I have to say that this is the chapter basically leading up to the main action thing.. LIke what it all boils down to with Kyle and the whole mob thing. It's gonna be the last you hear from him as far as being in the mob and all. At first when i came up with the idea, i tought it would be a random add to the fic, but i can't really handle all this writing about it and stuff, and i don't really know the right lingo and types of guns and all, so i'm just leaving that out.
So not only is KYle facing a hard decisions, he's also worrying his ass about Brooke. Well she's unconscious for now, but we'll see what happens later on in the fic, then i'll decide what i wanna do with Brooke and all.
Not to break your heart or anything, but Lucas is going to be around for a little while longer. Then when things kinda come to a close, he'll go away and probably never be shown again, just mentioned every now and then but yeaa. sorry to disappoint for Bryle lovers.
But if you are a diehard Brucas lover, i suggest you check out my other fic, Things We Never Thought. It's basically about how Lucas is like Dan now, and Brooke comes back and Lucas blames her for the way he is now. But that's all the information i can give right now, so you'll just have to read. It's pretty angsty, so expect alot of drama and stuff lol.
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Kyle's whole life was basically made up of defining moments. Moments that held which way the future was going to end up like. His mother's death was a defining moment, a time for him and his dad to stand on their own, without her. And for awhile Kyle was doing pretty good with it, but his dad was resulting in a bottomless pit, wasn't his finest moments. The moment he got the call from Nathan, asking him to come back to Tree Hill, was definitely a defining moment because that would set off tons of emotions, ones that KYle didn't even know existed. Then there was the time he told Brooke that he loved her, which would always be a bad thing or a good thing in his mind, it all depended on what day you asked him. When he accepted the family business, and wanted to be apart of it, was definitely something that would rule his life for what was to come. There was no basketball, which was what he wanted his future to be more than anything. It was something he worked his whole life for, proving to himself and to others that he could do it, only to have it taken away by one decision. As childish as it sounded, he was taking back that decision, and planning his life the way he wanted to, not taking what he could get. Kyle was never like that, and he never would be.
Standing next to his cousin, Kyle never felt more nervous and anxious. There were tons of things running through his head, but all he could focuse on was the little silver cell phone that his uncle was talking through to Lorenzo. Kyle wasn't really familiar with him, didn't even know who he was exactly, but just the name set off this sense that he wasn't a nice person, obviously since he hurt an innocent girl. But Kyle had alot more riding in this than he thought he did. All he wanted was to follow through with what this guy wanted and be done with it. But this was the man who had hurt Brooke, someone that he loved so much, and someone who was laying in a hospital bed, in a comatose state. He could say that it was just part of the business, a dog eat dog world, but that wasn't right to him. He couldn't do anything, seeing as he didn't know a thing about mob wars, but he did know a little something about guns, and street smarts. So he would just do whatever this guy wanted, and hopefully be done with him was his preferable situation. But even Bevin would know that wasn't how it worked.
After a few seconds of Leo talking into the phone, he finally looked up at Kyle and Manny with an annoyed expression.
"He wants to talk to all three of us. Especially you," Leo said, looking at Kyle.
"Well, put him on then," Kyle challenged.
As soon as he did, he heard a malicious voice, one that held no reverence or respect to anyone but himself. It was a voice of a mobster, a bad one at that.
"You know, i am so glad that we're finally talking now Kyle. I've wanted to know you ever since i knew there was another Giovanni around somewhere. Looks like i'm getting my chance, but under bad circumstances," Lorenzo said through the phone, his voice echoing through the hallway.
"Look, there's no need for pleasantries, just tell us what you want and we'll be done with it," Kyle said.
Lorenzo laughed, "Yeaa that sounds about right. Daniella was always a feisty one. She was a smartass also, i guess you got that from her too. Yes, there is a certain thing i want at the moment, and that's for you to be gone. So, i have a propostition for all of you."
"And what would that be?" Manny asked.
"It's all very simple really. Kyle, you wanted tihs life didn't you? This was the life you chose, the one that you thought your grandfather would be proud of you for. So, i guess this is your chance to prove yourself. One war, one chance. If you kill at least one person on my side, i'll back down. If i hurt someone with you, i take over all the Giovanni territory in every part of the world, and you plan funeral arrangements for one of your loved ones. Simple enough right?"
