I hardly slept that night, and pretty much all weekend long. Ok, I did cry myself to sleep, only to be awaken from a bad dream again and vowed to not fall asleep for the rest of those nights. I hardly eaten anything either. I wasn't really hungry at all. I believe I was starting to lose some weight. Also, I never left the house, and didn't answer any phone calls from others. I was too upset to talk.

On Monday, I came to school looking like a disgusting, complete wreck. My hair was not in pigtails anymore, but down and tangled because I haven't brushed. And I kept my sunglasses on the whole time because my eyes are a bit red and purple from being so tired. I honestly look like a zombie from one of those drive-in movies.

I sat in the library wanting to be alone and I kept my sunglasses on. School had started actually, but I ditched class just so that no one would see me and worry.

I looked around at an empty part of the library, except that one guy is searching for things; a girl is sorting books back, and Sandy giving the book back. Oh yeah. I need to tell her Danny is apologizing. I got up and went to her as she puts Moby Dick back in the shelf. "Hi Sandy."

She looks at me and smiled softly, "Hi Jan." I sighed deeply and said, "I found Danny at the drive-in alone. And he wanted me to tell you that he wants to apologize at Thunder Road."

Sandy asked. "He does? Oh. Then I'll go. Where's Thunder Road?"

I replied ending up leaning against the shelf. "It's in the Los Angeles River. It doesn't have that much water. But if you see cars, you know your there. But be very careful, the water puddles are contaminated." I stumbled knocking a few books off the shelf accidently. I can barely stand in this condition.

"Ok then. Thanks Jan." Sandy kneeled down and picked up books and looks at me for a second. She asked puzzled, "Are you alright? You don't look so good."

"I'm ok. Just a little stress about the last few days of school. That's all," I lied.

Sandy nodded lightly. "Hey. Did you know about Rizzo?" She asked me. I shook my head. What happened to Rizzo?

I was about to ask her, but then she immediately left forgetting she's late for class. "Thanks again Jan!" She softly called before she walked out. I plopped back down in the chair thinking. Ok, I fixed someone's broken heart. But not mine.

Just then, a few minutes later, Frenchy and Marty walked in. Oh no... What the hell are they doing here? I thought neither of us come in libraries.

"Frenchy. You are my only hope. Can we still be friends since Rizzo isn't talking to me anymore?" I hear Marty say and then Frenchy replied, "I promise to always be with you. Hey, is that Jan over there?"

Oh crap. They spotted me. I immediately crossed my arms and laid my head down burying myself in it, pretending I'm asleep while reading.

I felt them coming to me and a moment later, I hear Marty sigh, "Jan. I know you're faking it... C'mon." She urges me to pick my head up and I did still having sunglasses on.

"Fine. Ya caught me. How did y' know?" I asked. Marty replied rolling her eyes, "Oh please. Every time you come to our sleepovers, you're always the first to crash, and you were obnoxiously snoring."

Then John was right. I really do snore.

"What happened to you?" Frenchy asked. "And where were you? You haven't answered any of our phone calls."

Marty also said, "And you promised to do a girl get together, and you weren't there."

I sighed. "I'm sorry about that. But I just want to be alone. That's all." I stood up and walked out of the library. They followed me.

Frenchy asked, "Why are you wearing sunglasses?"

I sighed in annoyance and answered. "I don't know why. I guess maybe there is too much light in here."

Marty looked at Frenchy not really believing me and took them off my face reveling my very red purplish eyes. They gasped looking like they're about to faint.

"Jan? What happened to you? You look-"

"Horrible. I know." I sighed getting even more annoyed. Can they please go away?

Marty asked, "Jan. Have you been crying?"

I snapped, "It's none of your business." I didn't mean to be so cranky, but I don't want to tell them what I've been going through. I immediately soften my voice, "I'm sorry. I'm just not having a great day that's all." Then suddenly I stumbled a little.

Frenchy became worried. "You look like your about to pass out. Are you sure you're ok?" I nodded quickly.

"I'm fine! Just leave me alone." I turned my back on them, and then suddenly, someone turned off the lights.