A/N
Hey guys. Thanks for your reviews. I'm really glad you guys liked the last chapter. Important A/N at the end soooo here's chapter 37. Enjoy!
CHAD POV
9:38 I woke up the next morning to an empty bed. Thinking everything was normal I got up and went to the bathroom. Then it hit me, hard. Like a pile of bricks. My mom was gone. She won't be here anymore. I grasped the sink as the mental pain set in as I thought of my mom. I stared in the mirror at myself. My eyes were bloodshot red and you could see tear stains going in every direction. I closed my eyes and inhaled sharply. I exhaled with the same force and opened my eyes. I ran the cold water from the sink and dipped my hands in it. I pressed the water against my face and shivered. The water droplets curved their way down to my naked chest. I did this once more liking the feeling. I grabbed a towel and dried my face. I threw on the wife beater I had on yesterday and slumped down the stairs. Sonny and her mother were sitting at the table eating breakfast. There was a plate in an empty seat for me. The steam rose from the hot food
"Good Morning" I said as I sat down and picked up my fork
"Good Morning" They both said in unison. No one was saying a word. Occasionally I would peer up and they would be staring at each other, like they were talking. This is how I cope… I go on with my life as if nothing ever happened. That's my way of doing things. I know it's my mom and all but this is my way of making things okay. And this silence isn't helping one bit
"Silence is slowly killing me… Can you please say something? Anything? I don't care what it is" Connie stared into the air and Sonny held her head down "I'm begging..."
"Sorry for your loss" Connie said glancing at me
"Except that" I mumbled "It's fine"
"How are you feeling?"
"Fine. Just exhausted and empty" Kyle came out of the room in his sweatpants and shirt, looking like he had a bad slumber
"Good Morning guys" He said. Kissing Connie and patting Sonny's shoulder. He smiled at me weakly and sat down. Connie got up and got his plate out the oven. She joined us a couple of seconds later "How's everything going, Chad?" I know he knew that my mom died
"Alright…" I sighed
"I'm taking your mind off things just in case you were wondering…." He chuckled "So… I saw the Mackenzie Falls episode. The one before the season finale. Just wow"
"Is that a good thing?"
"It defiantly left me hanging" He said "What's going to happen to the water company?"
"You're going to have to wait like everyone else" I chuckled "I can tell you that it's one hell of a script"
"Can we get a peek?" Connie asked enthusiastically
"No. I can't. You have to wait"
"Damn" he grumbled "You should at least give us a smidge"
"Nope" I laughed "It will ruin everything"
"Fine… but expect to get a full critic after I see it" He said
"I'm up for that" We all laughed and smiled
"Deal" Kyle and I shook hands. I looked over at Sonny who was quietly pushing the food around her plate "So what are you going to do today?"
"I have to meet with my dad. We need to talk"
Since I wasn't going to work I met my dad at his hotel room. He opened the door and I saw the pain and loneliness that was shown on his face. He had deep dark circles under his eyes. The curtains were closed making it completly dark and unlively in the room. Unlively is definatly not a good word to use right now
"Hey dad" he closed the door behind me
"Hey, son"
"How are you doing?"
"23 years of being married to someone and they're gone in one day. I don't know what to do"
"You can move back in with me" I suggested
"No, no" he sighed and sat in a chair "I can't do that"
"Why not?"
"It will bring back too many memories. And it's your house"
"But all your stuff is there"
"And her stuff which makes it worse. I can't move in with you"
"Come on dad. I know we lost her but just move back in. It can help" I sat in the chair opposite of him
"No…" he looked down
"Look dad, I know… it's my fault she's gone but just move back in so I won't risk losing you too"
"Your fault? How is your mom's death your fault?"
"If I wouldn't have kicked you guys out the house, she wouldn't have had to take the way she did to get to the doctors. I was being selfish and greedy…"
"Chad" he started
"And she probably would be here if it weren't for me" I felt the tears rolling
"Chad" he tried again.
"She could've taken a shorter way to the doctors. Then she wouldn't have gotten hit"
"Chad!" I jumped "In no possible way is it your fault. She was at the wrong place in the wrong time"
"Because of me dad! If I didn't force you out of the house… none of this would've h-happened" Tears blurred my vision. The lump in my throat made it extremely hard to talk "I-I shouldn't have sued. If I d-didn't push you out the house I-I would've k-know she was having a-a baby. S-she wouldn't have had to drive. I w-would've d-drove her everywhere" I hiccupped through my sobs.
"Chad Dylan Cooper! There is no way in hell that it was your fault" he stood and bent down in front of me "It is not your fault. Your mother would've never let you think like that and I'm sure as hell not going to let you go on in life hating yourself because you think it is your fault. It is not and never will be your fault. Okay?"