There was nothing Kyle could do except look on in disbelief. It was surreal, the kind of deal that mobsters could make. It was like they didn't care, like nothing they said affected others at all. He knew that his family would never do that, kill somebody, but desperate times call for desperate measures, and sometimes you had to do whatever it takes to protect the people you love, and this was a time.
"Oh yea, and just so you know.. If you don't agree to this, if you say no, then i'll make sure that your father is next in line for a hit and run. And if i'm lucky, maybe he won't be in a hospital bed next time. I'm thinking more of a body bag," Lorenzo said harshly.
Manny scoffed and shook his head while Leo just stared straight ahead, like he wasn't even there. There were tons of things that KYle wanted to do. He wanted to punch something, kick something, do absolutely anything to make him forget what he'd just heard. If he didn't adhere to what Lorenzo wanted, his dad would be killed? It's not exactly something you hear in real life, more like godfather movies or the Sopranos, but not in small Tree Hill, that doesn't happen here. But apparently there's something new you learn everyday.
There was a decision to be made, and it had to be made quick. Time was running out, and this wasn't exactly something you could sleep on and get back to him later. It had to be deicided now, not tomorrow or anything other day. There had been alot of decision making athat Kyle's been needing to do lately, but none of them could top right now. It was like time had stood still, and all Kyle had was now to figure out his fate, and the fate of his family. There was a good chance that things would go alright, and Lorenzo would leave him alone. But then there was a chance that there wasn't, and someone could get killed. It was all too much for a teenage boy to handle, but definiing moments were Kyle's forte, and this was one of them.
"We'll do it," Kyle answered quietly.
Manny and Leo had broken out of their trances, and stared at Kyle in awe, like they didn't know he was there until now. Maybe they half expected them to have to make a decision, but it wasn't theirs to make, no matter how long they had been involved. It was all Kyle's decision. He had brought this scum to Tree Hill, and he would have to be the one to chase him out.
"What?" Lorenzo asked, almost confused.
"I saiid, we'll do it. We'll have the shootout. If we get one of your guys, you never come back, and you leave me alone. If you win, then we'll surrender out territory," Kyle said, louder this time.
"Hmm, sounds like you thought this through alot huh?"
"Yeaa i have. We'll do the war, but it has to be somewhere away from people, where an innocent person can get hurt. Deal?" KYle said, more confident this time.
"Alright, looks like we've got ourselves a deal. Because i have somewhere to be somewhere tomorrow, let's do it tonight. I've noticed Tree Hill has it's quiet evenings, plus there's this concert at the high school, so no one should be around. Be there at let's say 10? As soon as you get there, it starts, alright?"
"Yeaa, alright."
"Looks like we have ourselves a rumble. See you guys in 3 hours. Oh yeaa, and the place, that ratty old basketball court down by the river."
"The Rivercourt," KYle said to himself.
"Yeaa that one. Rivercourt at 10. See you then," Lorenzo said before hanging up.
KYle took a deep breathe before exhaling, this was all just too weird, too surreal for him to handle. He had just arranged a mob rumble in 3 hours, and he dind't know a single thing to do.
"I can't believe you did that," Manny said in disbelief.
"Yeaa, wel it's not like you guys said anything," KYle said, rolling his eyes and heading for the elevator.
"Well, you're not gonna actually be there are you? I mean yeaa, you're part of it, but you have no experience whatsoever with guns or anything," Manny said as they walked into the elevator.
"You're right, i don't know how to use guns all that well. BUt we've got three hours for you to just fill me in on the basics, i'm pretty sure i'll be fine."
"You really wanna do this?" Leo asked.
KYle shrugged, "I kind of have to. It was my mistake thinking i could handle something like this, and now that it's right in front of me, i have to do something. I have to prove to Lorenzo that i'm not just gonna run away and hide. And he also hurt Brooke, the girl i love, i'm not just gonna let that go either."
Manny sighed, "Alright, you already know what you're getting yourself into, so i'm not gonna bother listing all the risks, but yeaa, i'll let you in on the basics. I can't actually let you shoot until tonight, because people are still around. But i'll give you one of mine to practice holding and we'll go over techniques and stuff."
"Sounds good to me. I know you don't really think this is the best idea for me, but i'm gonna make things right," KYle said determined.
"I know you will."
During the whole conversation, Leo remained speechless, not saying anything, just staring off into space, beside himself. It was like he wasn't even there, not even listening to anything that had happened in the last 5 minutes.
