Chapter 37~ Tainted Pain

Flashback - A few months after Hal Cooper asked Alice to join Blue and Gold. Fp started having a feeling. This feeling gnawed him up inside. Was he losing his Allie? Fp hated the feeling. He noticed Alice distancing herself from wyrm and the southside Serpents.

Fp rolled out his dusty bike. He had to put it away for the winter. He sat on the seat and felt this instant enjoyment radiating off the sun and into his blood. He checked his watch and saw it was three in the afternoon. He put his foot on the gas and drove off. With the wind blowing against his face. The sun beating on his back. The spring air lifted the winter cold from his body. Spring was always his favorite season. That meant he could ride his motorcycle. Prom had already passed. Fp actually had a good time. As he pulled into the parking lot to meet Fred for band rehearsal, he got eye full of something he didn't want to see neither imagine.

Alice, his Allie was making out with a blonde behind the bleachers. Fp felt so betrayed. His heart shattered. At that moment he felt his future being mangled and tattered. He was going to propose in the near future. Fp already had a ring picked out in his mind. He could feel tears starting to burn his eyes. He wanted to tear his eyes out. But at the same time, he couldn't bring himself to. Three years of being together was all now down the fucking drain. Fp never felt so heartbroken.

"Allie." Fp uttered as he felt his voice starting to crack. Alice was startled by his voice. She looked up to see Fp standing there. She quickly pulled herself away and started walking up to him. That's when Fp saw Hal Cooper. He should of known. He knew Hal would do this. And this time he succeeded.

"Fp, baby it's not what it looks like." She said as her voice quivered with gulit. Fp felt his eyes burn with angry tears.

"Really! Alice you think I'm going to believe that crap!" He snapped as angry boiled up in his veins. Alice stood there with tears escaping her eyes as she listened to him. "So that wasn't you sticking your fucking tongue down his throat! I can't believe you!" Fp growled as he pointed his fingers angrily.

Alice swallowed the lump down her throat. "Fp please let me explain." She begged as she moved closer to him. He pushed her away.

"No!" He yelled as he turned away from her. He could feel his eyes burning with tears. Alice could tell he was crying. She felt bad.

"Fp please!" She cried as she continued to beg him. He just stayed with his back turned. "Please! Fp please! I love you!" She begged with tears streamed down her face. Fp lashed around and his eyes grew with rage.

"IF YOU REALLY DID LOVE ME? YOU WOULD'NT OF CHEATED!" Fp screamed as angry tears raced down his cheeks. He couldn't hold it in anymore. Alice felt the guilt consume her.

"F-." She was interrupted by his earth shattering yell.

" I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT!" He yelled as his teeth clenched. Hal just stood there with an amused look on his face. It was like enjoy ruining peoples life's. "Oh you think this is so funny? How would you like my fist hitting your fucking precious face!" He screamed whaling his arms. Fp threw his arm back and lunged his fist forward conducting his fist with Hal's stupid face.

"Fp! Stop!" Alice cried as she tried to pry Fp off of Hal. He just kept hitting until someone pulled him back. He turned around to see Clifford Blossom. His eyes were lit with anger.

"That's enough, Fp! Why don't you go back to your side! Where you belong!" Clifford mocked as he threw Fp to the side. Clifford stood there laughing and Hal laughed as well. Fp wiped his corner of his mouth. His hand was bruised, but not broken. "Come on Hal let's go." He demanded Hal as he pulled him away.

Fp started walking away. He didn't want to work on his band anymore. His world was shattered. The only person he cared about more then himself, just cheated on him. Alice stood there speechless on what to do. She didn't mean to cheat. It wasn't her intention. She slowly placed a hand on his shoulder. Fp turned his head to see her standing right next to him.

"Alice ... just leave." He warned softly with his back turned. Alice held back her pout. She couldn't take him being mad at her.

