Kako has already been dropped of at my house, after all we had to report to the Hokage and she was starting to get cranky. I don't like cranky kids. They scream and yell and it just gives me a headache! We've finally made it home after stopping for almost an hour to talk to people (well mostly Hisoka talking to girls). I open the door and silence. This isn't good. Why is everything silent? Is what my mother said during battle…actually true? "You left them, and now they're dead, all of you're siblings, gone. And it's all your fault."

"Oh no, this is bad. This is very bad." I said aloud, my hands grasping my hair and pulling it in stress of the possibility that my siblings may very well be dead, and it very well may be all my fault. I get into panic attack mode, trouble breathing and franticly looking in every room. Where could they be? Could they really be dead? It could be because of me, because I was away. I left them, and-

"Calm down." Hisoka said putting his hand on my shoulder, no doubt the Black Hawk bloodline had been very close to being activated. If Hisoka hadn't had snapped me out of it when he had, well, bad things would unfold as it has in the past.

"They aren't here!" I turned around, worry surly on my face.

"Yeah, but there's no blood either. They could still be alive. They could be outside. I think you're getting paranoid.

"Nah, she's always paranoid." Aito chimed in. Thanks Aito.

"Where is everyone?" I ask right away.

"They're at the special spot."

"Special spot?" Hisoka questioned.

"A memorial for our little sister, but they turned it more into a play area away from the public eye." He gave me a nod of understanding.

"So where is this place anyway?"

"Follow me."

"Does she always say that?" he asks Aito.

"Now and then. She says it more to the newbie's and the little kids who always seem to get themselves full of scrapes."

"Let's go!" I shot back from the back door of the house.

"Demanding little one isn't she?" I head Hisoka say.

"You'd have no idea." Aito replied with a popsicle in hand.

"I head you, you know."

"Sorta figured you would." Aito replied to me, coming to my side, giving me a not-so-innocent smile.

"Hazuki… you're back." Yuriko said looking up from her spot on the ground.

"You seem so enthusiastic about it."

"Yeah, you wouldn't believe how enthusiastic I am."

"I thought you said you had more than one sibling here."

"I do Hisoka, they just…tend to hide."

"Well they should, we are playing hide and seek after all."

"Who's the seeker?"

"Aito."

"And you got caught first?"

"No, I didn't want to play. I made Akane go, forced her really."

"You blackmailed her with brownies, didn't you?"

"Sorta. She was really against it at the beginning."

"Well, Aito is the worst person to for seeking, he gives up."

"I've noticed."

"Once they get tired of waiting, bring them back to the house. And this time, you make the brownies, and you look after her." I turned around and started walking back to the house wit Hisoka, leaving Aito behind.

"What's this kid's problem with brownies?"

"She asks every few minutes if they're almost done. And as soon as they are out of the oven she eats the whole pan in like a day and has a sugar high then crashes."

"You shouldn't give them to her then. It's not healthy."

"I don't, not after that one time. Try not to be in the house during the baking process, or the consuming process, just don't be there when she's there with brownies."

"Is she always like this with sugar?"

"No, just brownies. Shame to, they're my favourite treat."

"Win some you lose some."

"Hey Hisoka, I'm going to meet with a couple of friends. You can come with me, or you can stay here. You're choice."

"Depends, are these girl friends?"

"Yes, some will be."

"I'll come."

"Of course you will" I roll my eyes "We leave right now." He got up and walked out the door. Such great company.

"Hey Shikamaru."

"You can call me Shika, you know that right?"

"Yeah, it's just I'm used to calling you Shikamaru."

"Suit yourself."

"Hey Hinata. Tenten."

"Hello." They both reply.

"This," I began reluctantly "is Hisoka, my 'brother'"

"Did you have to say it like that?" he asked offended.

"Yes, I did."

"Get used to it, it's just the way she is."

"Thanks Shikamaru."

"Welcome."

"My, my, if it isn't Hisoka."

"Hey Ins"* he's nicknamed her already?

"Hey Hisa."* wow, they have their own little love-y dove-y thing going on here. What ever happened to the Sai fixation?

"Getting away from those two" Tenten pointed to Ino and Hisoka who had happily drifted away from the group "It's been a long time. Do you guys plan on staying this time? For good I mean."

"Well we're obviously going to go on our separate missions, but as far as I'm aware I'm not going anywhere anytime soon. I can't speak for Shikamaru though."

"I'm staying."

"Wait a second," Tenten crossed her arms and leaned slightly on her right leg "you said separate." She pointed at me, looking slightly confused. She had been gone when I was kicked off of the team.

"Yeah, I was kicked off."

"By who?"

"Me." Tenten's focus quickly shifted from me to Shikamaru.

"Why would you do that?"

"Circumstances at the time."

"Are you going to bring her back on the team?"

"I don't want to talk about this right now."

"No, I want to hear this, I'm curious myself." I crossed my arms and turned in Shikamaru's direction, leaning slightly on me left leg. I've put him on the spot, I'm well aware of this. He'll likely be pissed about it, but I don't care.

"I don't know. I'd have to talk to the Hokage."

"Then talk. The four of you were a great team, even though the two of you were gone for the majority of the year." Tenten commented.

"I'll look into it." Shikamaru replied, not giving her a deceive answer. It pisses me off when he does that.

"U-um, you guys, everyone's watching." Hinata intervened. I looked around, and no doubt everyone who was going to meet up with us was standing around, watching, and listening in on our little conversation. I leave Shikamaru behind and say hi to everyone I hadn't seen in awhile.

