All he kept thinking is that this is what heaven must feel like.

His hands wandered up and down her back slowly and softly. He didn't dare to let his hands travel too low. Even though he was in bliss he wasn't stupid enough to push her into anything. Besides, just having her kissing him was enough to send him reeling. Each kiss was soo different, yet still remained sweet and innocent. Knowing only that he didn't want to stop, he continued to kiss her and kiss her.

Parker was lost in sensations, emotions. It was a bombardment of one on top of the other. With each kiss she felt he was healing her. Years of pain and hurt being taken away with his sweet kisses. Body pressing down on his, only making the experience that much more intense for her.

In all the years of knowing Jarod she had never imagined him feeling this good. And she had thought about it enough in the back of her mind. Hands played with his hair as his wandered up and down her back slowly, making her think of doing something more then just kissing.

Also causing her to think this way was the reason they both had children, which was pressing against her in a very insistent manner.

It recognizes me! She thought and couldn't help but smile at the joke she made to herself.

Jarod pulled back a little and looked at her when his lips encountered hers in the form of a smile. Light blue eyes looked at him smiling and he couldn't help but smile back. Then without further ado his leaned back up and began to kiss her again.

Noise of children laughing and running filled Parkers ears and with a sigh she began to pull away from Jarod. Knowing fully well by now that her children would seek her out now that they had gotten bored with their current activity.

Jarod who seemed to be entranced by her, didn't take notice of the sound. Following her by sitting up and wrapping his arms around her again he kissed her once more. Parker didn't try to stop him. Something stronger then her was allowing him to do so. Almost as if her mind came back to its senses she pulled away from him. Body still tingling from the sensations that it had felt. Brain yelling that she was crazy for doing what she did, yet her body screaming at her to return to where it had been.

Before Jarod could register what had just happened a figure jumped onto him yelling.

"DADDYDADDYDADDY!"

Jarod being Jarod, quickly recovered and grabbed little Argyro and lifted him up and began to make him fly like an airplane. Watching the scene Parker smiled as both children and father began to laugh and play. Of course her little boy started to chant 'again again', being spoiled in the short time that she had raised them.

Eyes sparkling with laughter and joy, she couldn't take her eyes from the group in front of her. Amazed still by the sight of her children...HER children, laughing and playing with their father, she watched in wonder. Jarod. Closing her eyes she let out a small ironic laugh with a smirk forming on her lips. Opening her eyes she continued to look at father and children playing.

Smiling...Jarod was smiling in a way that she had never before seen. Letting her head rest on the sofa she began to think of what was happening. Of what had happened. Thinking of a future that was still unwritten and held no certainties, she couldn't help but frown.

Why did she have to be the way she was? Couldn't she just live in the moment with him? No, of course not. She had to think and overanalyze everything.

Pale blue eyes looked up at Jarod. In that moment a flash of his pale cold body flashed behind her eyes. Shivering as the memory bombarded her, she made herself into a ball.

Shaking her head she tried to rid herself of the feelings that attacked her. Looking at him now would certainly have led to tears.

Jarod having spun all of the kids in the air and now tired placed Zarek down and looked up to smile at Parker.

Reading her face immediately his face dropped. Sitting down next to her, he extended his hand and cupped her face to make her look at him.

"Hey…….are you ok?" In a soft voice he asked.

Immediately she tried to avert her eyes and head but Jarod quickly stopped her from doing so.

"Hey…." Again he said softly.

Meeting her watery eyes he became concerned right away. Believing that in that moment she had no reason to cry made him worry.

"Are you ok?" Still asking with his voice full of emotion.

"Are you ok momma?" Yorik asked almost frightened.

The voice of her son seemed to jar her back to where she was. Sniffling and having one tear escape she composed herself and shook her head while holding out her hands for her little boy to come to her.

"No baby, momma's fine." She said as he hugged her son and kissed his forehead. Seeing the faces of her children worried after was not something she wanted.

"It's ok babies. Mamma's fine." Saying this as she extended her arm so Gretta and Argyro to come and cuddle with her.

Zander and Zarek went to sit and hug their father as they looked at their mother.

"Mom are you ok?" Zarek asked.

"Don't think about that mom! It didn't happen!" Gretta said to her mother.

Parker nodded her head and continued not to look at Jarod even though he was clearly hurt at the fact that she wouldn't talk to him.

"I know baby. I'll try not to." Parker said as she moved Gretta's hair away from her eyes.

Managing to actually look up into Jarod's face, she gives him a look that indicates to help her.

Turning towards his children he comforts them and tells them that mommy is fine and that she's just tired. Announcing that it was getting late and that they should start to get cleaned up for dinner, all of them whine but go nonetheless.

Parker passes her hands through her hair as her children leave the room, all glancing back to look at her as they do.

To reassure them she smiles to let them know she's ok.

When they leave Jarod turns from the doorway and looks at her.

"You want to tell me what that was about?"

Parker looks away from him in aggravation.

Jarod actually laughs at the rolling of her eyes and the clear rejection her body signals send him.