"Umm Dad? You're okay with this right?" Manny asked, unsure of the answer.
"I've spent a good 18 years making sure that you would never be exposed to this, what we're in right now. You're making decisions that you shouldn't be making at your age Kyle. I promised your mother that i wouldn't let anything bad happen to you, no matter what. And i plan to do just that, whatever it takes. And i know, that wherever your mother is, she's proud because her son is now a man, and you're gonna do what you think is right, not just for you but for everyone. I could say i don't want you to do this because i don't want you getting hurt, but it's your decision to make. No one can force you what to do anymore, because it's all up to you. If you wanna do this, you know what's at stake, then do it, we'll all have your back," Leo said.
"I understand how you don't want me getting hurt, but letting me do it anyway. And i appreciate it from both of you. So, are we gonna do this or what?" KYle said, laughing slightly.
"Well, the first tihng we need to do is leave and go to our hotel and get all the things we'll be needing. Plus the guns are over there too so we'll be there for awhile," Manny explained.
"You mean, we're not coming back here?" Kyle asked.
"No, there's no point. We're gonna have to teach you how to fight in a mob war with only 3 hours," Leo explained.
"Umm can i just meet you guys at the hotel?" Kyle asked, stopping.
"Uhh why?" Manny asked.
Kyle sighed, "Look, i know what's at stake here. I'm not too familiar with this whole thing in real life but i've seen it on tv and in the movies. I know that there's a very good chance that something could happen to me, whether i get killed or just get hurt a little, but there's always a risk and i've accepted that. But the people i care about don't know a thing about it, except for 3 people. And those three people, they've got my back and they know the extent of this. BUt not the others, they have no idea what's going on and i can't just laeve them out in the dark if something happens to me. So, you guys head over to the hotel and i'll catch up later. I have to say goodbye to them."
"Alright, we'll just meet you there," Manny said as they walked the opposite way, leaving Kyle.
Walking down the long hallway, it felt like he was in the verge of dying, and wanted to say his last goodbyes, and in a way it was the truth. Kyle always thought that on his last moments on earth, he would be scared, or at least nervous of what was to come. But for some reason all he felt was tired yet ready. There were tons of guards and people that were going to protect him, but Kyle just felt that he should be prepared. In basketball, Kyle always went in thinking he was gonna win, because he had the ball in his hand, he was in control. He wasn't in control now, which was kind of refreshing.
He would have to say goodbye to his friends, the people that had he hung out with and who helped him in so many different ways. Yeaa, he didn't have alot of friends, but they were good ones and that was all that mattered to him. He didn't know if he hsould tell them last minute, so they know what to expect, or to just keep it a secret, and if something did happen to him, then he would let Nathan or Peyton tell everyone. It seemed like the last one was more promising, because if he were to tell them now, they might just convince him not to leave, and just stay with them. He would love to just do that, hang out with everyone, but if anything Kyle learned that sometimes you had to do stuff that you didn't want to do, it was apart of life.
Rounding the corner, he was relieved to see only Nathan and Peyton in the waiting room. They looked like they were in deep conversation, not really paying attention to anything but the other's words. He knew they were talking about him, about the whole situation. People like Peyton and Nathan were used to whacked out things happening to them, they grew up with those kind of things, but everytime another one occurred, it still took sometime to understand. Kyle had known about this for months and he still didn't have it all figured out and hopefully he wouldn't have to.
"Hey, where is everybody?" KYle asked, standing in front of the duo.
"They went out to get some food. Bad experience with the cafeteria," Nathan joked
"Yeaa i bet," Kyle said quietly, relishing in the humor.
"You okay? Something wrong?" Peyton asked, standing up and Nathan following her.
"Listen, things have suddenly got alot more complicated with the thing. Like alot more complicated, and i have something that i have to do tonight. And i'm not sure what's gonna happen to me," Kyle explained softly.
"So what do you mean by that? Like are you going out of town ... what?" Peyton asked anxiously. Nathan just looked on, already knowing what was going to happen.
Kyle sighed, "No i'm not going out of town. And i can't tell you guys alot about what's going on, but this is alot bigger than you and me, and i have to do what it takes to protect the people i care about right now. So, that means that i don't know if i'm going to live or die tonight."
"It's the war isn't it?" Nathan asked.
Kyle nodded.
