Code Geass: The Realm of God
Chapter 35: Azure Liquid
Writer: Asheron Karuma
Don't own
Test week is nearly over, I still have some assignments to do and my parents are getting me a new computer, hooray!
My pc is so crappy that I can't run any program we use at school so I have to make all my homework and projects after school while having class nearly everyday until 5:30 PM.
I'm glad I am finally getting a new computer, I might even get it on my room :D
Chapter 35D is a little spoof off I was thinking about when writing it...
Doesn't have anything to do with the plot of this chapter
-The fate of destruction is also the joy of rebirth-
Each atom sings to me "Set me free from chains of the physical"
O free me O free me
A love like ours, a starry flower
Through seasons and centuries
As rivers reach the sea
You'll reach me with songs of your symmetry
Chapter 35A: Attachment
"Never run into a battle alone!"
These words were craved in his mind, like a knife cutting away the pieces wood so that the words would remain there until death would take them away...
He remained outside, sitting on the wooden floor... his legs pulled up and his arms around them as he stared forward with no real cause...
His eyes turned to slits as he grew more and more worried by each passing second...
not only worried, also anxious and angry... but most of all he felt guilt...
If only he were stronger then he could've done something... If only he had the courage to ask for help instead of being a hero himself... this wasn't like him... he knew that he had to call for help, but why did he not do so in the first place...
He listened to the sounds from inside the house behind him, cries of pain and worried voices that tried to calm the other down, he looked over his shoulder and starred at the sliding door...
The other was only a few steps away from him and still he didn't have the courage to face him...
"I only walk with him once in a while... I hardly even know him!"
He closed his eyes as he tried to shake of that memory...
Why was the other so prepared to take the blows... why did he say those things?
Was it because he hated him?
"Of course he said it to protect me..."
He said to himself as he pulled his legs closer, hiding his face from everyone around him...
"Why... when I am supposed to protect him?"
He said to himself again, this time however in a whisper so no one else would be able to hear it...
"If you're going to sulk, go to your room..."
He looked up startled by his teacher's sudden arrival...
But he didn't move, instead he remained where he was...
Tödö sat down next to him and cupped his cheek, rubbing one finger over a bruise he had...
Suzaku winched slightly...
His teacher then opened a small bottle he carried with him from the room where Lelouch lay, he put some of the contents on a white cloth and pressed it against the bruise...
Suzaku tried to back away from it, as if his finger wasn't enough... this was giving him a burning feeling...
Tödö sighed and removed the cloth, they looked out into the garden for a moment, none of the two said anything...
"Lelouch... is he?"
"He was beat up badly, but he'll come around..."
A wave of relief hit him and with those words a weight was lifted from his shoulders...
"Aah, Nunnally-chan"
He looked up, seeing someone walk forward towards them, he recognised the woman as Nagisa...
She trained with them once in a while and she had helped him a little while ago...
She was pushing Nunnally forward in her wheelchair, she was worried sick...
Suzaku could tell that much from the way she sat in her wheelchair...
"Onii-sama, where is he?"
She demanded, no hello nothing... her brother was the first things on her list and it sort of envied him a little... no matter how much he hanged out with her he was always on the second place...
Lelouch was her number one...
"He's asleep at the moment... are you hungry?"
"I want to see onii-sama!"
She gripped the handles and Suzaku witnessed her worry and panic...
She truly was scared to lose him...
He looked at his teacher who merely smiled and accepted her behaviour, even now he was still calm but there only was one time when he had shown anger towards him... and that was when he was kicked in his stomach and yelled at...
"Nagisa, could you take care of this?"
The woman said nothing and nodded at him before turning to push the wheelchair to the small ramp they made, they entered the house and the two of them were left alone once again...
"I'm sorry..."
Suzaku started...
He snorted slightly as finally the impact of everything hit him...
"I'm sorry for not saying anything..."
Tears ran down his face as he realised that this was the first time that he was actually afraid...
Not even when his mother passed away did he feel like this...
But where he expected his teacher to be cold and distant did he feel an arm on his shoulder and he was pulled in a warm embrace...
"We are family... you should turn to your relatives when something happens..."
After they talked he started to realise how tired he had become...
He was carried to bed and the next morning he got up early...
