WARNING: whoever died.. Your name is here. I'm sorry for killing you off.
Chapter Thirty-Five: Remembering (Julia's POV)
Beep. Shuffles. Murmurs. Cries. Sobs. Touching. Talking. This is what I have heard or felt faintly for a while. I knew the murmurs, some of the murmurs were new, some were old. I recognized a deep but loving voice, his hand was holding mine, I grew up holding that rough hand, but I never had I really wanted to have it held by him until now. Quiet murmurs were also heard, a familiar murmur that would sing to me softly. Despite that she couldn't sing, I still loved the voice. The touches were familiar as well, rough hands, big hands, soft hands, small hands. I knew them all. Nothing was coming to me though. It was if I was wandering around aimlessly in darkness, only hearing and feeling. I was a blind woman walking alone with a aid dog. It was a frightening place to be, not to see, but the touches and murmurs made me feel at home.. More comfortable. Yet after a while of walking blind, I had started to feel more alert. The senses were more powerful. The touches were warm and homely. The murmurs were getting louder. It was like the blind woman running to the end of the darkness, finally seeing the light and in a flash… right at home. "Julia." A soft voice whispered. I had reached the end of the tunnel and the murmured voice was now speaking my name. I couldn't respond, the pain hit me. My neck had a throbbing pain, as did my arm. The cheek didn't hurt that much, just a ping here and there. Yet my head was like a drum, constant drumming on my skull. The music was a heavy metal beat, as much as I love heavy metal, this was a beat I was sure to hate. "Julia." The voice murmured. I groaned, automatic pain in my throat. "Clare.. I think she's really waking up. Get the nurse." The voice had asked, more footsteps had left. "Open your eyes, Jules." The voice murmured. I didn't want to open my eyes, what if what I wanted wasn't there. What if I was back in the darkness. "Don't be afraid, Jules. It's just daddy." Dad had murmured. So it was Dad. The little voice in the back of the drums had been right. It was my father. Putting my trust in him I slowly opened my eyes which were swollen and it stung to open. "Slowly." Dad whispered. Slowly I opened the eyes and saw that the room wasn't that bright, but the lamp on the wall. Then I saw it was Dad's face above mine, dark purple circles under his emerald eyes. He looked older than he really was, he looked about fifty than forty. His dark brown hair was a mess and a small smile appeared on his lips. "Hey there." Dad whispered. I felt his cool breath on my face and I was immediately blissful. It was home. He was home. "Hey." I croaked. The sound coming from me sounded deep and dark. Not my voice at all. I felt Dad's fingers brush against my cheek. "It's nice to see your eyes open, sweetie." Dad murmured, using a pet name he rarely used. He always preferred using Jules or baby emeralds. Whatever suited him. "How long have I been out?" I croaked again. Dad looked behind him to where a calendar hung on the wall. I took note that I was in a hospital. A hospital room. "About a day, almost two. It's one thirty three in the morning." Dad said, looking back at me. "I was so worried." Dad murmured, true hurt in his eyes. A look of return but concern. Was it for me? Before I could even croak a answer a short stubby woman bustled into the room with Mom behind her. Mom's blue eyes had seen better days than Dad's, hers looked more well rested, but more puffy. Sudden tears fell from her eyes and she approached me, a hand on my head. "Hi baby girl." Mom whispered, using her old pet name for me. What was with all the pet names? Why was everyone treating me with such respect and concern? What had happened? "It seems like her signs are okay. Her heart's a bit fast paced, you okay there, Julianne?" The nurse said in a monotone. "Julia." Dad and me had said, his voice was larger and more irritable than the nurse. Obvious confrontation there. Dad and nurses were never a good mix. The nurse shot Dad a dirty look and Mom stepped in front of Dad, she took his hands in hers and looked him in the eye. "Elijah.. Calm down. If you don't I'll have you leave. You've caused enough scenes here." Mom ordered. Dad had a serious look in his emerald eyes, but it soften when he stared into Mom's. It looked as if they were a couple again. I could even see the glint of Mom's marriage ring, she was wearing her marriage ring, Dad still has his own on his finger. Dad's had a blue gem in the silver metal and Mom's had emerald gem in a gold band. Both complimenting the other's eyes. "Fine." Dad grumbled. Mom smiled and stretched up on her toes to my surprise, she kissed him. They actually kissed. How much had I missed? "Thank you." Mom murmured. Before turning to the nurse. "Is there a time we can take her home?" Mom asked. "Once her neck would is to a point where it's not going to bleed and it good for stitching, which will be in a couple days." The nurse informed Mom. Mom nodded. "Julia. There will be a officer coming to speak to you about the kidnapping." The nurse informed me. My eyes widen and a pang went through my face. "Kidnapping?" I whispered. The nurse looked up at me, as did Mom and Dad. "Julia. You were kidnapped by Lilith." Mom said slowly. "Don't you remember. Jules you were there for a week." Dad murmured, clear confusion on his face. Before I even had time to comprehend what had happened, the beeps on the monitor was getting faster as my heart did. Blades. Blood. Cutting. Stabbing. Hurting. Screams. It was all coming to me. The way Lilith had hurt me and Teddy. Teddy. "Julia. Julia, just calm down." Dad said soothingly, I hadn't realized that he was next to me, holding my hand, Mom on my other side. "Where's Teddy?" I gasped. The room went quiet as did my heart. The nurse just abruptly left the room and I looked at Mom and Dad's faces. Dad's face had fell and he had a twisted look of despair on his face. Mom's face held sadness. A combination I couldn't understand. "Where's Teddy?" I asked louder, my voice cracking. "Jules-" Mom began, but I cut her off. "No. Tell me where my boyfriend is? Where is Teddy?" I asked more bitter. Mom looked at Dad and he nodded. "Julia.. Teddy died." Dad said in a soft voice. My world stopped. The heart. The mind. The touch. Everything had abruptly stopped. "The gunshot from the gun punctured him in the head. Killed him instantly." Dad said again, his voice cracking. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't function. "We're so sorry, Jules." Dad said, a tear falling from his face. What I looked like I didn't know and I didn't care. All I knew was that.. Teddy was dead. He died. When Lilith aimed that gun at me, my head, Teddy had pushed me down. Saved my life, but took his own. "No.." I gasped. Dad nodded. "He can't be.. He was there." I said, remembering him holding the shirt to my throat, helping me live a little longer. "He is." Dad said, clear angst in his voice. "He isn't! I know he isn't!" I shouted, my voice hurting. Mom's sobs were beside me and I looked Dad clear in the eye. "Don't lie! Tell me where he is!" I shouted, my voice gaining momentum. When Dad's eyes just widen, he didn't move or speak a word, I reached over and grabbed the IV in my arm, attempting to pull it. Dad's hand on mine, using his strength to keep me down. "DON'T LIE! TELL ME WHERE HE IS! TELL ME NOW!" I shouted. I wasn't thinking, I just needed him. He wasn't dead. He couldn't be. I began to fight against Dad's strength, beating his chest with small pathetic punches that did no good. Dad didn't say a word as I finally collapsed in his arms and sobbed. My sobs the loudest I've ever heard, the pain choking in my chest. Dad cradled me in his arms that following night, Mom besides us. Teddy's words echoing in my mind. "I'll get you to a hospital. I promise." His promise happened, but I always thought he would be next to me.
…. Hate me? Don't forget too..
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(PS! I have a dentist appointment tomorrow and I feel like I'll have a cavity :P If I do, Mom will probably take my stuff away for a while. If she does. I will update when she gives it back. Or I'll try to write another chapter tonight. Sorry!)