"Are you serious? Kyle, you can't just tell us something might happen to you and then leave !" Peyton exclaimed.
"That's not what i want to do, but i don't know how else to say it okay? I'm not gonna sugarcoat it because it's something bad and dangerous, and i just don't want you guys to be surprised if something happens," kYle explained.
"Just tell us what you're going to do !"
Kyle looked at Nathan and sighed, "Lorenzo threatened me. He said he would continue to hurt or kill everyone i cared about unless i agreed to a war, just one. If all of our men come out alive, he leaves me alone. If they get me or someone else, he takes over all the Giovanni territory all over the world and my family goes poor."
"How do you know he's even telling the truth --"
"Because he just is Peyton. He's not bluffing i'm sure of it. Look, i don't know what else you want me to say except that i promise to be careful. But i can't tell you that i'm going to come out of this unscathed because i don't know that. After this i'm gonna leave and try to cram in as much as i know for tonight."
By this point Peyton had tears coming down her face and Nathan just stood there, still as stone.
"So basically you came to say goodbye?" Peyton sobbed.
"I didn't wanna leave you guys hanging," Kyle said, smiling softly as he gave Peyton a hug. He felt tears drip onto his shirt but he didn't care. Despite Peyton's mistakes, she was a good person, always there to help him, and tell him when to pull his head out of his ass.
"Promise me again that you'll be careful, and i mean super careful," Peyton mumbled.
"I promise that i will be super careful."
"And that you'll do everything in your power to come back," she said again.
"I promise Peyt," Kyle said before letting her go.
"See ya later man," Nathan siad as they shared a manly hug. Yeaa Nathan was definitely Kyle's best friend. They had lost touch over the years, but with Kyle's return, it was like he never left. Nathan was also around to tell him when he was wrong, and to just talk to him about stuff. Nathan was too old beyond his years.
"See ya. You're gonna be a great dad you know," Kyle said.
"I hope i will, which is why you need to come back, so you can tell that kid what a loser i am," Nathan joked.
"Yeaa, we can't have it thinking you're actually cool," Kyle laughed.
"So, where do you go from here?" Peyton asked.
"Actually, i was gonna go see Brooke before i leave," Kyle said, and suddenly the atmosphere got tense again.
"Well, don't let us keep you," Nathan said.
"Alright guys, i'll see ya soon," he said with a wave before walking down the hallway to the patients' rooms.
"You think he'll be okay?" Peyton asked.
Nathan smiled and nodded, "I think he's gonna be fine."
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His mother always said that people should save the best goodbye for last, because that meant that you had more reason to come back, if the most important person was the one you said bye to last. It was probably the reason why she had always said bye to him last before leaving for work in the mornings.
Saying bye to Brooke wasn't something that Kyle as unfamiliar to. He'd said goodbye the day he moved, and in a way he said goodbye when he said that he was gonna love her more than anyone. Each time had been heartfelt and heartbreaking to go through. He didn't understnad why it was so hard saying bye to her, nor did he really care at the time, but it now meant that she was the most improtant person to him, above all others. She mattered more to him than anything, maybe even basketball. And sometimes he didn't like to show it, but she would always have this hold on him, and he dind't want her to let go.
Up until now Kyle hadn't been in to see her. He kept on saying that he didn't want to see her in a rough state, or that it was too hard, but there was no excuse if he didn't go in and say goodbye. He didn't really like to think about never seeing her again, but it was a very possibilty that could happen. He had gone 2 years without seeing Brooke, and when he came back, it made all the worthwhile. But not seeing her ever again, was just unbearable. KYle didn't want to leave everybody, but you have to do what you have to do.
Kyle wasn't as taken aback as he thought he was gonna be. Probably because he imagined worse, or maybe because he was exaggerating the whole time, he didn't know. Brooke's face was in scratches, adn there was a bruise above her left eye, and a bandage over her right eyebrow. There were 3 IVs in her right arm, and then she had a wrap around her left one, which she probably sprained. He was sure there were other injurties on her body, just covered up. She was slightly paler oposed to her porcelin skin she had before. Still, she looked like she was sleeping peacefully like she always did, and was still beautiful.
Sitting next to her, holding her hand, there was nowhere else Kyle wanted to be. He wanted to beat himself up for not seeing her sooner. Sure, it was hard, but just being there made it all the wothwhile. He imagined she had been in this same position, holding his hand, when he was in the hospital. It might've been hard for her also, but she still came everyday, despite her falling relationship with Lucas.
