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I wake up with a real bad back ache automatically looking for Annabeth.

I panic again. She isn't here.

It was just a dream...gods you are cruel.

She's gone.

She's still gone she doesn't know.

She doesn't remember.

It felt so real. I thought...

This time I can't help my rage in blind fury I suppose. I screamed and yelled until my voice hurt. No neighbors showed up to complain. I broke stuff and a few minutes later I had created a huge hole on my wall along with tinier holes that were clearly made by my knuckles. My clothes were everywhere. This apartment unit was flooded-I don't know about the rest of the building- and my room looked exactly like a nuclear bomb exploded in it.

Luckily other than soaking wet everything but my room was spared from great harm.

I knew I was shaking. My line of sight was getting blurry and everything seemed to darken more tonight.

She's gone.

I only noticed the pain. Not the emotional. The physical. It was an aftereffect of having a bit of your Achilles curse leave you. Dad said the curse actually helped me heal and it crossed my mind more than once that if Annabeth had the curse would she had been a lot easier to save too? I was still invincible to dead but to hurting I wasn't. Especially not the hurting of my heart which is an even higher degree of pain than my swollen knuckles.

I don't know how long I stood in the middle of my room waiting like a cadet, standing at attention.

My chest heavy. My breaths labored. I felt like I ran a marathon form the other side of the world.

I froze.

All I knew was. She was gone-And I was done.

No more.

I don't want to anymore.

I want the pain to stop. I want it to go away; stop hurting.

But it didn't so I just stood there for gods know how long.

Just wishing for relief that never came.

The next thing I knew I was in a well lit tragedy of a room. It was morning.

Mom and Paul are in a hotel somewhere by now. They won't see this mess or worry until they come back in a week and a half's time.

I felt numb.

She's gone.

I still didn't move even though I knew my legs would be all jelly and my arms, which were like cement blocks felt as though it would fall off.

Even when Thalia Grace and Alana, Phoebe, Sophie, Clara and Mimi came in and saw the mess. I didn't move.

When they tried to talk to me. I didn't talk.

When they commented on me looking like Hades but worst I stayed silent.

When they tried to get me out of the room so that they could try to salvage some non- water proof things I still didn't move nor talk nor blink much actually.

I didn't react to them half dragging me out my room, down the stairs and Thalia forcing my body to let me sit on the only just drying couch.

I just thought of how the world should be black and dull and empty.

I didn't care if the Apocalypse was coming because I had failed her.

I failed her.

I wasn't brave or noble or true to the end.

I failed her and right now I was almost permanently losing grip of her and I think a small part of me actually even thinks to let go.

As I was thinking this it made be the tiniest bit better.

It makes me angry, furious even, at myself.

I hated me.

She's gone.

Self loath was better than trying to be angry and trying to hate the person you know you can never hate no matter what that person put you through.

So I hated on me and decided to punish myself with silence.

Letting me suffer inside and blocking others from wanting to suffer with me.

"Percy!" Thalia looked like she wanted to shock me.

Well I wanted to shock me too. Over and over.

"Snap out of it. We need to look for her."

She wants to go.

She could pull it off. Live a normal life. Since she didn't remember monsters were never particularly interested in her.

I mostly attracted them to her.

She's not with me now.

She's gone.

No more.

I stared blankly at Thalia.

That's all I do.

"You're just going to stand there? We need to find her. She might be in danger. Perseus Jackson!"

I just stare at her.

She was getting frustrated and I know she didn't mean to and I was also sor of waiting for it.

When it came it hurt.

I shake violently but stand my ground.

Even if it did hurt it was nothing compared to what I am already feeling.

Thalia scrambled a few steps away.

"gods Percy, I- I'm sorry. I didn't." She rambled apologies but I wasn't angry. I even thought I deserved it for being so stupid.

I guess her hunters weren't used to seeing Thalia go rage mode a second and stuttering apologist the next. They just did their best at tidying up a bit while Thalia paced. I still couldn't move nor find words. I didn't have anything to say and I had no purpose to move on my own.

So I stayed still, not uttering a single word. Late afternoon when Thalia gave up apologizing and talking to me she just sighed.

"You're being selfish. You aren't the only one who lost her. Everyone at camp lost her. I lost my sister. You lost your girlfriend, Chiron lost his daughter, Her siblings struggled with no counselor because it didn't feel right without her. Nico lost his sister figure. Her little siblings who used to be around age six are now in elementary school. We all lost her too. Lived without her for years. I was lucky to see her sometimes but it wasn't the same for me either." She said.

She was right on one thing but she was wrong. I didn't just lose Annabeth as my girlfriend. I had plans for the future and now she can't be part of it because the fates are cruel.

She's gone. I briefly shut my eyes tight.

I thought thinking those plans at this age was ridiculous but now I held on to it because right now, it's all I've got.

Ello ya'll.

How many of you did I actually fool?

I told y'all I'd be back with more chapters.

In honor of Percy's birthday in a few hours I'm updating more than a chapter today and maybe one tomorrow as I sip on the blue Pepsi I bought for the occasion.

REPLIES!

Swimming Home- Coolio! I really like the name Alana:) Thanks for the review have some of Percy's blue birthday cake after you write a review on the way out!

percabeth4ever-Thank you. Sorry about the late update...my exams were rescheduled and they only finished yesterday. Have some yummy blue birthday cake!

rocketeer-girl- I agree. Percy's a sweetie:) Schools as cool as it gets. My exams just finished and I'm not excited about my math grade really I'm scared. I hate hate hate math and it was hard. The best math classmate I had said so too. Hell's about to be unleashed for me with whatever my grade will be and I think I won't be able to update more if that happens because I'd be banned from fanfiction O.O I actually cried in school (I'm a rare cryer...I really don't do the showing weakness thing...the last time i cried in public was almost three years ago) because math was the subject I put most of my time and efforts on and it was the least productive:( Moving to another topic I hope your have fun in school and enjoy being as young as you are. Cake gal pal?

thedauntlessshadowhunter- Oh she's gone. I think some cake will make you feel a bit better. Grab a slice on the way out.

