Secrets (revealed and hidden)
"Soara wait!" I yelled as she got out of view yet again. She wouldn't stop walking away, and I wouldn't stop following. I had to push through crowds of people just so I could see her turn a corner. I decide that enough was enough. I bolted for her, sharply turning the corner and almost crashing into her. I had o make a quick stop but she kept walking. I quickly grabbed her wrist before she got too far. "Soara stop! I'm sorry…Iggy's sorry, please just talk to me," I whined. She turned around. Her eyes were watery but she wouldn't cry, she wouldn't show that much weakness. She collapsed into my arms and started to sob uncontrollably. My heart sank to see my friend hurt like this. To see the strongest cry into my chest was too much for me to bear.
"I hat him," she whimpered into my shirt holding on tighter. I was shocked that she would say such a thing. She could be that angry at Iggy. Even I wasn't that angry at him, hell I already let that go. I was busy comforting Soara wondering why she would say such a thing. My curiosity over powered me and I just had to ask her.
"Why would you say that? He didn't mean to do that it was just a mistake," I tried to console her. Soara grip tightened and instead of being filled with longing it was filled with frustration.
"No! He probably thought it would be funny," she yelled back at me. I pushed her away from me. I couldn't let her go on hating Iggy or let her talk about him that way. I wanted to end this then and there.
"He didn't know! He would never even think about doing that to anyone, especially you!" I scolded her. She glanced up at me. For a moment it seemed like her eyes were filled with glee as if I told her something wonderful. Her glee quickly faded into anger once again.
"He doesn't care about me; all he cares about is fucking Ali!" Soara yelled at the ground. I stumbled back a bit. Her voice was getting more aggressive. I tried to place my hand on her but Soara quickly hit it away. She wiped a few tears that ran down her face. "he knows I'm not the most liked person in the world…he knew and he still…I mean…he knows everything about me but he still treats me like nothing when he's around Ali…but when we're alone he's…"
"Alone? When have you two ever been alone together?" I interrupted at first not listening to what she was talking about and just hearing them being alone. She didn't answer but she stopped talking. I stood there a moment in thought taking in what she just said. "…you don't just like him do you? You lo…"
"No I don't! I just don't like the idea of him and Ali together," she tried to explain. I was unconvinced.
"Oh really why?" I asked her trying to get deeper into her head. She threw her arms to the ground. She looked down at her feet. Her voice was so soft now I could barely hear it.
"Because I love him… and I've told him everything, and Ali does nothing and still gets his attention… what did I get myself into," she said beating herself up. "I should have know… I've always been told happy endings are only in stories," she mumbled and slammed her head against the nearest wall. "He cracked my shell and I let it break! If only I kept my defences up this would never happen!" she yelled to herself. I grabbed her and stopped her from slamming her head against the wall any more.
"I'm sorry," I said. That's all I could say. There was nothing I could do to get her out of this predicament. She had to do that on her own and she knew it. All she needed right now was some sympathy.
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Ignite still stood in the empty hall. He slammed his head against the wall repetitively. It hurt but he didn't care, it took his thoughts away from the pain in his chest. He didn't know how describe it, it felt heavy and a sharp pain raced through it. It was more than just guilt he felt…much more, and it wouldn't go away. He didn't know why it was there, why it hurt so much, and why the image of Soara disappointed eyes kept playing in his head. Now hitting his head felt good, it felt much better than the pain in his chest. He hurt his best friend by a stupid mistake, he wanted to hide but he also wanted to find her. He did neither; instead he kept pounding his skull into a wall.
"Um… Ignite?" Gyo said behind Ignite. He quickly jerked his head to see Gyo looking at him confused but he didn't stop the motion of his head and the side of his face was smashed against the wall. The pain was extreme for that was where Soara hit him. The pain in his chest came back thinking of her. "What are you doing?" Gyo asked confused. Ignite thought up of something quickly.
"Where were you? I was waiting outside of your classroom but you never came out. I got so angry at myself because…um…I…didn't know if we where suppose to meet there and I started to hit my head against this wall because…um…I wasted all that time for nothing," he explained nervously hoping his friend would buy it. He didn't want to tell him the truth because he knew it would embarrass Kara and Soara. Gyo tilted his head slightly and a confused look on his face as he saw Ignite's black eye.
"How'd you get that?" he asked pointing and Ignite's beaten eye. Ignite touched it bringing back pain and painful memories.
"Um…right now when I slammed it against this wall…you were there," he rambled on praying he wasn't acting to suspicious towards Gyo.
"Okay… I guess I'll see ya later…when your not high," he said and walked away. Ignite waved nervously as Gyo left. He turned back to his wall and leaned his head against it. Anger rush through his body, frustrated in himself he hit the wall with his hands.
"I'm and Idiot!" he yelled. Gyo turned around and looked at him. He started to panic slightly. "Um…I forgot my math books in my art class…bye," he said and started to head for his last class. He turned to make sure Gyo wasn't any where close to him. He hit a wall beside him trying to drive the anger out of him. "I'm sorry Soara," he whispered to himself.