I did talk to Fujiye, although I'm still a little mad at her, I don't know why, I just am. Kiba, well he was himself, apparently the two of them broke up, not that I needed to know this. Looks like it's back to bugging me Kiba style.

Shikamaru doesn't look very pleased, but I don't care, I wanted an answer, one I wanted to hear. But I didn't get it, I know I shouldn't be this cold, and mad after everything he's done to me. I know I said I forgave him, but, you know what? I don't have an escape goat for why I'm so mad and annoyed at him, I just am, and I have no idea why. I never thought that letting him get involved in my life would be so hard to have to deal with, both the ups and the downs.

"We need to talk." Shikamaru said behind me.

"I'm talking to someone, can't you see that?" I said a little offensively. He didn't listen.

"She'll get back to you." He took my wrist and forcefully led me away from the group. Took me down a road, and into a small one way alleyway.

"What's with you? Why'd you put me on the spot like that! I don't understand you! At one moment you're happy, and the next, BAM you've gone to total bitch mode! Did you have to put me on the spot like that? I mean seriously! You just don't get it, do you?" he yells, this is the first time I've seen him mad, truly mad. This is the first time he's yelled at me like this. It almost makes me want to cry, not because the yelling hurts, but because I can recall so many times I've yelled at him for the stupidest reasons and he hadn't yelled back at me, truly yelled back. It makes me feel as if I'm a horrible person, because truth is told, I likely am a horrible person.

"What? What do you want me to do? Do you want me to act like I just don't care! That the fact you kicked me off of the team just because we weren't getting along at the time didn't hurt me like hell? That all my friends weren't really my friends! That my best friend betrayed me, that she decided to tell me she's moving on my birthday, when I needed her most? What? What do you want me to do? I can only deal with so much! I loved working on that team! It was the only thing that kept me from leaving!-" I yelled.

"Don't, don't say that!" he yelled back, turning around.

"What the hell do you want me to do? Huh? I'm human; I make mistakes, so what if I put you on the spot! So what? It's not like it's the end of the world! I thought you were going to say you'd put me back, you have no idea how much I was hoping for that, but you didn't! You didn't Shikamaru! What else am I supposed to do? I can't-" I yelled again.

"I have a reason!" he interrupted. Turning around facing me again, then turned away again.

"What? What's this great reason?" I ask my voice still harsh, but no longer as loud as it had been before. There was a silence, he was thinking.

Shikamaru quickly spun around, his hand cupping my cheek. His lips touched mine sending a serge of excitement (I guess, oh god this is embarrassing!) through my body. I want to kiss him back, I really do. His lips taste like caramel. His kisses beforehand were gentler. As if he was carefully touching breakable china, and would be dead if it broke. But this time, this time things were different, it was as if I was something he wanted so badly, but he knew he wasn't supposed to have. This kiss was more craving, a craving that couldn't be satisfied. And one thing's for sure, I like it. Shikamaru pulled away and looked at me, saying nothing for a short while. I grabbed his shirt and pulled him into another kiss. I leaned against the brick wall; Shikamau's hands were tracing along my back and subtly to my lower back, our bodies touching. My hands trace over his disciplined body, wanting to touch his skin under his shirt so bad. But I shouldn't. His hands had traveled to my thighs, his fingers carefully tracing my skin. I broke away from the kiss. Trust me, it took all of the willpower in my body to pull away, but I did.

"I can't have someone on my team that I want to always be touching. Someone distracting me because I just want to be near them. I don't know if it's the same for you it's just…I don't ever want to let you go, I know this sounds completely lame, but whenever I see you I just want to have you in my arms in any way I can. I hate being away from you. It killed me when we were apart and when I was so harsh to you. I missed having you crying on me, hugging me, and kissing me. When I saw you sobbing on Aito, I wanted to take your wrist and just throw him aside. I can't be distracted when on a mission in fear of losing you or whatever! It's not because I don't want you there, I can't have you there. Because then nothing would get done. I know this isn't want you want to hear, but-"

"Okay."

"What?"

"Okay, you have a good reason."

"Well of course I do."

"Smart ass."

"Don't you know it," he smiled cockily and kissed me lightly, we broke apart and he took my hand, leading me back to the group.

"Shikamaru." I said a small distance away from the group.

"Yeah?" he asks turning around.

"What you said before, about the always wanting to be near… I feel the same way."

"You have no idea how happy and relieved I am because you said that." He smiled so widely, it's really cute. What have I gotten myself into? I'm going to crave his lips now, like a drug. What have I gotten myself into?

~~Side note~~

*pronounced "en-e-s"

*pronounced "He-sha"

HEHEHE, well this chapter is a little more sexual then I normally write. Sorry in advance. And yes, this means they are now officially, completely back together. Only a few more chapters! So scary! Just so you know, I won't be updating till September because I'm going to my cottage soon. So you'll just have to wait this summer for the ending. I'm so sorry, it's just I don't have internet, if I come back unexpectedly then I'll update, or if I come by some free wifi. Fingers crossed. This was shorter than I planned, oh! And just so you know, the last few chapters are going to be very long. Like maybe twenty pages on word doc. It's ending, events happen. Live with sore eyes please. I seriously apologise in advance, I know how hard it is to stare at a screen trying to read something. As I've said before, I'll be editing, and so the chapters might go down (like number wise.) That's all, have a great summer!