Chapter 36

Always You

I wait in the rain but I don't complain because I wait for you
I don't feel pain, you're like Novocain, and I got you

It was always you
It was always you

Time and again I thought that the end was just around the bend
You but showed me there's more, I got more in store, and I got you

It was always you
It was always you

It was always you
It was always you

-Ingrid Michaelson

I just wanted to see how you were doing today

"I'm doing, fine. I mean I'm healing you know properly."

God. Healing properly?

Alyson is everything alright? I mean I can't have been the only one who has noticed how we've been acting around each other.

He knows.

"Snake Eyes sit down for me?"

He turned his head and looked at the chair by my bed.

"I need to tell you something-"

If its to tell me that you don't love me anymore I understand. After everything ive done to you it makes sense. I will respect your feelings don't worry-"

"No Snake Eyes, that's not it I-"

I took a deep breath.

"Look, something happened between Storm Shadow and I while we were trying to save you."

Did he hurt you in any way? If he did tell me and I promise I will take care of it.

"No, no he didn't hurt me. He uh- God ok." I closed my eyes "He kissed me."

I opened my eyes and looked at him. He was stoic. I didn't even think he was breathing.

"Snake Eyes? Are you ok?"

He kissed you?

I nodded my head "Yeah, right before we went inside the Dame. And he told me that he has developed feelings towards me."

I looked at Snake Eyes.

Do you feel the same?

"No"

He looked at me.

"I love you, more than I think I have ever loved anyone in my entire life. You have also hurt me more than I thought anyone could hurt. What Adam did to me, wasn't anything compared to what I went through with you. But I also know that it wasn't you doing any of those things and in time I will make my peace with that. But as of today right now, I'm scared of you. I'm scared that I might wake up and be back on top of that dame free falling to my death. And the falling wasn't even the scariest part for me. The scariest part was knowing the person who was the cause of my falling was the person that I care most about.

And I just keep reliving that moment every night, and its eating away at me. I just love you so much, but everything just got so confusing and complicated, and I'm scared that nothing will ever be the same as it was before.

All I wanted when you were gone was to back in that cabin in the Bayou wrapped up in your arms knowing that I was safe and that nothing was going to hurt me.

We I saw you get taken away Snake Eyes, it felt like my life was over. That I didn't have a reason to go on. I knew Jason would be ok, with everyone here. But I needed you. And seeing you do all those things to Scarlett- to me. It just hurt more than anything."

Snake Eyes leaned forward in his chair, and held my hands and let go.

I never wanted any of this. I never wanted to hurt you or Shana the way I did. All I ever wanted was to be with you. To hold you in my arms and no that you loved me back. I knew you were different the first time I met you. And I fell more in love with you everyday we spent together. That night in the cabin, I kept telling myself that it couldn't be real, how could someone as amazing and beautiful like you fall in love with a silent man?

I know we could never have a normal life, not with everything that we have done, and had done to us. But I hope every day that we can find a way to make it work. If we can find a way to move past this, this void, then I will be the luckiest man in the world- because I have you.

I didn't think I would ever be able to feel the way I do now, but you brought me back to life. And if you can forgive me for what I did to you, than I know it's a miracle. Because I know I will never be able to forgive myself.

I love you; and if Tommy kissed you and you felt something then so be it. As of now he might be better for you than I am. And I am willing to accept that if that's what you truly want.

"I don't want Storm Shadow, I want you. Always."

He lifted his mask exposing his mouth, and he brought his lips down on mine.

It was like I felt my heart restarting. Everything felt like it was going to be ok.

Oh I missed this; I missed the way this felt.

He ran his fingers through my hair, and I pushed his lips deeper onto mine.

He broke the kiss, and we both breathed heavily.

He gave me a quick peck on the lips and kissed my nose.

I took his hand and put it over my heart. "Do you feel that? That's the sound of my heart beating only for you."

I kissed him. A warm sensation flowed through my body and I felt whole again.

He mouthed I love you on my cheek.

I pulled away and brought up my hands.

I love you.

He smiled and leaned his forehead on mine.

There was a knock on the door followed by a cough.

I pulled Snake Eyes mask down, and we both turned our heads.

"Sorry guys, but General Hawk wanted me to see how you were doing."

"I am perfect Duke."

He smiled "I'm happy to hear that, and I'm sure General Hawk will be happy to hear that as well."

I sat up straight and I saluted him "On with your post than soldier"

He chuckled and saluted me back.

"Carry On" he laughed one last time and walked out.

"Where were we?" I lifted his mask just above his mouth.

He brought his lips back down on mine, and for the first time in a while, I wasn't scared or confused. I was home.

(A/N) 3 updates people, 3. That's not beating my old record, but hey its still more updates that I have given you in a month. And I think this will be the last one for today. Thank you to everyone who gave me their input on who they would like to see Chase with. And I will take some of it to the heart when I write this out. I'm still not sure how exactly I want to end this story, but in my gut I feel like it's coming to close. Is there any direction you guys want this to end? (EG. Wedding, death, ambiguous ending, cliffhanger…) let me know.

Thanks to:

Narsilia Lyanna Elendil- I totally get you with the whole silent ninja sexiness thing, glad I'm not the only one who thinks that. Thank again for your input, every time I get the new review email it puts a smile on my face(:

Taybug98- Thanks for your input! And I will think about another OC, if I decide to leave the love triangle alone, which I might because lord only knows we have to many of those.

FatFreeCakes- YAY! New family member! And you reviewd double yay! Hah anyways thank you for your input and idea, I will think about them both. Maybe you could review again? No pressure.

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