With everyone still in bed the house seemed too silent and abandoned, his father was gone... of course he was...
He carefully made his way downstairs and stood in front of the room, his hand was placed against the sliding door and carefully he slid it open, his eyes widened when he saw the other lying on a tatami matt on the floor...
He carefully walked forward, Lelouch was still asleep...
He sat down on his knees next to him and looked at him for a moment, staring at each bandage that covered his face and neck... there were more places covered but a thick blanket made sure they remained unseen...
His right eye was swollen up as well as his lip, red crusts covered his lips and he carefully stretched out his hand to the blanket, pulling it up a little to make sure that he wasn't cold...
And slowly without realising it his hand moves towards a plum of hair, carefully he swept it out of his face and he blinked when he realised what he was doing before quickly retreating his hand...
He heard the other grunt slightly and mentally he cursed himself...
He had awoken him... how stupid could he be...
One eye opened up, the other only opened halfway and Lelouch blinked as he realised who was sitting next to him, his swollen lips turned into a smile and he coughed slightly before he was able to talk... talking in a rasped voice... a voice unheard of by Suzaku... like something alien
"You're alright..."
Suzaku's eyes widened as clenched his fists and he yelled at the other...
"Is that all you have to say! You had us worried sick and this is how you answer!"
Lelouch stared at the other and noticed the tears in his eyes, it was painful for Suzaku to see him like this... but he wasn't sure how he had to respond...
"You idiot! I told you to wait for me and still you went by yourself! Look at yourself! How can you be glad that I am alright when you're lying there like this! I'd rather be the one lying there than you!"
Slowly and painfully did Lelouch raise his hand to meet the other's cheek, tears ran down his face freely as he whipped them away, they stained his bandages but he didn't mind...
They stared at each other, glad to have each other's company and attention and it was then that Suzaku realised how important Lelouch was for him... how attached he had grown to him during this summer...
Chapter 35B: Attitude
"Isn't there a chance that this might turn against us?"
He asked to the person lying next to him, a hand caressed his cheek as the other person looked at him, golden eyes... like the sun...
The other's eyes however were cursed rather than golden...
"There always is... but I want to know what will happen..."
"How cruel..."
He gasped in return, a blush exceeded on his cheeks as he stared upwards with lustful eyes...
"Will you let me do it?"
The cursed eyes looked at him with satisfaction...
"Of course..."
There was a short giggle as the sheets of the bed they lay on fell down from the side on the ground, next to their disposed clothing, amongst them a familiar mask...
The mask of the most feared person in Japan... Zero...
"Tell me again... why do we do this?"
The other smiled, sinister and sly as a gasp escaped the other's lips and he answered in a cold tone...
"Not only am I curious, but it is to pay them back for everything they've done... understood?"
It took a while for the other to answer through the escaping gasps, his voice was high and quick...
"Yes..."
"Sad isn't it..."
He was told this again by the same faceless boy that sat before him, wings sticking out of the sides of his head as his fingers ran over tips...
He found himself bending down before him, being unable to recognise him left him with the urge to reach out and let the sun run over the other's face... to see who he was...
He raised his chin upwards with his right hand, trying to see his face, but it stayed invisible...
The only thing he could recognise was a symbol of geass on his forehead, glowing vividly in its pink like colour...
He eyes snapped open as he found himself catching for breath as he grasped on to the person next to him...
The dreams that had left him in confusion and even panic had returned to him...
He narrowed his eyes as they regained their focus and it was only then that he felt a hand brush through his hair...
Suzaku must have noticed that he was dreaming strangely and he looks up into those green orbs...
"Sorry..."
He whispers as he holds on to him tighter, as if he is about to fall through the floor, away from this world...
Suzaku says nothing, his actions speak for themselves, it is something he learned over time...
"I've been dreaming strangely lately..."
As if something is calling out to him... as if something is trying to show him the way... but this he doesn't say...
He doesn't want to break the mood... he doesn't want to lose this bit of happiness that was given to him...
"About what?"
He is asked and he looks at the other, Suzaku can see fear and confusion in his eyes...
Eyes that are afraid of what the future may give him...
"I don't know... I can only remember bitts and pieces... feathers... the shrine... it's all so confusing..."
His eyes turn to slits as he presses himself against the other's chest...