Parker's eyes turn dark and she turns her head to glare at him.

"No…(laughing)…it's just that your always your charming self Parker. Motherhood can't even change that." Jarod said with a wide smile on his face.

Not knowing if it was his eyes or his smile when he said it, but she couldn't help it, her scowl became a grin and then became a full on smile as Jarod wagged his eyebrows at her. Letting out a laugh she looked away from him and tried to bring back her scowl. Finding it hard to do with his presence, not use to being alone with him for such a long period of time. Chancing a sideways glance at him, she was caught in the way he was staring at her. Catching him staring at her with this intensity that only spoke of things that they had never had together- passion, want, need, and to her surprise even something more, causing her to have a shiver run up her spine.

Parker had been feeling her body respond to Jarod besides the fact that most of her life she had convinced herself that she became numb when he was around. Unfortuneately for her it was a downright lie. Senses went reeling when Jarod was around her.

Jarod watched her with a fascination in his eyes. They way she was sitting combing with the sideways stare was in his opinion VERY attractive.

Thoughts very similar to Jarod's were going through her mind. Except hers were very much more adult.

Down Girl! He's off limits! Wait? Why is he off limits? He's your husband. Nohe'snot. He's not. He's not.

Distracted by her thoughts she missed Jarod walking up to her. Only noticing as he sat down next to her. Almost jumping as Jarod pulled her into his lap. Locking her shocked eyes with his impassioned ones, she didn't even get a sound out before his lips covered hers again.

Now though...the difference between the way they had been kissing, and the way Jarod was now kissing her, was unmistakable. These kisses were open and wet, yet Jarod didn't use his tongue.

Parker's body responded almost on command. The added turn on being that Jarod was actually taking control. Oddly that was causing the heat in her body at the moment. Totally contradicting her normal urge to always control any situation, she found herself in exactly that situation with Jarod and to her amazement finding that she kind of liked it.

Jarod was going on pure instinct. Unfortunately, whenever he was around this woman he always tended to go on impulse. Fortunately for him, it had always worked. Now thou, he was treading on the edge of a very dangerous cliff. Still he couldn't help himself.

Years had been spent remembering the sweet contact of her lips on his. He couldn't help it. He had become obsessed with her kisses. Leaning into her, Jarod caused her to lie back onto the sofa with him now pressing down on her.

God he feels soo good. Parker thought to her self as her lips opened as she kissed him with such want that she surprised even herself.

Stop! We have to stop!

Breaking free from the last kiss she pulled her head back and whispered softly.

"We can't."

Jarod just continued to look at her lips, just as she continued to look at his. Then she whispered the truth of the matter.

"I can't."

Jarod breathed in heavily and then slowly expelled it. Tilting his head up he gazed into her sparkling diamond eyes. Feeling that she was honestly telling him that she couldn't do this right now, he breathed out his response.

"I understand."

And with it he gave her another sweet kiss like the ones he had given her before the children had come in. Both closing their eyes at the emotions filled with the innocent touch. Leaning her forehead to his as the kiss broke, she couldn't help but to stay in his arms for just a while longer. A lifetime of waiting for it was long enough for her to cherish it now that she had it.

"I need to get dinner started. If the children don't eat they get down right annoying and sarcastic." Even as she said the words she smirked and her eyes glittered as she looked into his.

Smiling himself at the jibe about the eatting and annoying part he grinned back with a retort.

"I'll take responsiblity for the way the eat AND the annnoying...but I wonder where they get the sarcastic from?" He said with a smile.

Pulling her forehead away from his and staring at him Parker's right eyebrow arched and in classic Parker fashion responded to the insinuation.

"Well certainly not from me." Saying it with a straight face even though the crack of a small started to form.

Jarod couldn't help it. He tickeled her causing her eyes to bug out as she pulled back and shrieked with a shocked face at him.

"You said you'd never use my tickel spot against me!" She said with shock.

Jarod's sexy smile again came out at her words. Automatically she knew where his mind was going and her face slowly contorted into a glare. Jarod knew what she was thinking as his sexy smile turned into a sweet one.

"I remember saying that I 'wouldn't'...not that I'd 'never'. I'm surprised you even remember." The last part he said just above a whisper.

Then there was this period of silence where one just looked into the others eyes. Not saying anything, yet communicating none the less.

His words had held a deep sadness, one in which she had never allowed herself to sympathize for him before, but now couldn't help but feel it herself. And she was sorry for it.

Jarod read that from her eyes. Just like she read his that said it was ok, and that he understood.

Slowly she pulled away from him and began to stand. Still he held onto her hand and as she rose from the couch she pulled him along with a small smirk. Returning the smirk he followed her up willingly. For a second both stood together sharing a smile together. Then Parker turned and still holding his hand tugged him along. Jarod's smile widend as he allowed himself to be 'pulled' along. Although Jarod couldn't see Parker's smile also widened.

They were both happy for the moment. Both of them felt like they could actually be together for the first time in their lives.

Both not knowing what the next few days would bring...