Aibou,

I see you still respond to me when I call you that, Aibou. It's good that you have accepted your role in the two of us. Dont try to change it again. It's better this way. Cant you feel it? We were meant to be one in the first place.

And while you got the first part correct, in us always being together, you got the second part wrong. We walk the same path, but to different directions. You want what is best for Japan, I want what is best for Japan. But out destination is different. What I want, is so much more than what you think.. More, more, more. What I want for Japan, all of Japan, all of us, is so much more that what you probably think..

Well you have the third thing right. You are not me, and I am not me. Truly, we share the same sentiment. Nice isnt it? Well, whatever you wish to delude yourself in. Create once again your pretend fantasy world where we are just that. But never forget, deep down inside, you will always remember and know that we, the both of us, are so much more. Tell me when you wish like coming back to reality, because with that in mind, you can always see why you are in fantasy.

Kiku,kiku,kiku... Could we ever really die? Japan is strong. Japan is wonderful. Japan can handle anything and still stand up. What makes you so sure you, me the both of us even matter to the whole of Japan? The Yakuza is not a safe business you do know that. Sometimes deaths are.. necessary.

...Not just lovely Kiku. Wonderful, enchanting, perfect. Japan is the most perfect country in the world. All its strengths and imperfections, it is perfect in each and every way. 'lovely' does not cut it.

What part you you that is displeased is cute? Well, the frown for one, and the way your lips would pout out slightly while your eyes narrow to look at the side. I know you Kiku. Dont you dare tell me I dont. But it seems you dont know me at all. Hardly fair now is it?

...And me thinking you are cute when displeased make me more insane? You are a fool and a complete moronic idiot to not see your own beauteous perfection. And an an even bigger dunderhead to call others that do see it insane. And I call you my Aibou.. Tsk!

..Do you want a straight answer? Yes. You are. Never do that wiggle while shouting 'Pastaaaaaaa' again. Oh, I apologise, that was not an outside influence was it? Well then, what about your Visual Kei that you got from that Iggirisu-jin? That 'lolita' style from that Furansu-jin? Or even that abomination called 'Panty and Stocking'! Not of any outside influences I am sure...

Oh my, was your words supposed to be a fact? I do apologise if disappointed your argument.

Furansu or Kankoku being better than me is very offensive. But I would rather be with them too if that means avoiding having your same personality as well. We are both in agreement here.

Thank Kami for this blessed fact. I do not want you to be me.

Peace conferences never work out, we can only have treaties with those that are reliable and even then it is best to be prepares, and life is always much more smooth if things could be solved without arguments. Out of three, you only got one right. Shows how much you know about me. How much you know anything about me. How much of me did you paint over in your fantasy world? How much of me did you forget, replaced with lies that would make you dislike me so much?

You cant worry about someone you hate. If you really hated them, there would be no care. if there was no care, there would be no worry. You do not hate me. Not totally.

You 'just learned' indeed. Tell me when you want finally want to tell me the truth will you. Your lies are pathetic.

It is. Why would I wast your gratitude? Do you think me that ungrateful? Who is to blame? Let me guess. You think it is me. You always think that if it is bad, than it is me. What, do you blame the Tsunami on me as well? You keep living in your fantastical delusions because you just will not look at what is around you!

Your children are rampaging around with sex dolls and blowing their money and loosing their purities stairs, bathrooms and alleyways. At least I give them a room for privacy! Civilized and considerate... why dont you look before accusing? The bosses must be the soul of honour to be able to lead their men and gain their loyalty. Once you are in you are family and you are bonded. Loyalty is important to is, as well as preservation. They would rather sacrifice themselves then bring ruin and shame to their family. And they.. They are the very people your society have thrown out! Banished from their homes! Cast away! Left with nothing! Who is being civilized and considerate here!

My version of happiness is different from yours and from what the rest of the world may think. This sis something I have conceded from the beginning. Why are you still harping on that? I never said that I wanted you to take them back. Who are you to so blatantly assume things from me? You dont know even the slightest bit about me anymore.

Mou ii, Jūbun wa yo. Kore wa zetsubō-tekidesu.