It is still early so there is no haste... no meetings and appointments...
At leased not in the morning...
"Ne...? Where did you go?"
He asks and his hands tighten around the other's arms...
"No where important... I just needed a breather..."
He frowned...
"Am I that much of a bother...?"
He regretted this sentence as soon as it left his lips... it wasn't something he wanted to say, not something he wanted to think either...
But as he realised this he could feel a hand underneath his chin and he was forced to look up, Suzaku looked at him determined and strict as his lips moved the make one word...
"Never..."
He reached upwards and kissed him, feeling addicted to those lips of his...
The way they moved, the way they spoke... he wanted to taste them...
Schneizel crossed his arms as he stared out over the people working in the control room, there was only a minimum amount of staff at work at this time, he watched the people work from a distance and eventually turned around when he heard someone walk through the door...
"You wanted to see me?"
He watched as a yawn escaped Castor's lips, eh rubbed his eyes before smiling at him...
Castor noticed the serious expression in Schneizel's eyes...
"What has gotten you to look so serious at an hour like this? Did something happen?"
Schneizel frowned...
"Something happened indeed... you..."
The wide grin on Castor's face faded to a small smile, making it harder to read his expression
"You've been here for weeks now... not only that your visit was completely unannounced and unheard of by the main land..."
Castor shrugged
"I just wanted to see my long lost brother..."
"What are you really here for... is this another one of your games?"
Castor looked at the other, there was a rage building inside him...
It was mainly because of the way he was looked at, he remembered that glare...
It was given to him before... it was as if it was telling him that his existence was meaningless and that he was being questioned by it... this was what they both hated most of all...
"Don't look at me like that..."
He said in a sudden cold tone...
"I know what you're up to... I can see it in your eyes... but I can tell you now...You will never be King..."
He narrowed his eyes and Schneizel looked at him a little shocked because of his sudden attitude change...
"I can do whatever I want to do... if you don't like it then I will kill you... no matter what you try you can't stop me... or everyone will know the truth..."
His hands turned to fists...
"Leave me alone..."
Castor turned to leave the room and walked out through the door, a sinister smile appeared in his face...
"The situation is getting more and more dangerous by the day... the European Union is barking at us and the Chinese Federation is threatening with war..."
He looked at his glass as the meeting continued, it had been going on for about an hour now...
He paid attention of course but for the past 30 minutes the same story was being retold over and over again...
For the past couple of weeks the European Union had threatened to block Britannian export as a protest for speeding up the liberation of Japan, while the Chinese Federation had shown them more and more signs on an invasion...
He frowned...
The EU didn't think clear... trading one dictatorship for another... in a country that didn't even concern them...
The only thing they concerned about was the Sakuradite mountain and that it was too dangerous to remain under Britannian control... if the Chinese took over it wouldn't be much different... unless the two worked together and that was where everyone became afraid...
The two countries could overthrow Britannia if they worked together... but only if they used all means necessary to do so... and getting their hands on the largest Sakuradite spring was first on their list to victory...
He readjusted himself in his seat, slightly flinching as pain exceeded through his bottom...
"Are you sure you'll be alright today? I could say that you're not feeling well enough to attend..."
When he tried to get up in the morning he already knew that today was going to be a pain...
It hurt whenever he suddenly moved... but there was no chance in hell that he was missing out on the meetings...
He knew how the system worked, if the steward wasn't there then someone else would be in charge of the decisions... most likely his brother would be in charge but he felt that if he wasn't present that things would be agreed behind his back... he didn't want that...
"I'll go... don't worry..."
He sat up slowly with his hands shaking as he grasped for the railing, Suzaku watched his every move... regret and guilt flashed through his eyes and Lelouch smiled at him...
"Don't look so guilty... it wasn't as if I didn't choose for this myself..."
Suzaku smiled back at him and helped him get up from the bed...
He took a sip from his water as the spokesperson sat down again, he sighed as his older half brother got up from his seat announcing that they needed a break...
He was right, he needed one... he needed to get away from all these people, this rotten lair of society...
He sighed and slowly got up from his seat, ignoring another pain streak as he made his way tot he bathroom, the meeting was onboard of the Avalon... because of safety reasons he wasn't allowed to go anywhere else... pretty silly if he had to say it...