NotAGuestAnymore- Gosh you know I do:) why? because I'm me. Where? I can't tell you. You'll find out soon enough. I told you there was drama afoot. This is just leading up to the main climax. I'm happy you enjoyed Thal's POV. I pretty much enjoyed writing her POV. I also loved that line too..I imagined Percy wouldn't really care. Now bout' your advertising on my fic...um...shame? does that even exist here when you're practically having private convos with your readers and giving them an inside to your head...nope I welcome that. I only read chap 1 of your fic and loved it. I'm gonna catch up reading lots of fics I hope you updated yours. I feel the same way too by the way. I respect yours and everyones opinions but bear with my ranting pardon it if you may readers I'm a 15 year old teenager who right now is suffering PMS...again with the shame and this site...it's unheard of. Friends? NO! Pretty close Friends, Yeah! There's a big difference there. I really am happy I have very supportive readers and some friends I've made since I've started this journey. You are one of em'. Now go get some cake that I fictionally baked.

Guest- Thanks:) If you think that then you have really good taste:P I hope you liked these chappies I put my heart and soul out there. So vulnerable:) Grab a slice of cake while your reading whatever I write down there.

Mayhaah- Uh-oh indeed. Do you want a slice of cake? It's chocolate with blue icing!

allen r- Okay here's the rant I'm talking about.

"one fluff chapter every 10 chapters and no dates or anything like that means this is not a romance. for this to be a romance there needs to be romantic stuff happen. lets see has there been any at all? not really."

I don't know how you wanted this to sound but it kinda hurt. I got good reception from 99% of my readers and I honestly am pleased with how well I'm doing BUT I shouldn't be a baby about your review because I risked criticism the second I decided to create a new story and I do welcome criticism it's just that the play on words or tone of it doesn't sit with me right...another but, I just wanna make something clear. I know everyone is entitled to their own opinions and well my opinion is,

Percy and Annabeth isn't your typical romantic couple. They are far from your normal couple. Their idea of a date it trying to have alone time in the stables and having a picnic without food on a floating battleship, sitting on a bomb door thingy.

They usually don't have the time for that...at least in my story presently they just don't have time to even think about anything else than figuring the mysteries out and trying to stay alive.

A series of events happened and still will happen and in chapter 35 if I really did just end it there and update a chapter where they suddenly are all mushy and going on dates and all; I don't think you readers would appreciate that. I haven't even reached the climax of this fic and drama is needed as well as all other genres together to be able to make a worthwhile story. Yes I put suspense and romance in the genre but If I'd have a choice it's everything all at once.

I don't want to sound mean but you don't have to read this if you aren't pleased with what's happening. I know you've came this far and I do appreciate that but I've also said before that reading this still...is your choice. If you aren't gonna continue reading than I just want to say I'm thankful for you reading the last 36 chapters and I hope you find great reads that has the right kind of fluffiness you want or maybe, friendly suggestion...write your own fic. The quote "If they can't do it right, Do it yourself." applies here. On the way out feel free to have cake.

Rant over!

I have a crazy sched of exams for college coming up. On Aug 25 University of Santo Thomas. Aug 31 Far Eastern University and the biggest test I really need to excell on Ateneo De Manila University on Sept 21. Less than a month is not enough time toshove every highschool lesson into your brain.

ANYWAYS! Watched the sea of monsters yet?

I did.

SPOILERS!

The movie itself was majorly awesome. I loved the little anniebeth, thals, luklie and grover.

The plot was okay.

I respect that everything can't be perfect but the effort was obvious. They were actually keeping us the fans in mind. I know some things had to change in order to correct the first movie and again big respect and and kudos to the director for journeying into the right direction.

I Love Love Love the little percabeth scenes where they were just being them.

I mean Annabeth was acting more like annabeth should act and gods...btw she said 'oh my gods' in the movie anyways who didn't squeal when they hugged after the golden fleece healed annabeth? and percy was dam worried.

Ohh I loved clarisse and there's our ever-loving mr. D.

Tyson was pretty cool too. I just didn't like the fact that silena was a traitor too...well this early.

I also was a bit put off with the no guinea pig scene. I'm sorry for the wrong spelling and/or grammatical errors. i am fictionally dyslexic .

Moving on, no talantus...eh we don't like him anyway...hmmm...no Circe or hylla or reyna or library:'( .

No canadians or picture in the notebook/binder or dodgeball or sally or shadow outside window ;)...at least there was george and martha. YAY! And again percabeth and at least a random camper wearing a chb shirt. But no original prophecy:'( the prophecy the oracle gave was the GREAT prophecy...perce wasn't supposed to hear that changed the age to 20and the line hero's soul curse blade shall reap...they made it Evil soul cursed blade shall reap:(

Overall i'd give this movie a 7.5 out of 10.

Its way better than the five I thought the first movie deserved. I can justify that I'm excited for the next movie...I know it'll be better than this one. I just hope we get our nicknames wisegirl and seaweed brain soon.

Till next time. I apologize to those who haven't watched yet and still read this. I know despite my messed up thoughts you picked up a thing or two you didn't want to.

Yours in godliness, me, your writer of this fanfic.

~Arissaprincess321