Kuro Honda

Kuro,

Before anything else, I would like to say that I'm sorry. I have never desired to hurt your feelings purposely in the first place; I was merely stating my thoughts… Hontou ni gomennasai, Kuro, Hontou ni…

Hai, I have to agree with it. It is the matter of fact, after all, and I can never disagree with it. As you said, we would both work for the betterment of Japan, thus us becoming one. But we were not meant to be one in a sense that we should proceed in the same line of work. So I suggest that we both continue doing what we have been doing for Nihon, and .

If you are so consistent on wanting the most for the Japan, and even more than what I wanted, tell me, Kuro, what do you want for Japan? What are your plans?

We are different from each other, Kuro. It is pretty much the obvious. I should not involve myself in any of your affairs, and you should not be involved in mine, though Japan would clearly be our aim. We are playing in different fields. We cannot connect. No matter how close we are, we just could not end up together. The balance would be affected. The balance of the good and evil, the light and the dark, the underworld and the upper grounds. And if that is not reality, I don't know what is.

Japan is strong, yes. Japan is beautiful, yes. But Japan can handle anything and still stand up? I wouldn't be so sure on that. Look at the tsunami, look at the exploding nuclear reactors – can we handle that? Even until now, Fukushima-kun is still feeling quite sick (I appreciate his effort in writing a letter to me, though.). And deaths are to be prevented as much as possible. I wouldn't prefer death as much as you do.

For once, I had to agree with you on that case. Japan is indeed a wonderful place.

I never noticed those points that you said… And I'm sure that nobody, nobody except you, would consider those as 'cute'. And that is one of the reasons why I think that your views are somewhat twisted… perhaps 'insane' is a little too exaggerated on the surface.

… Fine. Blame my impressionability for that. Whoever could not be infected by Italy-kun's random whimpering, or Iggirisu-san's insanity, or Furansu-san's sense of fashion? Certainly you would not understand how I think about this matter. And arigatou for the sarcasm.

They are the words of truth. It just had different implications than what you mention.

I would rather stay as myself, yes. This is the second time in this letter that I agreed with you.

Peace conferences work out most of the time, especially in the current war when war is not rampant and people loved peace. Treaties must be made with care so as to prevent any backstabbing in the later days. Three out of three.

Regarding the next one… w-wakarimasen d-de…su… I don't know the answer to it myself…

… It was much of sarcasm, really… But now that I think of it, I'll have to make this the third time that I agree with you. I don't hate you totally. Does that please you?

Tell me, Kuro. Tell me your version of the truth. Then perhaps I can prove myself wrong, and you can corner me just like what you always did.

… I would not reply to every single statement that you stated, since they seemed to share a common point. I would just point some out, those important ones.

Yes, I might have thought of you quite lowly, and yes, I admit that I am wrong for that. I will reunderline my apology at this point. I don't know how much lies I have consumed that I have completely changed my attitude to you; and for that, another apology.

You don't have to tell me so much about the Yakuza. I didn't say that I knew nothing about them. Wakarimashita ne. I know how the members are part of the outcast society since the olden days. I know how strict and disciplined the family is. And I understand your feelings, and yet another apology for hurting them.

I had to ask the same question to you, though. Do you think that I am the one who is to blame for putting those members in the outcast society? Do you think that I have no dignity so as to not accept anyone who seeks protection in this land? My part of the society is mostly on politics, international relations and much of the government, while the people have the mind of their own to decide for themselves on whether to discriminate or not to. In addition to that, I didn't say that I hated the people involved in the organizations because they were outcasts, no – I just despised the way that you play your game at times. I didn't hate the yakuza completely, as I have said before – why do you think the government still accepts help from the Yakuza and not refuse them instead? And why do you think we still let yakuza run freely in the first place?

I'll leave the matter of your happiness to your own free will. Perhaps it was not your idea of happiness which I despised – it was your way of attaining it.

Forgive me for knowing so little. Perhaps you can enlighten me on that matter?

Gomennasai once again.

Mou ii, kore wa muimidesu. Moshiwakarimasen tame ni

Okarada o taisetsu ni.

Kiku

P.S. Yes, I told you to take care of yourself.

Mou ii, Jūbun wa yo. Kore wa zetsubō-tekidesu. : fine, and enough. This is hopeless.

Mou ii, kore wa muimidesu. Moshiwakarimasen tame ni : Fine, it's pointless. Sorry for that once again.

Suboi Airi, thanks for reviewing~ And Kiku is starting to get guilty and annoyed at the same time... guilty for all his (innocent) blackmailing, and annoyed with Kuro's ability to always fight him back...