About 20 minutes later did he find himself staring at his reflection in the mirror as he washed his hands...
He stared at himself and only then did he realise how fast time seemed to pass... his hair had grown without him even realising it... it was only a couple of inches but he was surprised by it...
He wondered if he had grown any taller in the meantime as well but eventually sighed and continued to wash his hands...
Eventually he walked outside again and slowly started to make his way back to the conference room, but because he lacked the need to hurry he started to head towards the hangar first...
Wondering what his Knight was occupying himself with...
Chapter 35C: Azure liquid
"So there is only one of them?"
He heard someone say as he made his way forward, he saw Castor stand behind the two scientists that were in charge of the Lancelot unit and he stopped walking and watched them for a moment...
Lancelot's cockpit was open, meaning that there was someone inside, it didn't take him any thought to realise who...
They were probably doing Lancelot's weekly maintenance test, testing out all vital operations that the unit held...
Castor was watching them, he smiled slightly at his attitude...
It reminded him of a young Nunnally, curious and careless...
"That's right... it's a prototype unit, one day it will be mass produced..."
Cecil told him with a gentle smile...
"I wish that day would come by sooner..."
Castor laughed as Cecil knocked Lloyd on the head for his whining remarks and Lelouch smiled as he made his way up to the group, still feeling slightly out of place...
"Aah Lelouch!"
Castor saw him coming and hurled himself at him, he winched slightly as his half brother stepped away with a worried look...
"Sorry, are you hurt or something?"
Lelouch looked at him and answered
"No, I'm fine..."
He looked at the two scientists and smiled at them before walking up...
"Weekly maintenance?"
Cecil nodded...
"We decided to take a small break, to look over the results... don't you have a meeting?"
"There is a break..."
Castor leaned against Cecil's chair as he said...
"Lucky you... those meetings always seem so long... why do you go to them anyway?"
"Because they are important..."
They continued talking until a voice was heard from behind them...
"Aren't you supposed to be at the meeting?"
He turned around and smiled as he watched Suzaku walk up to them, a small boxed drink was in his hand and he continued to suck through the straw...
Castor looked at the two and smiled slightly...
"They are having a break... I guess I have to go back in a while..."
Suzaku smiled...
"I'll see you later then..."
Lelouch frowned
"There is something I must tell you... private..."
Suzaku looked at him seriously as he followed him to the back of the hangar where they could be alone, he wondered what was going on...
Lelouch turned to him and starred at the ground before he started to speak...
"You know about the Chinese Union don't you...?"
"About Xao Sheng Ling, yes..."
Suzaku followed his gaze to the ground and then turned his eyes upwards to meet the other's eyes...
"Is there going to be a war?"
"Most likely... but the European Union might get involved as well..."
Suzaku frowned...
He knew little of the other countries, only the general knowledge that everyone had but guessing by Lelouch's expression it could turn into something serious...
"They are trying to meet with the EU, so far it has failed but if it does continue we might have to go to the main lands..."
There was nothing serious about that, nothing about it seemed important enough to be shared as fast as possible...
It confused him a little...
"Why are you telling me this?"
"Because I thought it was important for you to know... I know how you hate being in the shadows..."
He wanted to kiss him, but the insecurity that this place was giving him stopped him from trying...
He shuffled his feet across the floor before saying...
"I should get going, they're probably waiting for me..."
Suzaku nodded and they walked out of the solitary place, Cecil and Lloyd were still busy and as they walked Castor ran up to them...
Lelouch looked at him strangely as did Suzaku as the other smiled at the two of them...
"Lelouch... I wanted to ask you something..."
He asked during the small gasps of air... eventually he stood up straight again and smiled...
"When do you want to play chess again?"
His eyes widened as he felt something inside him snap and for a moment Suzaku and Castor looked at him strangely as his body tensed up and relaxed again, his eyes looked slightly dazed as he said in a strange tone...
"I'll have to check that up... but I have to go now... see you later..."
With that he started walking away from them, ignoring the fact that Suzaku was still standing next to him...
Suzaku stared at him strangely as he walked away out of the hangar...
"Weird..."
Castor added and he looked at Suzaku with a strange smile...
"The conference room is that way"
Suzaku frowned and quickly followed him...
Eyes surrounded by a faint ring of red searched the room he was in...