Time was running out, and KYle had to go to the hotel and try to prepare as much as he could. He dind't wanna leave Brooke, but he had to get there and learn, and fight to get back to her, no matter what the costs. He had to say goodbye to Brooke now, and it would be one of the hardest things to do.
"I know you might be missed at me right now, because i haven't been in to see you. Or maybe you're glad that i haven't been in to see you, i don't really know how you feel about me right now. When i first got here, i say in one spot, not wanting to see you because i figured if i didn't see you, then it wouldn't be serious, that you would be okay. I want you to be okay, and so does everyone else, but ultimately it depends on your body, and what it wants to do. That's something you can't control. I can't tell you right now, but all i can say is that i hav esomething i need to take care of, and i don't know if i'll be back. I want to come back, but i'm not sure what will happen, which is why i'm here now, saying goodbye," Kyle said, looking away, trying to blink away the tears.
"These past few days have been absolute hell for me. I spent everyday wanting to be with you but knowing that i couldn't. I wanted so bad to tell you why i couldn't be with you, but i couldn't because i didn't want to hurt you, which i did in more ways than one. I've always thought i was a selfish person, everyone is, but i thought i would be doing something right by now getting involved with you, but somehow we're right where i didn't want us to be. I've been screwing up alot Brooke. And i got in way over my head and made a hasty decision, one that i regret and wish i couild take back. But i can't take it back now, so i'm fixing it, for you and for everybody else this is affecting. I never thought i would love someone so much. I thought i had that with Ali, but now that i tihnk about it, it wasn't anything like love, i wasn't in love with her because my heart was already with someone else, i just didn't know it. Ever since i came to that conclusion, i've been trying to figure out when, when did i fall in love with you? I coudln't figure that out either, until i realized that i've always felt that way, i just didn't realize it. I'm not sure if you felt the same way about me, but i'm pretty sure i loved you ever since i found out what that meant. And i know that i'll feel this way forever. That's something that i'm sure of. I'm sorry for hurting you, for breaking your heart, for leading you on. There's nothing i can say that can make it better, only that there was never a mometn that went by that i didn't want to be with you, even when we were fighting. Every moment that i spent with you was one of the best times of my life, and i'll always remember them, whether i'm with you or not. Remember when we were like 10? We were watching this girly show on MTV, and one of the questions this girl was asked was what she wanted in a man. And the girl said that she wanted someone who was hot and great in bed, which was probably what she wanted at the time. But you said that you wanted a guy who was kind and gave a rat's ass about you. Nathan kept on teasing you, saying that you'll never find a guy like that, but you just ignored him and said that there was a guy out there for you, and you would find him because people who are meant together always find their way in the end. I know you thought for a long time that Lucas was that guy for you, but i KNOW i'm the guy for you. I've known it, i just couldn't act out on it. Recently i've been proposed a deal, and i took a hard turn, picking the hard way. So i've got a deal for myself, but only you get to hear it. If i don't come back, i want you to know that no one will love you more than me, and that i will always watch out for you. If i do come back, then i will spend all my time, and do whatever it takes for you to see that i am the guy for you. I know right now it sounds pretty easy, but it won't once i tell you the truth, when i come back that is. I'm pretty sure you're gonna hate me, and not want to have anything to do with me. But i like a challenge, i've been challenged my whole life. I have to get going now, but hang in there and come back to everyone, they're a mess without you." "
I love you Brooke, don't ever doubt that," Kyle said before kissing her hand and leaving.
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Now that, was the hardest thing he's ever had to do. To actually pour out your feelings in such a short amount of time, that was a challenge within itself. But walking away from the person you love, not knowing if you'll see them again, that took the cake in just about everything.
Kyle felt stuck at the moment. He felt like he had just ran his car down a ditch, with no way for him to get out. Come to think of it, he's been feelings stuck for awhile now, only just realizing it. It was weird having to say goodbye to the people he cared about the most because he really didn't know what was gonna happen next. They were still going to be in the hospital, and he was going to be putting his life on the line.
Right about now Kyle felt like he was in way over his head, once again. When he really thought about it, it was pretty much impossible for him to learn how to shoot a gun in only three hours, it just didn't seem plausible to him. But it was just what he had to work with at the moment. Whenever something bad or discomforting had ever happened to him, he learned to adapt to what he had, not want what he couldn't, because it sucked when you don't get it. Life didn't really care what you wanted, or what you had. It's only job was to continue to move forward, and you were either in it to win it, or left behind.
