Chapter 35

Finding Bella wasn't hard, what was hard was to watch her shatter in front of me. She looked so fragile and helpless and to add in the fact that she couldn't exactly avenge Charlie's death was tearing her apart.

Little glimpses of his letter ran through her mind but I couldn't catch all of it. Her emotions were out of control and she looked like she wanted to tear the meadow apart. She could do it too and that scared me.

"Bella"

"No! Don't you dare tell me that keeping this from me was the best option! I thought we had something, how could you not tell me? How could you let them live like nothing's happened?!" her eyes were pitch black but I couldn't tell whether that was from hunger or anger.

Her body was vibrating and the next thing I knew, a tree in the far left of the clearing fell with a thundering crack.

"Bella please calm down and let me explain. And stop destroying our meadow!" I couldn't help but raise my voice too. All I wanted was for her to hear me out.

"And why should I even listen to you?" her voice was dripping with hate and it broke me to hear it.

"Because I was there! I found you, Alice and I found you and that was what Charlie wanted! He wanted you to have a better life, to be a part of this family, to be a part of me. Yes the wolves were chasing the both of you but after Charlie checked that you will be safe, he went to them! He welcomed his death because he wanted to be with your mother! It's part of having a mate, you can't live without the other and that was his perfect way of being back with her."

What I saw on Bella's face confused me slightly because it looked like there were tears running down her cheeks. She might be half human but we found out long ago that she can't produce tears.

"Are those tears beautiful?" my voice became soft and she turned away from me when I spoke.

"I just wanted to know what it feels like, and the stinging of unshed tears is really uncomfortable." Along with her wanting to sleep sometimes, that was the most human thing she had ever thought of doing.

"Please look at me." I moved to her other side and placed my finger under her chin to lift her face up. She fought at first but then her shoulders sagged and she gave in.

With tears running down her face and even with the pain and anger in her eyes, she was still the most beautiful creature to ever walk this earth.

With my thumbs, I wiped the tears away and more fell as she closed her eyes. But nonetheless, she leaned her face into my hands and inhaled my wrist. It was a bold move but I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy it. She needed our connection as much as I did.

"Please don't cry." I whispered but she obviously heard me clearly.

"He didn't want me, he didn't want to try and live for me. He just gave up, what if his visions were wrong? What if the wolves would have tracked his scent back to me and finished me off then? He didn't care about me!" pure anger was back in her eyes and she backed away from me.

"If he didn't care about you do you think he would have let you live as soon as you were born? Don't you think he would have just destroyed you then? Of course he fucking cared about you! He did the best he could to keep you safe! You're here with me, with us because of him so don't you dare say he didn't care. He loved you with all his heart but being without your mother would have destroyed him way before you hit your full age. You would have lost him either way, you would have been alone, constantly looking over your shoulder due to the wolves or other vampires. This is the life he wanted for you."

I tried to move closer to her but she kept taking a step back every time I took a step forward. It carried on that way until her back pressed against a tree.

"You have everything you could ever dream of having and more. You have a family who love you and would do anything in the world for you. You have brothers and sisters and a mom and dad, you have me."

"And what are you to me Edward?" her voice was so quiet that I was surprised at how difficult it was for me to hear even when she was inches away from me.

"Whatever you want me to be beautiful."

"What am I to you Edward?"

"You are my life now." What I wanted to do right this second was to kiss her. Age no longer meant anything they were just years, in front of me was a beautiful young woman and I needed to kiss her.

What stopped me was how broken she looked, emotions would have played too big of a part in this kiss and I'm not talking about the right emotions. She was angry and upset and most likely confused now and kissing her wouldn't be right.

We have all the time in the world to be together, I'm not about to destroy something before it begins.

"Please hold me, I can't stand the distance between us." My arms were wrapped around her before she even finished the sentence.

We fit like a puzzle. I felt the spark between us as soon as we touched and I heard her inhale and her heart beat pick up too.

She was the only thing that mattered in my life and I would do anything to keep her safe and happy.

No more lying and no more secrets.