Remembering his command as he ripped open cabin after cabin, throwing out the clothes inside to reach his goal...
"...When you are asked this..."
He ripped open another one, paying no attention to the pain he was feeling nor the fact that his fingers hurt from all the ripping and tearing... the dressing room was a mess as well...
"You will look for that woman's blood..."
His movements sluggish as he threw the insides out over the floor...
The wrong one again... he knew it had to be here... he was sure of it...
The other would never leave without it... unless he was certain that he wouldn't have to use it...
"Blue... blue... blue..."
He repeated this mantra as his hands passed over the floor, feeling in every pocket and bag he could find... but nothing...
And even if the other was certain that eh wouldn't have to use it he would keep it somewhere where he could easily access it... a place where no one looked... his locker...
"You know where he keeps it..."
He ripped open another locker and threw out everything he could find inside, this time it was the right locker it seemed because he recognised Suzaku's uniform...
His hands checked every pocket and he smiled faintly as he said to himself...
"Found you..."
He looked relieved and still a little off at the same time, as if he had just prevented something important from happening...
His hands surrounded the metallic casing as he flipped it open to see the four glass tubes inside...
He smiles strangely as he stares at the blue liquid inside...
"And when you find it..."
With his right hand he takes one and looks at it, studying it...
He sees the needled end and slowly raises it to the side of his neck and carefully he pushes it through the skin...
"Use it... take it all..."
His pupils shrink as the blue liquid runs out of the glass tube and inside his body, he lets go of the tube and it falls down on the heap of clothing that surrounds him...
"But only for once..."
His breathing turns more fastened as he takes another... his hands shaking as he raises it to his neck again...
Pushing it through his skin to let the liquid run freely through his body...
His vision blurs for a moment and he gasps as he can feel a sting of pain behind his left eye, it slowly glows up and he nearly drops the small metallic box...
But he has to finish his command, he has to continue... and so he picks up another and pushes it through his skin...
Gasping again as the symbol of geass starts to unleash itself in his eyes...
He takes the last one... just one more...
He takes it with shaking hands, his breaths short and fastened...
He nearly reaches his neck before he shuts his eyes tight, a strange feeling sweeps through him as he drops the tube, he opens his eyes again and stares at it, it isn't broken so he picks it up again, rising it to his neck and pushing it through his skin...
Just then does the door next to him open...
"What are you doing?!"
He hears from a distance, but he doesn't respond... it's too late because the blue liquid enters his body and he stares upwards to the ceiling as strong hands take a hold of his shoulders...
The glass tube falls on the floor and the weight of the command is lifted...
He stares out to the person in front of him as he finally feels himself again... sweat drips down his face as he sees someone in front of him...
"Su... za..."
He can't finish the line because he falls forward...
Chapter 35D: Private conversation
Suzaku smiled...
"I'll see you later then..."
Lelouch frowned and said to Suzaku with a slight blush in his cheeks...
"There is something I must tell you... private..."
Suzaku looked at him seriously as he followed him to the back of the hangar where they could be alone, he wondered what was going on...
Lelouch turned to him and starred at the ground before he started to speak...
He looked strange from Suzaku's perspective... as if it was something embarrassing he had to say...
"I..."
Lelouch stopped mid sentence and shuffled his feet before swallowing...
He was shaking and was extremely nervous...
Suzaku looked at him, fearing that he did something wrong...
"I... uuhm... I went to Clarice today..."
Lelouch looked at him before continuing...
"She did some tests..."
Suzaku smiled and put a hand on Lelouch's shoulder before asking...
"Did something come out of the tests?"
He wondered if there was something going on with Lelouch... something bad...
Lelouch shut his eyes and quickly added in a fast tone...
"She said I'm pregnant!"
There was a moment of silence and Lelouch opened one of his eyes to see how the other was responding, Suzaku hadn't moved from his original spot...
There was a smile on his face and his mouth was slightly parted as his eye twitched a little...
"Suzaku?"
Lelouch reached upwards and waved a hand in front of the other's face...
"Pregnant...?"
The other managed to get out...
"How...?"
Lelouch looked at him and blushed as he tried to explain...
"She said that... Aah! Suzaku!"
Suzaku fell backwards on the ground, he fainted...
"Don't faint! Suzaku!"