get to his house," I replied, my words muffled and slurred together.
" We are on our way," Seth said before hanging up. I leaned against my car and buried my head in my knees. I let out another agonizing scream.
" Lee come on. Paul drive to the house," I felt warm hands pick me up. I didn't even realize I had either fallen asleep or passed out. " Let's get you home." Seth placed me in the backseat of my car. He got in the backseat with me and laid my head across his lap.
" Is she okay," Paul asked pulling off.
" I think she is just out of it. I am going to put her down in her bed and make her rest. She is doing too much," Seth replied. My eyes fluttered shut as Paul drove to the house.
" Leah?" I heard a voice whisper. I slowly opened my eyes and Seth was sitting at the end of my bed. " What happened?"
" I don't know. I just kind of broke down I guess. Thanks for coming to get me. I know I am putting you through hell," I said trying to sit up but Seth pushed me back down.
" No problem sis. You get some rest. Love you," Seth said getting up to leave.
" Seth?"
" Yes?"
" Um… I will be okay someday. I promise you that," I stated.
" I know," Seth replied. He shut my door softly and I laid my head back on my pillow.
Sleeping for five hours straight was nice and I needed it. I felt a lump next to me when I tried to roll over. Jacob?
" I'm sorry," he whispered and kissed my forehead.
"When did you get here?"
" Seth called me. He said you needed me to be here," Jacob replied.
" Oh," I said and closed my eyes. Jacob threw his arm around me and pulled me in closer.
" I love you," Jacob said pecking my lips.
" I-"
I opened my eyes and looked over to the other side of the bed. There was nothing there but my other pillow. So he wasn't really here? I hated vivid dreams like that. I looked over at my clock. It was five in the evening, I had slept most of the day away.
My cell phone vibrated from the nightstand.
" Yes Emily," I spoke into the phone. Why did she always have to call me.?
" Leah call Jacob please! Sam and Adahy are about to battle," Emily yelled.
"What! Why didn't you call him yourself Emily?"
" Just do it please!"
I sighed and hung up. No wonder I was always so stressed, everyone just laid all their problems on me.
" Hello," Jacob's raspy voice spoke from the other end.
" Get the pack together. Sam and Adahy are about to battle," I replied.
" Shit! Seth just called my phone and I missed it. That must have been what he wanted. Do you know where they are?"
" No Emily didn't say."
" Well I am going to call Seth back," Jacob said hanging up the phone.
" I love you," I said as if Jacob was still there.
Obviously Leah had a nervous breakdown. Can you blame her? I would surely break if I was her and had that much on my plate. So is this the big battle coming up? We will have to see! Thanks for reading! I am on Twitter if you want to talk to me on there. I could use some more Twitter friends. Link on my profile! Reviews are lovely and make me happy.