Jack bent his head and kissed Iantos sleeping form. When the vision appeared in his mind, he didn't know what was happening. Then he heard himself call out
"LIIISSSAAA"
No wait that was Iantos voice not his.
He was seeing what scared Ianto so much he didn't want to sleep. He could feel his panic; gently Jack reached out to Ianto
"Its ok baby I'm here" he said and felt Ianto relax. Jack used his mind to filter the pain and emotion away from the man he could feel lying in his arms. He felt Ianto completely relax, he couldn't though, he was feeling everything. The pain of losing the one he loved, the pain and agony of finding her like he had. The indecision in Iantos mind, his mind telling him to kill her, his heart saying no. Then Lisa's voice
"Ianto please help me, it hurts Ianto, it hurts so much"
The pain in Iantos heart, he knew what he should do but he couldn't. He untied her and carried her through the wreckage of the tower, long since deserted by Cybermen, Daleks and humans alike. The bodies everywhere, the sights the smells, everywhere was that smell of death. Through it all Ianto fought an internal battle with himself as he carried his girlfriend through the wreckage. She was screaming in pain, everything in Iantos being was telling him to shoot her, she was part cyberman she wasn't his Lisa. Amongst it all he could feel the love he'd had for her. He would do whatever it took to save her. He carried her to medical and found enough sedative to let her sleep. Then leaving her safely hidden he returned to the cyber unit and began to dis-mantle it and carry it piece by piece to the only surviving Torchwood SUV. Finally returning for her and carrying her down to the SUV. He gently laid her in the back and covered her up with a sheet taken from the medical suite. He kissed her as he gave her another injection for the pain and to keep her asleep and then he drove. He drove from London to the Cardiff hub with a cyberman in his car. The tears were falling down Jacks cheeks; Ianto went through this every night and survived. How? He asked himself how the hell could someone survive this and still learn to love someone again. The dream carried on, a year later Ianto was hiding her in the hubs basement. Then she'd gotten loose when he brought in that scientist and he was taken off life support and of the drugs. Her cyber self took over what was left of the human Lisa. She was rampaging through the hub, Jack saw himself fly through the hub as she threw him. He felt Iantos heart scream out in agony as he saw Jack lying dead on the floor. Then Jack 'woke up', he grabbed Ianto as he squirted Myfanwys food identifier over Lisa and ordered everyone to the lift. Still holding on to a frantically fighting Ianto, he could feel the pain as they watched the pterodactyl attack the cyber woman below them. Tosh running towards them
"I managed to override the lockdown, we can get back in?" she yelled
"Ianto stop" screamed Jack as the Welshman took of towards the other entrance. They caught up with him at the door and Jack pulled his gun and pointed it at Ianto
"What the hell where you doing hiding a cyberman in the basement"
"She's not a cyberman, she's Lisa my girlfriend"
Jack felt the pain in Iantos heart,
"You go in there and you execute her"
"No Jack, please god I can't" the pain in his heart was incredible
"You've got 10 minutes and I come after you, if she's still alive Ianto I'll execute you BOTH" he screamed
Ianto nodded and entered the hub.
Jack nearly broke the link he had to Ianto as he heard Iantos mind
"I love you Sir, but I can't kill her, I can't"
Jack gasped and struggled to keep the link open, he had to see this through. He had to survive this, this was a dream Ianto had survived this. He watched helplessly as Ianto tried to reason with his dead girlfriend, what was left of her. The body of 'Lisa' lay broken on the floor, before him now stood the bloody delivery girl. The cyber woman had transplanted her brain in to the girl
"We can be together now Ianto, its me Lisa" she said
"Oh Lisa what have you done" he whispered in dis-belief, his Lisa, the human Lisa could never have done this. He lifted his gun and pointed it at her.
"I'm so sorry" he said as his finger tightened on the trigger, the fighting still going on inside him. He couldn't do it, then the girl was thrown backwards, and a bullet hit her followed by several more. Ianto screamed out, his voice screamed, his heart shattered and his mind almost shut down. Being there in his mind Jack could feel what he'd done to Ianto, he'd nearly killed him. He knelt next to the cyber woman and cradled her in his arms, desperately trying to stop his mind from completely shutting down from the trauma of the link being severed. Jack heard his own voice
"Go home Ianto"
'God did he really sound that cold'
He felt Iantos pain as he walked slowly from the hub leaving everything behind him.

Jack woke with a jolt. The tears streaming down his face, it took a few minutes for him to catch his breath and remember to breath.
"Jack I'm sorry" said Iantos voice
Jack focused on the face before him
"Oh Yan, how did you ever survive that, how could I have put you through it" he sobbed as Ianto took him in his arms
"I'm sorry Jack, I shouldn't have anchored to you, I never wanted you to see, to feel," he said as the tears fell
"Yan how can you love you after everything I did to you"
"Cariad, I loved you before, I just couldn't tell you, I still had Lisa so I thought, Oh Jack I should have told you about her"
"I would have still killed her Yan"
"I know, but she wouldn't have killed, I couldn't kill her Jack I wanted to I wanted it to end but I couldn't"
"I know Yan, it was wrong of me to try and make you"
"You should have shot me when you had the chance" he said suddenly
"Hey none of that, its over. I won't ever let you go through that alone again"
"You can't stop it Jack, it happens every time I close my eyes"
"Then we'll go through it together every night until it stops," he said gently kissing him
"Will it stop Jack? Will it ever stop?" he sobbed
"We've got forever Yan, I'll go through it for eternity if I have to, as long as you don't feel that much pain ever again"
"But Jack"
"Yan, I want to do this for, please let me take the pain away" said Jack pulling him close and wrapping his arms and legs around him
"You did that Jack, I don't feel much anymore"
"You mean it was worse than what I felt"
"Yes, but its getting better"
"Then perhaps it won't take eternity," said Jack as he placed a kiss on Iantos head.
"Sleep my darling Ianto, close your eyes and sleep"
Jack felt Iantos mind touch his. This time before the dream could start Jack took him to a place in his own mind. A beach he'd visited for a while. They sat on the sandy shore and watched the sun rise, their arms wrapped around each other against the cool breeze. He closed his eyes and they slept.