"Dad…"
"Okay?" he stood up straight
"Okay…" I agreed "So what are we going to do?"
"Well… your mom is at a funeral home. They're going to pick out the perfect casket. I already called her mother and sisters and told them the news. They are flying out here by the end of the week. The funeral service is Friday"
"So what is there left to do?"
"Um... we have to chose an outfit for her to be buried in. The obituary, songs and other things. Your mother and I already had grave sights held for us for one we got older. I guess one is going to be filled early"
SONNY POV
I was sitting down waiting for the director to yell action for the Sicky Vicky set. This wig was way too itchy and the lights were hotter and brighter today making me feel sweaty even though the air conditioning was on
"Action!" He yelled
"Hi... I'm Sicky Bicky" I said incorrectly. I mentally scolded myself and repeated the right name again and again
"Take 2. Action!" he yelled
"Hi... I'm Sicky Vicky and welcome to how to have fun when your sick. Today I have chicken pox. I got it from Alex Marvartski when he hugged me in school. Not cool" I said in the fake sick voice "Using the mittens your mom gives you to stop scratching you can me hand puppets" I held up my hands and they showed to mittens with faces on them. I filmed this for a half hour until I had to go change for my next sketch. I went into my dressing room and saw Mister Condor "Hi... Mr. Condor. What brings you here?" I asked nervously. I looked stupid talking to my boss in a onesie
"Where's Cooper?" he startled me with his blutness
"Not here"
"Obviously. But where is he?"
"With his dad"
"He does know that his absence is costing me money, right?"
"I think so..."
"Call him and tell him to get here asap. He has a season finale to film since he missed yesterday"
"He can't come today"
"Why not?"
"He's with his dad"
"I don't care. He needs to get here"
"No... you don't understand. He left early yesterday because his mom died in a car accident. So he's with his dad"
"Oh... that's a valid reason"
"I promise he'll be here sometime this week"
"He better. I will deduct. Don't think I won't"
"I believe you"
"Good" he confirmed "Do you like my haircut?" he slicked back his hair and smirked. He blew a kissy face at himself in the mirror. I held back laughter
"Yeah" I sighed and smiled. He was about to walk out when he stopped
"Why is it that when something bad happens, it's always you or him. Or both you guys together?"
"I would love the answer to that question myself. I honestly don't know, Sir"
"Well, tell him if he is not here tommorrow it is coming out of his check"
"Yes, sir" he closed the door on his way out
Around 2:30 I had math class. Again for the second time this week. I didn't do the homework Bitterman assigned me to do so I was screwed unless she would be nice to me this one time. Which I highly doubt would happen because of her general coldness
"Sonny... Where is that homework?" Bitterman walked up to me and asked. I shrugged and rested my head on the desk "Did you do it?"
"No..."
"Why not?"
"I was busy"
"You had all night to do that assignment. It was going to get your grade up"
"Can I give it to you tomorrow?"
"No because it was due today"
"Please, Ms. Bitterman" I asked sincerely "I had a... issue and it had to be addressed immediatly"
"No. You had all afternoon and night to do it. The work wasn't that hard. You would know if you weren't late" I was too fed up at this point
"Chad's mother died in a car accident yesterday. It was a very long and depressing day and afternoon. The last thing on my damn mind was doing your work. Sorry for trying to help him out"
"What does Chad's mother dying have to do with you?" I shot daggers at her. Tawni's mouth was wide open staring at the teacher in disbelif
"Chad is my boyfriend. He has been for a while now. So when his mom died he was devastated. I think the role of a girlfriend is to help her boyfriend get through this. And vice versa. But you wouldn't know that because you and Marshall didn't make it past 2 weeks did you?" I picked up my bag and stormed out. How did she not know? It was in papers a lot and we're near each other 24/7. I laid on the loveseat and closed my eyes. I was tired. Just tired of Ms. Bitterman. I think if she got laid she wouldn't be like this. But all she has is her stupid ass cats and her dumbass movie. I hate her. She can go to hell. Right now. I'm not doing her homework. Just because I can care less. She doesn't have a heart. I am convinced that the area where her heart is supposed to be is a black trench or abyss of darkness that she can never come out of. That's why she get's no love from anyone but her cats. I'm pretty sure they hate her too
CHAD POV
My dad and I stayed in the hotel all day planning. I can't say reminacing because they were never here and I barely had memories. He was talking about my mother and their good times together
"I remember when your mom first told me she was pregnant with you" My dad smiled
"What happened?"
