"Okay" he said and we both stared at each other in utter silence for a while be for we both started to laugh.
"We're great at this aren't we?" I asked still giggling, he smiled at me and then his face became serious though his eyes were still soft.
"Lizzie, need to apologize for what I said at Charlotte's" he move his hand like he was going to grab min but then he stopped and his hand fell flat "I was rude and insulting and you didn't deserve to hear that, it was completely unacceptable"
His eye's looked sad and I smiled at him "Darcy while you weren't the politest person ever, you can't pretend that I wasn't in the wrong as well, I took unfounded and unchecked rumors and threw them in your face," I reached out and gabbed his hand "I wanted to hurt you and I did and I'm sorry for that and everything else" I smiled softly then turned my face to the floor.
"Lizzie" he said, he didn't seem to be saying anything else thought and I looked up at him, he started and continued "I needed to hear what you had to say, for so long I have been expecting and expecting from other people and not really meeting any of their expectations so when you pulled me out of the fantasy I was living and showed me that I couldn't do that, I realized that I had been horrible to friends, and my relatives especially Gigi. It also made me realise that I hadn't been in love with you, before my dad died he took me aside and told me that I had to look for someone I loved all the time, whether we were angry at each other or not and if I found someone like that I was in love and should marry them. When you refused me I realized that I had been in love with the idea of you not the actually you who is so much better than anything I could imagine." He grabbed my other hand "Lizzie I didn't love you then but I was falling for you and fr some amazing reason the world brought you to me again and I have fallen for you now, I know I don't deserve your love but I wanted to be honest with you"
I smiled at him "When you asked me out I thought that nobody could love me after my best friend died in the road-side bomb that took my leg, I've always had a rift between me and most of my family and when I came back from rehab the only person waiting for me was Jane, strong, loving, beautiful Jane" I sighed "she kept me strong, she visited me and I began to realise that I could be loved, but then I meet you and things just started to take a down turn again, there were snide remarks and rude comments and they took a punch to my confidence" I couldn't believe I was telling him all this, I hadn't even said some of this to myself "and when Jane fell in love with Charlie she was so happy and I was happy for her even though it felt like she soon wouldn't want the needy sister hanging around but the he broke her heart and I felt both sad and a little happy that I wouldn't be forgotten just yet, and I hated myself for felling like that. How could I say I loved her when I acted like when she got hurt? But then when I found out you orchestrated that hurt I was angry and I wanted to make you hurt like she hurt and if I could do it more painfully that was better, so I took all my anger out on you."
"And then what do you do? You write me a letter explaining things that I had no right to know, you were kind when I was nothing but mean and it as well as the letter made me realise that you had made a mistake, nothing more. Wick was an old boyfriend who cheated on me and I should never have trusted him but I wanted you to hurt so I threw hate at you like no tomorrow. I thought about everything that happened during the time that we knew each other and I realized that I had been giving you motives to do things when I didn't even know you I just wanted to be able to hate you after that comment in the bar so made up reasons" I hung my head " I was prideful and I don't understand why you would want to be attached to someone like me so when you came and said you loved me I thought that you were trying to make fun of me a bit as well, no one like you could love me, you were so whole and handsome and I didn't need someone like that to be happy. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately and I wanted to tell you that I realized that whatever happens the fact that you loved me healed me and I want you to know that you are an amazing person, you looked after Gigi and helped make her this amazing person." I looked up at him and reached out to touch his face "You healed me, Darcy" my hand dropped but I didn't pick it up again.
"William" I looked at him confused "Call me William" he said
"Will" I said blushing "I want you to know that I am falling for you as well, how could I not when you are the best person I have ever met who has looked at me at all" I looked down at the ground "I know you probably just want to get over this but I just wanted to tell you" I felt a finger under my chin and he pushed my head up.
"You're so beautiful" he said and he kissed me.
It was sweet and soft, his lips were chapped a little and I could smell a sent of cedar and the sea on him as well as something just Darcy I moved mu had and ran it through his hair as he put his hand on the back of my neck, his thumbs coming up under my ears and it sent sparks through my entire body, his hair felt amazing-soft and thick between my fingers.
Mrs. R walked in to the room.
"Lizzie-oh I'm so sorry" she apologized when we pulled apart sharply "Lizzie I have a Jane on the phone and she says that she really need to talk to you" I nodded and glanced at Darcy before standing of the sofa and taking the phone from her.
"Jane?" I asked
"Lizzie!" she sounded relived "Why the hell haven't you been answering your cell phone? I had to look up The Cottage on google to get that phone number and then I had to do the same for Pemberly when Maddie told me that might be where you were" I put my hand in my pocket to get my cell phone and realized that I wasn't wearing my cloths and I had left my phone in the cloths that were in the dryer now and had been in the water with me too, it was probably completely ruined.
"Jane what's going on?" I asked.
"Lydia's disappeared…with Wick"