For a long time Kyle beat himself up, blaming people for his mistakes and trying to fight his life and the way it was. And just because bad things had happened to him in the past, life kept on moving along. And Kyle realized that he was gonna win it all. He was going to have a good career and a family, and just live a great life. That would mean that he won the game of life. And within the game of life there were other games that came along.
There was basketball, a game that kind taught Kyle in a certain way. It made him realize that you can't do things by yourself, sometimes everyone needs a bit of help. And you're not always going to come out on top. Basketball had been apart of Kyle's life for as long as he could remember. Then he realized what it felt like to not have it apart of him anymore, to not be able to go further in basketball like he wanted to. It wasn't a good feeling to have.
He wasn't exactly sure why he had made that deal with himself, but he knew it was someting he wanted to follow. He also didn't expect to be telling Brooke that he was the guy for her, and that he was going to try to get her back. That wasn't what he had planned on doing at all. But it just came to him, out of nowhere. But he was thankful anyway because it gave him more incentive. Originally he came to say an actual goodbye, but instead he flipped it around, so that he was telling her that he wanted to be with her, adn he was going to try. He gave a rat's ass.
In a way Brooke came out of nowhere, or more like their feelings came out of nowhere. For so long he had thought of Brooke as a really good friend, and nothing more. Then later on he didn't really know what to think of her, because they hadn't talked in awhile. Then once agian he thought of her as a friend. But things had escaladed to even more, and Kyle didn't even see it coming. It hit him like a ton of bricks, and he tried to hide it for the longest time, telling himself that it wasn't true, and that he shouldn't feel that way. Then it got to the point where he couldn't stand it anymore, all those feelings were dripping out of him.
Sure, loving Brooke came with a price. And there were guys out there that were proof of that. One being Lucas. BUt soemtimes you just need to take a plunge and go for it. If you keep your feelings hidden like that, it's only going to hut you more. Loving Brooke came with stupid arguments, tiring mindgames and nights wondering how to fix things. Then there was the goodness of it all. For Brooke to just look at him with all that love and adoration, that made all the bad stuff absolutely worth it.
Which was exactly why he had to come back. All the doubts and all the anxiety was out the window. There wasn't any room for being scared, or feelings like you couldn't do it because that was for people that are weak. And Kyle was pretty sure he had proved that he wasn't a weak person. Before he had said that he didn't want to go in thinking he would win, because what if he was disappointed? SUre, that was something to think about. But completely bullshit. What the hell was he thinking? He was basically setting himself his own grave. Right now he felt stupid for that because it wasn't a show of strength, but one of a coward. So Kyle had his coward moment, now he had to draw himself away from that and actually be brave about things, not just for himself, but for his family and everyone else that cared about him.
There wasn't anymore time left for him. It was crunch time for Kyle. All he had right now was a gun and instructions pouring out of Manny's mouth. Yeaa, it was alot of stuff coming to his ears at a time, but he was taking in everything. If he was like this for school all the time, he would definitely be the valedictorian, and give Haley a run for her money.
The whole time Kyle kept on hearing Eminem's song Mosh in his head over and over again. It was like backround music to his movie. The song made sense to him right now. It was what he needed to hear to get all the nerves and all the fright out of him. Because yeaa, he was scared of what was gonna happen. He didn't want to die, he still had alot more to live for, and alot more things to accomplish, which was why he was shaking it all off and letting it roll off his shoulders.
Kyle wasn't really a fan of english literatue, but he remembered reading a book, Julius Cesear.He'd also heard Lucas talking about it alot, he was a big english dude. From the book, and from Lucas, he had heard the phrase, "There is a tide in the affairs of men. WHich, taken by the flood, leads on to fortune. Omitted, all the voyage of their life is bound in shallows and in misery." At first KYle didn't really understand it, not getting the whole Shakespeare talk, but right now it made perfect sense to him. It meant that life was too short, and that you should take chances and fight for what you want and take what you want, because if you don't you're not really living. You're just accepting what life has handed to you. And sometimes life makes you doubt yourself, and doubt everything you've stood for, but there comes a time, a moment. when you have to prove that you can win.
This was Kyle's moment.