"I was scared as fuck" I laughed "But we managed... kinda sorta" he beamed "It was the 5th of July 1993. Hot clear skies. Your mom was wearing a white sun dress in my parents backyard. Everyone was drinking white wine and eating cheese and crackers. She stuck with a plain cranberry juice. Her hair was half up, half down. She had a streak of brown going down the side of her hair. She had on a pair of white flats with a light pink accent in the middle" He remembers all of this? Damn... that's amazing "My dad's chef made us steak and shrimp. She couldn't eat the seafood. She turned to me while my parents were eating and said 'You're going to be a father'. I asked her what she ment and she pointed to her stomach. She then said if it's a girl we name her Daniela and a boy we name him Chad. I was so nervous that day" A tear rolled out of his eye "She knew in her gut it was going to be a boy"
"Why?"
"I was going to be a father. A father of a boy. I always wanted a son. I didn't want my son to see me as a monster" Another tear "I wanted him to see me as his hero. The one he wants to be like when he get's older. So he could be the same way with his son. That night when you were born. 3:41 a.m. 10 fingers 10 toes. 2 eyes 2 ears. One nose. One mouth. One loud mouth. Is the day I made a promise. I promised to always be there for you no matter what" Another tear "I completly screwed that up. I am so sorry, Chad. I am. I am a horrible father. I never tought you anything. I missed the crucial teenage years. I never got to have the father, son talk. I'm such a horrible father. You're mother would always remind me that you loved me no matter what but I didn't believe her. She would always say when she leaves you and I are going to be closer than ever. I fucked up so bad. I'm so sorry" he sobbed into his hands. A warm trail slid it's way down my face. I didn't know what to say. At all "I'm sorry..." he kept sobbing "I'm sorry" I stayed quiet. What should I say?
"Dad... It's okay"
"No it's not. She's gone. My wife is gone..."
"We're going to get through this dad" My voice broke "I swear. Move back in with me and we'll get through this... together. I'll stop Mackenzie Falls for a while and just hang out"
"No... Chad. We'll get through this. But you are going to live on your own with Sonny. You're career is everything to you. I'm not taking that away"
"Dad... please" My voice broke again
"Chad. No" he chuckled. "Go to work... I'll be here when you get back" He practically pushed me out the door. I made a quick pit stop to the store then drove to the studios and walked straight onto Sonny's area. Not giving a rats ass about anything
"Chad... we're filming you can't go on the set" One of the stage managers said. They were filming the Check it Out girls. The lights came down and the director yelled action "Chad you can't" Grady tried to tell me. I walked right onto the set and in front of her
"I'm filming what's wrong?" she asked walking around to me. I pulled her close by her waist and wove my fingers through hers. I pressed my lips to hers and kissed her deeply. My tongue grazed across hers repeatedly. She slung her arm over my shoulder and I pulled back and looked deep into her milky brown eyes. I immediatly knew what I was going to say
"I love you. To no extent. I want you to marry me. I want you to stay with me. I want you to be mine in every possible definition of the word. It doesn't matter what you and I go through I just want you to stay. There isn't enough ways to show you that and it drives me insane. We are always on the same level and I love that. I don't want you to ever get tired of me. I want to wake up when you're not in my bed or your alarm clock goes off. I love the way you drive my car. I am completly head over heels and I don't care what anyone thinks. I want to remember every little thing we do together. Wether it's burning stuff on the beach or playing in the pool. I want to see you in my t-shirts and I want you to get mad at me sometimes. Sonny, I just want you to be mine and mine only" Her jaw dropped slightly and she smiled
"I'm only 16"
"I don't care. You can be my fiancee for 2 years until you turn 18. I'll wait"
"Huh..." I took a dark blue velvet case out my pocket and opened it. "Chad..." I got down on my knee
"Allison "Sonny" Monroe. Will you marry me in two years?" She bit her lip and grinned and nodded "Yes?" I asked. I got up and smiled big
"Yes! A million times yes! In every possible way" She laughed and kissed me. I took her left hand and replaced the promise ring with the engagement ring. I pulled her into a deep, warm kiss and hug. I twirlled her around in my arms and smiled "I love you..." she cried and wiped the tears of joy. She kissed me again
"I'm so glad you do. Told you I'd keep my promise"
"That you did" she laughed and kissed me again
"AND CUT!" Oh shit they taped all of that "That's the best thing I've ever seen in my life" she turned crimson tide red "Like oh my God. If that was in a movie. I would get a oscar"
"Can I get a copy of that please?" I asked the director
"Sure" he said "Can I give a copy to Tween Weekly"
"No" Sonny answered "I have to leave early guys. I really am sorry" She said to her cast mates and pulled me off set
A/N
SO...! What'd you think! I hoped you liked this chapter. I have four more chapters left then that's it for this story. Thats the important a/n. I really hoped you guys liked or loved this. Please review and tell me you did. Tell me what you think even if you didnt like it. Part 2 to this chapter up next which is chap 38. Chapter 38 coming soon folks and sorry for the wait for this chapter...