"Fp please let me explain." She utters shakily as she bit back her tears. She curled her finger into her palms. He turned around now facing her and opened his mouth.

"Why." He asked, his only word was why. Alice heard the haunting words why. She didn't want to say it.

"Please don't make me say it. Please don't." She pleaded as she grabbed a hold of his hands in her small hands. Fp swallowed his tears.

"Then what is it!" He snapped with angry eyes. Alice swallowed the gulit and began to open her mouth. He needed to know the truth.

"Fp, I- I'm in love with Hal." She choked out releasing her tears. Fp turned away from her. She couldn't see him crying. Neither did he want her to. "Fp, I didn't mean for this to happen. The kiss happened and as soon as it happened I regretted it instantly. I never meant to hurt you."

She explained as more tears strung her eyes.

"Well now your happy! You got the life you always wanted!" He snapped as tears ran down his face. Alice stood there stunned. How did he know? "Yes I knew! I noticed how you stopped being there for me and the Serpents!" He seethed as he wiped his eyes angrily.

"Fp it wasn't like that. I love you!" She screamed back as tears rolled down her gulit-ridden cheeks. Fp looked her straight in the eyes and sighed.

"Alice it's over." He told her painfully as he turned to walk away. She grabbed his arm refusing to let him ago.

"No, please! I don't want Hal. I don't want to love him! I love you so much more, Fp. Please!" She cried as her nails dug in as he tried pulling away. Tears rolled down both of their cheeks. Anger and sadden filled the parking lot. It was only him and her. But it no longer felt like a team. Now it felt like they were spilt in two. He turned back to her. She released his arm a little.

"How long?" He painfully asked as tears rolled down. She sighed and took a deep breath.

"I have had feelings for him for..." She paused as tears slid down her cheeks. Fp watched her eyes look down at the ground ashamed. Once that answer leaves her mouth. The truth would be out. The heartbreaking, devastating truth will burn him to the ground. "F-or th-ree m-onths." She softly confessed as her voice was barely above a whisper. Three months. Anger boiled up inside.

"Three months!" He snapped again. She flinched and stepped back. "Three months! Since you introduced me to him! Are you fucking kidding me?" He bellowed as he ran his hands over his face with beyond frustration and anger. "I can't even look at you." He uttered as he stared at the ground. He was so hurt. How could she of lied to him? She wasn't the same girl he met at that diner three years ago. This girl he didn't recognize. Not one fucking bit.

"Baby, Plea-e." Alice begged as she hugged him tightly. Fp pushes her hands away from him.

"I'm sorry, Alice but this is over. You can't apologize your way out of this one. You really fucked up." Fp sighed as he stormed off to his bike.

He got on his bike and sped off. Leaving Alice in tears standing in the middle of the parking lot. Tears rolled down his face uncontrollably as he drove down the rides of the highway. He couldn't believe it was over. His Allie was just now Alice. It hurt him so much to even think about her. He missed her already and it hadn't even been tens without her.

He parked his bike and ran into the trailer. Tears aching his eyes again. He went up to the wall and tore the picture frame off it's hinges. He tore off every picture frame on that wall. He moved to the next. Pictures of them getting ice cream together. Stared at him and burned his brain with the memory. He grabbed a box and tossed all the pictures into it and shut the box tightly with duct tape and threw the box in his shed behind his trailer. His eyes tracked to his room. He opened the drawer beside the bed and pulled it out. He got back on his motorcycle and drove all the way to Sweetwater. He chucked the ring into the river and never had a second thought about it. He got home and laid in his bed realizing that it was all over.

Today was the time last they would ever be Alice Fp. Now it was just Alice and Fp. Three years wasted on nothing. He thought about that ring he chucked into the river. It took him two years to save enough money to be able to buy it. Today June 10th 1991 would forever be known as the day Fp started drinking and hard core drinking. He took a beer from his father's collection and took a gulp as the beer stung his throat. Though the relief of the pain numbed how he really was feeling.